AB crash

After Eli left, I didn't go anywhere. I stayed at home for three days. During the period, the doctor wanted to talk to me. I thanked him behind closed doors and told him: "Give me some time... I need to get used to it... I mean……"

"Doctor, I might want to live somewhere else."

The doctor asked me to stay, I declined his kindness, and expressed my gratitude to him for his continuous help.

"I thought, leave the familiar room... and start a new life."

After listening to my speech, the doctor left.

Obviously I just said that kind of thing to the doctor, but when I turned around, I stayed in Eli's room, lying on his bed, as if dying, desperately absorbing his remaining breath...

Three days later, I went out with my luggage and returned the key to the doctor forever.

The doctor told me that Alemin and Kanrui both came to me these days and he helped me deal with them.

After I left my PhD, I contacted Kanry, and I could hear how surprised he was when he got my newsletter. As expected of a buddy, he immediately complied with my request and helped me find a new house.

"Why don't you go back to Ke's house?" he asked.

I was silent for a while, not knowing how to answer, maybe subconsciously, I still believe that I have no relatives, only friends.

The house Kan Rui found for me was next door to him, and it was unexpectedly convenient to contact him afterwards.

A month later, Kanrui helped me apply for a position in the military region and finally passed the review, and I was a federal mecha soldier again.

I didn't try to get in touch with Kafir, and while I'm curious to know how Eli is doing, I know... it's time to stop.

If I knew the news about him, I would only miss him self-abuse, but even now, when I am not busy with other things, when I am alone, my mind is still full of him... It is no different from self-abuse, but I Can't control it.

The night before Kanrui and Kanrui planned to go to the military region to report, I was squatting at Kanrui's house playing games when I vaguely heard something strange outside the door.

The sound insulation effect of today's houses is very good. If there is not too much movement, it is generally inaudible inside.

I thought it was Kanrui who came back, so I yawned, got up and walked to the door, but saw on the monitoring device at the door... the scene of Ah Leimin and Kanrui wrestling together.

I rushed out and pulled Kanrui away to block between the two of them. A Leimin took half a step back and looked up at me, "Are you finally willing to come out?" he asked.

"Tell me clearly, what are you doing?" I was unusually calm.

"Why didn't you reply when I contacted you?" Aleimin ignored my question and asked me on his own.

"Why do I have to reply to you?" I said this, but I was too lazy to explain. These days I was busy dealing with all kinds of problems left over from before, and I lived with Kanrui at night. Kan Rui took a look at the light brain, but he didn't say anything.

"I have something to ask you, and this guy just kept you here, intentionally..." Alemin was halfway through speaking, obviously still angry, and his fists were clenched loudly.

Kanrui frowned and looked at A Leimin with disgust on his face. He grabbed my arm and asked me to go back to the house, while saying: "He's a lunatic! Leave him alone, he's just sick and has been pestering you all day , it’s almost fatal.”

"You fucking say it again!" All of a sudden, A Leimin took a few steps forward, his eyes were open, and he was chanting Kan Rui's name, like a madman suffering from drug addiction.

"A Leimin." I held Kanrui to prevent him from rushing over to further conflict with A Leimin.

A Leimin stopped [-] centimeters in front of me, like a starving man seeing food, with helplessness and longing in his eyes, the first time I saw his expression like this, I couldn't help being shocked, "I think we should have a good talk Talk." I said.

A Leimin was stunned for a while, and then asked: "How to talk about it?"

Kanrui gave me a look of disapproval, and I patted him on the shoulder: "Don't worry, he won't eat me again." Saying that, I walked towards the courtyard.

A Leimin followed me obediently, and I turned around. His face was illuminated by parade night lights flying slowly across the sky—his hair was so deep black, his face so white as to be miserable, and his eyes were smudged. Open black, giving people a very uncoordinated feeling.

It can be seen that he is not having a good time these days.

"What's your situation?" I laughed, "You want to see me so much?"

A Leimin stared at me and sneered, as if mocking, but he didn't comment on my words.

"Have you taken your medicine?" I kicked a small stone away and asked him.

"I don't want to eat." The voice was extremely soft, with arrogance of disdain.

"If you don't take medicine, you will become crazy."

"I'd rather become a lunatic than take medicine. I'd rather be insane and want to see you." A Leimin was very calm when he said this. At this moment, his mood has almost stabilized.

"After you recover, you will only feel how ridiculous you are now."

"Laugh I love you?"

I was a little shocked, and immediately realized: "Do you know what you are talking about? You call this love?"

"Ke Yao, don't make it seem like you are the only one who knows what love is. I do too."

"Your current condition is just a sequelae!" I really didn't know whether to cry or laugh, "You..."

"I can also say that you fell in love with Eli, and it's just a sequela left by him marking you." A Leimin said this very seriously, and in my impression, he said this sentence more than once.

"You fart!" I couldn't help cursing: "What do you know? Why do you say such things in front of me every time!"

"In the end, you have always liked beta," A Leimin's voice suddenly rose, "If he hadn't raped you that night, you wouldn't have fallen in love with him at all, and you wouldn't have fallen to this point now! "

"Shut up!" I didn't know how to refute him, I was stunned for a while, and just said: "Just treat it as an accident, I fell in love with him, and I admit it."

"Then I'll treat it as an accident that I got this disease. I'm in love with you, and I admit it."

I stayed where I was, not knowing how to react.

"I'm confessing my love to you." A Leimin's voice was harsh.

"It's impossible for me to respond to you." I raised my face and looked at him, "You go to receive treatment first, take your medicine on time, and when you recover, you will know what you are doing now."

Alemin chuckled lightly: "If I find out that I still love you, will you marry me?"

"Stop fucking talking to me!" I was a little annoyed, "Go! Go to the doctor."

Alemin and I visited the doctor's residence, and the doctor arranged for him to take the medicine, which he took on time this time.

When I asked him to continue to take medicine in the future, he made a condition to me: "I can take medicine if you want me to. Every time I take medicine in the future, you must be by my side."

I raised my eyebrows, "Otherwise?"

"I'm going to find you, no matter what the cost."

"Crazy." I couldn't help cursing.

A Leimin grinned, showing a bloody smile, "You let this lunatic live in your body for ten years."

This time, I parted with A Leimin peacefully. He told me in advance that I would meet him the next day when I was reporting in the military region.

After going back, I explained the situation to Kanrui and went to sleep.

Later, I lived the life of a federal office worker.

In recent years, the Empire and the Federation have rarely been in constant disputes over the border issue, so like me, even if we return to the team, we still have a lot of free time.

At a certain time every month, I will meet with A Leimin and monitor him to take the medicine. During this time, he has no symptoms and is very good.

During this period of time, I will also pay attention to the news of the empire from time to time, hoping to dig out even a little bit of information about Eli from it.

I know he was at a conference, met with a representative of the Federation, or maybe a citizen of the Empire saw him in public...

The citizens of the empire said that after returning to the empire after studying secretly in the federation for three years, the eldest prince became more active than before.

Probably in the entire empire, there are only a few who know the truth.

Eli, he probably has his memory deleted.

I don't know if anyone will mention me to him, mention to him the love affair that made people in this empire feel indignant, so maybe he can think of me.

Or maybe, when he heard this, he would find it ridiculous and ridiculous—how could he fall in love with a beta who was a servant?

I miss him very much, I really want to see him. At night, when I’m bored alone, I even think, even if I become that servant who works as a handyman in the palace again, let me see him from a distance. Also willing.

Until one day, I heard from Kanrui that the eldest prince of the empire will come to the Federation to watch and study in a while.

I am very happy.

That night, when I made an appointment with A Leimin, I had a big fight with him.

"You are so capable, why do you just order me? If you have the ability, don't let him come, don't let me attend, why!"

"Don't think I don't know what you're thinking! He's already forgotten about you! I really don't know what you're still thinking about!"

I couldn't bear it anymore, I raised my fist and swung it at Aleimin with all my strength.

A Leimin dodged it, and then grabbed my upper arm violently. I took this opportunity to kick his calf fiercely. He grunted and cursed, and then struck harder, trying to subdue me.

After 10 minutes passed, I didn't expect that in front of A Leimin, a "novice" who had not been training for a long time, I would gradually gain the upper hand.

I obviously haven't neglected to practice... Thinking of this, I feel a little frustrated.

When I distanced myself from him again, I cursed and said, "Stop fighting, let's go." Then I turned around and wanted to run, but unexpectedly I was caught by him:

"I don't allow you to see him!"

Roaring, like a lion's warning to its prey.