special monster shelter

"Have you met your biological parents before?"

"Well, I've seen it."

"In person or by phone?" Yuan Mu turned his head and glanced at Xie Zhi. This unexpected development was beyond their expectations.

Xiaoxiao was silent for a while, then said, "Xiao Nai is in person, I am on the phone."

Because the dean talked to him alone before he came back, so he organized the language at that time, and now he is slowly talking to Yuan Mu and the others, and it is quite smooth.

It's just that Xiaoxiao kept her head half down, not daring to look at Yuan Mu and Xie Zhi.

"Five years ago, when I was 12, I went to find my biological parents."

"Did the seven of you go together?"

"Not everyone went, only me, Xiao Nai, and Qianling." Afraid that they might not understand, Xiaoxiao explained in detail, "Xiao Nai is the girl who was sent to the first aid in the morning. It wasn't because the police questioned her to scare her." When I got sick, it was because I remembered what happened at that time, so I..."

"At that time, we lied to the dean's father, saying that we were going to participate in the summer camp organized by the school. In fact, we just wanted to take the opportunity of the summer camp and sneak out to find our biological parents."

"The dean's father disagreed at first, but the school did have such a summer camp at that time, and the three of us insisted, so we were allowed to go."

"Why are you three going?" Yuan Mu felt a little strange.

One of Qianling and Xiao Nai has congenital heart disease, and the other has cardiopulmonary insufficiency. Both children need to be carefully raised.And Xiaoxiao, just looking at the present, also knows that he might be more shy and timid when he was a child. No matter how he thinks about these three children, it doesn't seem like he has the courage to leave the house alone to find his parents.

Xiao Xiaohong explained, "Because the place where the summer camp was at that time was where my biological parents and I lived, and Qianling was there to accompany us."

"Qianling was the first among the seven of us to find our mother, and she also received her love. So we thought at the time that we could do it too. Maybe our biological parents, like Qianling's mother, did not abandon them on purpose. It just wasn’t able to feed us at the time.”

"Qianling is very courageous, smart and thoughtful. He said, let's take a sneak look first. After all, they are nearby. If they live well and don't miss us at all, we will go straight away. But it may just be because Some accidents didn’t come to pick us up, so let’s meet them.”

"Xiao Nai was in poor health at that time. Qianling didn't want to take her there at first. But Xiao Nai said that maybe she wouldn't live to grow up, so she just wanted to enjoy herself while she was there. So we went anyway."

"how about you?"

"I... I realized that I was different from others. I like boys..."

"I think my parents won't want me for a monster like me. So I just wanted to take a sneak peek. Really, I just wanted to sneak a peek at first. But then..."

Xiaoxiao choked up a sob and couldn't continue.Obviously not a memorable one.

Yuan Mu patted him on the shoulder, signaling him not to worry.

Xiaoxiao stared blankly at Yuan Mu for a while, then slowly told the scene at that time.

"We really shouldn't go, because we didn't see it as we imagined. We can't do it at all. If the other party doesn't want to recognize each other, we can just leave."

"Really, the moment we were rejected, we were not strong at all, we were even more embarrassed than a lost dog."

"We went there in new clothes that day. I remember that Xiao Nai wore a pink princess dress with a ribbon, which looked very good."

"We found the place quickly. Xiao Nai's biological parents opened a small supermarket. We entered the supermarket pretending to be customers, and planned to observe first."

"Xiao Nai looks very similar to her mother. We recognized it almost immediately."

"Have you gone to recognize it?"

"Go." Xiaoxiao burst into tears, and grabbed the neckline uncontrollably, "We bought drinks, and Xiaonai went to pay the bill."

"It's so similar. The mother and daughter are separated by the counter, just like looking in a mirror."

"At that time, Xiao Nai smiled very happily. She felt that she was like a gift that appeared in front of her mother out of thin air. But Xiao Nai's mother...she ignored it."

"She settled the bill for Xiaonai very calmly, and then signaled us to leave, so as not to affect the guests behind."

"Didn't she recognize it?"

"I recognized it. After all, Xiao Nai's appearance is congenitally deficient. Losing a child, such a big thing, how can I not remember it?"

Xiaoxiao wiped her eyes, "The three of us stood outside the supermarket, all a little dazed. I don't know what to do."

"Qianling said, let's wait until Xiaonai's mother gets off work."

"But there is a time for school assembly. We thought, if we go back before four o'clock, we can always wait until Xiaonai's mother has time."

"No."

"She knew we were waiting outside, and she never looked at us from the beginning to the end."

"The weather was really hot, Xiaonai and Qianling were not in good health, so we found a relatively shady place and waited."

"It's past two o'clock in the afternoon. Xiao Nai can't stand it anymore. Her skirt is soaked, her hair is wet, and she hasn't eaten. I think she is about to faint. Qianling said, he went to the supermarket to ask if That woman is still Xiao Nai's mother, she must be reluctant to let Xiao Nai suffer so much, and she will definitely come out to see her."

"But we knew then that she wasn't coming."

"But Qianling still went."

"Has Xiaonai's mother come out?"

"No." Xiaoxiao shook her head.

That was the most painful summer in his memory.

In the sweltering heat of August, they huddled together under the small eaves like little abandoned beasts on a strange street, hoping that the woman would look back at them.

But what they waited for was the appearance of another little girl.

Beautiful, lively, and energetic, her voice is crisp and innocent.

She threw herself into Xiaonai's mother's arms as soon as she entered the door, "Mom, why is there a village girl sitting there outside our store? It's too affecting business!"

The little girl recently wanted a new doll on the market, so she was very worried that the business of the family store was not good.

Qianling was standing on the side, and when she heard her say that, she wanted to refute immediately, saying that she was your sister, not a village girl.

But Xiaonai's mother took three ice creams from the refrigerator and handed them to him, "Stop guarding here, hurry home!"

"You don't know the scene at that time. Xiaonai's mother sent us away like a beggar."

"As for what was said, it was even more ridiculous. She told us to hurry home."

"Go home... Where do we have a home? She is Xiao Nai's mother, but she doesn't want Xiao Nai, how can Xiao Nai still have a home!"

"She's really, really gone too far." Xiaoxiao couldn't help crying.

"And give us ice cream. Xiao Nai's illness means she can't eat such things. But she still gave it. It must be on purpose! She wants us to get out of trouble."

"After all, compared to her later child, we were dirty, thin, like beggars, and stink of garbage. Disgusting."

Every word and sentence is a self-deprecation that degrades oneself to the extreme.

If he hadn't really been greatly hurt, how could someone demean himself like this.

Yuan Mu held Xiaoxiao's hand and cut off his words, "It's not your fault."

Xiaoxiao shook her head, "It's our fault. We shouldn't have gone. Do you know the name of their later girl?"

"what is it call?"

"It's called Yibao. The only baby."

"That girl is two or three years younger than Xiaonai."

"Her mother did it on purpose! It wasn't an accident, there was no reason, and it wasn't because of any accident. Her mother just didn't want her!"

"It's pure, don't want her."

Yuan Mu reached out to hug Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao was stunned for a moment, then suddenly grabbed Yuan Mu's clothes and started crying.

"I didn't know until that day that not all mothers are like Qianling's mother. Not all children can be liked by their parents."

"When I was young, the dean's father said that it doesn't matter if we don't have parents. We will always be his treasures. So we never feel that we are inferior to other children, and we don't feel that we are not good enough."

"We are even complacent, thinking that we have so many brothers and sisters. Even if we are different from others, we never lack anything."

"But seeing that little girl, we all understand."

"Still, it's different."

"That little girl can act like a baby unscrupulously, and doesn't need to share her parents' love with anyone. She can be willful, even if she can't grow into an excellent adult, she still has a family that can accept her."

"But we are not."

"We are destined to be more sensible and open-minded than others. From knowing people and things, we must learn to share."

"We can't look back, because once we get to the bottom of it, we will know that we were abandoned. So we can only look forward and keep deceiving ourselves."

"Tell yourself, I have a lot, I'm happy, I'm happy. But actually?"

"In the eyes of others, we are beggars waiting to beg on the street, and we are still begging for family affection that we will never get."

"It's our fault, we shouldn't have come to the door."

"Xiao Nai finally ate the ice cream that day. After returning, she developed a high fever and was hospitalized."

"The dean's father was very worried about money. The brothers and sisters in the hospital also tried their best to save money because of Xiao Nai's hospitalization. School started, and the older brothers and sisters didn't buy new stationery."

"We know it's all our fault. If we don't go, these things won't happen."

"What about you? Have you found your biological parents?"

"I found it." Xiaoxiao leaned into Yuan Mu's arms as if she was afraid of the cold, "I made a call."

"It was picked up by a child, I said, my name is Xiaoxiao, I'm from the provincial capital, looking for his mother or father."

"The child sent a message, but the call was not transferred, but hung up directly."

Xiaoxiao raised her head and looked at Yuan Mu, "Look, am I humiliating myself by making such a phone call?"