Xifu Begonia

The next day, Zhang Qingkai bought breakfast from outside and returned home. Before Zhang's parents and Zhang's mother got up, he put soybean milk and fried dough sticks in a bowl and brought them to the table.

When my mother came out, she wiped her eyes in disbelief: "Old Zhang, when did we have a snail girl in our house?"

Dad picked up the soy milk and took a sip, glanced at Zhang Qingkai who was sitting on the sofa: "I think it's the snail boy."

Zhang Qingkai stretched out his hands and waved at his parents: "It's Tianluo Xiaokai!"

Mom and Dad looked at each other and laughed silently.

After breakfast, my mother and the aunts in the community went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables. Zhang Qingkai sent several messages to Xia Fei, but Xia Fei didn't reply. He had to press the remote control and rotate the TV programs over and over again.

It was almost eleven o'clock when my mother came back. Zhang Qingkai went up to help her pick up the food, but found that there was something wrong with my mother's face.

"Mom." Zhang Qingkai put the dishes in the kitchen, and when he came out, he looked at his mother who was sitting on the sofa, and asked softly, "What's wrong with you, what's wrong?"

My mother came back to her senses and clenched the remote control in her hand: "It's nothing, it's nothing uncomfortable."

Zhang Qingkai got up and wanted to go to the kitchen to pour a glass of water for his mother, but his mother stopped him: "Xiao Kai, wait a minute."

Zhang Qingkai turned his head in doubt, and looked at the TV in the direction of his mother's finger.

She said: "Look at this actor, I seem to have seen news about him before, is he gay?"

Zhang Qingkai's eyes widened suddenly, he will not be so slow that he still doesn't know the reason for his mother's abnormality.

He said, "Yes..."

"You think they do this, don't you?" Mom seemed to find it hard to say, she was so embarrassed that she could hardly speak, "It has to be like this, let everyone poke their backs and scold? They have fulfilled themselves in this way, what about others How disappointed will their relatives, friends, and other people who have expectations of them be? Isn’t such a selfish life sad?”

Zhang Qingkai didn't want to come out in such an unprepared situation, but he also didn't want to use various reasons to deceive his parents. He didn't find a way out for himself, and knelt down straight, his knees slamming heavily on the ground: " Mom, I can find someone in this world who I can love for a lifetime, two lifetimes, or even forever, that is not sad!"

Zhang's mother threw the remote control to Zhang Qingkai, and she shouted hysterically, "Who is that person!"

Zhang Qingkai was taken aback, and blurted out: "There is no such person... I just like men, and it has nothing to do with others."

Zhang's father, who rushed out after hearing Zhang's mother's shout, lost his mind for an instant. He angrily stepped forward and grabbed Zhang Qingkai by the collar, and forced him to ask, "What did you just say...Zhang Qingkai, say it again! "

"Dad," Zhang Qingkai suppressed his emotions, and said as calmly as possible, "I'm sorry, I like men..."

Before he finished speaking, Father Zhang slapped Zhang Qingkai on the face: "I'm sorry? What's the use of saying sorry! Did you think about it before you said such a thing! Zhang Qingkai, you have grown up, don't think about it like before That's it!"

Zhang Qingkai's face hurt as if it had been burned. He endured the pain at the corner of his mouth and said firmly, "Dad, Mom, I'm not filial. But I can't change it, and I never thought about it."

Zhang's father kicked Zhang Qingkai on the head. Following Zhang's mother's scream, Zhang Qingkai was thrown to the side of the coffee table, and his head hit the corner of the glass. He shuddered in pain, but he still held on He raised his back and knelt down to his parents' feet.

"I can no longer do things that I will regret for the rest of my life." Zhang Qingkai's thick back was still standing upright at this moment, as if bearing everything heavy, "You are the people I love the most in the world, but there are some things, I can't make any sacrifices."

He was forced to give up in his previous life, and since then he has lost Xia Fei and the intimacy with his parents. He is not tired of the world, but he sincerely resists that empty and emotionless world. Since the result of giving up is wrong, he I don't want to make mistakes again and again in this life.

He must treat Xia Fei well, and he must never let go of his relatives.

Mother Zhang's crying stopped, she walked in front of Zhang Qingkai, looked at her son's hair twitching, and said in agony, "Xiao Kai, when I was shopping for vegetables just now, I ran into Xia Fei's mother."

This sentence was completely beyond Zhang Qingkai's expectation.

Xia Fei's mother, do you know?

"She asked me, is Xia Fei's boyfriend you? He was found out to be gay a month before the college entrance examination, and he was kicked out of the house after the college entrance examination. His tuition fees and living expenses were all earned by himself. He worked so hard, but What's the use, his parents just wait for him to admit his mistakes, if he doesn't change his sexuality, maybe he won't be forgiven by his parents in his life." Mother Zhang cried and trembled, "Zhang Qingkai, who do you say you like? It's easy to say who you want to be with, but do you know how emaciated Xia Fei's mother is now! How can you say that you are the one who loves us the most!"

Zhang Qingkai's heart throbbed faintly, he could no longer maintain the kneeling posture, and gradually bent down helplessly, after a long silence, he bit the back of his hand and cried out.

Zhang's father didn't give him more time to think, and asked bluntly: "Are you insisting on being with him, or continue to stay in this room and be the son of the Zhang family?"

After digesting the meaning of these words, Zhang Qingkai shouted with red eyes: "Dad..."

Father Zhang turned his head away and stopped looking at him.

Zhang Qingkai was completely hopeless, he stood up in a daze, and went to the room to pack the suitcase he just opened yesterday.

Zhang's mother heard the sound, rushed to the door of Zhang Qingkai's bedroom, put down all her restraint and elegance, and shouted hoarsely: "Xiao Kai, Xia Fei himself is gay, he wants to drag you into the water, sober up!" Her face With an unyielding stubbornness on his face, "You can't, you can't let him ruin your life!"

"Mom, why don't you understand..."

The experiences of the previous life came to Zhang Qingkai's mind, the words that Xia Fei's mother said to him when Xia Fei was seriously ill, and the words that his mother said to him before she died, one sentence after another, entangled together, forming knots that hurt when touched.

Zhang Qingkai finally had the opportunity to say what he should have said to his mother in the previous life, in the most serious tone: "It's not that he ruined me, it's that I delayed him. I knew him in elementary school, liked him in junior high school, and we were together in high school. How much painstaking efforts and grievances I have suffered to allow me to walk on the right path.”

"It's me who doesn't deserve his love! It's Xia Fei who was blind and fell in love with me! I can't even..."

Zhang Qingkai couldn't speak any more.

I can't even, protect him when he's vulnerable.

When he was lying on the hospital bed, dragged by the god of death, he still heard so many cruel words from his lover's mother.

How desperate Xia Fei must be.

Zhang Qingkai sniffed, pulled up the suitcase, walked to the entrance, turned to look at his parents: "Dad, Mom, you should be disappointed in me, but I won't let you down forever."

The people inside didn't respond any more, Zhang Qingkai lowered his eyes and closed the door gently.

Xia Fei was sitting in the staff lounge, he was a little out of breath under the weight of the doll costume. He took off the hood, and the sweat from his hair collapsed like a cascade.

A colleague came in and saw him like this, and hurriedly took a towel to soak up the water on his face.

"Thank you." Xia Fei raised his head and said with a smile, "It's much more comfortable."

"It's okay." The colleague sat next to him, and said a little worriedly, "Are you okay? Your face is ugly."

Xia Fei shook his head, leaned against the wall and smiled wearily: "No problem."

He thought of something, and asked his colleague to take out his mobile phone from the cabinet. The moment he opened the keypad lock, a flood of WeChat messages flooded out.