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Xu Huai almost pushed away Lin Shuyi, who was hugging her now, at that moment, and Lin Shuyi, before she could react, saw Xu Huai leave her embrace without any regrets.I don't know if it's her delusion, or she really thinks too much. When she saw Xu Huai's background, she felt that the former had a kind of loneliness and determination, as if... don't want her anymore.

Lin Shuyi frowned, and before he had time to say anything, he saw the door of the operating room was opened from the inside, and doctors and nurses wearing hats and masks came out.

Xu Huai had already strode forward to meet her. In fact, she was also thinking about her actions at that time afterwards. At that time, she didn't know how she had the courage to ask the doctor with such a strong attitude.Maybe, if she knew in advance that it would be such a bad result, she thought, maybe she didn't even have the courage to take a step forward.

The truth is, she didn't have the ability to foresee the future, and she didn't know that there was bad news waiting for her ahead, so she went forward so fearlessly.At this time, Xu Huai actually still held hope in his heart, as if he was deceiving himself and others, and also seemed to be making constant psychological hints to himself, telling himself that this was just a trivial matter, and Xu Zhouyun would be fine.

That's why she asked in such a natural tone: "Doctor, is my father okay?"

Even the eyes are affirmation of what I just said, and I hope that the person who answers her can give the answer I want.

However, why do people always say that in life, nine times out of ten things go wrong?

It's just that many things are really out of control...

But, isn't her dissatisfaction too much?In other words, in the past 20 years, God told her to experience all the good things, so, at the age of 21, all the bad things came one after another.It is clear that her back is unbearable, it has been bent and bent, but these unsatisfactory things have not let her go, God is also blindfolded, or has no time to take care of her, let her suffer from these twists and turns , the pain was overwhelming, heart-piercing, and helpless.

The doctor who came out pulled down the disposable mask on his chin, and his eyes showed a bit of pity, "Sorry, we have tried our best. Miss Xu, please go in and see Mr. Xu for the last time."

A doctor who is used to life and death, the only thing he can do now is to comfort the patient's family.It's just that this consolation doesn't actually have much effect.

The pain is not on you, and no one can feel it for anyone else.

Xu Huai was patted on the shoulder by the doctor, but she didn't feel the energy and strength transmitted from her. She stood there as if her soul had been emptied all at once, not knowing what to do.

The footsteps of the doctors and nurses had gradually faded away, but Xu Huai remained motionless.

In the end, Lin Shuyi couldn't stand it any longer, and if Xu Huai was allowed to be too timid to move forward, she might not even be able to see Xu Zhouyun for the last time.

Lin Shuyi stepped forward, gently embraced Xu Huai's shoulders, and said in a low voice, "Let's go, I'll accompany you to have a look." In the end, Xu Zhouyun's illness this time had nothing to do with her.

Lin Shuyi's kindness was rejected by Xu Huai.

At the moment when she heard Lin Shuyi's voice, Xu Huai seemed to suddenly realize it. She suddenly realized that she knew to walk into the operating room, but at the same time, she also raised her hand to put Lin Shuyi on her shoulder. The hand was slapped down.

In the empty and silent corridor, the sound of Xu Huai slapping Lin Shuyi's hand was so crisp and clear that it seemed to be able to echo in the entire corridor.

She broke free from Lin Shuyi's shackles, left her aside, and walked into the operating room by herself.

"No, thank you, please..." Xu Huai turned her back to Lin Shuyi. Tears had gathered in her eyes, but she still stubbornly refused to let them fall. She controlled her voice so that no one else could hear her. Choked up, slowly said the next two words, "Stop..."

She begged Lin Shuyi not to follow in, and walked in by herself.

In fact, looking at the door and the unknown appearance inside, Xu Huai felt very scared.Her timidity was hidden, even if she was afraid, she wanted to find a harbor to rely on, but now she knew very well that at least Lin Shuyi should not be the person she should take the initiative to rely on.

Clenching his fists, Xu Huai quickly walked in.

There was an indescribable smell in the operating room. Xu Huai didn't know whether it was her own psychological effect or the real smell that made her stomach churn. She saw the person lying on the operating table. It was removed, and now lies on it quietly and weakly.If it weren't for the faint wave traces still appearing from the heart rate monitor at the side, Xu Huai couldn't even believe that the person on it was still breathing and alive.

The distance from the door to the operating table was not too long, but Xu Huai felt that he had walked for a long time during this distance, and it seemed that he was almost unable to walk.

Before she could reach Xu Zhouyun, she couldn't help covering her mouth with her hands. The whimpering sound, which was still not hidden well, fell to every corner of the operating room, full of sadness.

Xu Huai knelt on the ground, she raised her head, wiped away the tears from her eyes vigorously, so that her vision became clear, so that she could look at the person in front of her carefully and carefully.

Xu Zhouyun looks very haggard now, what people say is a flashback, but it seems to be nothing special to him, his face is still sick, and he has no energy, he looks so weak that it makes people feel sad.

Xu Huai was very sad, Xu Zhouyun's eyes just opened slightly, as if he had no strength, "Huaihuai..." She heard Xu Zhouyun calling.

At this moment, Xu Huai felt guilty and at a loss. She desperately took Xu Zhouyun's hand, wanting to ask him not to leave.But now, she couldn't speak a complete sentence, her voice was hoarse and unpleasant, "Dad..." She wanted to beg him not to be angry, but she was afraid that this topic would make Xu Zhouyun even more uneasy.

Not only did Xu Huai have something to say to Xu Zhouyun, but Xu Zhouyun also had a lot to ask Xu Huai.

He didn't want to believe what Wen Shuran said today, but how could he not know what kind of existence Lin Shuyi was in the past six months?Even if he wanted to explain what happened back then, that woman would not believe it.Xu Zhouyun only regrets that if he hadn't had any relationship with the Fan family back then, the ending of their family would definitely be very different now.Thinking that because he killed Jiefa's wife, and now also implicated his daughter, Xu Zhouyun regretted it.

Seeing Xu Huai crying so hard, as a parent, he was very sad.

Xu Zhouyun stretched out her hand, lifted it up with great effort, and then landed on the top of Xu Huai's hair, gently, just like when she was in Xu Huai'er, every time she was mischievous, made a mistake, or acted coquettishly, Xu Zhouyun They will always gently rub her little head like this with comfort.

At this moment, Xu Zhouyun's eyes were warm and loving. He knew he didn't have much time, and now he wished he could look at Xu Huai more, for fear that he might accidentally leave the angel he left behind on the road to the underworld. forgot.

"She..." Xu Zhouyun hesitated for a while, although he felt uncomfortable, but if he didn't ask this question now, he would not feel at ease to leave like this, "Did you hit you?"

Wen Shuran said a lot, and Xu Zhouyun didn't want to take those vicious and intentionally slanderous words at all.But when he heard that Lin Shuyi treated Xu Huai badly, and when Xu Huai was beaten, he felt as if someone was holding a needle and kept stabbing his heart with the tip of the needle, causing her to be speechless in pain.

Seeing Xu Huai now, he couldn't help asking.Has his little padded jacket really been bullied?

Xu Huai wiped the tears from her cheeks, grabbed Xu Zhouyun's other big free hand, and shook her head like a rattle, "No, no..." She sobbed, wanting to give Xu Zhouyun a hand. Yun proved that he was very good, "Really..." But she couldn't say that she was very good to me.

It's bad, I'm afraid Xu Zhouyun will worry.

Yes, can it be used on her and Lin Shuyi?

Xu Zhouyun sighed, "Yes, it's my fault, harm, harm you and your mother..."

At the moment of death, people can always recall many absurd things in this life, as well as the most regrettable things.Like now, Xu Zhouyun wanted to confess to Xu Huai, he wanted to tell Xu Huai everything, "I'm right, I'm sorry you and your mother, you shouldn't have concealed it back then..." You shouldn't have concealed the existence of Wen Shuran, It shouldn't be because the latter knew Zhou Peng, was calculated again, and was finally held hostage by someone. Unexpectedly, the more he wanted to hide it, the more he was hit when the truth of the matter was revealed.So much so that, in an instant, he lost the woman he loved the most in his life.

Xu Huai knew what he wanted to say, and she understood everything. She had already made up her mind not to blame Xu Zhouyun, and now that she was dying, she would not worry about Xu Zhouyun's past. "Father, you, stop talking..." She heard Xu Zhouyun's breathing getting heavier and harder, and the temperature in her heart seemed to disappear bit by bit.

"Huaihuai, you, what will you do in the future? Leave her, think of a way, live a good life, be happier, be happier, life, you see, this life is so short, you must do things that make you happy, don't , don't wrong yourself..." Xu Zhouyun also said a lot, a lot of words to her, but the life that had been slowly taken away by the god of death was so stingy that he couldn't utter the words.

"...it's useless for dad..." He also thought about spending his whole life with his daughter, fantasized about the wedding scene, and handed over his little padded jacket to someone worthy of his trust, but all of this has become extravagant hope...

The wavy line on the screen of the heart rate monitor finally turned into a straight line without any signs of life, and there was a long, sharp and piercing sound of "Di--". The big hand that had been placed on top of Xu Huai's head from the very beginning suddenly Without strength, it slowly slid down, and the last bit of warmth in the palm disappeared.

The moment Xu Zhouyun stopped breathing, Xu Huai felt as if her heartbeat had also stopped, she didn't even dare to breathe, she forgot how to breathe, she seemed to be stupid.

After a while, she finally regained her consciousness. At the same time, she also clearly and profoundly realized that the last blood-connected family member who accompanied her childhood and adolescence was really completely removed from this world. Disappeared, no one will touch her head, call her a "little padded jacket" with natural affection, and no one will lift her up and put her on her neck to "ride a horse".

At this moment, Xu Huai let out a roar in her throat, she stood up from the ground, hugged the person on the operating table who had closed her eyes and cried bitterly.

"Ah—" She wailed like a small animal, tears pouring down, her thin back was trembling, trembling, trembling, as if the next moment, it would really be broken by such a blow, fragile And lonely.

She is really alone, and from then on, the world is as big as it is.There is no longer anyone who can be unscrupulous and coquettish, no one will tell her not to suffer from heatstroke in summer and not to catch a cold in winter, and no one will worry about whether she eats on time every day. Someone will deliver a glass of milk in the middle of the night, not to mention that every year on New Year's Eve, relatives who are dependent on each other by blood gather around a dining table to wish each other a happy New Year.

Xu Huai thought, maybe every New Year will not be happy, she lost the family who can be together, and no one will ever love her again.No one will bless her and hope that she will be happy for a lifetime.

Loneliness and fear rushed towards her like a tide, enveloping her in an instant, as if taking her into the deep sea in a second, an unknown, dark and cold area that even the sun could not reach.

Xu Huai kept crying and clamoring for Xu Zhouyun to come back. When she opened her eyes, she was not mature at all, and she found that she could not be mature either.When she really lost everything, she felt that she was going crazy and became a lunatic, stubbornly thinking that she could use screams and tears in exchange for the life of the person on the bed.

"Don't, don't leave me, dad, dad, dad... Huaihuai is very, very scared..." Not only is she afraid of the dark, she is also afraid of being alone, and she is also afraid that no one will love her anymore.

Now she didn't know what else to do but cry out to hide her deepest fears.

Lin Shuyi stood at the door, quietly looking at Xu Huai who was crying and trembling inside, with a complicated expression on his face.

"Why, you don't go in?" Lu Jingzhou also came up, the two people in the corridor had already been taken away by Yang Wu, and when he came over, he happened to see Lin Shuyi who was holding back and stood by the door.

Maybe others won't notice, but Lu Jingzhou is too familiar with Lin Shuyi, he is familiar with every expression and every movement of Lin Shuyi, just like now, Lin Shuyi's fists by his legs have been tightly clenched Together, the back is straight, but Lu Jingzhou knows that she is very hard, very hard to make her back look straight...

It looks very ordinary, but Lin Shuyi's heart must be unusual now.

"Do you think I should go in now?" Lin Shuyi didn't turn her head, her voice was low, "I'm afraid the last person she wants to see now is me."

After finishing speaking, she stopped looking at Lu Jingzhou, turned around and left the door of the operating room.

The stairs of the emergency exit are not far away, Lin Shuyi is standing by the door, leaning against the wall, standing casually, "Have you brought cigarettes?" She touched her pocket, only to find that she came out in pajamas, and couldn't help but smile wryly Twice, speaking to Lu Jingzhou not far away.

The latter handed her one, and lighted it for her by the way, "Just watching her cry like this? Doesn't it hurt?"

Lin Shuyi took a puff, and exhaled a mouthful of eye circles. The lingering smoke made her expression a little unrealistic, like the paint of an ink painting that has been smudged. "Well, it hurts."

"That……"

"But if she doesn't cry now, she will be alone in the future, and I will feel even more distressed." Lin Shuyi said slowly, she looked at the scarlet cigarette butt not far from her fingertips, her eyes were a little complicated.

This is not the first time, it is not the first time that I feel distressed so clearly, it is all because of Xu Huai.

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