bury my love with your smile

For people suffering from anxiety, such a long, quiet and lifeless night seems to be pushing people into a desperate situation.

Ye Chenxuan, who was flipping through the book, was finally a little tired. He rubbed his temples, got up and walked to the kitchen, looking for something to drink. While looking for a water glass, he accidentally knocked over a glass and dropped it on the The sound of the glass shattering was so ear-piercing that it seemed to tear the night apart.

"Chenxuan?" Ye Hanyu walked into the kitchen, looking at Ye Chenxuan who was squatting on the ground picking up the broken glass.

"It's okay, I accidentally broke it."

"You can even break a quilt and say you're fine?" Ye Hanyu stepped forward helplessly and helped Ye Chenxuan clean up the broken glass.

"Why is the refrigerator still powered on?" Ye Hanyu suddenly noticed that the refrigerator in the corner was connected to the wall plug.

"..." When Ye Hanyu walked over and was about to pull out the plug, Ye Chenxuan walked to the refrigerator and opened the refrigerator door.

The refrigerator is not empty, but full of food.Why is the refrigerator full of food in this house that has not been lived in for a long time? I never went out again, so when did these things come in?

Ye Chenxuan casually took out a can of coffee, turned it upside down, and found that the production date was March 3 three years ago...

In other words, I bought these when Bi Sen came here three years ago, and the production dates are all on March 3, Lin Sen's birthday...

And at that time, Lin Sen was no longer there...

Ye Chenxuan noticed that all the food in the refrigerator was what Bi Sen often ate. This situation suddenly made Ye Chenxuan feel that it was not Bi Sen's favorite food, but Lin Sen. He just used This way makes me feel that Lin Sen is still there.

Reluctantly, he put the can of coffee in his hand back into the refrigerator, closed the refrigerator, and shook his head at Ye Hanyu, signaling her not to unplug the refrigerator.Even though all the food in the refrigerator has expired, it represents Bi Sen's heart that will never go bad...

Ye Chenxuan left the kitchen, walked to the door of Lin Sen's room, hesitated for a while, and opened the door anyway, the room was not lit, but Ye Chenxuan could clearly see the figure on the balcony, very lonely.

Walking towards the balcony, Ye Chenxuan still did not turn on the light.

Standing by the floor-to-ceiling window where the balcony and the room intersect, looking down at Bi Sen who was sitting on the ground, holding on to the railing and quietly looking outside, this suddenly made Ye Chenxuan feel that Bi Sen seemed to be imprisoned in this place, forever Can't get out.

Ye Chenxuan who stood quietly behind Bi Sen didn't say anything, as if silently guarding Bi Sen.

"Brother..." Bi Sen suddenly said.

"kindness?"

"This is where I saw Lin Sen..."

"..."

"Really... Lin Sen is standing here, smiling at me..."

Ye Chenxuan looked into the distance, and suddenly found that across the lake was the hotel they stayed in before, and Harajuku Hitosuke and the others were still there.

But even people couldn't see clearly from this distance, so how could Bi Sen see that Lin Sen was smiling?

"I saw him standing here, reaching out to me, looking at me with a smile, asking me to come here..."

"Brother... how can you see clearly?"

"I can see clearly...because it's Lin Sen." Bi Sen leaned sideways slowly on the railing, as if leaning on someone, and closed his eyes gently, as if he was feeling the existence of that person.

"Brother, go to the room and sleep, you will catch a cold here."

Bi Sen shook his head and said, "I want to stay here, because Lin Sen is here..."

Ye Chenxuan couldn't stop Bi Sen, so now he could only follow Bi Sen's idea, so he went into the room and took a blanket to cover Bi Sen's body and said: "If you stay here, just cover the blanket and don't catch a cold. "

"En." Bisen's expression could be said to be a very happy look, but it was not pure happiness, because there were some unknown things mixed in it.

"Han Yu, Lian, go to rest too, it's late, don't be too tired." Ye Chenxuan who walked out of the room said to the two people who were still sitting at the table, studying Lin Sen's book.

"Well, you too, Lian, let's go rest."

"it is good."

The room with the lights off became quiet, and the little anger that had been increased by turning on the lights before disappeared without a trace.I don't know how long it took, there was a slight sound in the room, and it disappeared quickly.

The next day

Ye Chenxuan's complexion was very heavy, and he sat in the living room in silence.

"What happened to Chenxuan?" Ye Hanyu looked at Ye Chenxuan like this, and felt that something was about to happen again.

"Where did Bi Sen go?" Lian asked suddenly.

"..." Ye Hanyu was speechless, it turned out that this was what Ye Chenxuan was doing.

"Brother Chenxuan, you know that, right?"

Ye Chenxuan looked at Lian in surprise.

"Why would I know?"

"Because you sit here and don't respond, so you must know where Bisen has gone, right?"

Ye Chenxuan suddenly chuckled: "You're wrong, Lian, it's because I don't know where my brother is that I'm sitting here. I could guess where he is before, but now, because I know what he's going to do, and I don't know where he is." That place is a place I don't know, so I'm sitting here."

"Chen Xuan, do you know what my brother is doing?!" Chang Ye Hanyu was surprised this time.

Ye Chenxuan took out a book titled "MAJIMA" (the last) on the table and handed it to Ye Hanyu and Lian, saying: "The third word on the third row of all pages with 3..."

Ye Hanyu took the book in Ye Chenxuan's hand, and according to what he said, he turned to the third word "pro" in the third line on the third page, and the third word "love" in the third line on the thirteenth page. When I got up, it was "Dear dear, come back to me again, right? I miss you".

"..." Ye Hanyu paused for breath.

"Excessive!" Lian shouted suddenly.

Ye Chenxuan and Ye Hanyu just looked at Lian calmly.

"Why would Abbyson still do this?"

Lian continued with some anger: "If Ai Bisen couldn't be so selfish, wouldn't he? He should let Bisen live well!"

Ye Chenxuan still chuckled lightly, and Ye Hanyu didn't speak either.

"Let's ask brother to check the address."

"En." Ye Hanyu responded and dialed Harajuku Tongsuke's number.

10 minutes later

"Mo, Di and Yuhan, we are leaving."

"En..." The three agreed, but seemed a little heavy.

"Brother Chenxuan, can't you drive faster?" Lian said anxiously.

"Can you drive quickly!" Ye Chenxuan said impatiently, in terms of anxiety, isn't he more anxious than Lian?

Ye Hanyu, who was silent at the side, looked at Lian at this time, and finally understood why Bi Sen would not use Lian as Lin Sen's substitute, although this was not the main reason.

Along the way, passing countless rice fields, the car gradually entered the suburbs.The car finally stopped at Exit 13, and it didn't take long for Harajuku Hitosuke and his party to join them.

"Should it be here?" Ye Chenxuan asked Harajuku Tongsuke.

"Well, but I only know that it is in this generation, because it is on the mountain and there are no other people, so the exact location is uncertain, so let's look around first."

"En!" As he said, he walked along the narrow dirt road and approached the mountain not far ahead.

"The place is so big, where do I start looking?" Lian asked suddenly.

"Of course, follow the traces where someone has been." Everyone looked at Lian with strange eyes.

"Good to know."

In fact, everyone didn't want to say those two words, but Lian was so excited that he didn't think about anything. Sure enough, he was still too impulsive. It was this sentence that aroused everyone's disgust.

"Chenxuan, I'll look over there." After Ye Hanyu finished speaking, he ran to the other side.The rest of the people also scattered to search.

Brother... I don't think I will stop you this time.

Ye Chenxuan took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it, and took a deep breath.

Maybe this is the best way, I know, this is your wish, isn't it?It's your agreement.

Remember how happy I was when you told me you wanted to eat your most hated eggplant?That is a dish that you, Han Yu, are very good at cooking. I thought it was because of Han Yu’s delicious cooking that you said that you wanted to eat it. Why didn’t I think that it was because of another person.In fact, I am selfish and hope that you can stay by our side forever, but your heart is yours, you have your own thoughts, no one can influence you... When you tell me that you are in love with someone , In fact, I was really scared, afraid that someone would snatch my only brother from me, and finally what I was worried about happened.He, the one with the same name as yours—Lin Sen, finally snatched you away from us.

I thought it would be fine just like that, at least I can see your happy appearance.

When Lin Sen left, I was actually very happy. I thought that Lin Sen's departure would bring you back to me, but everything was wrong. I was so wrong.Perhaps everything is a punishment for my selfishness, or it is a punishment for my heart that was blinded by Lin Sen's appearance and snatched you away, and my heart that was happy because of Lin Sen's departure. Brother, you are finally farther away from us. It's getting farther and farther away.

In fact, I have always wanted to say, Lin Sen, you have also been punished by the heavens just like me.Your leaving is your punishment. In the book you wrote to your younger brother, I can deeply feel that we are actually the same kind of people, and we all hope that your younger brother can stay by your side. Anyone is serious, but you are the one who wins in the end, because you took away my brother's heart, my brother's soul, and everything about my brother...

And now, you are the only one who can give your brother happiness.When you didn't show up, I was always playing this role, but since you showed up, everything has changed. I'm actually very unwilling. I'm not willing to lose my only younger brother and my place to you. replace.

But it is precisely because of your so-called selfishness or something that makes my brother love you with all his heart. I really want to tell you, give me back my most important brother!But it's useless to say anything now, everyone has lost the chance to recover, including you...

Now, you are going to take my brother away from me again, this time I know that if you take him away, I will never see him, but this time, I let go.

Lin Sen, although I haven't met you a few times, I don't have a deep impression of you.Now I have forgotten what you look like, except that the house belongs to you, and there is no information about you left in your room. I think Bi Sen should have done all of this, I think Bi Sen He destroyed all the things related to you. I don’t know what his intention is, maybe it’s because he doesn’t want to see those things to make him feel sad, or...

I can't even imagine...

I can no longer guess what my brother is thinking, and I don’t know what your hearts are like, because my brother’s heart has become the same as yours, and I can’t guess your heart.

But now I let go, because I have seen your love for your younger brother. Even if you are cast aside, you want to be with him at all costs. Even if you are called too selfish, you just want to be with your younger brother. Why do I Can't make it to your level?I think I understand, because I am different from you, if I really do this, my brother will hate me, and blame me for not letting you be together, I can't bear my brother hating me and blaming me.

Although I understand that my brother will leave us one day, I never thought that it is at this time, when he is young, how can I bear it?

Lin Sen, you are really too much, but I have no right to blame you, it's all because you love your brother too much, I understand...

I know that my brother will listen to everything you say, so I can't stop him, I can't stop his thoughts, or your will.So this time, please take good care of him, I can no longer bear to see my younger brother like this, I can't bear him to continue suffering in this world, as long as he can be happy now, I can let you go the...

I don't know if you are looking at us now, but I actually believe what my brother said. I have never doubted my brother, so those words must be what you deliberately changed to let my brother see.You must be laughing at me somewhere, right?Laughing at me, Bisen's useless brother.It's not that I'm useless, it's just that I can't do anything, so please stop, if you can't make your brother happy, I will never forgive you!

Ye Chenxuan kept thinking about it, as if Lin Sen must hear it.

While walking, he seemed to sense some unusual movement around him, so he walked slowly looking for the source of the sound.

Walking through the grass, Ye Chenxuan didn't want to look at the scene that caught his eye, but he couldn't do it, staring at Xiaopo in front of him and took out his phone.

"Han Yu, I found my younger brother." Ye Chenxuan's tone was very calm, and his eyes still did not shift in the slightest.