After I was reborn, I was bent by a bamboo horse

The mountain road was not easy to walk. After walking around for more than half an hour, I finally stopped.

There is an orange tree in front of the tomb. It was the middle of winter and there were only bare dead branches left. From a distance, it looked desolate. There were no photos on the tombstone. The small town in the mountains more than ten years ago was not so particular, and the grass was overgrown in front of the tomb. , It can be seen that no one has been here for a long time.

I don't know why, Tao Xun suddenly felt a sense of sadness in his heart, no matter what he looked like before he was alive, and what kind of past he had, in the end, he was just buried in such a small area of ​​land, and no one even worshiped him.

Shen Chen was silent in front of the tomb for a long time. When the place where he had read all his life was close in front of him, he suddenly felt a little unreal. In fact, with so much time, it may not be true that he would not have the opportunity to come back. dare.

——Don’t dare to set foot in the homeland, just like Shen Changmin, he can’t avoid it.

This is probably the beginning of all the misfortunes and grievances in his life.

The palm passed by on the cold tombstone, withered grass had grown beside the stone monument, snow was covering the side, and everything was silent.

—His mother is buried here.

The emotions from the bottom of my heart came surging, almost rushing to the gate of the haze in my heart, and the surging hostility almost leaked from the bottom of my eyes, and then was forcefully suppressed.

The moment his finger touched the tombstone, he seemed to have returned to that cold and windy night more than ten years ago, when the silhouette of a person falling from his eyes like a bird, the temperature in his palm instantly cooled down, leaving only the bitter wind It has been blowing from many years ago until now, and it is bone-chillingly cold.

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He stood in front of the tombstone for a long time. Tao Xun knew that he shouldn't disturb him at this time, so he just stopped silently and never approached. The young man not far away looked extraordinarily thin in the white snow. His posture was hunched, his left hand was covering the cold stone tablet, and his eyes were filled with bottomless darkness.

The heavy snow that had stopped in the morning began to fall again.

The mountains behind him were covered with continuous heavy snow, and the mountain wind was sluggish, which made Tao Xun feel inexplicably flustered for a certain moment.

□□ was quiet, he suddenly felt a little uneasy in his heart, he took two steps forward unconsciously, and held his arm: "Brother Chen, it's snowing heavily, let's go back."

The moment Tao Xun grasped it, Tao Xun almost thought he was holding a piece of ice, the two cuff buttons on the cuff were icy cold, and the slender wrist exposed by the cuff was faintly blue from the cold.

The person caught in the memory was suddenly startled, his hand on the tombstone froze for a moment, and when he turned around again, his eyes calmed down, as if the past that almost tore his sanity just now did not exist .

— but still left some traces.

For example, the sharpness in his eyes has not gone away, but it was only for a moment, and then the phone in his pocket suddenly rang.

——Shen Changmin.

This phone call came suddenly and by coincidence, and there was a rare silence there, so he was the first to call out: "Father."

——It is the usual alienated and indifferent tone.

Shen Changmin pressed his eyebrows, because Shen Cong just had a fight with Liu Sili, and some things are wounds hidden in the calm, once they are torn apart, blood will inevitably flow.

The hysterical voice of the woman outside the room tore apart the superficial family harmony, and he inexplicably missed his other son, Shen Chen.

He really doesn't know why Shen Cong is obviously his son. How could Shen Cong be so stupid? He has reached a bottleneck in his career in a high-ranking position. The last step is to jump into the dragon's gate, and the next step may be to perish. He doesn't have the mind to care about his children. It's a bad thing, but under the interference of Grandpa Shen Cong, I still asked a question.

The result is that that piece of land will not be of any use for at least ten years, and Shen Chen was obviously smarter than him at that time, and immediately pulled out in time after finding out that there was a problem. Cleaned up.

If you are not greedy enough, you will reap the consequences.

What's more, even his current situation may not be considered good——

He felt a bit of a headache, and it was only when Shen Chen's voice sounded that he realized that the call had already been dialed.

Every new year, he and Shen Chen only have at most three words to say, and they are not polite like father and son, but this time he did not hang up after he finished speaking, he knew that the child had gone back, so he fell silent for a while. asked, "Where are you?"

Shen Chen's hand was removed from the tombstone without hesitation, and his voice was calm and deep: "In front of my mother's tomb."

Before he was ten years old, he could still obediently call his father and mother. After the turn of his fate, the natural alienation began to appear in him, and he never called his father again.

Father, this title fully expresses the alienation that is not very close, and politely maintains the meager blood relationship.

There seemed to be a sound of taking a breath from the other side, and the silence was long, and then he heard the person on the other side say calmly: "Bring a stick of incense to your mother for me."

No matter how restrained he is, Shen Chen can still hear the trembling in the end of his voice. It is rare for this man who is nearly fifty years old and in a high position to be so unable to restrain his emotions.

He lowered his head and glanced at the desolate scene in front of the tomb, and said with biting sarcasm in his voice, "If you want to go to Xiangda, you can come here by yourself, and I don't need to do it for you. If you don't want to, forget it."

——Just like the past ten years, the past never existed, and the person who died here never existed.

After speaking for the first time, he hung up the phone first, no longer caring about the ups and downs of the people on the other side.

Although he doesn't want to admit it, he is indeed like his father. They are just as ruthless and unlucky, they put profit first in everything, they refuse to trust anyone, and they are equally indifferent.

The hand on the cuff was warm, just covering the part of his wrist exposed to the air, his eyes slowly moved up along the well-knit arm, and he saw Tao Xun's face as expected, he was handsome and delicate, and his eyebrows and eyes were full of tenderness. It's the nobleness and dignity brought up by the family, which is the nobleness that has been cultivated for a long time, and it is not the temperament that cannot be cultivated by such a family.

Sometimes he felt that Tao Xun really met him after eight lifetimes of misfortune, and ended in a dismal end, otherwise, even if he is not very smart, he should have lived a happy and reckless life.

Tao Xun seemed to be aware of it, looked up at him, and said cautiously: "Brother Chen, what's wrong?"

From the content of the conversation just now, he can probably guess who is calling. The sarcasm in Shen Chen's tone is so obvious that it is difficult for people to ignore it. Naturally, he can't be clear about the grievances back then, but it may not be that simple to see Shen Chen like this thing.

——He was afraid that Shen Chen would feel uncomfortable, after all, it was still time for family reunion.

Shen Chen's eyes flickered, then he shook his head, retracted his hand, and said calmly, "It's okay, let's go back."

Although Young Master Tao wants demeanor rather than temperature, and he looks like a handsome young man dressed up like a peacock every day, he is more afraid of the cold than anyone else in his bones.

Before leaving, he looked back for the last time, the tombstone was silent in the deep mountains, he thought sarcastically, his mother really had the bad luck of eight lifetimes to meet Shen Changmin who looked at the refined and elegant scum like Shen Changmin.

——So, did mother regret it?

People walk like lights out, and some questions will never be answered for a lifetime, just like he has always wanted to know, whether Tao Xun, who died alone in the cold night for his crime and was implicated by him, resented him before he died, and whether he regretted it.

There is no answer to the past, and the young man beside him followed behind him step by step, hesitated for a moment, and pretended to casually mention: "Brother Chen, if you want to come back later, if no one is with you, just call me, and I will accompany you back. "

- It's so lonely alone.

Even though Shen Chen is used to being alone, he still wants to be by his side.

Shen Chen paused, looked up at the heavy snow falling from the sky, the corners of his mouth showed a slight arc under the thin sunlight, it was hard to tell if he was smiling or looked up as an illusion.

Tao Xun has always been careful with Shen Chen, and the premise of accompanying him back is that no one will be with him, but in fact, Tao Xun, who would never betray him except for death, how could it be possible for others to know about his past with Shen Chen's temperament? Untouchable scars?

He and Shen Changmin are the same people, they are ungrateful and ungrateful, they don't think that others can treat him well for no reason, and it is absolutely impossible for him to treat others well - only Tao Xun is the exception.

Is this a bit blatant?Tao Xun felt uneasy for a moment.

Shen Chen didn't walk fast, but just now he was thinking about whether he was going too far, and suddenly he fell behind a lot. Relying on the long legs, the young man hastened to catch up with the person in front, but he forgot that the ground under his feet was rough. The mountain path is covered with a thin layer of snow.

In fact, it was just tilted a bit, and I quickly reacted and stood firm. When I looked up, I saw the hand beside me that I hadn't retracted in time. The bones were distinct, and it barely stopped an inch away.

"..."

I hate it, I should have fallen into Brother Chen's arms just now!

What opportunity had he just missed?

Tao Xun was in pain.

But even if Shen Chen really came to help him, he would at most dare to pull down his arms, and a big man nestled in his arms. He felt that brother Chen could kick him into the snow to calm him down.

Decades later, the impoverished and backward town has also been reborn, and the vague memory cannot support returning to their hometown. Fortunately, there are homestays that have not closed during the New Year, which prevents them from sleeping on the streets.

Respecting Shen Chen's obsession with cleanliness, the ones that can barely catch Mr. Shen's eyes are the completely uninhabited houses that seem to have just been renovated. The biggest advantage is that it is clean and tidy. People feel lonely.

——Similarly, the refrigerator is also empty.

There is a kitchen in the homestay, with an induction cooker and a spatula. It looks brand new and there is no sign of anyone using it.

Tao Xun agonized over the issue of ordering takeaway for a long time, and finally handed the phone to Shen Chen. His taste is spicy, and he doesn't like meat, but Shen Chen has no special preference. He doesn't like anything in particular. , but he is picky, much more picky than the notorious picky Tao Xun.

The difference is probably that Tao Xun's picky mouth would let others know, but Shen Chen never said it. He was too embarrassed to speak up in the Shen family, and later he got used to not letting others know his preferences, probably because of Tao Xun's extra attention. These are a little clearer, but not too sure.

Shen Chen glanced twice, threw the phone back, picked up the coat from the chair and pushed open the door.

The oncoming cold wind made Tao Xun shiver, and quickly grabbed his coat from the sofa to follow.

The town can be regarded as peaceful, but the economy is not very developed. There are not many people on the street during the New Year's Eve, and the leather shoes make a creaking sound when stepping on the snow.

Shen Chen bought a lot of things, vegetables, fruits, toiletries, miscellaneous things, and carried two big bags, one for each person, Tao Xun wanted to grab all of them, but Shen Chen opened his hand.

The lights along the way were dim, making the figures slim and slender. When you were tired, you took a rest under the nearby shop. The door of the shop was closed, and there were two red lanterns hanging in front of the door, showing a little festive atmosphere. .

Like a peacock opening its tail when courting a mate, Young Master Tao has always tried to save face in front of Shen Chen. He always tries to dress as nicely as possible, and doesn't care whether it's cold or not.

In the end, Shen Chen couldn't stand it anymore, and threw his scarf on his head, the warmth of his sweetheart swept over him, and the shivering man was stunned for a long time, but he didn't realize what happened.

After a while, he struggled to reveal his eyes, and through the blurred light, he saw a slender young man under the street lamp not far away, and raised his eyebrows at him with rare helpless eyes.

"Not coming yet?"

At that moment, there was an unspeakable throbbing in his heart, as if no matter how stupid or smart he was, as long as he was willing to move forward, the person he had been chasing would always be waiting for him.

—Wait until he came to his side.

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A good-looking person is good-looking even if he wears an apron. Young Master Tao doesn't touch the spring water with his fingers and knows nothing about cooking. In the end, Shen Chen cooks.

The haute couture suit jacket had already been put on the sofa, leaving only a white shirt with two unbuttoned collar buttons. The well-tailored shirt just outlined his slender and well-proportioned figure, with smooth and explosive muscle lines.

Tao Xun sat leaning on the sofa with an improper posture, holding the remote control in his hand, but his eyes didn't stay on the TV screen at all, almost stuck to the person and couldn't get off.

The big words "I want to take off my clothes" were almost naked in his eyes, but Shen Chen remained calm, turning a blind eye to the naked gaze behind his back.

——Young Master Tao is in a daze during meetings, and when he has nothing to do, he often stares at him with such savage eyes, what he has been familiar with many years ago can no longer be familiar.

Commonly known as immunity, he is not a dull person, on the contrary, if an outsider looks at him with such a naked look, he may immediately find out that something is wrong. Only Tao Xun, who has accepted this kind of look since he was a teenager, has already accepted this kind of look. No wonder to the point of complete indifference.

——I don't know if it's Tao Xun's luck or his misfortune.

Shen Chen ordered two bowls of vegetable noodle soup with the ingredients, and beat two poached eggs. When the Gulu Gulu soup boiled, Tao Xun went over and handed over a bowl - he wanted to help, but he didn't know anything, so in the end he had to Pass a bowl and chopsticks.

From a conscience point of view, Shen Chen's craftsmanship is not bad. He is picky to a certain extent, and he is strict with himself. Even when it comes to cooking, he tries his best to be perfect.

Tao Xun had tasted all delicacies in his life, but nothing could compare to this bowl of noodles.

It was snowing heavily outside the window, he and Shen Chen shared a pot of noodles, away from those disputes and entanglements, without the hustle and bustle of the outside world, the tranquility was like something in a dream.

It’s rare for a workaholic like Shen Chen to take a long vacation for himself. He didn’t intend to go back until the tenth day of the lunar new year. Zhang Bocong had no choice but to take over half of the company’s affairs. quit.

Then, as he wishes, the corresponding increase in wages is the length of his working hours.

Shen Chen and Tao Xun lived leisurely. Most of the company's affairs can be handled by computer, and those that need to be discussed in person can be handed over to Zhang Bocong depending on the situation. The rest of the time can be freely allocated.

The pace of life in the small town is a bit slower than that in the capital. The homestay they chose is quieter. Not too far away, there are grandpas and grandsons who are not afraid of the cold playing chess at the door wrapped in padded jackets. The Lantern Festival is approaching, and the New Year’s lanterns are still on. All kinds of colorful lights have been hung on the branches.

The ease of life made Tao Xun feel unreal. When Shen Chen couldn't sleep, he would go out for a walk with him. The national policy has not yet spread to remote villages and towns. People will still set off fireworks during the Chinese New Year. It's bad luck. Sometimes debris will fall into the collar.

Tao Xun's luck has never been very good, Shen Chen stretched his neck uncomfortably when he fell into the collar, and asked Shen Chen to reach out to get him out. He thought that Shen Chen would definitely refuse, but unexpectedly he agreed.

He didn't realize how cold it was until his slender fingers fell into the collar, as if a piece of ice fell into the collar suddenly, and he shivered from the cold.

Mr. Tao, who was afraid of the cold, quickly pulled out his hands, and then stretched out his tightly covered hands to hold his frozen hands in his palms, and began to breathe while covering them.

Shen Chen, who had a rare teasing smile on his face, froze.

The warm breath touched the finger to restore a little feeling to the already unconscious fingertips. This is undoubtedly an intimate gesture. The young man's lips were almost attached to his palm, and the breath seemed to rub against his fingers.

——It is the temperature that touches the apex of the heart.

As long as he lifts up a little bit, he can touch the young man's lips, warm and soft - Shen Chen put away this idea in time, he vaguely felt that he was too relaxed these days, which gave him some unrealistic ideas.

When his fingers gradually regained consciousness, he reached out and touched Tao Xun's hair that was blown in all directions by the cold wind, just like touching the Alaska he raised when he was young-it felt good.

Tao Xun's hair was smoothed, and he rubbed it up subconsciously.

The person who had been keeping a cold face finally couldn't hold back and was amused by this stupidity. The laughter was slightly low, and the dullness was a rare pleasure.

Hearing the sound, Tao Xun raised his head and peeked out of the corner of his eyes, was dazzled by this rare smile, was stunned for a while, and then was knocked lightly on the forehead.

After this incident, Young Master Tao, who never paid much attention to keeping warm, began to buy all kinds of warm things, even if he went out for a walk, he was afraid that he would freeze Brother Chen.

He has one attitude towards himself, and another attitude towards Shen Chen, it's simply a double standard.

Tao Xun sometimes takes pictures, Shen Chen seems to have a temperament, no matter where he stands, he always has an alienated and indifferent attitude, but at home, he still has a bit of smoke and fire, of course, when he washes his hands and makes soup like that, he will definitely not will send out.

—he had to keep it to himself.

Later, I carefully selected two photos and posted them on Moments. In the photos, the young man was wearing a khaki scarf, with a slender neck, and was standing in the snow in black, looking back indifferently, his brows were slightly raised, and there was heavy snow beside him.

It is a photo taken with great care, which exaggerates Shen Chen's alienated and indifferent temperament to the extreme, but the heavy snow around him perfectly modifies the sharpness of his eyes, as if he heard some voice, with a thoughtful look on his brows and eyes , is the gentleness and calmness rarely seen in Shen Chen.

Driven crazy by work, Zhang Bocong scolded in between staying up late and working overtime: Do you want to be so aboveboard on your honeymoon? ? ?

Tao Xun resolutely chose to ignore him, but couldn't hold back his brows and eyes. Brother Chen is not interested in these things, and there is a high probability that he won't read them at all.

It was just an unintentional act at first, but later Tao Xun thought that if he knew what happened in the future, he might not even send this photo even if he interrupted.

On the eve of the Lantern Festival, the Tao family finally couldn't bear it anymore and called back to ask Tao Xun to go back. The ceramic full moon banquet will be held. After all, he is still the young master of the Tao family. It is really unreasonable not to go back.

It was Tao Zhixing who made the call, and the helm of the Tao family was all gentle and gentle to the outside world, and he was so inhumane when he was fierce to his son, and the scolding was almost useless.

Tao Xun hung up the phone and stood outside the door for a while, impatiently kicking the snow around his feet with his leather shoes. Brother Chen was in a better mood recently, and if he didn't want to go back now—he couldn't go back alone. He came here with brother Chen, so he left first because of his own death.

——Shen Chen has a cold temper, he himself felt like a dream in the past half month, no one can make Shen Chen be so gentle to each other.

But for some reason, his father's tone this time seemed to be particularly serious. He had actually messed around a few years ago, scolding, but it was not in such a tone. He vaguely felt that something was wrong.

But he didn't think too much about it. Although his father was in a hurry, there was still a week before the ceramic full moon banquet, and it would not be a problem to rush back.

——He still wanted to spend the Lantern Festival with Brother Chen.

The Lantern Festival in Xingyi is very lively, the street is full of colorful lights, and the flow of people is so tight that they cannot be rushed away. Tao Xun is not familiar with the terrain, and has followed Shen Chen closely since he went out. After walking for half an hour, we finally settled in a restaurant.

The local sesame glutinous rice balls have a milky aroma, and you can feel the warm atmosphere when you sit in the store. After ordering, Tao Xun went over to explain the things to pay attention to——Shen Chen doesn’t eat too sweet, but less sugar add.

When he went back, he found that there was already a bowl of sweet soup in his place, with his favorite corn added.

The person opposite looked down at his watch, as if he didn't realize it.

It was past nine o'clock when he came out after eating glutinous rice balls, and the sky was hazy and dark. Shen Chen took him for a walk along the school wall.

"My mother used to teach here, and my elementary school is here." The young man under the light nodded slightly, his narrow eyes and thin cold lips softened by the light.

After walking a certain distance, he would open his mouth to say something, not much, just a few or two sentences, like introducing and recalling, it took an hour to stop and go for a short distance, he used the most calm The tone revealed the past and the past to his eyes.

It was a line that was once unbreakable.

Tao Xun lived in the guest room. At night, he couldn't open his eyes and ran over to say good night before he could sleep peacefully.

After the Lantern Festival, Shen Chen was finally urged back by Zhang Bocong. When he came, he came empty-handed, but when he returned, his hands were full of luggage. Tao Xun almost brought everything he could bring with him. The things Shen Chen chose for him were lost, and finally he couldn’t pick them up, so he had to send them by express air go back.

Shen Chen: "..."

The journey went smoothly. Shen Chen has traveled abroad more than once or twice in these years, but it was the first time that someone accompanied him. Xiao Guo drove over to pick them up early. Seeing the luggage in his hand, he almost didn't react. Tao Xun was offended He knocked on the head, but was stopped when he was about to get in the car.

The middle-aged man wearing gold-rimmed glasses had a gentle smile on his face, and blocked the closing of the car door with his hand: "Sir, come and pick you up in person, you'd better go by."

The window of the car not far away was slightly rolled down halfway, revealing the face that resembled him, with a gentle and refined face like a mask, his eyes paused on him for a moment, and then moved to Tao Xun.

So he heard the secretary next to him continue: "Young Master Tao, don't worry, Mrs. Tao is already waiting for you outside."

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Shen Chen's hands are cold all the year round, and he can't warm up no matter what, it's inconvenient to do things after being frozen, Tao Xun feels distressed after seeing it.

After we got together, Tao Xun paid special attention to this matter, and warmed his brother Chen's hands in winter every day.

Shen Chen never hides his own thoughts. After warming up his cold fingers, he obeys his inner thoughts, touches the warmth that is close at hand, traces the outline of his lips, and then there are indescribable things below the green jj eyebrows

I always brake hard on the way

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