Addicted

Lin Shuyi recalled little by little the details of being with Xu Huai in those few months, and she found that even if there was only a short moment of joy between them, the sum of these things was more than she had in the past 20 years. I feel even more happy in the Lin family.

Probably, the time with the one you love is really the happiest, right?Even if there is only a little bit of memory, I can't bear to lose it.

This time, Lin Shuyi stayed in the hospital for a week.In fact, she doesn't know her own body at all. Although she is not dead yet, this situation has already half-stepped into the gate of hell.

No one seems to love her body less than her.

On the day Lin Shuyi was discharged from the hospital, Wu Yu took her fiance to visit Lin Shuyi.

When Lin Shuyi saw the latter, there was not much surprise in his eyes.She was standing by the window of the ward in a light gray overcoat and black trousers. The window was wide open, and the cold wind was blowing through the hall. She had not fully recovered and needed rest. Now she could not help but cough twice while covering her mouth.

"Shu Yi, are you feeling better now?" Wu Yu said with concern in his eyes.

Lin Shuyi raised her eyes slightly. When she didn't care much, her light brown pupils would be slightly alienated, as if she was looking at someone, but anyone could feel her indifference.Yes, that kind of indifference, it seems that no one takes it to heart. "What are you doing here? You are no longer my family doctor." Lin Shuyi's tone was also very light, but she didn't really want to talk now.

After Wu Yu heard this, a trace of sadness flashed in her eyes, but it was covered up in the next moment.Her tone was deliberately light, "Shu Yi, even if we are not in an employment relationship at work, we are still friends in private anyway, right?" When they were abroad in the past, didn't they have a good relationship?At least, it's not much better than strangers like it is now.

These words made Lin Shuyi suddenly turn around and look at her fixedly. "I don't want it anymore. If she knows, she won't like it."

After hearing this, Wu Yu was startled, as if it took her a long time to digest Lin Shuyi's words. After a while, she smiled wryly, "Okay, I understand." She turned around, walked to the door, stopped suddenly, and tilted her head. , looking into Shanglin Shuyi's eyes, "Shuyi, I wish you the best of luck and find her soon."

"Thank you." This time, Lin Shuyi finally spoke to her with a touch of humanity.

A seemingly relieved smile appeared on Wu Yu's face, and she left.

"Come out?" Standing outside the door was her fiancé.The latter walked up to her, and naturally embraced her shoulders, "Is it cold?"

Wu Yu shook her head. She took the initiative to hold the arm of the man in front of her. This man had liked her for many years. She turned a blind eye to him before. Even when the family finally decided to get engaged, she held a perfunctory attitude.Anyway, she always has to marry, and anyway, the person she likes doesn't like herself, so it's the same for her whoever she marries.She had always been indifferent to the man who was about to become her legal husband, but now, she suddenly became active.

"What's wrong?" The man was delighted and surprised at the same time, thinking that something difficult happened to her.

Wu Yu suddenly raised her head and smiled at him, "It's nothing, I just feel that I'm getting married and I'm very happy."

She said this a little bit without thinking, but it made the people around her feel elated.

Wu Yu thought, the conversation with Xu Huai made her decide to give up chasing Lin Shuyi.But today, just a few words of communication with Lin Shuyi made her give up completely.How big can a person's heart be?There is no extra space for one person.She should also get rid of the people who don't belong to her in time, and slowly accept the person who has been guarding her by her side.

Lin Shuyi was still standing by the window of the ward. Soon, she saw a man and a woman coming out of the tree-lined path below. She pursed her lips slightly, turned around and took out her mobile phone, silently looking at the girl on the screen.

This was the last time Xu Huai danced in the living room at home. She stood in the courtyard and secretly took pictures with her mobile phone.

"Where are you?" The woman's hoarse voice slowly dissipated in the air, but no one could answer her.

Being discharged from the hospital also means that this new year is over.

Lin Shuyi turned around, and Jin An followed her and left together.

After leaving the hospital, he also left Qingfu City.

Returning to country K, it is true that Lin Shuyi told Lin Fan before leaving, even if she did not show up at the company's annual meeting, even if Lin Fan did not announce that she was the next head of the Lin family, anyone with a discerning eye could see Who is in charge of the Lin family.

Lin Shuyi is very busy, sitting in the office, her work mailbox is already full.

Now that she is sitting in this position, there are many people who want to cling to her, and there are also many people who want to see her.But Lin Shu didn't understand that he was already so busy that he couldn't even get off work on time every day, but he still felt very empty in his heart.I knew in my heart that something was missing, and I couldn't fill it up with work.

There was a reminder at the bottom of the computer that there was a new email, and Lin Shuyi opened it. It was the itinerary sent to her by the secretary's office.

Repeated day after day, she hoped that the person looking for Xu Huai would bring her good news, but there was no news every day.

During this period, Lu Jingzhou returned to China, continued to run his club, and used his contacts to help Lin Shuyi find Xu Huai.Sometimes when Lu Jingzhou came home, he would ask Lin Shuyi to go to the bar together.But after that, Lu Jingzhou never worried that Lin Shuyi would drink too much and make trouble outside.She will no longer show that seductive drunkenness in front of people, and people will feel itchy and sexy when they see her, because she no longer drinks alcohol.At least, Lin Shuyi will never drink outside again.

Lu Jingzhou once asked her why, Lin Shuyi thought about it, and felt that her reason was a bit ridiculous, but she still insisted, "She won't like me being seen by others like that, she probably won't like it."

She is now trying to live the way Xu Huai likes, "When we meet again, she won't hate me, right?" Lin Shuyi felt that the lemon juice in his mouth was a bit bitter.

Lu Jingzhou didn't know what to say, "No."

Lin Shuyi chuckled twice, her voice was soft and lazy, "That's good." She said.

In the blink of an eye, this period of busy days with faint hopes came to an end soon. Lin Shuyi knew that Xu Huai would graduate in June, and she would return to China, so she went to Qingda University to "stay" and arrest the one who just turned around and walked away. woman.

She was full of expectations, but was hit again.

Xu Huai didn't come back, she didn't participate in the defense, and she didn't come back to sit in the school auditorium with her former classmates and teachers to accept this graduation ceremony.

The campus, because of this upcoming parting, was full of tears, but also full of laughter.

Fresh graduates in bachelor uniforms hold flowers and bachelor degree certificates, face the camera, and freeze their smiles.On campus, youth can be seen everywhere.Most people had bright smiles on their faces, except for Lin Shuyi.

The woman who walked through the campus expressionlessly, even though there was no smile at the corner of her mouth, was still watched secretly by many people.

Lin Shuyi didn't seem to feel these gazes.At this moment, her mind is full of Xu Huai.

She has never felt so powerless. When she thought the world was in her hands, she turned around and the world turned away from her.

Lin Shuyi was at Fu Miaoyun's house just now, and she couldn't find Xu Huai. The only person she knew who might still be in touch with Xu Huai was Xu Huai's teacher.

When Lin Shuyi knocked on the door of Fu Miaoyun's house, the latter was slightly surprised to see it was her.

"Boss Lin?" After all, Lin Shuyi's reputation in Qingda University is not small. As a major taxpayer in Qingfu City and the most influential public figure, Lin Shuyi has made a lot of donations in Qingda University. There is also a picture of her.

"Mr. Fu, hello." Lin Shuyi directly expressed his intention after entering the door.

She came to look for Xu Huai, but she couldn't find him.

Fu Miaoyun had also heard about what happened last year, not to mention that one of her students was embarrassing Xu Huai at her home.Now that Lin Shuyi asked about Xu Huai's news, she was surprised and also felt sorry for Lin Shuyi. "Sorry, Boss Lin, I don't know much about Xiaohuai either."

Fu Miaoyun didn't lie to Lin Shuyi, "...A while ago, I received a letter in my email, which should be from Xu Huai. She asked me to help her put her graduation certificate with me. Things, she seems to have communicated clearly with her instructor online. I don't have any news from her, so..."

These words, to Lin Shuyi, were like a blow to the head, making her dizzy.

Walking around the university campus, Lin Shuyi's eyes wandered.

It turned out that she couldn't even catch Xu Huai's shadow.

The day Lin Shuyi wanted to leave Qingfu City was early in the morning. She was standing in the terminal building, and behind her was a transparent glass wall.The morning sun in June seemed to be a little lazy, and the weather was surprisingly good. At first glance, the sky was blue and cloudless.This city is beautiful, but Lin Shuyi doesn't want to stay any longer.

After learning that Xu Huai did not show up at school yesterday, she chose to leave the next day.

Jin An is still behind her now, looking at Lin Shuyi who has been silent all this time, stepped forward, handed the ultrabook in his hand to the woman in front of him, and said, "Miss, our people are facing each other for the fifth time. After Qingfu City conducted a large-scale investigation, Miss Xu was still not found, this is their report."

Lin Shuyi put her hands in the dark-striped suit pants, and she didn't move her hands when she heard Jin An's words. In this way, she has heard enough in the past year.But even so, the woman's Qingli brows still couldn't help frowning, "Yes, I see."

Jin An wasn't sure what she meant now, since she saw Lin Shuyi came back from Qingda University yesterday, her whole state was not quite right.It's not that Lin Shuyi's temper turned bad because she didn't know about Xu Huai, but that she gave off a lethargic feeling.It's like...the walking dead have no soul.

"Miss, shall we continue to look for it?"

In fact, everyone understands that it is futile to search like this. The person is no longer in Qingfu City. How can I find him?How is it possible to find this man in a land where there is no such man?Do you want to change one out of thin air?

"Continue." Lin Shu said without changing his expression.

Jin An didn't persuade him, thinking that someone had already persuaded Lin Shuyi a month ago, but what was the result?It doesn't work at all, Lin Shuyi won't listen.

"Jin An, do you know? If I don't know when she comes back, that would be a real pity." Just when Jin An was about to step aside and make a phone call to arrange the matter, suddenly, his back turned The woman who watched her spoke.

Jin An paused, and suddenly she had the urge to cry.

Because at that moment, she really felt that Lin Shuyi's back was very thin and lonely.

I don't know if it's because the blow he suffered when he returned to China was too great. After Lin Shuyi returned, he didn't take the initiative to ask about finding someone for a long time.

Although she didn't ask, Jin'an still honestly sent the monthly report to her mailbox.Of course, Jin An didn't know that Lin Shuyi would sit on the bed alone with his computer in a daze in the dead of night.

Day after day, year after year, except for the report date, there was almost no change in the report, and she could recite the above words verbatim with her eyes closed.

I thought it would become different after these three years, at least, the heart that had been eroded by disappointment over the years would become numb, and every time I would think that I would understand what happened after receiving the same report next time and be indifferent, but Every time, she behaved like the report she received for the first time three years ago, she was extremely disappointed.

At that time, she looked like a drowning person, her ears, nose and mouth were filled with salty sea water.

I want to breathe, but my chest becomes sore due to the pressure, I can't breathe, it's suffocating.

Another cold winter, this year's winter seems to be colder than usual.

Lin Shuyi came home at night, sat on the bed after taking a shower, and after reading the last email on the computer, Lu Jingzhou's phone rang.

Just last year, Lu Jingzhou sold his business in Qingfu City. He is not young anymore. People like them need to start a family at the age of 30 to shoulder the responsibilities given by the family.

In the month when Lu Jingzhou completely ended Qingfu City, the day before his departure, he went to worship the former Fan family.He wanted to say goodbye to his first love that was buried deep in his heart and almost no one knew about it.

"What? Call me at this time. Where's your fiancee?" Lin Shuyi put the computer aside. At that time, she had long hair and a warm yellow bedside lamp on the bedside. Much milder.

Lu Jingzhou smiled on the other end of the phone, "Her? It's not like you don't know, everyone has their own affairs, as long as you understand it in your heart."

Lu Jingzhou's fiancée had her own lover before getting engaged. Their marriage was a real commercial marriage, so there was no real affection.

Lin Shuyi chuckled a few times on the phone, expressing her understanding, "Then do you need to call me now? Let's talk about drinking first, I won't come!" She has almost given up drinking for the past two years.The family doctor had seriously warned her not to drink anymore, otherwise stomach ulcers could be life-threatening.

Lin Shuyi was not afraid of death, but she was afraid of dying silently before seeing Xu Huai, she didn't want to.

"I know. I'm not looking for you for a drink. I have tickets for two performances. Do you want to go see them together?" Lu Jingzhou asked.

"What performance?" Lin Shuyi looked at the schedule on the tablet beside him, and after confirming that it was a leisurely weekend, he nodded when Lu Jingzhou said "Shakespeare's play", "Okay, what time is it? "

"Afternoon, I will drive to pick you up tomorrow."

Lin Shuyi had no objection, and after making an agreement, she hung up the phone.

The phone screen was still on, Lin Shuyi looked down at the time, it was already past nine o'clock in the evening.In December, there were many things in the company. She had been working overtime for more than 20 consecutive days. Today, she finally had an early rest. She reached out to hold the glass beside the bed in her hand, and at the same time, she was holding a small bottle .

Poured a few pills from the medicine bottle, Lin Shuyi stuffed them into his mouth, raised his head, took a sip of water, and swallowed them.

It had been a long time since she fell asleep without relying on sleeping pills, and even so, her sleep quality was still poor, and even the slightest movement could wake her up.

On the second day, Lu Jingzhou came to pick Lin Shuyi to the theater on time in the afternoon.He put the ticket next to the central control, Lin Shuyi picked it up and took a look, "No. 12 Night?" She couldn't help laughing when she heard the name.

"What?" Lu Jingzhou saw the slight sneer at the corner of her mouth from the corner of her eyes, and argued, "Watching this kind of romantic drama will make people feel soothed."

Of course, Lin Shuyi knew that this was a comedy. Shakespeare’s first-period comedies were mostly in this color, with a strong sense of optimism, but it was passed down to later generations. Afterwards, social conflicts intensified, and his creations in the second period became more popular.From idealism to criticism of reality, Lin Shuyi also loves the latter.

"Too romantic, are you still a girl?" She asked back.

Lu Jingzhou replied plausibly, "I am a boy!"

Lin Shuyi made no secret of the contempt in his eyes, what kind of boy is a person in his 30s?

However, Lin Shuyi did not expect that it was such a romantic drama full of the author's humanistic idealism that made her leave in the middle.

When Olivia confessed to Viola, she didn't know that the person she admired was a woman disguised as a man, and Viola naturally rejected the rich countess.

"I swear, with my innocence and youth, I only have one heart and one loyalty, and no woman can possess it..." She left the scene with an excuse, and walked quickly to the bathroom beside her.It's not that she hasn't read the play, and she even remembers the ending clearly.But for some reason, when she heard the actor say "no woman can take it" on stage today, she thought of Xu Huai.

Could it be that Xu Huai's heart is also like Viola's, she can't possess it?

Lin Shuyi stood in front of the sink, lost in thought.

It took her a long time to sort it out. As soon as she stepped out the door, she bumped into a woman in a tutu.

"Ah, I'm sorry." The man spoke quickly, then turned his head and shouted to a group of friends waiting behind him: "Hey, hey, you go backstage first, my stomach hurts badly..."

Lin Shuyi shook her head, seeing such a strange face in front of her, her heart softened.Over the years, Jin An sometimes complained that she was becoming more and more cruel and unreasonable, but when she met any dancing girl, she inadvertently showed tenderness.

Seeing someone who is similar to her, there is no way, the eyes will always stay a little longer.As it is now, Lin Shuyi lost his mind for a moment.

She didn't pay attention to this episode. If she turned around just now, she would receive a long-lost surprise from God.

However, she didn't.

In the background, Xu Huai sat quietly in the corner, she was wearing a black dance skirt, she was a little absent-minded in the corner alone.Six months ago, after graduating from the Royal College of Art, she intended to return to China.She wants to see all over the world. She has seen enough in the past two years, and she has been wandering. She feels a little tired and a little lonely.Unexpectedly, before she went back, the girl she rented together in the UK suddenly had an emergency. The dance that she had signed with the group could not go to now, and Xu Huai was asked to replace her for a while.

During this time abroad, Xu Huai's life was not satisfactory at first. Thanks to her Chinese roommate, Xu Huai immediately agreed to this little favor.It's just that she didn't expect that this is a round of tour, and one of the cities is where that person is.

She lived alone for several years, deliberately keeping that person's memory in her heart, and deliberately covering the memories belonging to the two of them with dust, but when she saw only a strange but familiar city name, the memory of that person , suddenly came alive...

The author has something to say: It's out!

What a cute little mine~

Dragon Lady Qiqiqi threw a landmine

Breeze throws 1 mine with you

Few words dropped 1 mine

One and a half knots threw 1 mine

Feiyu threw a mine

Muzi threw a mine

Throw a landmine while eating candy

Iron Man dropped 1 mine

La la la ~ threw a mine