I am him [Comprehensive]

M stared at him blankly, as if he couldn't believe that he just said that.

As for Kongphop, he finally said these words in one go, but he felt an unprecedented ease in his heart.

But in addition to this relaxation, M's absent-minded expression made him feel extremely guilty.

He sighed, but he didn't escape M's god: "I'm sorry, M, I don't want to continue to give you such unrealistic hopes. In my heart, you have always been my best buddy. I really don't know how to get rid of it. You treat it like a lover."

M's eye sockets were a little red.

His lips trembled for a long time before he managed to find his own voice: "Didn't I say that I can wait? I will wait no matter how long."

When the text message from Kongphop was just sent, he was awakened by the ringtone, and the content of the text message even made him sleepy.

But he didn't know how to react.

Let him accept it calmly?Simply respond with a "OK, I see" after receiving the message?

If he could, he might have let go already.

He knew that Kongphop was soft-hearted, and it was precisely because he grasped this feature that he was able to escape from his repeated hesitation and refrain from speaking, so that their relationship can be maintained until now.

So he deliberately set that text message as unread, thinking that Kongphop would be the same as before, and seeing this, he would soften his heart, and quietly deleted the text message, pretending that nothing happened.

But I didn't expect it to be different this time.

No, he had actually expected it.

Since Arthit appeared again, everything between them began to be different.

It's just that he still held a trace of luck in his heart.

Now even that fluke has been shattered, and M suddenly felt that the self who had been drenched in cold water for two or three hours was really ridiculous.

Kongphop looked at his shrinking appearance, and the guilt in his heart couldn't help but deepened.

"I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, he didn't know what else he could say.

M's lips trembled, and his voice was so low that the air seemed to freeze: "Is it because of that person?"

Kongphop's heart moved, and he looked at M silently.

They didn't have to mention that person's name at all, because that person had been an existence that they couldn't ignore since he appeared.

"I'm sorry." Kongphop is still these three words.

M, who has always been gentle, finally couldn't help getting excited this time: "Why? What's so good about him? Didn't you find out? He won't even look at you!",

M's words just hit Kongphop's heartache.

But now Kongphop also needs such a sting to neutralize the guilt towards M.

If he could, he hoped that M would throw a tantrum at him, even if he beat him up, it would give his guilt a place to go.

Kongphop smiled bitterly: "I know he hates me, but I can't help it...I can't control myself."

M closed his eyes, the sore eyelids stimulated the lacrimal glands, and he couldn't help but shed two lines of tears.

Seeing his appearance, Kongphop felt even more uncomfortable, walked over slowly, put the mobile phone next to M's pillow, and whispered: "I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't mention this when you are sick, but I don't want to Continue to consume your feelings. If I hadn't been indecisive at the beginning, the relationship between us would not be as complicated as it is now. "

M suddenly opened his eyes and grabbed his wrist: "Kongphop, let's not break up, okay, I'll just pretend nothing happened today! You can see that he hates us so much, it's impossible for him to be with you! In this case, I can continue to wait! When he graduates, when he disappears from our world, I will always be by your side! No matter when you want to turn back, I will stay by your side!"

"M!" Kongphop cut him off sharply.

M stared blankly at him, the confusion in his eyes had not been removed in time.

Kongphop has never seen such a distraught M.

Only now did he realize that his evasive wasting had not done M any good.

"M, I don't know what happened between us at that time to make me fall in love with you, but now, I really don't feel that kind of emotion at all. I tried my best, but it was useless. I know I have let you down, whether you beat me or scold me, even if you never forgive me for the rest of your life, I deserve it! But, I really don’t want to lie to you anymore. Only when I met Arthit did I understand that love is something that cannot be compared with It doesn't matter whether you work hard or not. The first time I see him, I'm done."

M stared at him blankly, as if trying to digest the specific meaning of each word in his words.

Every time he penetrated, his complexion became whiter.

Kongphop looked at him like this, and his eyes couldn't help turning red.

In fact, compared to being let down by others, the feeling of letting others down is not much better.

"M, I'm sorry." Today, Kongphop has said sorry countless times.

But these three words can't express one ten thousandth of the pain in his heart.

At this moment, there seemed to be a sea churning in M's chest, but he still tried his best to push back the raging waves.

He knows that Kongphop is easy to soften his heart, but he also understands his stubbornness better.

They have reached this point, and M understands that they can no longer turn back.

He wiped his eyes, but the tears did not fade away.

"It's absolutely impossible to take back what you said, isn't it?" he asked in a low voice.

Kongphop responded with a low voice.

M took a deep breath and nodded to him: "Okay, I can promise you, but you have to promise me one condition."

As soon as he heard him let go, Kongphop couldn't help but quietly heaved a sigh of relief.

"You say, I will agree to any conditions."

M sat up with difficulty, bit her lower lip tightly, and then said in a low voice: "Now everyone knows that I am with you, I don't want everyone to know that I was dumped by you, we don't need to break up Tell someone?"

Hearing his words, Kongphop couldn't help being stunned.

M's eyes became even redder: "Now all the students in the school know that the teacher and senior are targeting me because of you. If you really separate from me and chase him, I really don't know how to face everyone's gaze. Also, And senior Arthit, so everyone will only think that the content in that post is true? There will be more and more gossip around him."

M's words put in front of him a question that Kongphop hadn't even had time to think about.

He was suffocated in his heart and couldn't help being dumb.

M looked away hastily: "Besides, you've also seen that senior Arthit has always hated you so much, if he knew you liked him, he might be even more disgusted."

Kongphop couldn't help but think of Arthit's disgusted reaction after yesterday's kiss, and his expression became even uglier.

"Anyway, anyway, it's impossible for you to be together. It doesn't make any difference if we don't tell everyone about our breakup?" M's voice became softer and softer, but he still said every word into the bottom of Kongphop's heart, " It’s good for the three of us if we don’t say it.”

Kongphop's eyes were gradually covered with loss.

He lowered his head helplessly, his eyes blank.

Arthit's dislike for him all the time is like a movie replay, scenes appearing in his mind.

"You have no right to ask me!"

"Who allowed you to chat here? Do you understand respect for seniors?"

"Take your boyfriend as far away from me as possible. If it's not training, I don't want to see you for a moment!"

"You really make me nauseous."

Sentences of cold words accumulated, like an ice wall that could not be overcome no matter what.

Before kongphop could taste the joy of being single again, he quickly tasted the taste of frustration.

Yes, so what if he and M are no longer lovers?

Can Arthit's dislike for him turn into liking in an instant?

If the news of his breakup spreads and brings more harm to Arthit, I'm afraid his loathing for himself will only deepen, right?

"Kong?" M urged in a low voice.

Kongphop took a deep breath and gave him an ugly smile: "Okay, I promise you."

Anyway, as long as he is not with that person, in the eyes of others, it doesn't make any difference to him whether he is single or in a relationship.