Why are the stars indifferent

It's afternoon...evening, seven thirty-five.

Gently picked off a piece of rusty iron sheet with his fingers and crushed it, Lin Xiangxiao clapped his hands to let the rust fall off, picked up the schoolbag beside him, climbed over the railing and stood on the small wall less than half a meter outside the roof. on the platform.

The onlookers downstairs exclaimed because of his action, and immediately held their breath, for fear that his foot would slip and fall straight away.

This is an old-fashioned building with only the sixth floor, but there are no protective measures underneath, and there is no possibility of survival if you jump down.

There are too many people.

Lin Xiangxiao took out a candy from his schoolbag, put it in his mouth and bit it hard to relieve his tension.

Don't stay far away, what if you jump down and kill someone.

He clicked his tongue.

But he didn't really jump. After climbing over the railing, he leaned against the wall and whistled. After a while, he poked his head out to take a look, and the onlookers downstairs exclaimed again.

Lin Xiangxiao laughed heartily at the end of the shout, the candy lying on his tongue was pushed aside, he squatted down, hugged his head, and wiped a tear on his knee—this is A very protective action.

When Zhan Le and the others arrived downstairs, Ji Changyun also arrived, as well as firefighters and various rescuers in the jurisdiction, but he did not see his parents.

"Can we go up?" Zhan Le asked a firefighter, "We are all his classmates..."

The firefighters set their sights on Ji Changyun and Cheng Zai.

"With friends." Cheng Zai added.

"Okay," the firefighter quickly responded, "You are good friends, right? Can you get in touch with his parents?"

The answer is of course no.

The firefighters could only tell them to go up quickly. Zhan Le's heart was beating like a beating. He had never climbed up the stairs on the sixth floor so quickly, opened the door, and the chilly wind blew on his face. He couldn't help breathing. Pause for a few seconds.

Ji Changyun didn't go out in a hurry, but watched Zhan Le and the others gradually approaching the roof. Lin Xiangxiao probably heard the voice behind him, stood up and took half a step back, looking back at them.

"Lin..." Zhan Le swallowed, "Xiang Xiao."

"Ah," Lin Xiangxiao looked at them, probably a little surprised. He didn't expect them to appear here, but he still smiled and said flatly, "Good evening."

Talk to him—this is the only task given by the firefighters, distract him, try to use better ways to ease his emotions, and at the same time, be careful not to let him fall into agitated emotions.

But Zhan Le couldn't think of anything for a while, the person who usually sits in the classroom and can chat for three days and three nights, now standing on the roof, can't find half a topic, and the same is true for Chang Ze and Qu Ran.They spoke and froze several times,

Lin Xiangxiao tilted his head, looked behind, his expression froze for a moment, and asked softly, "Are you the only ones here?"

Zhan Le raised his head, unable to figure out what he meant.

"No," Cheng Zai continued, "Ji Changyun is here too."

"Oh," Lin Xiangxiao paused, and continued to ask, "Is there no one else?"

"Who do you want to see?" Zhan Le asked him, "I'll call him and ask him to come over here, can you come here to chat..."

Lin Xiangxiao didn't speak. He smiled and pushed the candy aside with the tip of his tongue. After hesitating for a while, he said, "Where are my parents?"

"Uncle firefighter is on the phone." Chang Ze tried to take a step forward, but when he saw Lin Xiangxiao retreating at the same time, he immediately retreated, "Don't worry, uncle and aunt will soon..."

"Live here," Lin Xiangxiao said, "Go find it."

Several people were stunned.

"What's the number? Which building?" Cheng Zai asked.

"This is the building, 402." Lin Xiangxiao glanced at Cheng Zai.

"I'll go!" Chang Ze said immediately, "I'll call them up right away, you, you, you, don't get excited!"

Lin Xiangxiao smiled and said nothing.He is very sensitive, anyone who takes a step forward, he will step back correspondingly, there is no hysterical yelling, nor is he downcast, he is still the same as usual, eating candy in his mouth.

But Zhan Le suddenly felt that he was very tired.

When Chang Ze went to find his parents, Qu Ran and Zhan Le tried to get him to say something more, but he stopped talking, kept looking at the door, but paid attention, not letting anyone approach him.

Chang Ze went there for a full 10 minutes and didn't come back. Qu Ran clicked his tongue and wanted to run down, but just as he rushed out the door, he ran into Chang Ze who came back.

"Fuck, they don't open the door," Chang Ze said, his voice trembling violently, and his hanging hand was red, "I knocked my fucking hand to pieces! No one came to open the door... The aunt at the door said that she saw the couple in the afternoon Those who entered the room did not hear the sound of opening and closing the door, they should still be at home!"

"But they didn't open the door!" Chang Ze suppressed his voice but couldn't suppress the roar, his voice suddenly became choked up, "Why! Their son is going to jump off the building! He hasn't yet!"

"Calm down," Qu Ran said, "Let's try again."

After speaking, he dragged Chang Ze down the stairs again.

Ji Changyun leaned against the door, looked at Lin Xiangxiao over there, Lin Xiangxiao also looked over, the two of them looked at each other, Lin Xiangxiao didn't hide, Ji Changyun looked at him a few more times, then walked away past.

Lin Xiangxiao should have also seen Chang Ze running over and then leaving, with a smile on his lips, he asked, "Is there no one here?"

"Are they still at work?" Zhan Le's voice was tense, but he tried to soften it, "Haven't come back yet? Let's wait—"

"They don't want me anymore," Lin Xiangxiao said, and stopped for a while, the wind also stopped, and he stopped messing up his hair, and Zhan Le heard a nasal sound in his ending, "They won't come back."

Ji Changyun clicked his tongue, and slowly clenched the hand in his pocket.He remembered the information given to him by his subordinate today. In Lin Xiangxiao's Weibo, the first hundreds of Weibo posts were all "You can't let me go."

"Why are you so sure?" Zhan Le slowed down his voice, he finally relaxed, and gradually found a way to ask, "Did they quarrel and speak angry?"

Lin Xiangxiao looked at Zhan Le for a few seconds, then smiled: "Don't talk to me, Zhan Le, you seem transparent to me."

Ever since he was a child, many of his peers have looked like transparent people to him. They are clean and happy. Likewise, they are not good at hiding their malice.

It is easy for Lin Xiangxiao to know what they like and what they want. Through observation, they gradually find out who they like the most, or who they will not be hated, and then put themselves into that role.

It's very simple, not to be annoying, not to do outrageous things, and it's also very difficult, since he was a child, he had to be tense all day long, and in the end Lin Xiangxiao even forgot what kind of personality he was, what kind of personality he should have.

Parents like their identity as a child prodigy, neighbors like warm-hearted and polite little boys, children like mature and funny older brothers, classmates like polite, funny and gregarious classmates, Lin Xiangxiao can be anyone, can have various positive personalities, and Subconsciously try to please everyone.

why?

Lin Xiangxiao couldn't remember clearly.

This is more like a habit. He attracts many people to have a good impression of him and have positive comments on him, but he also knows that there will be people who are dissatisfied. No matter how hard he tries, there will always be people who are dissatisfied. Bloodshots grew quietly and chaotically in every corner.

So he doesn't stop pleasing strangers who are not satisfied with him, focused, and nice to those who come before him.

All of this is like a taut string, and one day it broke because of a very inconspicuous reason in Lin Xiangxiao's opinion, and everything disappeared with a snap.

"I'm tired." Lin Xiangxiao suddenly said without thinking.

No one dared to answer his words, for fear that he would turn his head and jump down if he didn't answer well.

After a few seconds of stalemate, Ji Changyun suddenly said, "Then don't laugh."

Lin Xiangxiao looked at him without saying a word.

"Then don't laugh." Ji Changyun repeated again.

Light rain began to fall from the sky, washing away Lin Xiangxiao's mask. He drooped the corners of his mouth, opened his eyes hard, wanted to speak but didn't know how to speak, his throat was dry, and he couldn't make a sound because of Ji Changyun's words .

The firefighters finally took a step forward.

Lin Xiangxiao came back to his senses and stared at him, but he didn't dare to move anymore.

"Lin Xiangxiao," Ji Changyun took a deep breath, "Come here."

"Why?" Lin Xiangxiao asked him.

After speaking, he shook his head as if talking to himself, and said, I can't come here yet.

Quran's hands were swollen, and the door of Room 402 was opened, and a man came out, as if he had just woken up, and asked irritably, "What are you going to do?"

"Lin Xiangxiao is going to jump off the building!" Chang Ze got straight to the point and yelled, "It's upstairs, uncle, come with us quickly..."

"What?" The man was stunned for a few seconds, then suddenly turned his head and shouted, a woman came out of the room, who looked very much like Lin Xiangxiao, "Your son is going to commit suicide, hurry up."

After a few seconds, the woman asked, "Where is it?"

"Upstairs!" Chang Ze shouted.

"Oh, oh..." The woman put on her shoes and asked calmly, "Have you notified his father?"

Qu Ran and Chang Ze were both taken aback.

"It's embarrassing enough to have a son who committed suicide because he's gay..." The woman paused before finishing her sentence, raised her head and smiled at the two of them with the same arc as Lin Xiangxiao, "No Sorry, I just laughed."

After speaking, he walked up the stairs.

Qu Ran wanted to tell Chang Ze to go too, but when he turned his head, he saw that Chang Ze's eyes were red, his hand hanging by his side was clenched into a fist, and his nails almost dug into his flesh.

"Bastard," he raised his hand and pressed it hard on his eyes, "you're talking fucking bullshit."

"What are you waiting for?" Ji Changyun looked at Lin Xiangxiao, his hands were in his pockets, his fingertips were so cold, but his words were unsteady, "According to your personality, I really want to die, Didn't you jump off early in the morning?"

"Wow," Lin Xiangxiao said without expression, "Do you know me that well?"

"Is four months of love for nothing?" Ji Changyun asked back.

Lin Xiangxiao was silent for a while, and looked at Ji Changyun sarcastically: "Isn't the talk for nothing?"

Ji Changyun raised her eyebrows noncommittal.

"The little boy you like is obedient, obedient, and even blush," Lin Xiangxiao looked at him, "Is that me?"

After speaking, he looked at Zhan Le again, frowning: "The tablemate who has a good relationship with you is a school bully. He is a good person who has never had a temper and will not be annoying to anyone. He will bring you all kinds of snacks and take you Go and eat delicious good brothers."

"Is that me?" Lin Xiangxiao asked, but he didn't know who he was asking.The rain gradually wet his hair, his bangs were on his forehead, and the water droplets slid from his temples to his chin. He shrugged one shoulder and wiped away the raindrops.

No one answered his words.

Ji Changyun looked at him and said, "I know you're pretending."

He said, "I know you're trying to please me."

"Lin Xiangxiao, are you too smart, too arrogant, and think everyone is stupid?" Ji Changyun asked, "I'm an adult, and the love I've had is worse than the hands you've broken up with." Do you think I can't see it?"

Lin Xiangxiao swallowed and remained silent.

"Yes, I like the little boy you said. You pretended to be successful, but we basically haven't dated. In this case, I can still talk to you for four months, just because I think you are good? "After Ji Changyun finished speaking, she gritted her teeth, "I just want to see what other tricks you can pretend."

Lin Xiangxiao still didn't speak.

Ji Changyun saw it, and he wasn't too surprised. There were people who saw it before, saying that he was pretending everywhere, and his focus was on the sentence "we basically have no dates".

Four months without a date?Why?

Lin Xiangxiao's memory is very vague. It has been very vague since the night before yesterday, and he can't remember many things. When he was hiding in the self-service bank in a daze, a staff member said: "Did you run away from home? Go back quickly." , the parents will be worried."

Lin Xiangxiao didn't answer her, but she snorted again and asked worriedly, "Do you have a fever? Why is your face so red?"

Is it a fever?

Lin Xiangxiao himself was not sure, from when his mother moved away, when his father threw the divorce certificate in front of him, his soul floated up, his body stepped on the ground, and his whole body was in a trance, which was not real.

But when his mother suddenly appeared at the stairs on the rooftop, Lin Xiangxiao remembered.

Why is this happening?

Because I want to have a home.

Mom and Dad don't quarrel, they don't shout for divorce all day long, they don't drop all kinds of things all day long, and they don't burn cigarette butts on him at home.

So he learned to please, and his mother laughed for the first time when he got the first place in the whole class, and it was rare for his father not to quarrel with his mother, and they sat together and had a peaceful meal.

Later, everyone said that he was a prodigy, so there were no more quarrels at home, and there were endless exercises every day. When he was more than five years old, he wrote until midnight, and he was sent to the hospital when he fainted.

After two days of being drained from the hospital, the house was in a mess again after returning home.

Mom and Dad are arguing again.Those quarrels, insults, the neighbors couldn't bear to smash the wall in the middle of the night, and the baby next door was woken up and cried all night, making his ears numb. In the end, the two of them left separately, leaving five-year-old Lin Xiangxiao alone at home.

It happened to be repairing the electric circuit at that time, and the electricity was cut from [-]:[-] am to [-]:[-] pm. Lin Xiangxiao hid in his room alone and dared not go out without finding food.

Lin Xiangxiao tried to burn everything with a fire while his parents were sleeping, but he couldn't do it, so he could only continue to jump back into the exercises to show his prodigy ability, but he would be very full when he could eat.

Being hungry is too uncomfortable, and parents will quarrel because of this. He can't be hungry enough to cook by himself at regular times every day to feed himself.

Later, he was promoted to junior high school and high school. He has always been the first in the whole class. He will not be found out if he secretly falls in love. He has always been very smart. He will talk to people in the school and will not have too many dates. Suspect.

But Ji Changyun is the wind that blows away all this.

The time he went out to play with his cousin He Qiong was the first time he entered a gay bar, and saw Ji Changyun who was hooking up with little boys, so when Ji Changyun came to hook up with them later, he subconsciously pretended to be that kind of virtue .

Ji Changyun is stupid.

He didn't dare to go out when his parents were at home on weekends, and made countless excuses to prevaricate, but Ji Changyun would not be angry no matter how many times he was put on pigeons, he would only act like a baby, and then push him in the car for endless kisses the next time they met .

Do you like Ji Changyun?

At least until his parents asked "Are you in a relationship", Lin Xiangxiao was always uncertain.

It was the Chinese New Year, Lin Xiangxiao said that he was not in a relationship, and while keeping his parents safe, he dared not reply to Ji Changyun's news again, but he never had the idea of ​​breaking up.

Until the phone was forcibly taken away by the parents, turned on, and saw the messages sent by Ji Changyun, many asked him why he didn't reply to the messages, and then turned up all the funny words between lovers.

From that day on, the childhood nightmare reappeared again, countless times, the shadows laughed at Lin Xiangxiao's presumptuous cleverness and audacity.

"Are you gay?" Dad asked him, one hand strangled his neck forcefully, Lin Xiangxiao even doubted that he would be strangled to death just like that.

"It's really good, give birth to a son, whether he is mentally ill or gay." Mom also took out his hidden medical certificate. Lin Xiangxiao was very puzzled. He hid the medical certificate under the corner of the bed. Why was it turned over? When she came out, my mother just sneered and asked, "Smiling depression?"

"The neighbors in the neighborhood all know you, and they all say you are the best boy," Dad seemed to be in a hurry, grabbing him by the back of the neck and throwing it hard against the wall. Pain, "Turn out you're a crazy gay man?"

Lin Xiangxiao remained silent.He stubbornly believes that as long as he doesn't admit it, when school starts, he will be the brave and fearless elementary school god, and he will be able to support this broken home again.

It doesn't matter what kind of person there is in the family, he wants a home, a place to go back to, even if it's an empty shell, he just wants a home.

Ji Changyun sent a message saying that his parents were at home on the day of the breakup. After seeing the news, he confirmed that he was gay.

The strange thing is that Lin Xiangxiao didn't cry, but he couldn't speak when he woke up the next day, and couldn't utter half a syllable until school started.

Until last week when his parents finally divorced, everything was disconnected. Lin Xiangxiao didn't know what he was obsessed with, but his obsession failed, and the blood all over his body was flowing backwards.

The reason is because he wanted to stabilize the family.

In the end, it was because he was in a relationship.

Lin Xiangxiao had a small happiness box, which was empty at the beginning, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't put anything in it. Later, because of Ji Changyun, the box disappeared.

"Yes, because I'm in a relationship with you." Lin Xiangxiao came back to his senses, looked at the firefighter who suddenly jumped over and grabbed him, subconsciously leaned back, but murmured, "So they don't want me anymore , you don't want me anymore."

The moment the firefighters caught Lin Xiangxiao, Ji Changyun strode over and grabbed his arm. Zhan Le, Cheng Zai, and others rushed over and grabbed him.

There was chaos, there were applause from downstairs, and the faces of those who were holding umbrellas to watch the fun were distorted by the light, Lin Xiangxiao couldn't see their faces, he just thought they were funny.

Ji Changyun held Lin Xiangxiao's hand tightly, for fear that he would break free and jump out again, but Lin Xiangxiao kept staring at his mother who walked to the door and refused to take a step forward, and opened his lips several times, Finally, his trembling voice mixed into the sound of rain, and he asked, "Do you still want to go?"

"Even if I commit suicide again," Lin Xiangxiao asked in confusion, "Are you still going to leave? You can't let me go. What's wrong with being gay? I'm just dating, so you don't want me?"

Ji Changyun suddenly let go of Lin Xiangxiao's hand for a moment, and then hugged him tightly in a hugging posture. Lin Xiangxiao didn't seem to cry anymore, no matter how red his eyes were, tears couldn't hold up, he suddenly felt a little desperate Looking at the woman, I hope she can give me an answer.

Yet nothing.

She was wearing slippers and didn't even move up to the rooftop. She sneered and wanted to leave, but Chang Ze and Qu Ran stopped her directly.

"He's asking you something," Chang Ze was so angry that his voice was trembling, he couldn't understand such a thing, it was too weird, she was like a puppet without emotion, just like Lin Xiangxiao after taking off the mask, " Why didn't you answer him?"

The woman raised her eyebrows in disdain, her voice was not loud, but it covered the sound of the fine rain and reached everyone's ears.

She said: "I thought I gave birth to a child prodigy. In order to give him a harmonious family, I didn't divorce his father. In the end, he failed our expectations and became gay. What else do you want me to answer him?"

Just as Chang Ze was about to swing his clenched fist, Qu Ran stopped him.

The woman continued, "Want me to tell him, does he really let me down?"

"Just because of this?" Zhan Le couldn't suppress it, and roared, "Can't you see how good he is? Just because of this? Just because of homosexuality?! You don't want him anymore?"

The woman didn't answer, she pushed away the rules, like an audience who couldn't bear to watch this farce, and walked away with disgust on her face.

Lin Xiangxiao's strength was astonishing at that moment, and he broke free from Ji Changyun in just a moment, staggered forward two steps and fell to his knees on the ground, his lips were constantly moving, without making a sound.

It’s over.

he thinks.

It's all over.

Zhan Le walked over and put his arms around his shoulders, biting his lips and trying to say something, but he couldn't say anything. After Lin Xiangxiao tore off the mask, everything was crueler than they thought.

Qu Ran and Chang Ze also came over. They heard Zhan Le's roar, but they couldn't say a word at this moment. The rain soaked their hair and clothes. The firefighters urged them to go downstairs quickly and look at Lin Xiang. There was pity in Xiao's eyes.

But Lin Xiangxiao didn't need this pity, he didn't even need support, he stood up alone, was sandwiched between Ji Changyun and Zhan Le one after the other, and walked down slowly.

Only then did the onlookers show signs of dispersing. Ji Changyun put her arms around Lin Xiangxiao, regardless of the people around her, and directly stuffed him into the car. Chang Ze ran over to buy him a bottle of water, and carefully let him go. Li: "Brother Lin, calm down?"

After getting in the car, Lin Xiangxiao miraculously calmed down. He was not as hysterical as before upstairs, his eyes were still red, holding the water Chang Ze bought in his hand, he looked at them dully.

Lin Xiangxiao has always been very smart, but he got into a circle on this issue and hasn't come out for more than ten years.

When seeing his mother disdain his death today, Lin Xiangxiao smashed the whole circle with his own hands.He doesn't have any happiness box at all, everything is his extravagant wish.

Ji Changyun closed the car door, and the others were isolated from the car door. I don't know what Ji Changyun said to them. The others looked into the car worriedly, and left. The car drove in the direction of his home.

"Do you have nowhere to go?" Ji Changyun said, "Stay at my house temporarily, and I will take you to see a psychiatrist on weekends."

"Did you get my consent?" Lin Xiangxiao wanted to laugh again, but he didn't have the strength left.

"When you came to tease me," Ji Changyun glanced at him, "Did you get my consent?"

Lin Xiangxiao didn't speak.

"What's the matter, what's the matter, just say it, you didn't want to lie to you when you opened your mouth." Ji Changyun parked the car on the side of the road and looked at him, "Is it so difficult to tell the truth?"

Lin Xiangxiao still didn't speak.

His sight is like an unowned thread, hanging down on the ground, mixed into the soil, unable to find the original color.

"Today you were making trouble for your mother, right?" Ji Changyun lowered the car window and lit a cigarette, "You didn't intend to commit suicide at all."

Lin Xiangxiao's purpose was too obvious.

He kept repeating that he wanted to see his parents, and his emotions were only revealed when he saw his mother. He almost prayed and said on Weibo that you can't let me go.

He had no choice but to meet them with his life, and even chose the place where his mother lived when he jumped off the building.

But what I didn't expect was that Zhan Le would come, Chang Ze, Qu Ran, Cheng Zai, they all came.

And Ji Changyun.

Why did they come to me?

Lin Xiangxiao couldn't figure it out.

After a long time, Ji Changyun heard Lin Xiangxiao answer: "Yes."

Ji Changyun got out of the car and threw the cigarette butts into the trash can. When he came back, he was still expressionless. He took Lin Xiangxiao home, dragged him into the house, and introduced to his mother: "This is my boyfriend. "

Lin Xiangxiao paused for a long time, and suddenly realized what Ji Changyun said. He subconsciously tried to break free, and then looked at Ji Changyun's mother worriedly.

"Hey, are you bullying someone? Why is your face so ugly?" Ji Changyun's mother put down the orange in her hand, walked over, raised her hand and touched Lin Xiangxiao's forehead, "It's a little hot to touch, Do you have a fever?"

"Maybe I caught a cold from the wind." Ji Changyun said, "It's raining outside."

"Then I'll make ginger soup later," my mother said, and patted Lin Xiangxiao on the shoulder. "Would you like to go and rest for a while? Go straight and turn around, which is Ji Changyun's room."

"I..." Before Lin Xiangxiao finished speaking, Ji Changyun dragged him inside, "Then let's go to sleep for a while."

"Oh, it's so late at night," Ji Changyun's father came down from upstairs, "Why did you come back?"

"Don't pay attention to him, it's inexplicable," Ji's mother glanced at the closed door, "Your son is angry again, who knows why he is angry."

What are you angry about?

Ji Changyun found a piece of clean clothes for Lin Xiangxiao, who didn't move as if he had lost his soul, so he could only walk over, dragging Lin Xiangxiao's clothes off for him, and put on clean ones again.

Lin Xiangxiao didn't say a word, not even an expression.

Ji Changyun didn't speak. After changing Lin Xiangxiao's clothes, he gritted his teeth, stared at Lin Xiangxiao for a while, then suddenly pushed the person on top of him, leaned over and hugged him tightly.

"Fuck you," he said, "scared me to death."

Lin Xiangxiao froze for a few seconds, then raised his hands subconsciously, trying to wrap his arms around his neck, but Ji Changyun grabbed his hands and pressed them on both sides.

"Since the showdown is over, there is no need to pretend," Ji Changyun raised his head, his voice was soft but full of dissatisfaction, "You have also seen that not all people who come out of the closet will be abandoned, and not all parents are like your mother." You don’t listen like that, don’t ask, understand?”

Lin Xiangxiao blinked his eyes, and a soreness that hadn't been felt for a long time filled his nasal cavity.

"You have a good brain, you should understand what I mean, but I still want to be straightforward," Ji Changyun looked into his eyes and said seriously, "I don't know what happened to your family, but I didn't Blind. They are abnormal, as long as you are willing to come out, there will be light everywhere."

Lin Xiangxiao sniffed his nose very hard, both of his hands were held down by Ji Changyun, he didn't have a chance to press his arms over his eyes, tears flowed down as there was nowhere to hide.

"But I don't have a home anymore, Ji Changyun," Lin Xiangxiao said, "I want a home, even if it's a shell, but they won't even leave me a shell now..."

"What's the meaning of the shell, it's just a home, as long as there is a place to live, someone who is comfortable and doesn't feel pressure, it's a home there." After Ji Changyun finished speaking, he paused for a while before continuing. , "If you want, I can give you one."

Lin Xiangxiao's eyes were covered with mist, and he couldn't see clearly, nor could he see how seriously Ji Changyun said this.

He seemed to have a real fever, and after coming down from the roof, his reaction began to be slow, and he felt as if he was on fire, but he asked stubbornly, "Aren't you going to break up with me?"

"Break up if I say break up? You can't fucking stop me," Ji Changyun hugged him, rubbing his head gently against his ear, "Do you know how long I've been waiting for your news?"

"...The news was seen by my parents," Lin Xiangxiao closed his eyes, "I can't return."

"What about before that?" Ji Changyun pressed him on the bed, her voice was hoarse and soft. Although she had the answer, she still couldn't help asking, "Why didn't you reply to my message?"

Lin Xiangxiao closed his eyes, and the eyeballs rolled slightly under his eyelids. After a while, he said, "I've never seen someone like you."

"I've always been the one to please others. No one has ever been so...enthusiastic to me." Lin Xiangxiao frowned, tears wet his eyelashes and slipped sideways, "I'm very scared."

"I dare not contact you, and I dare not mention breaking up." He closed his eyes, threw away his usual personality, and said forcefully, "You don't want me first."

Ji Changyun took a deep breath and didn't mention it again.

There were too many shocks today, Lin Xiangxiao couldn't take it easy, and didn't answer his words immediately, it doesn't matter, Ji Changyun seems to have endless patience with Lin Xiangxiao, he can wait.

Wait until Lin Xiangxiao says "I want to live with you" by himself.

Lin Xiangxiao fell asleep like this. Ji Changyun touched his forehead, and it was really hot, so he got up to get him a thermometer. As soon as he went out, Cheng Zai came in with Zhan Le.

"Hey, here we come." Ji's mother was stunned when she saw Zhan Le, and then she smiled, "Why did you bring your boyfriend home, and Ji Changyun just brought one back."

Zhan Le's mind was full of Lin Xiangxiao's affairs, everyone in the room focused on him, and he suddenly came back to his senses: "Huh? What? Man...I don't..."

"Where's Lin Xiangxiao?" Cheng Zai interrupted him.

"In the room, I might have a fever," Ji Changyun said, "and fell asleep."

"Take him home?" Cheng Zai sighed.

"Hmm." Ji Changyun twitched the corner of his mouth.

"Hey, if you want to say how much you like him, you don't really have it," Cheng Zai said while sitting aside with a bewildered Zhan Le, "but you asked me to find someone else in such a short time..."

"Can you save some face!" Ji Changyun couldn't help roaring, "I just broke up with my mother, isn't it normal to say such things! Am I shameless?"

"You want to face?" Ji's father shook the newspaper beside him, "It's amazing."

"Father, I'm convinced." Ji Changyun cupped his father's hands, found a thermometer and went back to the house.