"Wei Yong" You are the Hua of Twilight Ice

After Victor put away the pendant and ring left by his grandfather, nothing seemed to change in his life.As usual, I staggered training with Yuuri in the morning and afternoon, completed the design of the costumes step by step as usual, entrusted Yuuri's music to Mr. Shostako with high efficiency, and got bored with my lover without any influence. alright.

Well, it is "seems"!

In Yuuri and Viktor's relationship, there are almost no conflicts, but it's not that there are no arguments.

In the final analysis, the differences between their personalities and ways of thinking stem not only from themselves, but also from their respective growth environments and cultural backgrounds.They lived together without too much running-in before. It is true that they both consciously considered each other, but after the so-called "honeymoon period" and the initial accommodation between lovers, what will happen?There must always be a further understanding and tolerance of each other, and this relationship will go long.

Even if they fit each other to such an extent that they can make up for each other's shortcomings, the better the fit, the greater the difference.Such hidden dangers will show up sooner or later, this is a kind of deep running-in between each other!

This was a problem that Minako-sensei was worried about before leaving Hasezu.Because for a long time, the relationship between Yuuri and Victor has been too harmonious, which made the elderly ballet teacher feel uneasy.

But the first quarrel between the two, or the first real conflict, came at the beginning of Yuuri's fourth month in St. less than one day of the week.

To be precise, it wasn't a conflict that broke out because of a certain day!

No one thought, and it was impossible to think, that at this time when everything for the next season has been prepared and it is left to be polished by myself, when the two of them have made an appointment to compete on the same stage that they are looking forward to, because of this reason And quarreled.

Well, if I'm not wrong, there was a real fight.

It was also said before that when Victor treats people he trusts, his character is actually very childish.Especially when staying with Yuuri, he will take the initiative to cling to him after a while, asking for a hug or a series of kisses.Now that he has what his grandfather left him, Victor is in a very good mood.And the very good result is that Victor's childishness came out again.

And, even more so than before.

The maturity, gentleness and temperament that were promised to outsiders are all gone!

Now when the "Emperor on Ice" sees Yuuri, regardless of whether there is anyone present, apart from not daring to do anything about his body movements, his speech becomes like this:

"Yuuri, the training time is long enough, go home with the coach!"

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"Make another big fortune for me, Yuuri!"

"Yuuri Yuuri Yuuri... let's go..."

"Go out and play, Yuuri, relax!"

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"Why don't you talk anymore, Yuuri is disobedient..."

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"Yuuri! He fell down again... Are you thinking of me?"

So, Victor deliberately said this kind of sentence that obviously has no direction, but makes people in the know can't help but wonder whether others will think about it.If Victor was Makachin, I believe he would be wagging his tail every now and then.

If it was at home before, so Yuuri could understand it as a kind of interest, then later, when it developed to the ice rink, in the park, or even on the street, Victor became unscrupulous, it was nothing It's a good sign.

On the afternoon of the fourth day after the rest day, at the ice rink, Victor watched Yuuri train as usual as a coach.After finishing the music once, Victor beckoned him over from the side.It seems that there is a faint meaning of being very happy.

Viktor called Yuuri over to him and started talking.At the beginning, he was still encouraging the young man in front of him quite normally, but later it became "Wow, General Claudio of Yuuri is so affectionate, I even wonder if he is Miss Hero's boyfriend or Juliet's lover Now, where is the difference in your 'crossing half the world', Yuuri? The difference is so small that it feels exactly the same to cross from the South Pole to the North Pole!"

Victor caught people off guard and turned on the mode of damaging and poisonous tongue.What's more, the next thing the silver-haired man suddenly thought of, his eyes lit up, "Yuuri hasn't figured it out yet! Since this is the case, let's go out first, and wait until we figure it out." Come back to practice!"

"Ah? No, no, no need," Yuuri quickly waved his hand, "There is not much time left for Victor, let's...continue to practice." The frequency of Victor's sticking to him these days is getting higher and higher.For Yuuri, who was trained like a different person, it was a bit...

Of course, generally speaking, Yuuri or Ren Victor’s movements are not very big, but today seems to be different, because Mr. Shostako sent the completed piece of music to Yuuri, and the time is already tight ; Second, because Victor was too persistent today, he seemed to want to take Yuuri out of the ice rink.In this way, Yuuri, who has been training very quickly, feels a little anxious.

Victor seemed to really want to take Yuuri out, "Come with me first, it's not too late to practice after thinking it over, it's gone after today!" The man still dragged Yuuri persistently.

At this time, Yuuri became even more anxious. According to the time, the time reserved this year is not as much as last year. He pushed Victor aside with difficulty, "No! Victor should not be like this during practice time!" He turned around Go on to practice jumping.

At this moment, in the direction behind Yuuri, Victor pursed his lips, and the color in his eyes dimmed a bit.This is the first time Yuuri has pushed himself away so simply!And, it's still... today.

Yuuri recalled what he didn't master in the joint music practice just now, and continued to practice and consolidate. After more than an hour, Yuuri temporarily stopped to rest.Before he put down his water bottle, a white and powerful arm fished him from behind.

"Eh?!" The young man from the east turned around and saw Victor with a smile on his face.The silver-haired man smiled brightly, as if... he had never been rejected just now.

"Yuuri has been practicing for almost two hours!" Victor seemed to be unable to bear it anymore, "Today is very good, after practicing for so long, don't care about the hour at noon! Come with me, it's late If so, I will..." It's too late!

Before the last sentence was spoken, there was a "pop".Viktor saw Yuuri knock off the hand that was holding his arm, and the normally amiable and limp young man stared angrily into Viktor's blue eyes.

Yuuri was really angry. Everyone knew that when he was practicing, he insisted so seriously that it was unreasonable. It was that time he asked Victor to demonstrate 23 jumps. It can be seen that this is more like a teenager practicing. time, what will happen.

Seeing Victor froze for a moment, his eyes seemed very puzzled, Yuuri suddenly felt even angrier, "Victor, what are you trying to do? I'm practicing! It's obviously Victor who asked me to stay on the ice, how could I be so unreasonable?" Responsible?"

"However, the effect can be achieved very quickly with practice, and Yuuri has used it for so long." Victor seemed a little anxious, "Does Yuuri know what is important?" He wanted to go up and grab Yuuri's hand again .

This sentence was thrown into Yuuri's consciousness like a lead wire, and he involuntarily turned up the volume, "What do you mean, Victor, can you not stop others from practicing? Victor thought everyone Victor? I know Victor is a genius, but it doesn't mean everyone is a genius, can you respect the efforts of others," Yuuri began to shout, "Everyone except Victor, in order not to be too far behind Victor , how hard you work, doesn’t Victor know at all?”

The silver-haired man's face changed a little, but Yuuri didn't pay attention to it because he was really angry.

"Yuuri...you, don't you want to see a surprise? Don't you..."

Did you forget something?Victor was going to ask this question.

But his words did not come out.

"Of course not, the planned training must be completed. If Victor wants to go somewhere to play, he can go first, don't wait here!" Yuuri's words blurted out without going through his brain, almost never yelling at Victor, It made all the other players present look over. When they saw Victor's expression, although they were very dazed, no one dared to ask or try to persuade him.

After shouting, Yuuri turned around, skating to the middle of the ice rink, took a breath, and continued to practice.

This time, he did not hear Victor interrupting his voice again.

Victor was stunned, he suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart.For some reason, I remembered the sense of unrest that had always existed since I returned to St. Petersburg.

After that, the feeling Viktor couldn't describe, sad, accident, or something, like a lot of emotions came out at once, he never thought that Yuuri would yell at himself like this.Yuuri...was he blaming himself?

The silver-haired man fell silent, and when Yuuri started playing [Claudio Fantasia] again, he felt like he couldn't think.

Probably, this is called letting go of yourself.

Unable to explain the reason himself, Victor felt a little uncomfortable.At least that's how Victor feels right now.

At the end of Yuuri's practice, he found Victor sitting quietly in the first row of seats, the thin coat he had been holding in his hand was being wrapped around his body.Seeing Yuuri walking out of the ice rink and putting on the skates, the silver-haired man stood up, took Yuuri's things silently, and walked towards the lounge.

After Yuuri changed his skates and put on his jacket, Viktor picked up Yuuri's backpack again.Throughout lunch, and on the way home, the atmosphere was somewhat awkward.Yuuri, who was still angry, didn't speak, and Victor walked aside listlessly.

This weird silence lasted for several days, and later it turned into an angry and aggrieved mutual rivalry.He didn't know what to say to Yuuri, and Yuuri always avoided being alone except going home to sleep.

That day was actually the first time Victor and Yuuri met alone in Katsuo Utopia's open-air hot spring pool.To be precise, it was the day a year ago when Yuuri broke into the open-air hot spring in his yard and saw Victor leaning against the pool.

Several weeks ago, Victor thought that he must celebrate such a memorable day, and everything was prepared.However, after a world championship in the middle, plus the selection of songs and choreography for the new season, Victor, who has always had a bad memory, forgot such an important thing.

When I suddenly remembered, it was time for Yuuri to train that day.

Because of the sudden cold war, Victor went to the ice rink for training alone these past few afternoons, and he seemed not very energetic.Not daring to go home so early to face an angry Yuuri, Viktor chooses to practice until midnight.All night and all night after Yuuri fell asleep, he sat on the sofa with Makachin in his arms, or ran to the outskirts of St. Petersburg by himself, and was in a daze in his grandfather's castle.

At first, Coach Yakov thought that his student had finally started to practice diligently, and he was quite happy about it.It wasn't until nearly half a week had passed that he realized that something wasn't quite right between Viktor and Yuuri, as if there was a crack that was getting bigger and bigger.

Although he has been mocking Victor's mental age, Yakov still cares about his students very much.After understanding, he got part of the situation from Agata and Raisha who were there that day.

Why do you say "part of the situation"?That was because the distance was relatively far away, and Victor didn’t say the specific reason, so the other players just knew that Victor wanted Yuuri to stop practicing and went out with him, Yuuri insisted on training, which caused conflicts .

This is something that is not easy to solve. Coach Yakov thought for three days, but he didn't come up with any good solution.After all, in Yakov's view, it's about the friendship between the two children, and Yakov doesn't want to mediate too much, maybe it will get the opposite effect.

So, after thinking about the third day, Coach Yakov lost more than a dozen hairs, and the hairline receded to the back of his head again, and he finally made a decision.

Yakov took over a commercial performance for Victor in Dresden, and in the name of strengthening training, he left Yuuri in St. Petersburg for a training camp.What he meant was to let both of them calm down first, and separate for a day or two, maybe there would be no conflicts.

As a middle-aged and elderly person who has lived for decades, he believes that the reason why many people who have a good relationship quarrel is because when they look at each other, the two people are too close, so close that they demand each other according to their own standards.At this time, generally speaking, it is necessary to widen the distance and deal with it coldly.

Of course, this conservative Russian old man has not yet thought of the relationship between Viktor and Yuuri beyond friendship.

These days, Victor also thinks about a lot of things by himself, starting to recall after meeting Yuuri.

What I thought was just ordinary daily life was clearly imprinted in Victor's mind, from the first time I greeted Yuuri, to when the man hung on his body and acted like a baby at the banquet; The song "Stay With Me" was amazing, and he was completely attracted by this young and innocent youth; from all the experiences of Hasezu Kojo, to Yuuri's tearful complaint last season, and even the panic after the confession later, he remember.

Why feel guilty?Obviously I am very wronged!The most aggrieved thing is that Yuuri asked him to leave first if he had something to do, and felt that the opportunities to come and go together that he had worked so hard to create for so long were ignored.

But looking back, none of it was Yuuri's fault.

That time when Yuuri went to training alone sadly, it was because he and Yurio got along naturally and unconsciously, which made Yuuri feel inferior.

That time Yuuri cried and complained uncontrollably because he used the wrong motivation method.

That time after Yuuri returned to the hotel in Barcelona, ​​he obviously wanted to talk to himself about the future, and his own willfulness intensified the problem.

Even this time, although he was really wronged, he was still willful, right?After calming down, Victor realized that Yuuri's hard work was not wrong, but he still didn't know how to reconcile with Yuuri.Probably, Yuuri wouldn't like himself who doesn't care about Yuuri's feelings like this!

Victor doesn't like to admit it, but that's the way it is.He is afraid.Afraid that Yuuri wouldn't be able to forgive himself, a self who didn't know how to think about things from his point of view.

It's as if a person has been split into two halves, one half is wronged and sad, and the other half blames the self-willed and childish self, contradicting and opposing each other.

When Yakov came to Viktor, Viktor couldn't say a word for a long time in the face of the coach's question, but after hearing the information about the commercial performance, he hesitated for a moment and agreed.Although he couldn't bear to be away from Yuuri for even a day, an hour, or even a minute; but he couldn't bear Yuuri's constant anger at himself and treating him coldly.In the past few days, although Victor has found his mistake, he doesn't know what to do next.

Take these two days of commercial performances as your own reflection and thinking!Victor has to figure out how to reconcile with his favorite Japanese youth.

And Yuuri is also not feeling well these few days, he feels tired for a long time, and he doesn't know why.

Yuuri doesn't think there is anything wrong with him in principle, as a player, training is probably the most basic thing, Yuuri has always attached great importance to practice.Anything can be delayed, but practice cannot be missed.

But maybe Victor has never been accused like this by anyone close to him?

In fact, it's not that Yuuri doesn't want to see Victor sticking to him happily, but at that moment, he suddenly felt that Victor didn't think about the people around him at all, he was immature and too self-willed.With that, Yuuri somehow got angry, and lost his temper uncontrollably.

Afterwards, Yuuri, who was also reflecting on his attitude, was also unable to speak to Viktor. When Yakov told him to be in charge of his own training during the few days of Viktor's commercial performance, Yuuri quickly nodded in agreement, and he also wanted to calm down. up.

According to Yakov's intention, it is to ask Victor to adapt the overall structure of [TheMaskWillInFire] as a program for this commercial performance, but Victor insists on using the free skating program that was not used for commercial performance last season—— [Stay with me and don't leave].

Yakov thought about it, this is also good, maybe the effect of this cold treatment will be better.And in this way, there is no need to risk exposing the selection of this season.

So, three days later, when Yuuri went to the ice rink for training, for the first time in over a year, Victor left alone without saying goodbye to Yuuri.

"Don't miss me, Makachin, know how to ask your other master for food, and remember to ask your other master to be obedient, and don't keep taking a good rest..." Victor ramblingly stroked Makachin's Head, "I can't take care of you these days, I'm sorry Makachin, but Yuuri is so good, he won't leave you alone if he is angry with me! Goodbye..."

Then, he carried his suitcase, touched Makachin's little paw, closed the door, and set off for Sheremetyevo Airport.

At this time, Makachin, who was still a giant VIP, was in a very complicated mood.In the past few days, when Victor was alone in a daze, he occasionally took Makachin with him.For example, that day, after Yuuri rested very early, Victor ran into the back garden of Nikiforov Castle, hugged Makachin's warm body, which was much higher than his own body temperature, and sat quietly all night .

However, Makachin can't speak now. He has been biting Victor's trousers for the past few days, and he seems to want to express something, but he can only yell a few times, and then there is nothing he can do. He watched Victor take away the adult's note and left himself at home.

From this day on, Yuuri started his own training camp.I don’t know if it’s because the little old man with only a few hairs left on his head was specially designed to carry out the “cold treatment” to the end. He even pulled on the ballet during the skills training that had nothing to do with ballet. Teacher Lilia.

Although in Yakov's eyes, their "friendship" and love are not the same thing at all, but seeing that their hair is about to bald, that's all they can do.

Just like that, Yuuri didn't send Victor to the airport because of the training camp and because he hadn't figured out how to explain his thoughts clearly to Victor.

In fact, the two parties did not think too much about this matter.

Victor sat in the somewhat cramped cabin of the Boeing 737. Just one year of experience had made him used to the slightly cramped economy class.He was holding the Makachin paper box in his arms like any other time before, and holding a pen in the other hand, writing and drawing on the post-it note on the lowered table.He still feels uncomfortable and blames himself, but when faced with matters related to skating, he will also devote himself seriously and rigorously, and temporarily forget those unpleasant things.And if you don't do this, it will be even more disrespectful to Yuuri. This time the quarrel is because of interrupting Yuuri willfully during his training!

[Stay with me] is still the version of the last World Championships, but Victor deliberately reduced a few technical movements and enriched other things, which are more natural, smoother, and more in line with his heart.

Such a quarrel, for Victor, is probably equivalent to a slap in the face, right?Before that day, even though he himself said that he wanted to get back the feeling he had when dealing with skating, in fact, he didn't take the initiative to change, right?

Where is the feeling that I used to value skating more than anything else?Although it is true that it is because I think of the celebration of the anniversary, but after thinking about it seriously, the right thing can be called "correct" at the right time and place!

So, after all, is it still wrong?

Viktor reduced the number of jumps, hoping to use more abundant content to show Yuuri that he hopes to be forgiven by him, and that he hopes to make up with Yuuri.

Regardless of whether his little lover has seen this performance or not, I hope that when he returns to St. Petersburg, Victor will be a different Victor!