Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

Straightforward parasite

Nangong Jingnv was reviewing memorials in a hidden study, and Nangong Rang was resting in the bedroom.

Since she secretly took over the imperial affairs, Sijiu has been by her side.This loyal servant who has served Nangong Rang loyally for more than 40 years now spends most of the time by Nangong Jingnv's side under Nangong Rang's instruction.

Even today, Nangong Jingnv probably understands her father's intentions, but she can't believe that this road will be successful. After all, men have always been superior to women since ancient times. How could it be a woman's turn to be the son of heaven?Presumably the father is also well aware of this point, so he set up layers of cover-ups to confuse the courtiers.

A guard hurriedly walked on the palace road, and when he came to the boundary of Ganquan Palace, he was blocked by other guards.The man took out a small token from his bosom and waved it in front of the two guards blocking the way. The latter hurriedly put down their weapons and saluted, "My lord please."

The man was still silent, "swish" passed between the two guards, and quickly disappeared around the corner.

Outside the main hall of Ganquan Palace, a young servant stood guard at the door. He was the "dry" son of Sijiu, the chief servant. A family nephew with a wife and children entered the palace and named him Chen Chuansi.

Although Sijiu was born in the family, there are two generations whose original surname is Chen.Chen Chuansi served Sijiu for two years, Sijiu treated him very well, and now he is the only figure in the inner court.

After all, Sijiu was getting old, fearing that he would not be able to serve Nangong Jingnv to the end, so he recruited his godson to slowly take over his position.

The guard came to Chen Chuansi, and the two seemed to know each other. They looked at each other, and Chen Chuansi pushed open the small door of the main hall and went in.

After a while, half of his body leaned out from the small door: "Come in."

The two came to the side hall together, and Sijiu waited there.

The guard did not bow to salute until he saw Sijiu, and took out a brocade box from his arms: "My lord, this is from 'there'."

Sijiu raised his eyelids, and with a "hmm", Chen Chuansi took the brocade box and opened it in front of the two of them, touching the contents inside.After confirming that there was no hidden weapon in the box and the contents inside were not poisoned, he handed it over to Sijiu.

Sijiu took the things but didn't look at them, but said coldly, "Go down first."

The guards and Chen Chuansi greeted Ann, bowed and left.

Only then did Sijiu take out what was inside, it was a piece of white coarse cloth, the texture was a little yellowed, it looked like a dishcloth.

After shaking it open, there are two lines of small characters written with charcoal or plant ash on it, and the font is a bit crooked.

Sijiu opened his drooping eyelids, folded the cloth strips and put them back into the wooden box, put them in his arms, and walked in with staggering steps.

"Tuk Tuk Tuk"

When Nangong Jingnv heard the knock on the door, she put the brush on the inkstone, and pulled the yellow silk aside to cover what she had written: "Come in."

Sijiu came to the desk and bowed respectfully: "Your Highness, the security guard at the private house."

Nangong Jingnv's heart lake once again set off a wave of ripples, but the expression on her face did not change at all, she said lightly: "Let's put it down."

Sijiu: "Yes." He put the wooden box on the case and pushed it again, making sure that it was within Nangong Jingnv's reach, then he stood up straight, bowed and retreated silently.

Nangong Jingnv glanced at the wooden box, but tore off the yellow silk covering the memorial, took the brush and resumed the posture before Sijiu came in.

After a few breaths, with a "click", Nangong Jingnv's pupils shrank, and a drop of bright red cinnabar juice fell from the tip of the pen and landed on the memorial.

In an instant, it turned into a dot the size of a copper coin, which looked a little dazzling.

Nangong Jingnv took a deep breath and could only choose to put down the brush again.Even though she pretended to be calm on the surface, her heart was disturbed the moment the secret report arrived. Even if she pretended not to care, she couldn't concentrate.

She could fool four or nine times, but she couldn't fool herself.

Nangong Jingnv leaned back on the back of the chair, and the wooden box quietly stopped in her sight, which contained information about the private house.

Nangong Jingnv only found out later that her father had installed eyeliner in his private residence.It was the emperor who was surprised to hear that Qi Yan was raising a child in a private house and went to the palace to plead with her father to tell her.

So there is no resentment or opposition, she and Qi Yan have reached such a point.

Nangong Jingnv leaned over and took the brocade box in front of her, took out the contents and shook them open.

This morning, the backyard of the private house was shocked to hear the sound of crying, and the servant inquired while Mrs. Wen was eating: a pair of twins, dragon and phoenix, were born in the backyard, both with different eyes; unfortunately, the eldest son died, and Qi Yuanjun personally buried his son in the back garden under the tree.The servant Guan Wenpo's eyes flickered, as if there was something hidden.

……

When Nangong Jingnv came back to her senses, the cloth strip in her hand was crumpled.She bit her lip and took a blank memorial and tore it open, took a palm-sized piece of paper and wrote: check.

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Two hours ago, Qi Yan was pushed out of the delivery room by Mrs. Wen, half an hour later there was another burst of crying in the delivery room.

Wen Po came out of the delivery room wiping sweat, with a strange expression on her face, she looked up at Qi Yan's amber eyes and couldn't help but marvel in her heart: "Congratulations, Master, Congratulations to Master, Your Madam gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix twins "The second half of the sentence was held back abruptly by Mrs. Wen: The eyes of the children are exactly the same as the master's, they are all amber.

With a cold face, Qi Yan took out an ingot of ingot from his cuff and threw it to Wen Po: "Your reward, it's already getting late, old man, why don't you stay overnight, I'll send someone to take you back tomorrow morning, and there will be a gift at that time."

This stable woman has been in this business for most of her life, and she has never seen such a generous master. She hastily bowed and shouted: "Thank you, master, the master is really a bodhisattva. Forgive the old lady for saying something that should not be said. Your wife is weak. I'm afraid that the pair of dragon and phoenix twins are not enough milk. I wonder if the master has invited a wet nurse? My family has passed down a formula for breastfeeding. If the master doesn't mind it, I will copy it and leave it to the kitchen later. And... this The boy who is the first child of the twins is very strong, but the second girl seems to be weaker, so please be careful."

Qi Yan nodded, her expression unchanged: "Thank you for your hard work, please go to the side courtyard to rest."

Qi Yan opened the door and entered the room, the air was filled with a faint smell of blood, even so the windows in the room were closed, and there was a charcoal basin in front of the bed, the temperature in the air was very high.

The dumb maidservants were wiping Xiaodie's cheeks with a hot cleaning cloth, when one of the maidservants saw Qi Yan come in and pushed her companion, they both knelt down in front of Qi Yan.

Qi Yan waved her hand, and the two backed out.

Xiaodie fell asleep peacefully, she was extremely tired, the two children tossed all her energy, fortunately she was fine.

There were two swaddling babies beside the bed, one was red and was prepared first, and the other was lake blue, which was pulled over to make up the number.

No one would have thought that Xiaodie, with such a thin body, was pregnant with twins.

Looking at the three people on the bed, Qi Yan's eye sockets suddenly felt a little wet - the extremely exhausted Xiaodie didn't press any of the swaddling clothes, her body was in a "bow" shape, and she was protecting the two swaddling babies in her arms. unconscious behavior.

Qi Yan was full of emotions, and instantly recalled the scene when the plow support was about to break down, and the scene where her mother dragged her heavy body to pack her and her younger sister. The mother obviously didn't read any books, but at the last moment, she forced herself to come up with an idea. It was the trick of letting their sisters run south, but looking back now, it was indeed the trick of my mother that saved my life.

Today's Xiaodie is also the same. She is still recovering and her body is extremely exhausted. She instinctively protects the two children in her arms.

Women are weak, but mothers are strong.

The swaddling baby is one big and one small, and the first-born brother is wrapped in red satin. He looks bigger, and he is looking around with amber eyes. She forgot where she saw it before: a newborn baby cannot see Yes, I don't know what the kid is looking at.

The lake blue swaddle is more than a circle smaller, as Wen Po said: this is a weak child, it is not easy to conceive two children with Xiaodie's thin body, and both children survived Perhaps thanks to the strong blood of the prairie people, the younger sister slept soundly, lying quietly in her mother's arms.

Qi Yan walked over and looked down at the red baby boy, those amber eyes were exactly the same as her own.

Qi Yan's eyes are deep, and his expression is a little heavy: the two children have amber eyes, but Xiaodie's are black...

So the eyes of these two children are due to inheriting the blood of their mother's grassland?Or is the man who hurt Xiaodie actually a prairie man? !

Thinking of this, Qi Yan clenched her fists suddenly, thinking of the group of prairie people who were buried alive by her.If it's really one of them...

Qi Yan can't wait to fly back to Jinzhou now, dig up that piece of land and crush everyone inside. Do they know who this girl is?Begging Yan Nuomin, the most precious princess of the Plow Department!

Qi Yan's body swayed, and she had to suppress the thought that she could only stop at the stage of "guessing" forever. She was unwilling to make a deep distinction. Wei people have always been her enemies, but... if someone who hurt Xiaodie She is from the same clan, what should she do? !

Qi Yan took a deep breath, and slowly let out the turbid air in his chest, bent down and hugged the red swaddle.

Under the touch, it was unusually soft, and the dumpling with a hint of milky fragrance shook Qi Yan's hard heart.

Qi Yan turned around to leave, walked a few steps and looked back, there was a sleeping mother and daughter on the bed, defenseless.

She didn't go out of the house, but came directly behind the screen, and there was half a bucket of cold water in the wooden bucket.

Qi Yan looked down at the baby boy in her arms, and the little guy also stared at her with watery eyes, Qi Yan felt her heart was stabbed heavily, and for a moment she was even shaken.

Qi Yan put the swaddle on the small table at the side, untied the swaddle, the baby's arm was exposed, and the thick, fat lotus root arm waved cheerfully at herself, Qi Yan's eyes immediately turned red, don't Opening his face, he pressed the baby with one hand, and his shoulders trembled.

Qi Yan put the other hand on his lips, opened his mouth to bite, tears overflowed from his eyes, and big drops flowed down.She was already eight years old when the grassland accident happened, and she remembered many things.

Since the grasslands are hunting and fighting for half a year, the survival rate of babies is very low, and males who can hunt and fight are even more precious.

Every time there is a war between the tribes, the captured pregnant women will be treated very well. There will even be strong warriors vying to marry them back home. Someone will take the child back immediately, and rename it as his own child to raise. If Xiaodie's incident happened in the grassland, she would still be able to find the bravest husband-in-law, and the two children would be safe. grow up……

In the final analysis, it is oneself who is dirty.

She has been influenced too much by the culture of the Wei country, so she feels that the child born in humiliation cannot stay...

and……

Xiaodie's matter has been exposed for more than half a year, and the documents from the Inner Court Department recognizing Xiaodie's identity have not been delivered.

Qi Yan learned from Nangong Shunv's mouth: Nangong Jingnv kept Xiaodie on the grounds that she could not bear children... Then, now that the eldest son is born, according to the laws of the Wei Kingdom, it is very likely that the son will be kept and the mother will be kept, and the boy will be recorded in the At the knees of Nangong Jingnv, she is the eldest son of the consort and the princess...

With Nangong Rang's love for Nangong Jingnv, it is absolutely impossible to keep Xiaodie.

After all, Nangong Jingnv "cannot bear children" and her eldest son will become the mother's town. If the new king ascends the throne and makes Nangong Jingnv, the only direct princess, the eldest princess, her first son will be the county king.

Furthermore, Nangong Jingnv sits in the city of tens of thousands of households, Nangong Rang and Xinjun will never allow this boy to have two mothers.

Qi Yan opened her mouth, and there was a deep tooth mark on the back of her hand, oozing blood, she turned her head, there were still tears in the corner of her eyes, but her eyes became determined.

Qi Yan picked up the naked baby, and burst into tears again.She hated her own incompetence and weakness. If she had been more ruthless and the plan of revenge had been carried out faster, would she have been able to take Xiaodie away when she found Xiaodie again?

Or... If she wakes up earlier and cultivates her own power, she doesn't have to push Xiaodie and herself into such a desperate situation?

In the final analysis, the tragedy more than ten years ago was beyond her control, but now all the incidents are caused by her weakness and incompetence. She can't bear to see Nangong Jingnv hurt, and always wants her Happiness can be maintained for a while longer, just procrastinating and procrastinating... In the end, I can only suffer the consequences, but it is not myself who is punished, but her innocent and bruised sister!

Qi Yan sniffed: I will definitely get back this blood debt.

Qi Yan's face was reflected in the wooden barrel, and there was a horizontal scar on the left cheek, which was left for saving Nangong Jingnv, from now on... there will be no more.

This child is very well-behaved, nestling quietly in Qi Yan's arms, staring at everything around him with a pair of amber eyes.

With a sound of "dong", the originally calm water surface stirred up, and Qi Yan threw the baby boy into the wooden bucket.A scene that she never expected happened. The child opened his eyes in the water, closed his mouth and nose, kicked his legs...

Newborns are watery?I saw the baby kicking around, and the round head with a few wisps of fetal hair surfaced out of the water, Qi Yan's body swayed, looking at the excited expression of the baby playing in the water, his heart seemed to be run over by a roller...

Qi Yan pushed the baby down several times, but all of them floated up without exception, and laughed cheerfully, as if they were playing a game with Qi Yan.

Qi Yan looked at the baby playing in the wooden barrel for a long time, looked at his pair of eyes that were exactly like her own, and finally fished the baby out of the water. She called the source of money, found a piece of rag to wrap the baby up, and put it away. Going to the food box, I took a few more silver notes with a denomination of one hundred taels, and put them together with a wooden carving of a little rabbit.

Qian Yuan was very puzzled and asked, "Master, what is this?"

Qi Yan buckled the lid of the food box with his own hands: "You send this child out of the capital yourself, the farther the better, find a secluded and good family, and say that the child was abandoned because of strange eyes, the old lady in the clan I couldn't bear it, so I sent the child away overnight, and the 500 taels of silver was used as a thank you, as a reward for raising this child safely."

Qian Yuan finally couldn't hold back, and asked: "Master, why are you doing this? This is your eldest son!"

Qi Yan looked at Qian Yuan and said seriously: "You know my identity, the Inner Court Secretary has never recognized Xiao Die's identity, once the Inner Court finds out that we have a boy, he will definitely leave the mother to keep the child... I don't want the child I lost my mother when I was born, this is the only blood of my Qi family, and I entrust it to you!"

After hearing this, Qian Yuan knelt on the ground with a "plop": "Master, don't worry, the villain will take care of the young master!"

Qi Yan helped Qian Yuan up, thought for a while, and instructed again: "You must find an honest and responsible family, and inquire carefully. Any male master in the family who has bad habits of drinking and gambling cannot be selected."

Qian Yuan: "Master, don't worry, I understand."

Qi Yan: "In addition, warn them a few words, just say that the 'old lady' loves Yao grandson, and will send someone to look after the child. If there is anything wrong with the child, they must be buried with the whole family!"

Qian Yuan: "Yes."

Qi Yan: "...In order to avoid these banknotes from being coveted by bad guys, you go and get some broken silver and a few copper coins and take them out together. Remember to send the child as far away as possible. When you come back, don't tell anyone including me the address. .”

Qian Yuan: "Yes. If the master has no other orders, the little one will go right away?"

Qi Yan: "Wait a minute, let me think again..."

After a few breaths, Qi Yan ordered again: "When you come back, ask secretly along the way if you have bought the body of a baby boy who died in infancy."

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After Qian Yuan left, Qi Yan rewrapped the package, took a hoe and dug a deep hole under the trees in the small courtyard, put the swaddle in, spread a layer of oil paper on it, and then carefully sprinkled the soil On top, completely buried.

There is no other reason for doing this, if the oil paper is broken or gone, she will know that someone has moved here, so she can make plans.

In the state of Wei, babies who died young were considered unlucky, and most of them were put in boxes or swept up with grass and thrown in mass graves, but Qi Yan ordered people to buy incense candles and other items, and set up a small mourning hall under the tree. The news quickly spread...the dragon and phoenix twins lost a child, and it was difficult for the cook to turn a happy event into a funeral, so she hurriedly ordered a few pieces of tofu and changed it into funeral food.

Qi Yan washed her hands and returned to Xiaodie's room. Xiaodie had already woken up and was breastfeeding the baby. Qi Yan turned around subconsciously, thinking that she was also a daughter, it seemed that there was no need for this, so she naturally sat by the bed.

Xiaodie is still a little weak, but there is more maternal brilliance between her brows, she smiled at Qi Yan, and called out: "Brother~."

Qi Yan raised her hand to straighten Xiaodie's messy hair on her forehead, and said softly, "Thank you, does it hurt?"

Xiaodie shook her head and nodded again, looked down at the baby, the little guy was eating hard with his eyes closed, in Qi Yan's view, this was a very miraculous thing, no one had taught Xiaodie how to do it, she But I know how to feed the child.

Xiaodie: "Brother~, do you think that when mother gave birth to us, she worked so hard?"

A burst of thunder exploded in Qi Yan's mind, she stared blankly at Xiaodie: because she was young in the year of suffering and was stimulated later, Xiaodie was very vague about the past.She only remembered the family's totem, and after getting along for more than half a year, she gradually remembered herself, and rarely mentioned the past.

Qi Yan: "Xiaodie... you?"

Xiaodie raised her head: "What's wrong? Brother."

Qi Yan: "What do you remember?"

A trace of confusion flashed across Xiaodie's eyes, she blinked and suddenly asked in her mother tongue: "When will A Niang and A Dad come to pick us up?"

Qi Yan covered Xiaodie's mouth, both surprised and happy.

Listening to my sister's question, it seems that her memory has not recovered, but at least she can find the starting point of her memory!In the past, Xiaodie's memory was like a mess, often confused.

Does this mean that the younger sister may slowly recover? !

Seeing Xiaodie looking at her obediently with puzzled eyes, Qi Yan slowly let go of her palm, and also replied in her mother tongue: "Xiaodie, brother, let me tell you a story."

In the story, Qi Yan forged a "beautiful" fact.

She told Xiaodie that when they jumped off the cliff together to avoid being chased and killed, they were fortunately rescued by an expert.But Xiaodie was hit on the head and has been in a daze all these years, and her memory has been confused from time to time.

The plow support department is still there, and the parents and Bayin are also living well on the grassland, but their "brothers and sisters" cannot go back for the time being.She also married a woman from the Wei country, because the two countries were at war, and they could not reveal their identities as grassland people, and they could not go home until the time was right.

Qi Yan's lie was so clumsy that she was even worried that Xiaodie would not believe it. Sure enough, after Qi Yan finished speaking, Xiaodie frowned and murmured: "Why don't I remember what my brother said? I remember..." Xiaodie I tried to think hard, but couldn't think of anything.

Qi Yan hurriedly said: "Didn't my brother tell you? You have been ill all these years, suffering from hysteria! Many things in your memory are false, don't you believe my brother?"

Xiaodie's expression was a little anxious: "Of course I believe in brother!"

Qi Yan couldn't bear the guilt, held back the tears, raised her hand and touched Xiaodie's cheek: "Sister, you have to remember. We are not allowed to talk about the grassland on the land of Wei State, nor can we talk about the past. , let alone let anyone find out that we are the royal family of Support Li. There are many things that happened later, my brother will tell you slowly, but in their view, we are husband and wife, and this child is also our daughter."

The more Xiaodie listened, the more confused she became: "But we are brother and sister..."

Qi Yan: "Just keep in mind what brother said first. My name is Qi Yan. You can call me Yuanjun. Your first name is Xiaodie, and there is no surname. From now on, you will call me 'Yuanjun', no You can’t call me brother until you go home!”

Xiaodie seemed a little unhappy, and nodded silently.

After thinking about it, he asked again: "Brother... Yuan Jun, you married a girl from the Wei country, what will she do when we go back to the grassland?"

Qi Yan opened her mouth, seeing her sister speechless.

But Xiaodie seriously thought for a moment for "sister-in-law", and said: "Mother is also from Wei, although we are at war, brother, if Mr. Yuan takes her back, Mom and Dad will like her."