How To Say I Love You

Xiao Jiashu is already ashamed to face others, he really made a slip of the tongue!What the hell is the lady in the palace?It is really shameful to be canonized in front of the people of the whole country!While covering his face and moaning, he pushed Ji Mian and begged, "Brother Ji, take care of them."

Ji Mian smiled and said, "Okay, stop making trouble, Xiaoshu is shy."

"Pfft! The king dotes on the empress with great strength, so I can only resign!" The little crowns made another wave of teasing, and then retreated one after another, making the audience almost burst into laughter.Today's Ji Mian really opened their eyes. He can talk about any topic, pick up any stalks, and crack any jokes. It simply subverts everyone's usual impression of him.But it is undeniable that this kind of him is more likable, because he is real.

Lin Leyang watched the joyful interaction between the two, his whole heart was bleeding, and finally stood up in a trance when the host said goodbye.

Chen Pengxin hurried up to help him, with a very anxious expression on his face.The ratings of this program set a historical record, and there are naturally many reasons, but the director said to him after analysis: Whenever Xiao Jiashu and Ji Mian interact, the ratings will rise a little, which shows that the audience loves the two very much.But Lin Leyang's performance in the show was extremely bad, with a stiff expression, awkward chats throughout the whole process, and no communication with other guests.Even a blind man could see that he was isolated, which further confirmed the rumors that he was at odds with Miao Muqing and Xiao Jiashu.

"Smile, the camera is still shooting." Chen Pengxin pressed Lin Leyang's shoulder hard.

"I can't laugh." Lin Leyang choked with sobs, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth.He couldn't bear it any longer.

"Let's go to the dressing room first." The two went backstage hand in hand.

At the same time, Xiao Jiashu was also very disturbed.He followed behind Ji Mian like a little tail, wanting to say something, but didn't know how to speak.He wanted to tell Ji Mian that he didn't intend to pry into his privacy, he just liked him so much, so he would pay attention to every bit of him unconsciously, and then quietly remember it in his heart.He can't control his thinking, but he can control his actions. He will never pester him endlessly, nor will he make all kinds of excessive demands just because of his liking.

He just wants to support Brother Ji silently and give him a place in his heart to entertain himself.

He was thinking about this all over his head, and he didn't realize that he had been circling Ji Mian for a long time, circling left and right, almost making Ji Mian's life assistant faint.

When the assistant was squeezed by him and had nowhere to go, Ji Mian finally said, "Aren't you going back to remove your makeup and change your clothes?"

"Eh?" Xiao Jiashu looked up and realized that he had followed Brother Ji's dressing room door, and said in a low voice, "I just want to see you off, so I'll go first." He still didn't dare to say it in the end, but he knew how to use it The action shows that I will never become Ji Ge's troubles, I am not a fan of brains, but a fan of true love + reason.

"Okay, go back and rest early." Ji Mian looked down at him, his eyes flickering.

Xiao Jiashu left with a wave of his hands, and when he was about to walk around the corner, he suddenly heard a "puchi" laugh from behind him, and when he looked back, he found that Brother Ji looked very tired, and he was rubbing the center of his brows, and he couldn't help telling, "Brother Ji, you should go back to rest earlier. "

"Yeah." Ji Mian nodded slightly, and only let out a low laugh when the person walked away.

"Mr. Ji, do you think Xiao Jiashu really admires you or is he trying to use you to stir up the heat?" The assistant looked worried.

"Based on his connections, do you still need to use me to stir up the heat?" Ji Mian pushed the door in and said calmly, "Although the entertainment industry is very chaotic, there are also really clean people."

Seeing that his expression was wrong, the assistant didn't dare to speak.Fang Kun walked in from the outside while making a phone call, hung up and cursed, "Damn it, the audit department itself failed to pass the investment plans of "A Hundred Years of Dreams" and "The Ruthless Prince", so why blame me instead! If not That damn boy Lin Leyang..."

He stopped the topic in time, and said weakly, "Brother Ji, didn't you say to invest in your own name? Why didn't you vote?"

"I don't want to vote anymore. One person would be full if he ate the cake, but if two people share it, one of them would have to starve. Besides, even without me, these two dramas have been filmed, and the filming is very good." Ji Mian lay on the sofa When he fell asleep, the makeup artist was removing his makeup.

Fang Kun pinched his fingers to make the final calculation, and couldn't help feeling sorry.You know, Ji Ge planned to invest 4000 million yuan in two dramas at the beginning, and if he divided them according to the ratio, he would have already made three or four times the profit by now!Sorry!

He didn't dare to mention this matter again, and silently turned on his mobile phone to follow the drama. Halfway through the chase, there was a knock on the door, and Lin Leyang's voice came from outside, "Brother Ji, are you there?"

"Not here!" Fang Kun shouted impatiently.

It was quiet outside for a while and then knocked persistently, "Brother Ji, I want to talk to you."

Fang Kun was about to push him away, but Ji Mian said quietly, "Let him in. You guys go out first."

Several people filed out, leaving space for the two of them.

"What do you want to say?" Ji Mian washed his face, and was slowly wiping the drops of water from his forehead with a towel.He looked so calm, he didn't look like he was once passionately in love, and he didn't look haggard after breaking up.

Lin Leyang secretly swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and said in a trembling voice, "Brother Ji, are you with Xiao Jiashu, or else he wouldn't know you so well. You broke up with me because of him, right?"

"He and I are just ordinary friends. You still don't understand why I broke up with you?" Ji Mian put down the towel with a solemn expression.

"I don't understand. We have been in love for several years. We have never quarreled or had too many conflicts. How can I figure it out if you say we want to break up?" Lin Leyang summoned all his courage to ask These words.No one knows, when he saw Brother Ji and Xiao Jiashu getting along so happily, his heart felt like a blunt knife was being cut, and the pain was unbearable!

Ji Mian stared at him, and finally sighed, "Are you unable to figure it out or are you afraid to think about it? What do you think is the happiest way we get along?"

Lin Leyang was stunned for a long time before saying, "I thought we were always happy."

"Do you feel happy when I interfere with you more and more? No, you are not happy all the time, you are just enduring. Do you understand what you want from me in order to be satisfied? You need my unconditional support for you, Tolerate you unconditionally, understand and even make concessions unconditionally, so that you can get the greatest sense of security. Whenever I control you a little bit, you will erect spikes all over your body, thinking that I have restricted your freedom and did not treat you as equals I look at it as an individual. But is this really the case? I have paid so much for you, and you can accept it with peace of mind as long as you say "I really love Ji Ge", and then keep walking in place, never thinking of getting close to me, why? Because You don't like men, you changed your sexuality for me, this is the greatest sacrifice and sacrifice, so you will never be satisfied, and you will never feel that you should do something for me."

Lin Leyang was stunned as if struck by lightning.

Ji Mian lit a cigarette and continued, "You said that our status is not equal, that's true, but the one who stands above me is never me, but you. No matter how much I pay, it's not enough for you, Because you were bent by me, you changed from a straight man to a disgusting homosexual, this is my original sin, and I owe you my whole life."

"No, no, I never thought about it that way." Lin Leyang shook his head weakly.

"Do you think that way? You may not know it in your heart, but it shows clearly in your actions." Ji Mian exhaled a puff of smoke, and said slowly, "When I forced Chen Pengxin and Chen Pengyu to write down the IOU, did you complain? I?"

Lin Leyang wanted to shake his head, but couldn't move.Under Ji Mian's gaze, he felt that he had nothing to hide.

"If those photos and chat records are exposed, do you think I will be more affected, or you? To say something unpleasant, I have already reached my current status. What black material can bring me down. I will still leave the entertainment circle." Can live. You have never thought that when I treat Chen Pengxin and Chen Pengyu so harshly, who is the person I really want to protect? Who is the biggest beneficiary? Whenever I encounter difficulties, I will subconsciously put You are included in the wings, but you are completely opposite. You can stand on the opposite side of me immediately. You and Chen Pengxin belong to the same country, but I have become a bad person. You can forgive Chen Pengyu for betraying, but you can't understand my feelings. Is it really fair for you to treat me like this? What right do you have to hate me like they do? Even if I am sorry to the whole world, I am not sorry to you. Our love is free, I did not force you to respond, You must change your sexuality, it is your own choice. If you are not willing, you should tell me that you are straight."

Lin Leyang shed two lines of tears unknowingly, unable to utter any rebuttal words.

Ji Mian put out the cigarette and sighed, "Do you know why Xiao Jiashu understands me better than you? Because he puts his heart into it, and you are my lover. We have been together for so many years, have you ever cared for me? Indeed, I don't know what you really like, but I tried hard to understand you. You closed the door to me and hid your true self, so what I thought I understood was just you It’s just an illusion created for me. I like what I hate, as long as you observe carefully, you can also find that I have prevented you from entering my heart? No, on the contrary, I have been pulling you into my heart , and you keep resisting."

"You first cut off the channel for us to get close to each other, but then asked me why I broke up with you. Do you think we can really go on for a long time with our situation? One person keeps trying to get closer, and the other People are hiding in a transparent cover and watching, can their hands be held together? Lin Leyang, you overestimate my perseverance, I may be able to persist for two or three years, but I cannot persist for a lifetime."

He put on his coat, opened the door, and said in a deep voice, "I won't look back, you have to keep going, let's go our separate ways."

The door was gently closed, and Lin Leyang looked into the makeup mirror, and found himself in tears.If he didn't come this trip, he might still be able to lie to himself, and he could still swear that brother Ji still loves him, they can go on, and they can still be as happy as before.But it turns out that he has never been happy, he has been struggling with contradictions and anxiety, and Ji Ge has already seen him through.