twin stars

Feng Xiangjie

I put my arms around Xiao Yi, and we didn't speak to each other, but it seemed as if we had already spoken a thousand words.Time flies, I don't want to let him go, and he doesn't want to let me go.But we all know that the door is always open.

The door lock rattled.He and I looked at each other and left each other's arms sadly.

"I'm really sorry. The computer malfunction caused the two of you to be trapped in the lounge. On behalf of the villa, I would like to express my sincere apologies to you! Here are some boxes of souvenirs as our apology, please Haihan!" The manager came to apologize with a few assistants.

"Manager, these two are your idols..." A little assistant pointed at Xiao Yi and me and yelled, but was immediately covered by another person beside him.

"Hehe, the new assistant is not sensible." The manager rubbed his palms, blinked and asked, "The meeting is about to be held, are you two attending?"

I shook my head: "I... I'm not feeling well, I want to go back to the hotel."

"Oh, then I'll take you back." Xiao Chen stepped forward to hold my arm.

I glanced at Xiao Yi, his eyes were full of misery and reluctance.I didn't dare to look any more, so I turned my head and followed Xiao Chen away.

It's hard to say goodbye when we meet!

How can the ups and downs of 50 years be finished in a short time?What's the use of reuniting for a moment?It just means... separation again!

I finally understood his heart, but after the ecstasy, what was left was still bleak and decadent.

The lost time will never come back!

We all have our own family members, we cannot betray or abandon them!His family... I can't accept it either!I'm not as magnanimous as I imagined. Seeing his happy family still hurts my heart.

In the future... what should I do?I have no idea.

Or go back to the original track?Xiaoyi and I are still two parallel lines that do not intersect?

Back at the hotel, I was very depressed, sitting alone on the sofa in a daze, and didn't even hear An Ran's call several times.An Ran seemed to have guessed something, and told Xiao Chen to end the trip early without discussing it with me, then silently packed up my luggage, helped me put on my coat, packed my suitcase and walked out of the hotel.On the way back, she refused to hold my hand.For so many years, we are used to traveling hand in hand.I used to take care of her, and then she took care of me.But this time, she walked ahead alone, unwilling to walk with me.

Back home, the emotions she had accumulated for a long time finally broke out, and she locked herself in the bedroom alone and refused to see me.Her cries came from inside the room.

"An Ran, open the door! I did something wrong, I apologize! Don't cry!" I was so anxious that I kept knocking on the door.

It was a long time before she opened the door, her eyes were red and swollen from crying.

"Do you know that for so many years, I have been waiting for you, waiting for your heart to truly belong to me? I have seen many things, but I never said it. I thought that one day you would understand my painstaking efforts. But, but now... I really can't take it anymore!" She cried loudly, although she has tried to face me with a strong attitude for a long time, but now she is still the little girl who is ten years younger than me and needs my care.

I wanted to hug her to comfort her, but she struggled a few times and was finally held in my arms.

"I understand! I understand!" I muttered to myself, speaking to her, and also to myself: "We have been married for more than 40 years, and I understand your heart for me! I will not do anything wrong to you Things. I will not do things that make you unhappy! You have to believe me!"

Xiao Yi and I missed it, but An Ran is innocent, I can't hurt her, and I can't hurt other family members...

Lei Yi

Ajie turned and left, his steps faltering, but he didn't hesitate.

When we met this time, it was as if Chunyan flew across the lake quickly, and there were ripples on the water, but it quickly returned to calm, as if nothing had happened.

Back in the hotel room, the manager of the villa hinted that Ajie had left the villa, and I had no intention of missing it, and urged Yushan to go home as soon as possible.She talked and laughed along the way, but I couldn't respond to her, I always unconsciously fell into the memories of the past, and cut off everyone's looking eyes.

"Is there anything you want to tell me?" Yu Shan sat across from me, crossing her legs to pretend to be calm, but her trembling hands on her knees revealed the tension in her heart.

say what?what can i say

The children are grown and no longer need my care.But Yushan just had a major operation a few years ago, and now her body is still in the recovery period, her bones are weak, and she can't withstand a big blow.what can I say?

"Don't think too much about it. It's quite tiring going out to play this time, so take a good rest for a few days." I prepared the medicine for her and poured her a glass of water.

"I'm not tired, I want you to go shopping with me!" Yu Shan grabbed my hand and said with a smile, "I want to cherish every day I'm with you, maybe...it won't be long!" After finishing speaking, there were tears in her eyes Rolled down, but she was still trying to smile.

"Don't say stupid things!" My heart twitched: "Drink your medicine obediently, I will always be by your side!"

Yushan drank the medicine and went to bed early.I sat in the study and took out the bracelet that I had cherished for a long time.

Ajie, what should we do?Even if we meet, can't we change anything?

We have missed each other for more than 40 years and misunderstood each other for more than 40 years. I want to make up for the trauma I caused to you, and I hope you can help me relieve the pain in my heart, but what should I do?

Within two days, I saw Ajie's news interview: "A man is the pillar of the family, he must have a bottom line, and be loyal to his marriage and his wife. After marriage, he can no longer have any fantasies about love, and he can't let his wife down."

Is this... your answer?

I can no longer have fantasies about being in love... Are you going to let go of our relationship, and let me let go too?

It should have been... expected!He has always been so well-behaved, loyal and responsible to the family.What can I expect?

Two voices argued in their hearts again:

He let you go, no longer sad for you, you should be glad, at least...you won't hurt him again.

But you don't want him to let you go, you can't bear him!

What can I do if I can't bear him?He can't abandon his family, but can you abandon Yushan?Wouldn't that kill her?

Maybe, he didn't let you go, but for the sake of his family, he must cut off his feelings for you!

then what do I do?Do you want to learn from him and bury your feelings deeply again?

Ajie, are you really letting go?what do you want me to do

Even though we met and solved the misunderstanding, I still can't ask him in person now.The two people still can't get in touch, and in the end...are they not in touch with each other?

I took an advertisement for the villa, but this time, I never saw Ajie again.

I thought that seeing him would give me a break, a relief, but I didn't expect to solve the misunderstanding and make the way out even more obscure.

In confusion and longing, the days are spent day after day.I didn't dare to contact Ajie, he had already made it very clear, and I was afraid of being rejected by him again.Was the meeting at the villa our only chance?

A charitable organization approached me through the volunteer organization I had previously joined, and asked if I would like to volunteer at a newly built orphanage in the south of the city, one day a month, or according to my schedule.I have lost my father since I was a child, and I know very well the misery of children whose parents are not around, and I am willing to do my part for those orphans.It's just that I wanted to bring Yushan to participate, but the organization said there was only one place, so I had to go alone.

After meeting the dean, the deputy dean took me to visit the orphanage. She is a talkative woman in her 30s, cheerful and lively: "The children like martial arts very much. You used to play heroes. They want to hear your legends the most. Stories!" We shuttled between the pink and green small buildings full of childishness, and the deputy dean introduced classrooms, cafeterias, bedrooms, game rooms and other places to me one by one.

"Some orphans in the orphanage are handicapped children, more or less autistic, depressed and other psychological problems. Dealing with these children requires learning child psychology and some communication skills, so our volunteers need to accept a five-day unified Training, I wonder if you can spare some time?"

I have no other job recently, and I happen to have time to study, so I nodded and agreed.

Although I'm an actor, I've also made cameo appearances in TV dramas in recent years, but most of them are children here, as well as hospital staff and a few volunteers. No one regards me as a star, but as an ordinary person. Also have fun.

Training starts in the afternoon.The deputy dean took me into the classroom and introduced the lecturer and other volunteer students to me.Unexpectedly, the other volunteers are all young people in their 20s, and I am the only one who is 70 years old.However, the deputy dean kept complimenting me for being young and handsome, not inferior to those young people at all, and I was very useful.In fact, I quite like working with young people, which can enhance vitality.

After chatting for a while, I sat in my seat and flipped through the textbooks in my hand.I didn't expect that one day I would sit in the classroom and become a student again.

Just as the teacher was about to announce the start of class, the deputy dean brought another volunteer student into the classroom.

I was reading textbooks and didn't pay attention to what they said.After a few minutes, I raised my head, and was shocked to find that the new student standing by the podium—it turned out to be Ajie!Wearing a black overcoat and scarf, he looked at me in the same astonishment.

After a brief panic, we all regained our composure.The teacher placed him next to my seat with an aisle between us.

He smiled unnaturally at me: "I didn't expect...to meet here too."

"Yeah, I didn't expect it!" I felt a little bitter in my heart.How hard it is to see him!

After that, we didn't talk anymore and started to concentrate on class.

At the end of a class, I took the initiative to step forward and asked, "Can we have a chat?" He was stunned for two seconds and nodded.

We walked out of the classroom and came to a small pavilion in the middle of the garden.Most of the flowers and plants in the garden were withered and withered, but the winter sun dyed them bright yellow, making the whole garden look warm and cozy.

"I, I can't betray An Ran!" As soon as he entered the pavilion, Ajie expressed his attitude.

I was speechless for a moment.

"I have to let go of the past, let go of... my feelings for you, do you... understand?" He lowered his head, as if forcing himself to make up his mind.

A sense of sadness welled up in my chest.I have nothing to say.

Yeah, we all have to accept reality.His decision is correct!I can neither force him, nor can I abandon Yushan myself.He can straighten out his mind, and I have to straighten out my feelings too.

Both fell silent.My heart is not at peace.It was as if a pot of boiling water was burning in my heart, with bubbles rising, churning and bursting non-stop. After the hustle and bustle, the temperature gradually cooled down, the bubbles disappeared, and the water surface gradually returned to calm.The water was still hot, but it was no longer noisy.

If the water is too hot, it will burn the heart; if the water is completely cold, the heart will also be cold.Maybe keeping warm water and keeping him at a distance is the best choice for him and me.

I took a deep breath and finally broke the silence between the two of them.

"I get it! I know what to do. It's just, can we...be friends again?"

"What?" He looked up at me, confused.

"Bury everything in the past, let's start again. Just be friends!"

I hope he can treat me as an ordinary friend and stop avoiding me deliberately.Keep a distance from him, even if he has let go... At least, I can still see him and be his friend.

He frowned, hesitating.

Could it be that this request cannot be granted?Can you just be an indifferent stranger?

I was very uneasy, as if I had already felt the coolness of the water after it was completely cold in advance.

Finally, he nodded with difficulty.

Relieved!

So far in life, what more can a husband ask for?As a human being, don't be too greedy!

"Hi, I'm Lei Yi!" I showed a faint smile, and stretched out my hand to him, like someone greeting someone for the first time.

Feng Xiangjie

"Hello, I'm Lei Yi!" He held out his hand to me, just like we first met 50 years ago in the dormitory of Zhao's company.

Start over... just be friends!

In one sentence, I want to seal up all the feelings of 50 years, can I do it?

I must do it!No matter how reluctant, I must do it!

Reminiscing about the past won't help.The only thing I can hold on to is my current family, I can only cherish the present and face the future.

"Hello, I'm Feng Xiangjie!" I shook hands with him, even if his hand was as heavy as a thousand pounds, I would hold on to it.

After class, I said goodbye to him politely.

Back home, An Ran was cutting leaves and arranging flowers beside the vase.I didn't want to hide anything from her, so I told the whole story about today.

"I went to the orphanage to do volunteer work today, and I... met Lei Yi."

She stopped the scissors in her hand, looked at me quietly, and waited for the next sentence.

"I'll start over with him, just be friends. If, if I still can't let go, I won't see him. Do you believe me?"

If I can seal my relationship, I will be a gentleman with Xiaoyi; if I can't seal it, I will stay away from him again.

"I believe in you!" An Ran put down the scissors, stepped forward and put her arms around my neck: "I believe in you!"

The next day, I went to the orphanage for class on time.

Xiao Yi has already arrived in the classroom first.Seeing me, he looked happy, but quickly stopped smiling and greeted me politely.I also politely return the gift.

Class begins.After the teacher finishes the course of the day, there will be a quiz at the end.At the end of the entire training, there will be a big exam.I was a little nervous, and while listening to the lecture carefully, I took notes carefully, as if I had returned to the days of training classes at Zhao Film Company.I don't want to get a bad grade in the exam, it's too embarrassing.Turning to look at Xiao Yi, he folded his arms and listened carefully, but didn't take any notes.It's really rare to see him concentrate in class. In the past at Zhao's company, he was always absent-minded in class, but relying on his good memory, his test scores were always high.

At the end of the quiz, I got a score of 75, and the scores of other young volunteers were also around [-] or [-].Look at Xiao Yi's score again, ninety points!I was greatly shocked: how could he still have a photographic memory!

"The old man took notes really carefully. We were not so serious in class, haha!" Ah He, a young man in his early twenties sitting in the front row of me, chatted enthusiastically with me.

I'm not very happy to be called "Old Mister"!Am I very old?

"Brother Yi is really amazing, he got the highest score in the class in the exam! Admire! Admire!" He extended his thumb to Xiaoyi and expressed his sincere admiration.

Ah He actually called Xiao Yi "Brother Yi"!They are more than 40 years apart!Why Xiao Yi is "Brother Yi" and I am "Old Mister"?Is it because he dresses more stylishly than me?I looked him up and down: floral cardigan, jeans, white sneakers, indeed...really fashionable, popular among young people.I'm already bloated, but he doesn't know how to take care of it. A 70-year-old man can still maintain a thin and lean figure, and it doesn't violate harmony with fashionable clothes. No wonder he is called "Brother Yi" by young people.I suddenly wondered whether I should lose weight too, or I would be called "Old Mister", and I would feel very heartbroken.

"Oh, where is it. My memory is not as good as before, it can't be compared with when I was young!" Xiao Yi said modest words, but smiled very complacently, and deliberately glanced at me, the complacent energy seemed to be Laughed at me for not doing well in the exam.

This guy is boasting of himself in disguise again, his demeanor, his eyebrows and eyes are the same as when he was young!

"I used to take notes very slowly and my handwriting was ugly, but now I can remember very quickly!" I deliberately spread my notebook so that Ah He could clearly see the handwriting that I had practiced for a long time and was quite proud of.

"Wow!" Ah He exclaimed, "The handwriting is so beautiful, it's like writing calligraphy!" His reaction satisfied me.I smiled and said to Xiao Yi: "I remember all the notes, if you need, I can lend you a copy."

"Borrow notes? Oh, no, thank you, I have a recording pen." He picked up a black pen on the table and waved it in front of my eyes.

Record, recorder!

"You missed something, I can lend you the recorder so that you can listen and memorize it again."

Looking at Xiao Yi's smiling face, I always felt like I had lost a game.

"The teacher said that the homework will be sent to the students' e-mail addresses. Please write me the e-mail addresses. I will summarize them and hand them over to the teacher." A young man announced loudly in the class and took out the registration book for everyone to register.

When I heard "e-mail," I froze.I rarely even use my mobile phone, let alone use network products.I don't have an email address, and I can't receive the teacher's homework. If I say this, I guess I will be ridiculed and outdated again, right?

Seeing that the registration book is about to be passed to our row, my eyebrows are almost tangled.

At this time, Xiao Yi suddenly handed me a note with two lines of letters and numbers written on it: "This is my redundant email address and password. I will lend it to you first." He didn't look at me, but spoke The tone is calm and breezy, as if this is an extremely trivial matter.

The registration book has been sent to my eyes, I quickly copied the email address on the registration book, and then carefully clipped the note from Xiao Yi in my notebook.If you want to receive homework when you go back, don't lose this note!

After two or three days of class, as the "only" two elderly people in the class, Xiao Yi and I got along well with the young volunteers.

"So you two have made martial arts movies before? But I prefer Hollywood sci-fi movies, and I don't watch martial arts movies much."

"Nowadays there are very few martial arts movies shown in cinemas, and they are not very well made. I'm not interested in watching them! There are quite a lot of fantasy movies, but unfortunately the quality is not that good. The special effects and styling are too European."

"I haven't even read much martial arts novels. Now martial arts have declined, and fairy tales are more popular."

This group of young children chattered in a hurry, and they didn't shy away from speaking. A lot of words hurt Xiaoyi and me.

"I know fairy tale novels," Xiaoyi interjected, "The Legend of Swordsmen in Shu Mountain written by Master Huanzhu is the pioneering work, which influenced the development of new martial arts novels and inspired several masters of martial arts novels. So Xianxia and Wuxia have the same origin in essence.”

"That's right! I know that many martial arts novels have been adapted into TV dramas, but it's a pity that the adaptations are more and more like romance dramas, without the taste of 'martial arts'."

"Of course!" I couldn't help interjecting: "Most of the actors don't have real kung fu, how can they shoot authentic martial arts flavors with just some dance moves and special effects! Those directors and screenwriters don't know much about martial arts and kung fu." No matter how much research you do, you won't be able to understand the true meaning of 'martial arts'." I thought of Zhang Dao and Li Kuang's generation of directors and screenwriters. Their traditional literary skills and artistic cultivation are very deep. Compare?And the martial arts instructors back then were all top-notch kung fu masters.

"That's right, this 'Feng Daxia' was a master of Wing Chun when he was young. The roundabout kick and ground knife are very handsome. How many actors can do it now?" Xiao Yi pursed his lips and raised his eyebrows. Thumb praised.That expression has the meaning of "Wang Po sells melons, sells melons and boasts".

"Ahem!" I was a little embarrassed by his praise, and coughed twice: "It doesn't mean that you can make martial arts movies only if you have martial arts. With talent, strong comprehension, and hard work, even if you don't have martial arts skills, you can still make movies." Make a very good martial arts movie." After speaking, I looked at Xiao Yi specially.He stared at me with wide eyes, then blinked.

We want to continue talking about martial arts movies with those young people, but unfortunately they don't seem to be very interested.

During the break between classes, Xiao Yi turned sideways and asked, "Did you praise me just now?"

"Yeah, you praised me, so I'll compliment you back! Everyone cares." I spread my hands.

"Oh, reciprocity, I understand, I understand!" He nodded with a smile.

"It's a pity that many young people have never seen our movies!" Thinking of the previous conversation, I couldn't help but say with emotion.

"Yeah, all I saw were older people!" Xiao Yi was also very emotional.

We looked at each other and seemed to have exchanged a lot of words in just a short moment.

His thoughts should be the same as mine: we don't care about being forgotten, the cast changes very quickly, and we are used to ups and downs.It's just a pity that today's martial arts movies are less and less able to make the taste of those days. In the 80s and 90s, there were some excellent martial arts movies, but now they are rare.Not only martial arts movies, Hangcheng is no longer the grand occasion of "Oriental Hollywood".At that time, it was really an era of raging fire cooking oil and flowers blooming!Director Zhang's films are popular in Southeast Asia, and also have a wide impact in European and American markets. Li Zhenjie's films even shocked Hollywood.At that time, Hangcheng movies had a strong international influence, and they could also dominate in Asia in the 80s and 90s.But now, young people in Hangcheng are chasing after European and American stars and Korean stars, but there are not many movie stars in Hangcheng, and the number of movies keeps shrinking...

Xiaoyi and I are the witnesses and participants of the film industry in Hangcheng from its rise, glory to decline. We are really moved by the changes in the film industry!

"Perhaps we can only hope that the film market in the mainland can produce high-quality products. After all, the market is huge and there are many film practitioners!" I try to think optimistically.

"It is estimated that it will be difficult to make a breakthrough in a short time!" Xiao Yi shook his head.

When the teacher entered the classroom, he should have seen such a picture: two old men raised their heads and sighed together.

Lei Yi

The five-day training ended soon, and Ajie and I both passed the examination.

I told Yushan about Ajie's volunteer work at the beginning, but emphasized that I only treat him as a friend and have no other thoughts.If she didn't object, that was tacit consent.

Getting along with each other for a few days was calm and comfortable, not as difficult as I imagined.It's a bit like going back to the period of Zhao's film company, but it's just like, I won't make too many associations, and I won't make unnecessary actions. I must always maintain a normal mind.

Ajie and I have always maintained an appropriate distance, and we will not get very close. This is "the friendship between gentlemen is as light as water", right?However, we still have the same views on movies. We often talk about our feelings about watching movies, and comment on the current actors, directors, screenwriters, etc.Like me, he still has a great interest in acting and filming. After all, we have both been actors and directors, and we were former partners.

After the training is over, probably... there will be no chance to meet each other, right?Our volunteer hours don't overlap.

But soon, the deputy dean invited us to the office together, served tea and said: "Well, we have a class with fewer disabled children in this class. Taking care of disabled children requires more physical and energy. Considering the age of the two, I'm afraid they can't bear it. So we assigned the two to be volunteers in this class, I wonder if the two are willing?"

Ajie and I looked at each other, but I didn't expect the vice president to have such an arrangement.After a while, we shrugged each other and said calmly: "Obey the arrangement."

"That's great! But..." the deputy principal suddenly showed embarrassment, and he hesitated: "The children in this class are more... energetic, or...they are what people call 'bear children'! There used to be Several couples of volunteers were tortured miserably, and they took the initiative to resign. I wonder if the two... can accept it?"

bad boy?Toss the volunteers so much that they resign?

On the contrary, this information aroused the interest of Ajie and me.

"Then see and see!" We said in unison.

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