world without empathy

I don't know when it started, where there is Shaonan, there will be Wei Qing, and where there is Wei Qing, there will be Shaonan.

For example, when I wash up in the morning, I go to the water room to wash my face with sleepy eyes.There was no one around me before I lowered my head, but when I raised my head after washing my face, I could always see Shao and Wei alternately brushing their teeth and aggressively.

For another example, every night when self-study is over and preparing to go back to the dormitory, Shao and Wei will always look at each other with me as the axis, and then try their best to compete who can reach the dormitory first.And I can only look at the two of them getting farther and farther away and sigh when the relationship between these two people became so good, I don't know that they are competing for me.On the contrary, it makes me think that this Shaonan is very cute, far more charming than before when he couldn't define it.

Or maybe this is what she really looks like deep down, I don't know.

It's winter, and the weather has gotten a lot colder, but it's still a while before wearing a down jacket.I don't want to go home, so I always wear thin clothes.But when Shaonan was in the dormitory, every time she saw me going out, she would wrap her own scarf or coat on me, and give me an affectionate kiss after that.I became obsessed with her kiss, her temperature and breath.

This is the first time I feel such feelings, throbbing and warm.

Maybe winter itself is a season that needs warmth. I am glad that I was able to meet this torch named Shaonan in the winter when I was 17 years old. It is not as bright as a light bulb, but it is enough to burn me.

However, fate does not seem to want to see me happy, and the following bad news made Shaonan and I completely fall into this otherwise warm winter.

That day, Shaonan was the same as usual, first he helped me wrap the scarf, and then raised my chin to fight with my lips.Her soft lips covered mine, caressing me softly.Then her dexterous tongue spit out letters like a snake, looking for a weakness that could crush me, and constantly stimulated my senses, making my heart beating non-stop.I could feel myself melting and drowning in her body.

At this moment, the door of the dormitory opened, and there was someone who shouldn't be here, and that person was my mother.

She rushed over and pulled me past and slapped Shaonan.

"Damn gay!" She said angrily, "Why do you have people like you in school? My daughter is still underage. Who allowed you to teach her such messy things! No wonder she hasn't studied hard recently, and she doesn't even have a home I'm back!"

"Mom, you speak too hard!"

"Snapped!"

She slapped me bluntly and said: "Shut up! I worked so hard to pay you to go to school. I didn't want you to come to school to be gay! I also pleaded for others, you come home with me immediately!"

After she finished speaking, she began to pull me out.Until my mother and I completely disappeared from sight, Shaonan, who has always been strong, didn't say a word. I don't know if it was because my mother's words hurt her deeply, or because of the guilt overflowing from the bottom of my heart.

Later, I was locked at home by my mother and could not go anywhere except reading.I can only look at this boring book day after day, and all I think about is Shaonan in my heart and mind.I am eager to hear from her.

It was a week after I was released by my mother. When I was still surprised that I was released so early, Wei Qing told me that Shaonan had changed schools.I heard that a tall middle-aged man took Shaonan away, but she just lowered her head and didn't say a word from the beginning to the end.Wei Qing said that she looked very much like a lamb being slaughtered in a slaughterhouse at that time, and she didn't have the slightest brilliance when she did evil things in the past.

After that, I was sluggish for a long time. During that time, I was studying in addition to studying. At the end of this winter, my grades improved again.Just like what my mother and teacher expected, I became a robot who only knows how to learn. There is nothing else that can attract my attention, and I don't have extra energy to look at other wonderful things.

I don't know how to define my relationship with Shonan.It was an ambiguous feeling that surpassed friendship and surpassed love. I think this should be the so-called first love.

I heard that most people's first love ends without a problem. I don't know if there is anyone who ended more bleakly than me.

Sometimes I even doubt whether this short-lived relationship really existed, because since then, the girl named Shaonan seems to have completely disappeared from everyone's memory.I don't know if anyone still remembers the girl who is domineering and soft-hearted, the girl who dared to face up to her own sexuality and love, dared to accept herself, and dared to pursue happiness.

Later I was admitted to a university in Beijing.I don't know what I'm looking forward to, but isn't the world inherently wide and narrow?

Living only on an inch of land, I can't imagine what kind of scenes will exist and what kind of plots will happen in places that I can't see.So after I got the admission certificate, I chose to take a year off from school and take this opportunity to visit other countries, which can be regarded as a reward for the suffering and suffering I have borne for this admission certificate.

One year later.

In a hotel in South Korea, I turned on my laptop and slowly typed Chinese characters one after another.

The sound of police sirens tore apart the tranquility of the night, and the alleys with red lights and green wine are mottled alternately with red and blue colors. I, who is proficient in Chinese, could not understand what they were talking about, but I understood the mournful sound of glass breaking through stones. .....

The author has something to say: Forgive the author for ending this story early (kowtow to apologize

Originally I wanted to write a longer one, but the author, who willfully does not write an outline and is writing a novel for the first time, found that the final story was much different from the original plan (crying

So I decided to make this story short and superb (guilty

Finally, I would like to thank all the readers who read this story from the beginning to the end. The author said that every time he updates, he will always be moved when he sees the number of hits at the end of the chapter, and he will stop giving up on himself.

So what should I write in the next story~(啦啦啦~