"Wei Yong" You are the Hua of Twilight Ice

Leaving the door of Yuuri's room, Viktor doesn't know how he got back to his room, he doesn't even know how he got through such an unimaginable night.But this result can also be said that he has long been prepared.Victor had already thought of this outcome when he chose not to tell Yuuri and protect his right to live as a human being.

At that time, he used to think that exchanging his love and Yuuri's right to choose was a very worthwhile thing, but only now did he realize that he was unwilling, and the price was too great, too big for him to bear in his heart the point.He can't imagine life without Yuuri in the long years to come, and even every second Yuuri talks to himself with a deadpan expression seems to feel like he's undergoing another transformation.

At that time, he had already thought about letting Yuuri leave if the worst happened, but now, he finally realized the meaning of that sentence—"Honey, I want to tell you so much, before you leave me When I saw you, I already regretted saying goodbye and missed you." It was him who overestimated himself.

The uncomfortable feeling is indescribable, like knowing that you have lost something, but you can't find it.Victor has never experienced this feeling since his grandfather disappeared that year.The only difference is that that time he didn't know how to get it back, and he didn't know where to get it back; but this time, even if everything he could get back by telling the truth was close at hand, he couldn't do it, If he did, then all his previous efforts would be in vain.

Yuuri can live well, that's enough, isn't it?In this world full of blood and coldness, let Yuuri choose to advance or retreat when he is not in any danger!

Although, Victor is also selfish, he hopes that Yuuri can always be with him forever.But now, Yuuri probably won't forgive himself!

On the second day, before the performance skating, Victor was not in a good mood, and his face was pale and faintly noticeable.Avoiding Yuuri who was drowning in self-pity, Phichit covered his mouth quietly and asked Victor.

The man who was asked took two steps back, smiled and shook his head and said that he was just tired from not resting, and then staggered away.But judging by the keen sense of Phichit's "gossip tentacles", Victor guessed that something happened.But if neither he nor Yuuri said anything, there was nothing they could do.

The young man from Thailand thought helplessly.

This time, Victor still used [Stay with me] in the performance skating, which he decided at the beginning.After the show skate, he didn't go to Yuuri again, probably he already knew the answer.

"Just leave in such a hurry?" Yakov asked fiercely.

Viktor's originally pale face turned even worse, "No way, Yakov, I have to go, Yuuri will be counting on you, and there will be a period later..." He still treats everyone with the same gentleness.After finishing speaking, Victor said goodbye to Yakov who came to see him off, then turned around and walked step by step into the terminal building standing in the night under the winter rain in Vancouver.

In fact, Victor didn't want to rush back so early, but this happened unexpectedly, like a blow to the head. You know, the motivation that supported him to spend those sleepless nights and time alone, It's all Yuuri's love with himself, this love that he regards as a treasure.After all, Victor is a person who lacks care. People think he is elegant and powerful, as if he is an indestructible hero.In fact, how do they know that even heroes are eager to care?Growing up, people thought he was too perfect and subconsciously thought he could handle anything.

In fact, Victor is the one who cherishes the feelings of those around him the most!Because I was missing, I feel that what I have is hard-won.

But now when he got to this point, he realized that the motivation he thought had disappeared.It's a feeling of shattering faith that you would never have imagined if you hadn't experienced it yourself.No one is willing to try, what kind of feeling is this.

For the first time, Victor felt that there was no way out but to follow the path he had chosen, and he was alone on the plane, the same as when he came to this city full of joy... alone.

When he entered the underground parking lot of the airport through the VIP passage of Sheremetyevo Airport and got into the car driven by Andrei the butler, Viktor seemed to have returned to normal. Except for him, no one knew what he was thinking.

He even conveyed Frans' greetings to Andre with a normal expression.

Butler Andre came back to pick him up at the airport because he called Andre before boarding the plane. According to the rules of the previous few times and because this time was the final, he was delayed a lot of time , Victor already felt something was wrong at that moment.But because I was so sad in my heart, I didn't have the mood to pay attention to this matter.

It was only when he was sitting in the waiting hall that he suddenly had a premonition. This time, the time for him to breathe a sigh of relief was even shorter.Just in case, Victor called Andre.

Sure enough, this time the "withdrawal reaction" swept up on the way back to the castle.Originally, Victor was still answering Andre's questions about the game with energy, but gradually the frequency of his answers decreased.Until Andre discovered that Victor's answer was no longer coming from the back seat of the car, but someone's suppressed panting was replaced.

He looked for Victor in the rearview mirror, and was not surprised to see the abnormal flush on the young man's face.Viktor frowned, his eyes the color of Lake Baikal were covered by silver lashes, and he tilted his head back slightly, it was not difficult to see that this time the reaction was more serious than usual.

Immediately increased the speed of the car, and Andre stepped on the accelerator to the maximum after the car drove out of the city. Only in this way, when they rushed back to Nikiforov Castle, Victor's high fever had spread to the whole body.

As if all his strength had been taken away, Andre carried him into the room, let him lean on the bed and left.After a while, he opened his eyes slightly.

When Victor woke up, there was no one in the room. In a hurry, Andre went downstairs to find Hosenfell and the others without turning on the light.The room was dark and so quiet that one could hear a needle drop to the ground.This kind of environment does not seem to make people feel that the empty room is so big.Victor raised his hand and pressed the space between his eyebrows.Perhaps because of psychological effects, he found the side effects he had experienced twice before to be unbearable.

This may be because my heart is really sad, and my body is also uncomfortable.

In fact, from the end of the banquet until now, he has been thinking about why things have become like this. He has worked so hard step by step in this long year, almost every time he learns the skills belonging to the blood race, every time he Injuries, every sleepless night at the ice rink until exhausted, every time he recovers from magnified emotions... even every time he made a contract with Makachin who was staying by Yuuri's side, he was thinking of no one but Yuuri ah!

However, when he was still working hard to return to the world with Yuuri earlier, that person just gave up.In fact, I was still very wronged in my heart, and finally reached this point, some people finally couldn't stand their own farewell, right?Yuuri is giving up on himself?But I don't even have the right to blame him...

Also, Yuuri was not wrong, he was just left in place as if forgotten by his "willful" self, waiting for nearly two hundred days and nights, and finally tired, the silver-haired man thought so.

Although he knew this clearly, he was too lost to say a word. The 1.8-meter-long man slowly curled up on the bed like a puppy lost by its owner, a rare downcast.It's a look that only Yuuri can make.

He cared so much that losing it was like losing the air to breathe.

In other words, as such a species, I'm afraid it really doesn't even need to breathe!Victor laughed at himself.

Perhaps not many people know that Victor has always been a person who is easily sad. It has been said that every artist has a sensitive heart, even Victor who always smiles in his life is the same.That's why he immediately understood what taking off the ring meant.

On the surface, he looks the same as usual, but this state of numbness from pain is the most terrifying!When no one saw it, a heart was covered with bruises.He kept thinking about the question he had been obsessed with until he saw the goblet that Hosenfell was holding in his hand when he entered the door, in which was a bright red warm liquid.

In an instant, he felt that he had found the reason for everything. Yuuri was not at fault, but was there any fault in himself?

He just passively and suddenly, when it was too late to make any preparations, became such an existence.

Yes, Victor just passively accepted such an identity that cannot be chosen. At this time, he can only choose to leave, which is impossible.Although he knew intellectually that leaving would lead to such consequences, he still chose to do so.If staying away would give Yuuri safety, then he should choose to.

This was the most correct choice. After every second thought, Victor would force himself to get rid of all emotions and make the same decision with reason as before.

Victor watched the glass of red liquid gradually approaching in his sight, he didn't know what to say, he was not wrong, but he didn't get a good result.

Perhaps, this is the real reason!

He has never understood what went wrong, but until this moment, he realized the key and the fuse more clearly than ever.

There is nothing wrong, he did nothing wrong, but in the final analysis, he was disrupted by this transformation.Turning into a dangerous non-human species is the root cause of everything.It was because of this initial out-of-control accident that he had to choose the first step that he had to take. From then on, he lost control step by step and lost control step by step.

When Hosenfell handed over the glass, although Victor was eager to be relieved by the burning heat inside and outside his body, but when he felt the warmth and smelled the sweet smell, he subconsciously moved away head.

Look, this instinct, this bloody instinct, this bloody instinct, this dangerous instinct is the culprit!Victor suddenly had such an idea, and the blood that was acceptable in his heart became intolerable in Victor's eyes.Whether it was self-deception, or the kind of self-comfort when there was no way out, Victor could no longer drink the blood in the cup safely from his heart.

It can be said that the sadness and complaints in his heart finally found a place to vent, and finally vented out. Victor looked for a reason by himself, but he didn't realize that feelings are not something that can be reasoned!

Looking at the crimson color of the blood, the silver-haired man shook his head at Hosenfell, "Just put it aside, I'll drink it later, Hosenfell."

However, when Hosenfell placed the glass on the bedside table, and waited until more than two hours later in Lait, he found that the liquid Victor in the glass had not moved at all, and even faintly showed signs of solidification.

It was obvious that he had never moved.Hosenfell saw Victor staring at an unknown place at the foot of the bed, habitually resting his fingers on his chin, lost in thought, as if he was thinking about something.He thought Victor forgot to eat because he was too focused, so he said nothing, replaced it with a glass of fresh rabbit blood, and didn't ask any more questions.He didn't know what Victor was thinking, but he could guess that he was thinking about something related to this final.

Sometimes it is good to allow some time to think alone.

But when the sun went down, the sky was dyed gold, and the night came quietly, Hosenfell finished dealing with the orchestra affairs of the Deutschland, and heard Molos who came out of Victor's room for the fourth time say, Victor hadn't eaten until now, and he didn't even glance at the direction that exudes the smell of blood. The blood marquis, who had experienced many things, realized that things were not as simple as he thought at first. Victor's state, It has been able to explain how wrong he is.Victor's attitude towards eating is very different from a few days ago.

There is a wise nation in this world who once said, "If there is an abnormality, there must be a monster." Hosenfell had to start wondering if something happened to Victor.

However, that rightful lord speaks when he should speak, smiles when he should smile, and looks more normal than anyone else.

However, Victor forgot one thing, the more calm you are when you are not normal, the more you tell others that it is not normal.

Hosenfell thought and thought, and then walked towards the French windows in the corner of the main hall, where Andre was standing where he was used to, as he did when Cyril was there.

"Your Majesty Hosenfell." Andre raised his head and greeted him. After carefully listening to Hosenfell say a few words in a low voice, his expression changed, and he quickened his pace and walked into the garden of the castle with them. And in one corner, the three of them were completely isolated from the outside world.It is best not to let Victor hear what they are going to say afterwards.

After the arrangement was completed, Moros talked about what he saw just now, "Victor is in Vancouver this time, isn't it..." He didn't finish his sentence, but Hosenfell and Andre both understood The meaning in his half sentence.

None of the three people answered the question right away. After being silent for a while, Andre said, "Let's ask Vicha, that kid also participated in this competition, maybe that's the reason." In fact, this , Andre also hesitated for a long time. He listened to what Moros said, and then remembered Victor's normal appearance before, and subconsciously felt that it was a good thing that this was not good.If he asked Vicia, he would definitely feel uncomfortable; but if he didn't ask anything, it would be more troublesome for Victor to keep it in his heart.

In the past, Victor was such a person that no matter when he was happy or sad, his mood would be written on his face!This year is just a short period of time in the eyes of the blood race with a long history, but Victor has learned to hide his emotions in his heart.

Although he tried his best to speak and act in the same way as before, Andre, who had been familiar with Victor since he was very young, was different from Yakov, who took over to take care of him halfway through, and Andre felt his change very clearly.

The black-haired housekeeper sighed and looked at Hosenfell, "As you can see, I have no experience in relationships in the past few hundred years. You should ask Vicia about this matter...he... ..." Hosenfell reached out and patted the shoulder of this colleague and friend, and then asked Molos, who was joining hands with him, "Have you seen clearly? What is Vicha's attitude towards eating?"

"Hosen, Victor seems to be..." The young man hesitated for a moment before speaking again, "He seems to be refusing to eat, because the high temperature in his whole body is so uncomfortable, I didn't even see him drink the food in the cup."

Hearing his lover's answer, Hosenfell felt a strange feeling in his heart.Victor has always hoped to get rid of the drive of blood as soon as possible, Hosenfell is very clear, but after this return, he suddenly turned into a look that seemed to be completely rejected, but he never thought of it.

Or persuade him to drink some fresh blood!Otherwise, if the strength is not replenished, it will be lost slowly, and in the end, it will be weak because the strength cannot be supported.As Hosenfell walked, he didn't have time to think about it, but when he thought about it, he decided to tell Victor that even half-bloods can't completely leave blood, as long as they don't lose their minds because of it, that's enough .

Victor hadn't closed the door before, maybe he forgot or he just didn't think about it. If not, they probably wouldn't be able to notice Victor's abnormality.But Hosenfell still gave a gentle knock a few times, then pushed the door open and went in.

When he entered Victor's room, the "food" that was poured into the cup half an hour ago was still the same as before, and it was still in the original position, and the half-coagulated blood left a shallow layer on the wall of the cup. trace.

According to the rules of the past few times, now, the most uncomfortable time has just begun. Victor panted several times. In fact, he has all the physique of the blood race, even if he doesn't breathe, there will be no problem.But he also has the breathing and heartbeat of a human, but much slower.And his reaction like this is nothing more than a little habit left over from being a human being.

The silver-haired man closed his eyes, and the flush on his face was even brighter. He looked up like a fish thirsty for water, and the silver-white hair was scattered messily on the side of his face, which made people feel a kind of weak beauty.

"Vicia," Hosenfell didn't want the already uncomfortable Viktor to distract himself from speaking, but at this time, he had no choice but to call him out in front of more important issues.

Hearing Hosenfell's voice, Victor frowned and opened his eyes, looking towards the direction of the voice.There seemed to be a layer of mist in his blue eyes that rose from the torment of his body, and the color faded a bit, as if full of sadness, depression, helplessness... and a bit of grievance.

It looks a little...

Hosenfell has lived in this world for so many years, and he doesn't know what words to use to describe this unbearable feeling.

He stood at the door, seeing Victor like this, hesitating to ask him to tell what happened.He is not an indecisive person, never has been, but at this moment, he hesitated for a moment.

Victor still smiled, "Uncle Huo Sen, come in, it's okay." He gently stretched out his hand, which was his habitual action.

As a blood clan, you can only enter the room of the other party if you are invited by the other party, even relatives and friends should be the same.This is not the point we want to say, but Hosenfell could see something from Victor's tone.For example, Victor usually calls him "Huo Sen" directly, but only when he is in a bad mood, he will seriously call him "Uncle Huo Sen".

This alone is enough to show that Victor's state is problematic.

Hosenfell was taken aback for a moment, but still walked over.

He sat on the low window sill next to Victor's bed, "Vicia, how do you feel? Is the reaction earlier this time?" He picked up an irrelevant topic and asked.

Victor nodded.This time the reaction was about half a day earlier than the last time.

"We've watched all the competitions this time, Wei Qia, your music selection is very good!" Hosenfell began to lead the topic to the point he wanted to ask.After hearing this, Victor smiled slightly, "Those two pieces are sketches by the former chief conductor of Holy Love, Mr. Shostako. If Uncle Huo Sen is interested, you can communicate with him... "

But Hosenfell shook his head, "It doesn't matter, I know Shostako." He also responded with a smile, before he said, "Did you encounter any problems in this competition?"

At this time, Victor suddenly understood the purpose of Hosenfell's visit. He wanted to avoid this topic, but he couldn't.Victor still maintained the expression on his face, he suddenly spoke out after a few seconds of silence, "Uncle Hosen, you want to ask what happened between Yuuri and me, right?"

He didn't expect Victor to understand his purpose so quickly. Hosenfell was surprised for a moment, but he didn't think it was surprising.Yeah, Victor is such a smart guy, how could he not see it?Hosenfell finally let out a sigh, "Yes, if Vicia is willing, it might be better to say it."

Victor didn't speak any more. He looked down at the golden, round ring on his hand. Although it was just a plain plain ring, he regarded it as the most important thing.

Time passed by, Victor was silent, but the deep sadness gradually overflowed.In fact, Hosenfell didn't have to ask him to speak out, because this year his character has become such a way of keeping things in his heart. After getting used to it, it's not easy to change back.You know, it is very difficult to change your personality, but if you want to change back to the original, it is even more difficult.

Hosenfell was ready for what Victor was unwilling to say, but he heard Victor suddenly say, "He doesn't want the ring anymore..."

This sentence seemed to be the beginning, and Victor finally started to talk about that day.

Hosenfell just listened to him quietly, without interrupting or persuading him, he just said at the end, "Looking at him for nearly 20 years can already be regarded as an obsession, there is no reason to just do it like this Change, now, you just have to keep going."

Victor agreed. In fact, he knew all these reasons, but what's the use of it?

The platinum blond-haired vampire stopped talking about it soon, he just wanted Victor to speak out what was stuck in his heart, not to make a comment.He didn't think he could say anything about this kind of thing, it was just to let Victor have a place to vent, he only needed to listen, and that was enough.Hosenfell can only do this.

Then, he looked at the glass on the bedside table, "Vicha, don't you want to drink?"

The person who was asked silently shook his head. In his heart, he actually felt that it was this nature of relying on blood that brought things to this point.He knew that this was the concern of the elders, and also knew that Hosenfell must have discovered the change in his unwillingness to drink blood.

He endured the pain and resistance in his heart, listened to Hosenfell persuading himself, listened to him say "blood is the only source of energy for males in the blood race and his half-blood race", and listened to him talking about the "future" and the words "hold on",

"Don't allow yourself to be controlled by blood. It doesn't mean that we don't need blood at all. It won't be a problem to drink a little bit. Wei Qia, please remember that you are the hope of the Duke." Hosenfell Last but not least.

He still moved out of Cyril, hoping to play a little role.