At sunset, the mountains are far away

Tao Yan suddenly sat up from the bed, suddenly panicked, and murmured, "It's over." Tao Yan hurriedly got out of bed barefoot, first locked the bedroom door, and then whispered Xia Chengqi to get dressed and hide in the closet inside.The two hurriedly got dressed, and there was a sudden chaos. After Tao Yan stuffed Xia Chengqi into the closet, he looked at the mess on the bed, put his hands on his head, and immediately wanted to scream to the sky.At this time, Mother Tao knocked on the bedroom door, "Yanyan, are you up? Mom has gone in."

Before Tao Yan could answer, Mother Tao pushed the door open and entered, only to find that the door was locked. Tao Yan hurriedly opened the door, smiling all over her face.

Mother Tao paused in shock at Tao Yan's bright smile.Why is this girl smiling all of a sudden?Tao Tao, who had been locked up all night, rushed in at this moment, circling around Tao Yan's feet, and looked left and right curiously, as if looking for the culprit who threw him out of the door last night.

"Go brush your teeth and wash your face. Mom will help you tidy up the bed." Mother Tao walked towards the bed naturally, but found that the sheets were crumpled. "How did you sleep last night? Why was it so messy?" Mother Tao complained, frowning .

Tao Yan quietly glanced at the wardrobe, his face full of guilt and unnaturalness.

"Why are you standing there? It's going to be cold soon." Mother Tao urged righteously.

"Mom, I'm already this old. You don't need to tidy up the room. You can go to the living room to rest." Tao Yan stepped forward, hurriedly pushed his mother out of the scene of his "crime", and then added on a whim; "Mom, I crashed into a car with someone yesterday afternoon, and the skin on my forehead was scratched, and it hurts so much, you happened to help me with some medicine."

Mother Tao just wanted to ask Tao Yan carefully why he crashed the car so well.Suddenly, there was a WeChat voice or a video call in the bedroom. The ringing only rang for a few seconds before it seemed to be hung up.Mother Tao stepped back, followed the sound and found that it was coming from the closet, she was surprised for a while.Tao Yan stood behind Mother Tao, wailing secretly while holding his forehead.At this time, Tao Tao started barking at the closet, and Xia Chengqi, who was hiding in the closet, shrank into a ball with a tense expression, regretting his carelessness.

"Tao Tao, don't call." Tao Yan sternly stopped Tao Tao's behavior, "Mom, I was in a bad mood yesterday and my phone kept ringing, so I simply threw it in the closet, out of sight and out of mind .” Tao Yan hastily explained.

Mother Tao didn't say anything, she seemed to believe Tao Yan's explanation, and walked out of the bedroom door suspiciously, but the deep thought in her expression was also obvious.Tao Yan swung Tao Tao who was still squatting in front of the closet with his foot, and threw the latter out of the room again, and closed the bedroom door behind him.

When Mother Tao returned to the living room, she suddenly found Tao Yan's mobile phone lying quietly on the coffee table. She was shocked, but she didn't expose Tao Yan's lie, but she already understood a little bit.

When Tao Yan saw his mobile phone on the coffee table, his expression froze for an instant, and he quickly glanced at Tao's mother, but he didn't find anything unusual, and he felt relieved secretly.

"Yanyan, Mom will go to the pharmacy to buy you some medicine to lighten your scars, and you can have breakfast first." Mother Tao put down the plastic bag containing the medicine that Xia Chengqi brought over on the sofa last night, and got up naturally with a complexion, ready to leave.Tao Yan didn't expect the alarm to be lifted so quickly, and he was at a loss for what to do in a moment of excitement.

After seeing Mother Tao close the door and leave, she immediately went back to the bedroom, opened the closet door, and opened all kinds of clothes.Xia Chengqi was hugging his bent legs, looking at himself with frightened eyes.

"My mother is gone, but she will be back later." Tao Yan said wearily.

Xia Chengqi stretched out his hand to Tao Yan, signaling Tao Yan to sit in the closet.The wardrobe space is large enough for two people to curl up.Tao Yan lay in Xia Chengqi's arms, and Xia Chengqi hugged Tao Yan from behind, holding Tao Yan's somewhat cold hands, gently scratching Tao Yan's face, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

"It's okay, nothing happened anyway."

As soon as the words fell, Mother Tao stood quietly in front of the closet, and coldly looked at the two hugging people hiding in the closet. There was no shock in her eyes, but a look of indifference, as if she knew it in her heart.

"Come out." Mother Tao ordered coldly, looking at what was happening in front of her.

The two got up and slowly crawled out of the closet. Standing in the room, Xia Chengqi glanced at Tao Yan, who also looked back at her.The two looked at each other, silently waiting for the storm to come.Mother Tao just looked at Xia Chengqi in a daze, up and down, back and forth, her probing eyes swept around, but she never spoke.

"You go back first, and I'll take care of it here." Tao Yan knew that Xia Chengqi would have to answer in the afternoon, so he asked her to go back and prepare. Besides, coming out was something he had to bear, and she shouldn't be involved as an outsider.

Xia Chengqi heard the words and moved towards the door of the bedroom, "Stop." Mother Tao finally spoke.

"Mom, she and I..." Tao Yan was about to explain something, but was stopped by Tao's mother's sharp eyes.

"Don't come with me, I have something to tell her." Mother Tao walked to the door of the guest bedroom, turned her head to signal Xia Chengqi to follow, and when Xia Chengqi came in, she blocked the door and looked at Tao Yan with a worried expression on her face, and calmed down. "You just stay in peace for me," said the face, and then locked the door of the guest bedroom.

"My daughter is in a bad mood recently, does it have something to do with you?" Mother Tao asked sharply, looking at the slightly younger girl in front of her.

Xia Chengqi looked at Mother Tao, thinking quietly.Mother Tao was calm and indifferent, and her reaction of no shock made her wonder whether Auntie had doubted Tao Yan for a long time, but she just didn't dare to confirm it, or if she confirmed it, she didn't dare to pierce the layer of paper.

"Did Auntie know that Tao Yan doesn't like men?" Xia Chengqi asked about his doubts.

"I'm asking you something." Mother Tao didn't respond positively, but Xia Chengqi knew the answer in his heart.Tao Yan pressed his ear to the door, but he couldn't hear any sound, so he had to give up in the end, and leaned against the wall slumped, with his head down and panicked, his eyes gradually fogged up.

Xia Chengqi mulled over his words before slowly opening his mouth and said, "It's better for you to ask Tao Yan yourself about Tao Yan and me. But I have something to say to Auntie. Since Auntie already knew that Tao Yan doesn't like men , but still trying to match Tao Yan with a man, nothing more than hoping that Tao Yan can be like ordinary people, get married and have children, and live a normal life that will not be criticized by others.

For people like us, getting married and having children is indeed a choice, but the result is not necessarily happy.Some are willing to get married and can bear it for the rest of their lives. They only suffer for themselves, fulfilling the wish of their parents and children and grandchildren, and supporting a seemingly complete and normal family on the surface. But in the dead of night, looking at the person next to the pillow, Maybe she will weep silently, feeling helpless that even the gender of her lover is wrong.

Some are forced to marry under pressure, suffer with the wrong person, and some even face cold violence, give birth to a child who grows up in an unhealthy family environment, and maintain a basic family life.

There are also those who can't go on suffering and choose divorce, either continue to marry a man, or choose to be brave and follow their own heart, but go around and go back to the original wandering, but wasted many young years in a flash.

Auntie, you are a mother, you should be very clear about the weight of a child in a mother's heart.First of all, according to Tao Yan's personality, it can only be in the second or third situation, and the mother who gave birth to the child has a lofty sense of responsibility for the child. Do you think it is possible for her to start again?Do you think she would seek a lover of the same sex at the expense of her child's mother being gay?

I know that you just hope that Tao Yan can live a relaxed and normal life without being poked in the back and discriminated against.But we have no choice, and we cannot choose, so Tao Yan has never dared to tell you.But Auntie, maybe what you don’t know is that there are thousands of people like Tao Yan and me in China who, just like you, want their children to be happy, but the children are gay parents. We are all struggling. Our own way is silently confronting the world, but we are not alone.

We are just destined to live a more difficult life, let alone see the light of day, and let our parents declare with great fanfare and happiness that this is my daughter's girlfriend and this is my son's boyfriend.But although the happiness in hiding has decreased a bit, it is still happiness, but it cannot be shown off.Therefore, I hope you can understand Tao Yan and let her live for herself, instead of bowing to the world and ruining her life because of the expectations imposed by her parents. "

The door finally opened from the inside, and Tao Yan raised his head upon hearing the sound, the tears on his face were clearly visible.Xia Chengqi raised his hand to wipe away the tears on Tao Yan's face, gave Tao Yan a deep hug, turned around and left without leaving a single word.

Mother Tao also came out of the door at this time, and she glanced at Tao Yan who looked sadly at Xia Chengqi's disappearing back. Come here and get some medicine." After speaking, he walked to the living room.

Tao Yan laughed through his tears, stepped forward and hugged Tao's mother from behind, "Mom, I'm sorry." There was anger and apology in his tone.Mother Tao just sighed heavily and helplessly, without saying anything, and started to clean the house as usual.Yes, these children can't choose, how could it be their fault?