Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

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Seeing that Nangong Jingnv seemed to be loose, Qi Yan breathed a sigh of relief, but also felt worried: Although Yuxiao is the continuation of the royal bloodline of the support Li, but she knows nothing about her life experience, she was born in the Wei country , She who grew up in the inner court can say that she has no sense of identity with the grassland at all, how can she explain this relationship to her clearly when she has revenge?

What should she do if she doesn't agree with her own life experience?And Xiaodie's eldest son, the child who has been missing for more than half a year... Where is it?

In order to prevent the relationship between his own sister and the enemy's daughter from becoming irretrievable, Qi Yan had no choice but to resort to this tactic. The pedantry of the Wei people has long been entrenched in their bones and blood, and the so-called inferiority of the concubine has lasted for thousands of years. .The main wife of a famous family will never marry a concubine's daughter. If a concubine's daughter wants to be a regular wife, she can only marry and bring a generous dowry.

Qi Yan thought that if she persuaded Nangong Jingnv with Wei country's etiquette, she would be able to make the other party accept that she sent Xiaodie away.But she forgot that at the beginning she was desperate to keep Xiaodie even at the cost of her life... This is how affectionate Nangong Jingnu thinks.

But in four years, how can you say that it has changed?

Seeing that Nangong Jingnv was silent, Qi Yan thought that the other party was thinking about the feasibility of this matter, so Qi Yan tightened her arms around Nangong Jingnv's arm: "Your Highness?"

Nangong Jingnv looked at Qi Yan: the night was like a layer of mist in front of her eyes, making her unable to see the other party's expression clearly.

After a long time, Nangong Jingnv's vermilion lips parted slightly, and she murmured: "Yuanjun...do you have something to hide from me?"

Qi Yan's heart tightened, and she still pretended to be calm on the surface, and asked: "What is your Highness talking about?"

Nangong Jingnv moved her body, broke free from Qi Yan's embrace, took a deep breath, and asked, "Are you willing to send her away?"

Qi Yan opened his mouth, but the words of explanation got stuck in his throat, and cold sweat oozes out.

Fortunately, the light in the hall was insufficient, so Nangong Jingnv didn't notice the flash of looseness on Qi Yan's face. The matter between Xiaodie and Nangong Shunv caught Qi Yan off guard, and she had too many things during this time , actually ignored one of the most important issues!

Even though he said everything reasonably, he still ignored his relationship with this "concubine".

A wise man is bound to make a mistake, and Qi Yan, who is careful at every step, also made a fatal mistake!

Qi Yan could clearly hear her heartbeat out of rhythm, Nangong Jingnv's silence was more like a wordless questioning, time passed bit by bit, the slower the answer, the more flaws would appear, the same if a If you accidentally answer the wrong answer, the image you have worked so hard for for seven years will be ruined.

The silence continued, and Qi Yan's self-proclaimed clever mind was also against her. Qi Yan knew that he had missed the best time to defend himself, and the so-called caring was messing him up. wrong.

Nangong Jingnv didn't ask any more questions, she turned around silently, and said lightly: "Let me think about this matter again."

Qi Yan: "Your Highness?"

With a soft sigh, Nangong Jingnv said quietly: "Are you afraid that one day what you and I planned will be accomplished, and Xiaodie's identity will become sensitive? If so...Qi Yan, you misread me."

Qi Yan's heart tightened, and just as she was about to explain, she felt that Nangong Jingnv's suspicion was the best result, and it was better than leading Xiaodie to her...

Seeing that Qi Yan was silent, Nangong Jingnv's heart sank to the bottom, and she couldn't think of the "national foundation" anymore.

Qi Yan who was behind him was also uncomfortable, and he hurt the other person's heart again, and he really told a lie, and he would cover it up with countless lies for the rest of his life... I didn't still promise to let Nangong go before the dust settled. Does Jingnv live a happy and carefree life?

Unexpectedly, her begging face, Agula, was so despicable that she even deceived herself.

Maybe it's because I can't figure it out?An avenger who sneaked into the Wei country with the purpose of revenge, and everything is based on lies, what qualifications does he have to talk about promises?

Everything is just an illusion made to numb my poor conscience.

It took seven years for Qi Yan to finally understand that she and Nangong Jingnv could not coexist peacefully from the very beginning, especially after the other party decided to embark on the path of empress, many things that could still be whitewashed in the past were gradually exposed.

A heart torn in pain, this is a pain that cannot be shared with others, there is no way to explain it, and no one can forgive it.

As early as seven years ago, Qi Yan had already embarked on a one-way road where every step forward, the road behind would collapse.

Qi Yan took a deep breath, she smelled the saponin fragrance from Nangong Jingnu's hair, she turned her back to her, and said nothing more.

Enduring the pain in her heart, Qi Yan silently apologized thousands of times, mustered up the courage to raise her hand, but her fingertips just ran across Nangong Jingnv's hair.

However, the distance of half an arm has become the furthest distance in the world.

Qi Yan sighed and turned around, folded her arms and closed her eyes.

The night was deep, and the red lights outside the hall were shining brightly, and there was no dream all night.

……

Two days later, Qi Yan made a special trip to accompany Qi Yuxiao to the racecourse that the little guy had been longing for. Perhaps it was a call from the depths of his blood, and Qi Yuxiao had a great time.

Qi Yan watched the horse inspector pick out a few foals, feeling very anxious.

The high priest once said: The ability to communicate with horses is given by the gods, and only those with pure hearts can listen to the voice of nature.

Qi Yan was very afraid that after going through so much, she would lose the ability to communicate with the horse.

The result made Qi Yan very gratified. Although it took a lot longer than before, she still established a relationship with the horses. Among the horses, Qi Yuxiao was very fond of a white-hoofed filly. Qi Yan took Qi Yuxiao's hand and came to the side of the foal for a snow-white mixed-haired horse with four black hooves. She first patted the horse's neck, then grabbed a handful of beans and spread them on the palm of her hand for the horse to eat.

The white-hoofed crow finished eating the beans carefully, and snorted contentedly.Qi Yuxiao's amber eyes were sparkling, full of yearning and innocence.

Qi Yan was stunned: The scene in front of me overlapped with the past, and Xiaodie was like this back then...

Qi Yan pursed her lips, stretched her hands under Qi Yuxiao's armpit, lifted the little guy up, put it on the horse's back, then put the bridle on the white-hoofed crow, and led the horse herself.

Regardless of Qi Yuxiao's young age, she is not timid at all, and she laughs like silver bells from time to time. "Father and daughter" had a wonderful day. When they came back, Qi Yuxiao was so tired that he fell asleep on Qi Yan's shoulder. Before going to sleep, he asked Qi Yan in a raving voice: When will I take her to ride a horse again?

On the second day, Qi Yan packed up her luggage and returned to her private residence with Qian Tong, who had just recovered from her serious injury.At this time, I don't care whether it will touch Nangong Jingnv's sensitive nerves. The red list has been released for a few days, and neither she nor Nangong Jingnv should miss this opportunity.

In order to avoid embarrassment, Qi Yan wrote a special letter and told Qiu Ju to give it to Nangong Jingnv after she left.

Qiu Ju presented the letter to Nangong Jingnu in a nervous mood. The latter took the letter and opened it in front of her, read it calmly, and finally said flatly: "I know."

Qiu Ju was stunned for a while before asking An to quit, still somewhat disbelieving that her master could be so calm.

When there was only one person left in the hall, Nangong Jingnv suddenly rolled up the letter paper, leaning on the back of the chair, her chest heaving violently.

She looked at the files on the desk in a daze, and her father said: "Everyone who is in power should not show his emotions or anger."But when it comes to yourself, you will know how hard it is.

……

The first thing Qi Yan did when she returned to her private residence was to order someone to release the news of her return to the residence. In the afternoon, many Jinzhou students who had been taught by Qi Yan came to visit with gifts.

The news of Cui Yushi's crash and death in the court hall spread under Nan Gongda's intentional relaxation, and Qi Yan's reputation among the people and the students plummeted. Factions, sharing weal and woe with each other to avoid suspicion is useless, it is better to show loyalty as soon as possible.

In the main hall, Qi Yan sat alone in the main seat, and five students from Jinzhou sat below them. The five people's eyes showed excitement and respect, and they sat upright, listening to Qi Yan's teachings.

Qi Yan picked up the teacup and took a sip, then said slowly: "Since the exams have settled, you don't have to get too absorbed in the past, all the results depend on the palace exam. In the palace exam, you can beat all the students in Chinese and win the top three. Fang lived up to the bitterness of ten years of hardship, but the fierce competition in the first class requires a little luck, if he can rank in the second class and win a Jinshi background, after three to five years of experience, he is expected to show his strength in the court."

All the people in the hall accept the teaching with an open mind and say yes.

Qi Yan continued: "However... Judging from the current situation of the imperial court, if you are named to the top three, there may be no suitable vacancies for a while, and you may be sent to other places, or stay in the capital as a vacancies." Shi Brown', waiting for recommendations and vacancies."

The so-called "Shi Brown" refers to the candidates who ranked low in the Qionglin Banquet. If the imperial court does not have enough vacancies for a while, they will give a Shi Brown status, and they can stay in Beijing and deliver their articles to those who have the right to recommend At the courtier's house, wait for Bole.

However, since the imperial examinations are held every three years, the status of the freshman Shi Brown can only be maintained for three years. If he fails to get an official position within three years, he will probably return to his hometown to become a teacher in a government school. For all the students who passed the palace examination, it was the worst ending...

Two of the five examinees had mediocre literary talents, and their looks were not outstanding. After hearing what Qi Yan said, their hearts beat, and they said, "Fortunately, we are from the master's school. If unfortunately we are selected as 'Shi Brown', Mr. Wan Wang will support you." One or two."

Qi Yan glanced at the two of them, his face turned cold, and he said coldly: "The palace test has not yet started, and the two of you have such thoughts, why don't you go back home as soon as possible."