I am him [Comprehensive]

Today is the first day of school.

From the moment he stepped into this school, kongphop has been suffocating a little restlessness in his heart.

However, since he lost his memory, he often has this kind of anxiety for no reason. In addition, as a freshman, he has been tense and chaotic all day long, so it is understandable to feel anxious.

Yes, kongphop lost his memory.

It sounds like a plot in a TV series. He can still remember everything from childhood to adulthood clearly, only the memory of the two years before he woke up from a coma, as if it was stolen by someone, no matter what No matter how hard he tried, he could only remember a vague outline at most.

In those two years, it was as if he had never lived in this world.

"It's fine if you can't remember it. The doctor also told you not to be too tired. Anyway, it's only two years. We can spend many years together." M told him.

M is his childhood sweetheart.

Kongphop didn't know if it was accurate to say that, because in his memory, M and him were indeed childhood sweethearts, but they were not lovers.

M recounted to him what happened to them in the past two years, piece by piece, and some kongphop could even feel familiar.

But even so, he still couldn't develop the so-called liking for M.

But facing M's sincere face, he couldn't tell the truth no matter what.

M is his best friend, who has been chasing him like a little follower since he was a child. He is very timid, but every time he gets into trouble, he is beaten with him.

Their relationship is really good, but that's all.

In fact, after knowing that he and M are gay, many friends tacitly thought that they would eventually get together.

Except kongphop.

He couldn't figure out what happened in those two years that made him and his best friend become lovers.

But he knew clearly that what M said was true.

Although his memory is extremely blurred, he can still remember that he did experience a beautiful love in those two years.

Because even such a blurred picture can make his heart palpitate.

He has never loved anyone before, but he can feel it, that is the feeling of love.

I can't help myself.

It's just that kongphop doesn't understand how his feelings towards M have changed so much in just two years.

Fortunately, M is very understanding.

Because he noticed that he dodged repeatedly, he didn't even ask to hold hands.

"I will wait for you to accept me again. Anyway, we are lovers now, and we can wait for a lifetime."

But the more generous M said, the more guilty Kongphop felt.

It must be an unforgivable thing for lovers to forget the most important confession and initial relationship.

But because M was worried about his health, he could even give up the shared memories of those two years.

He knew that he should be grateful, but no matter how hard he tried, he still couldn't regain his feelings for M.

The accumulation of guilt for a long time actually made him a little afraid of getting close to M.

Kongphop lives very close to the school, and his parents bought this apartment for him during that year.

But he couldn't remember why he chose to live in this place far away from home.

After a comfortable shower, kongphop finally felt better.

But when the cell phone rang suddenly and saw M's name flashing on the screen, that unreasonable anxiety hit his heart again.

He sat on the bed, stopped wiping his hair, and connected the phone: "Hello, M."

M's voice sounded dull: "Have you moved yet?"

Kongphop nodded: "I have already moved back."

He used to live here before, and many things are ready-made, but there is nothing to move.

"Then..." M hesitated, not knowing what to say.

"What's the matter?" Kongphop held the phone in one hand, grabbed the towel with the other, and wiped his hair repeatedly.

"Then, do you want to come out and have a meal together?" After stammering for a long time, it was just such an ordinary question.

Kongphop hesitated for a moment, and said, "I'm a little tired today, so I want to order a takeaway."

M heard his refusal, fell silent for a while, and seemed to lower her tone: "Okay, see you in class tomorrow."

"See you in class tomorrow." Kongphop said, but he couldn't help feeling a little guilty.

I don't know if it's his illusion, but he always feels that M seems to have noticed his estrangement.

"Then let's eat together at noon tomorrow. After eating, I will show you where I live, which is very close to yours." M said a lot in one mouth, as if afraid that he would refuse.

And this request, as a lover, should not be refused.

Kongphop nodded: "OK."

After hanging up the phone, kongphop couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief.

But aware of his relaxation, his guilt also hit his heart again.

Kongphop sighed, leaned back feebly, and rested his arms on the bed behind him.

With this posture, his gaze happened to fall outside the glass window that hadn't had time to draw the curtains.

Because it is in the school district, the nearby apartment buildings are also densely built, and the building opposite looks very close at hand. If it is daytime, I am afraid that even the sign on the air conditioner on the balcony can be clearly seen.

But kongphop's head felt dizzy at this moment, a vague figure suddenly appeared on the moonlit balcony, and it was fleeting.

Over the past year, these misty images occasionally appeared in his mind, but they didn't help him recover his memory. ,

It's just that for some reason, the scene this time made his heart beat faster for a while for no reason.

And this kind of heartbeat has always only appeared when he remembered the picture of him and M being together.

Kongphop couldn't help frowning, and for a moment, he had the urge to rush to the building opposite to knock on the door.

But impulse is only impulse.

If he really knocked on the door and said to someone: "I lost my memory, I just saw your heart beat suddenly on the windowsill, so I want to come over to see what's going on."

It is estimated that people will be regarded as a pervert, right?

Might as well spend the night at the police station.

Kongphop shook his head with a grin.

But for some reason, lying on the bed that night, his heart could not be calm for a long time.

What I think about in my heart is almost always the empty balcony.

All night, tossing and turning.

So the next day, kongphop who appeared in the freshman training hall still had two big dark circles under his eyes.

M and he are both in engineering college.

Strange to say, he remembered that he had always wanted to apply for the School of Economics, but ever since he woke up, he had an almost perverted obsession with the School of Engineering of this school.

Despite M's repeated dissuasion, he still failed to change his mind.

In the end, it was M who accompanied him through the exam.

Speaking of this, it is also one of kongphop's guilt towards M.

Between him and M, it seems that M has always been considerate of him.

But he still felt that this consideration was a burden.

On the first day of training, except for M, everyone else was a stranger to him, and the two sat together in the queue as a matter of course.

But M didn't know what was going on, and seemed to be a little absent-minded all the time.

According to the usual practice, the seniors in the sophomore year have been randomizing people to introduce themselves, but M didn't seem to be thinking about it at all, and looked back at the door from time to time.

Before changing it, he probably would have asked kongphop what happened to the two dark circles under his eyes, but he didn't find it at all today.

"M, what's wrong with you?" Kongphop couldn't help but lowered his voice and asked.

M was obviously taken aback by him, and quickly came back to his senses, shaking his head hastily at him: "It's okay, I just changed places, I didn't sleep well."

The random roll call finally got to them. M was introverted, and this kind of singing and dancing way of introducing himself didn't suit him at all. He sat down in a hurry without saying a word.

But kongphop's treatment is completely different from others, a senior sister rushed to his side directly, stretched out her hand and pulled him up.

I don't know if I want to take advantage of the opportunity.

But at the moment kongphop just stood up, the originally noisy training hall suddenly became silent.

Kongphop froze for a moment, subconsciously squatted down again, and then turned his head to follow everyone's gaze.

Coming in from the door was a row of seniors in junior uniforms.

With a serious expression and firm steps, it looks like a hostile visitor.

But kongphop's eyes unconsciously fixed on one of them.

thumping—

thumping—

My heart beat suddenly too fast.

Who is this guy?