Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

hold you in my arms

It was getting late, Nangong Jingnv opened the window and looked out.The convoy had come to the outskirts of a city, and there were crowds of people kneeling on both sides of the road.

"What's going on here?" Nangong Jingnu asked.

Qi Yan closed the scroll, rubbed the center of his brows, and replied: "The Son of Heaven goes out, and the common people line the road to welcome him."

Nangong Jingnv showed joy: "Father, the emperor works hard to govern and serve the people wholeheartedly, and the people should be like this."

Qi Yan lowered her eyes and said nothing, Nangong Jingnv asked instead: "Why don't you speak?"

After weighing it over and over again, Qi Yan remained silent.

Nangong Jingnv was a little unhappy, so she simply ignored Qi Yan.

The prefect of Dingzhou brought a group of officials out of the city and knelt to greet him. On April [-], he opened the door of the car, and Nan Gongrang stood on the shaft of the car.

The black crowd knelt three times and kowtowed nine times, kneeling on the ground and shouting long live three times.

"Minister Dingzhou Taishou, Li Yuandao brought all the officials and common people in Dingzhou to see His Majesty."

"Retire without courtesy."

"Thank you, Your Majesty."

The emperor entered Dingzhou City. Dingzhou was a small city and could not accommodate [-] elite soldiers, so he had to station [-] elite soldiers outside the city, and the remaining [-] elite soldiers entered the city with him.

Nangong Rang once made a special decree: this time, the state capital along the way of ancestor worship is not allowed to build a palace, so the Dingzhou prefect repaired and expanded his own house, and used it as a place for Nangong Rang to stay.

Nan Gongrang took the chair and praised Li Yuandao for his diligence and thrift. The other party knelt on the ground and cried excitedly.

Due to the small size of the mansion, the dining hall could not accommodate all members of the royal family, so Nangong Rang ordered them to go back to their rooms for dinner. Qi Yan and Nangong Jingnv lived in the West Wing.

After leaving the main hall, Nangong Jingnv took Qi Yan's hand naturally: "Go this way."

"Thank you, Your Highness."

The two returned to the West Wing and ate dinner in silence, washed up briefly and lay down on the bed.

Although Li Yuandao replaced all the furniture with new ones, the bed in the West Wing was far less spacious than the Babu bed in the Princess Mansion, and the two lay side by side on the bed with less than half an arm's gap between them.

Nangong Jingnu had a lump in her heart, and at this moment they were the only two left who couldn't help asking: "Why didn't you answer what I asked you just now?"

Qi Yan pondered for a while: "I don't know what to say."

Nangong Jingnu turned around and looked at Qi Yan: "Why don't you know what to say?"

"I dare not say disobedient words, nor dare to deceive Your Highness; I can only remain silent."

Nangong Jingnu frowned: "You disagree with what I said?"

"I dare not."

The atmosphere froze again, and after a while Nangong Jingnu said: "Just say it, I will keep it a secret for you."

After another long silence, Qi Yan let out a long sigh: "Let's not talk about it."

"Bengong let you say it!"

Qi Yan simply turned around, lay face to face with Nangong Jingnu, and said in a very soft voice: "Your Highness really thinks that it is a good thing for the common people to greet each other?"

"Of course! Doesn't this just prove that the father is quite popular?"

"Your Highness, aren't the people cold?"

Nangong Jingnu was at a loss for words for a moment, and then Qi Yan said softly: "They are all made of flesh and blood. Wouldn't the common people be cold if they kneel in the ice and snow? Naturally, His Highness is noble and would not know it. Some poor families have only one cotton coat for three generations. , Whoever goes out wears them. So no matter how old or young are kneeling in the ice and snow, what about the common people who wear single clothes?"

……

"If these people suffer from cold and sickness because of this, will Taishou Li pay for their medical treatment? Even if they do, how many people dare to go to the government to ask for money for medical treatment?"

Nangong Jingnv's momentum immediately weakened: "Just kneeling for a short while, how could I get sick?"

Qi Yan snorted softly: "Those people went out before dawn."

"how do you know?"

"The subject comes from the common people, let alone His Majesty's visit, even if it is a first-rank official visiting, the people have to kneel on the side of the road two hours in advance. Your Highness only saw the scene of the people kneeling to greet them, but have you ever seen them in the cold wind?" She looks shivering, but have you noticed if anyone is wearing single clothes?"

Seeing that Nangong Jingnv remained silent, Qi Yan said softly again: "Your Highness, forgive me." Then she turned her body and turned her back to Nangong Jingnv.

Qi Yan folded her arms and slowly closed her eyes: What does the life and death of Wei people have to do with her?

When Nangong Jingnv said that Nangong Rang won the hearts of the people, she could have agreed.

The reason why she finally chose to be silent was because at the last moment, the worries welling up in her heart stopped her.

At this time, Nangong Jingnv is not deeply involved in the world, so it is easy to be fooled, but she will grow up one day.

Through the replay in the afternoon, Qi Yan confirmed Nangong Jingnv's ability to never forget. She is only 15 years old this year. She was spoiled and refused to study in the past, and she has never seen the suffering of the people.

One day, Bao Buqi will suddenly become enlightened. If one day Nangong Jingnv realizes that it is not a good thing for people to kneel down in the street, how will she feel about Qi Yan's words of approval today?

For Qiyan Agula, the life and death of the people of Wei country has nothing to do with her.But for Qi Yan, who was born in a miserable family background, indifference is the biggest distortion.

Qi Yan couldn't predict what Nangong Jingnv would grow into, and she didn't dare to bet.

After all, all hope of revenge is in the hands of Nangong Jingnv...

The prince of the grassland, Qi Yan Agula, is dead, and there is only Qi Yan in this world.It's not enough just to behave and pretend like a skin, sometimes she has to show Qi Yan's soul.

Qi Yan originally thought that this was the end of the matter, but she didn't expect Nangong Jingnv to gently push her twice: "Hey."

Qi Yan's body froze, but she still turned around.

"Can you see me clearly?" Nangong Jingnu asked in a low voice.

"I can't see it."

Nangong Jingnu's heart relaxed, and she asked softly, "Are you... angry?"

……

With the light from a row of lanterns hanging outside the window, Qi Yan could clearly see Nangong Jingnu's restless expression and guilty gaze.

My heart trembled, like a stick in my throat.

Nangong Jingnv bit her lips, reached out and tugged at Qi Yan's sleeve: "This custom has existed since ancient times, the big deal... change the Japanese palace to talk to the emperor, and ask him to make a decree so that you don't have to kneel to greet him... Don't be angry."

In Nangong Jingnv's heart, Qi Yan seems to have no temper forever, no matter what he says or does, he will tolerate him unconditionally.

When Qi Yan asked questions one after another in a very soft voice, her mind went blank.

Seeing Qi Yan turned her back to her, Nangong Jingnv panicked inexplicably.

It turns out that no matter how gentle and jade-like a person is, he still has a temper...

In the past 15 years, she has always been coaxed by others, and this is the first time she has been coaxed by others in such a humble manner.

But Nangong Jingnv didn't feel embarrassed, she just eagerly wanted to calm down this silent anger, she was not used to Qi Yan like this.

Qi Yan stared straight at Nangong Jingnv, feeling a certain wound in his heart that hadn't healed for a long time, and bright red blood came out again...

Your Highness, do you know that I offered to burn half of your net worth?

Do you know that every word, every look, and every movement I say when I get along with you is designed?

Do you know that one day I will overthrow the entire Wei country?

Then, take your life personally?

Seeing that Qi Yan still didn't speak, Nangong Jingnu's nose turned sour, and she said aggrievedly: "What else do you want?"

Tears flowed out after speaking, Nangong Jingnv was extremely wronged and uncomfortable.

What else would he do if he was already like this?Why is this person so angry?

Hearing Nangong Jingnv's thick nasal voice, Qi Yan's lips moved, and he called out in a slightly sad voice: "Your Highness..."

Nangong Jingnu sniffed: "I have grown up so big, I have never begged anyone."

The next moment, Qi Yan moved her body, groping to embrace Nangong Jingnv into her arms.

"belch."

"Your Highness."

"……Um."

"The minister deserves to die."

Nangong Jingnv had forgotten to cry, she let her body soften and let the other party hold her: "Didn't I say this before? Don't say such unlucky words..."

"Your Majesty deserves to die. I made His Highness cry." This is a truthful sentence. The first half and the second half of the sentence contain two different meanings, and only the speaker can understand it.

Nangong Jingnv's heart was sour and swelled: "Don't talk nonsense, I am not crying."

Qi Yan groped for Nangong Jingnv's face, wiped away a teardrop still hanging from the corner of her eye with her thumb, and said softly, "Well, Your Highness is the strongest."

"right?"

Nangong Jingnv rested her forehead on Qi Yan's thin but unusually hard shoulder, the tears were not yet dry, but the corners of her mouth slightly curled up.

This embrace is warm and safe, and it seems to have a faint fragrance of green grass.

She... likes it very much.

Qi Yan hugged Nangong Jingnv quietly, showing no intention of letting go.

Even if she clearly knows that she is a daughter, the other party is the daughter of an enemy.

She was tired after all the days when the clan was exterminated, the rest of her life, and the ten-year plan and all the hard work.

Even though this door of revenge has just been opened, Qi Yan is only a 19-year-old girl after all.

If the grassland is still there, she may be riding Liuhuo to go spring hunting with Anda and Xiaodie.

When she was a child, she also imagined what she would look like when she grew up: she wanted to be as brave as her father and as gentle as her mother.Desiring to grow up as soon as possible to push Harbala to the ground and beat him up, wanting to protect Anda and his sister from being bullied, looking forward to the birth of his younger brother, and then the family will live happily together; forever and ever.

Agula also had trouble with the identity of the woman.

Mother often told her not to get too close to other men, not to go down to the river to take a bath, not to have a pee with them...

Little Agula was very curious: What is the difference between women and men?

At the grand ceremony, Er Rihe brought Princess Ji Ya and said that he would betroth his daughter to her.But Agula was thinking: Can women and women be together?

Jiya is about the same age as her, and Xiaodie just doesn't have a playmate of the right age, so it would be nice to let her stay.

But Agula never thought that one day he would become what he is today.

It turns out that the grassland will be destroyed, and the plow is not indestructible, and Abba cannot protect them for a lifetime.

She thought: After ten years of beating her heart, her heart was as hard as iron, and she didn't have a trace of conscience.

Until she met this girl who was one year younger than Xiaodie in her arms, her heart was stabbed again and again...

"Your Highness."

"Ok?"

"sorry."

Nangong Jingnu shook her head: "I would also like to thank you for telling me this. In the past, 'people's suffering' was just four words in my heart. Today, I understand its true meaning."

"If your Highness is a man, he will be a good emperor."

Nangong Jingnu chuckled: "I said I was afraid of death before, but I always said such outrageous things."

"Will your Highness tell others?"

"No, Ben Gong..."

"what?"

"This palace will protect you."

"Thank you, Your Highness."