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When the two sat face to face at the dining table, the atmosphere was a little awkward.

Obviously yesterday, it was still different.

Ye Zhaoran looked at the cake Xie Yufei made for him yesterday and put it next to him, and didn't move a bite.

The candle on the top hadn't been taken yet, and it was inserted crookedly on it. After blowing out the candle yesterday, I kissed this person. Xie Yufei wanted to eat this cake very much at that time, but he couldn't eat it.

Thinking of this, Ye Zhaoran smiled again.Xie Yufei looked at his smile, but said nothing. After waiting for a long time, he looked into Ye Zhaoran's eyes and said, "Let's start."

Maybe it was the desperate look in Xie Yufei's eyes that stabbed Ye Zhaoran, he hesitated and said, "I just want to ask, what happened last night?"

Ye Zhaoran was puzzled, what happened to make Xie Yufei look so uncomfortable.

Xie Yufei stared at him, "Don't you remember?"

Ye Zhaoran shook his head.

Xie Yufei smiled, and there were tears in his smile.He spoke very slowly: "Last night, you were drunk and kept calling someone's name."

He didn't continue talking, but Ye Zhaoran's heart skipped a beat. He looked at Xie Yufei's expression, but Xie Yufei only paused for a moment, and then continued: "That person is called An An."

Ye Zhaoran looked at him with complicated eyes, he didn't know what kind of thoughts Xie Yufei took to take care of him all night, but he seemed to feel the pain in knowing Yufei's heart.

Because of the pain, Ye Zhaoran didn't speak.

Xie Yufei continued: "When I wanted to do your laundry," he clenched his hands tightly, looking at Ye Zhaoran with a smile, "I found a box in your pocket, which contained a a ring."

Ye Zhaoran was taken aback, he really didn't know about the ring.

He opened his mouth and hurriedly said, "Where is the ring?"

Xie Yufei looked at him in such a hurry, and there was no turbulence in his heart, and he would answer whatever Ye Zhaoran asked.

"It's in the pocket of the clothes," he pointed to the room, "I didn't touch it, you put it..."

Before he finished speaking, Ye Zhaoran rushed into the room.Picking up the box, he pulled it out and saw Lu Zhian's name on it, and he saw the note.

Seeing him rushing in hurriedly, Xie Yufei's tears had already dripped down and fell on the table.

He opened his eyes wide, trying to force back the tears, but the tears overflowed by themselves and dripped on the table.

When Ye Zhaoran walked out, there was indescribable complexity in his eyes.He wanted to speak, but he couldn't continue after saying the word "I".

He saw Xie Yufei's tears, Ye Zhaoran didn't move, stood there and stared at him blankly, it's not that he didn't make Xie Yufei cry, but this time this person cried very hard, but he was helpless.

He wanted to tell him, don't cry, I like you.

He couldn't say it, he remembered his original purpose.

He felt that he was shameless, occupying such a good Xie Yufei, but let him be wronged, so sad.

He didn't know what to do, no one told him.

But when he saw Xie Yufei's tears, Ye Zhaoran was also very sad.

Xie Yufei looked at him standing there with impenetrable emotions in his eyes.My heart is cold, what is he doing?Does he want to use tears to keep Ye Zhaoran?

He raised his head and wiped away his tears, and said to Ye Zhaoran, "Don't worry, I...move out today."

I'm not here to bother you, I'm not here to bother you.

Ye Zhaoran seemed to have lost his temper, he really wanted to grab Xie Yufei and tell him not to leave, but seeing Xie Yufei pretending to be strong, he couldn't speak.

Ye Zhaoran could only nod his head, but Xie Yufei walked into the room as if he couldn't bear it anymore, and quickly packed his luggage.

When he came out, Ye Zhaoran was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette.He is not fully recovered from his illness today, but he is restless in his heart. He wants to keep Xie Yufei, but he can't open his mouth.

He is so smart, and he deserves it for things to develop to such a point.

Seeing the man holding a cigarette in his hand, Xie Yufei couldn't help but remind him. Ye Zhaoran looked at his still red eye sockets and wanted to reach out to touch them, but finally clenched his fists.He silently pinched his cigarette, took Xie Yufei's luggage, "I'll see you off."

Xie Yufei wanted to take back his luggage, but he wanted to say no.Ye Zhaoran didn't give in.

It was really cold outside, Xie Yufei followed Ye Zhaoran out the door.Ye Zhaoran called a taxi for him, watched Xie Yufei get into the taxi, Xie Yufei was silent all the way, but finally spoke to him.

A very simple sentence: "Goodbye."

Ye Zhaoran was a little dazed after hearing this, but the car drove a long way and was nowhere to be seen.

Xie Yufei returned to the dormitory, startling Cheng Jie and Xu Bo.Because Xie Yufei looked really embarrassed, trembling all over, he didn't sleep all night last night, his eyes were black and blue, and his pupils didn't look bright at all.

Xie Yufei didn't say a word, he made the bed silently, and then lay down on it.He was very tired, wanted to sleep, and had a headache. Today, when he was standing on the balcony outside, he felt uncomfortable with the cold wind blowing.

Sometimes, there is no reason for people to want to do something, so why bother others to persuade you?Make yourself miserable, don't take good care of yourself.But you want to be miserable at this time, because you feel very uncomfortable.

Xie Yufei lay in bed for a whole day, and in the evening, when Cheng Jie went to his bedside to see him, he realized that he had a fever.

So the two of them were busy dragging Xie Yufei to the school infirmary. Xie Yufei didn't speak during the whole process, and cooperated with their actions obediently.Cheng Jie looked at him like this, guessed in his heart, and scolded Ye Zhaoran [-] times as a scumbag.

In the afternoon of the second day, Xie Yufei woke up a little bit. He opened his eyes and found that he was on the bed in the dormitory, and then he remembered that he had moved out of Ye Zhaoran's house.

Cheng Jie stood beside Xie Yufei, and was taken aback when he saw him wake up.He patted his head, "You finally woke up! Xiaofei."

Xie Yufei nodded, his throat was a little itchy, Cheng Jie brought him a glass of water, Xie Yufei leaned on the bed, and drank the water quietly.

Xie Yufei pointed to the mobile phone on the side, "Your grandma has called you several times since yesterday, and... Ye Zhaoran..."

Xie Yufei nodded and said, "I see."

Cheng Jie couldn't hold back, he still asked: "You and Ye Zhaoran..."

"We broke up." Xie Yufei took the phone and called his grandma back. He used to talk to him every day, but suddenly lost contact yesterday. Grandma should be very anxious.

The old lady was still complaining about him on the phone, Xie Yufei explained for a long time but didn't want to make her worry, he just said that he was busy with class yesterday and forgot to call, chatted for a few more words before hanging up.

He hung up the phone, only to see Ye Zhaoran's text messages and missed calls, and the list was all this person.

He really didn't want to talk anymore, and when he saw the other party asking him if he hadn't received the text message when he arrived at school, he simply replied with a few words: "We've arrived at school, thank you."

Cheng Jie looked at his pale face and asked him what he wanted to eat, but the doctor said that it is best to have porridge now.

Xie Yufei didn't know, Cheng Jie was going out to buy porridge for him.Xie Yufei stopped him when he watched him turn around, "Cheng Jie."

When Cheng Jie looked back, Xie Yufei was still the same as before, and he felt that he took advantage of being nice to him.He looked at people sincerely, "Thank you."

Cheng Jie sighed slightly, nodded and went out the door.

After lying down for two or three days, Xie Yufei was almost recovered.He thought that he had taken sick leave for a long time, and his classes were too late, so he went to class with Cheng Jie and the others.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he entered the classroom, he saw Ye Zhaoran sitting there, looking at him with deep eyes.

Xie Yufei's heart trembled, he lowered his head pretending to be nonchalant and followed Cheng Jie and the others to sit in the back.Ye Zhaoran would turn to this direction from time to time, Xie Yufei was seriously taking notes in class, writing in the notebook with his fingers.

When get out of class was over, he was stopped by Ye Zhaoran.

It's only been three days, it seems like it's been a long time since we saw each other.

Xie Yufei had been ill for a while, and his complexion was not fully recovered yet.His face was morbidly pale, and his lips were cracked. He didn't look like he used to. Now he was dull and rigid.

He didn't want to get entangled with Ye Zhaoran anymore, he took Cheng Jie and Xu Bo's arms to go out, but Ye Zhaoran dragged them to the next classroom, it was empty and there was no one there.

Ye Zhaoran's eyes seemed to be on fire, he was very irritable from the day Xie Yufei left.

He has been contacting this person, but he has not answered his call for the past two days.

He still couldn't bear it, he let Jie Yufei leave that day because of guilt, but he regretted it after he left for less than an hour, and he wanted to arrest him and explain clearly.

Xie Yufei was not by his side, he would go crazy just thinking about it.

He thought that this person would never skip class, so he came to class every day, but he was still nowhere to be seen.He was about to go to his dormitory to catch someone, but luckily Xie Yufei showed up today.

Ye Zhaoran stared at him with sharp eyes: "Why don't you answer the phone?"

Xie Yufei didn't know where to look: "I replied the text message."

"Who wants to read text messages!" Ye Zhaoran was angry, but he couldn't vent his anger. Seeing Xie Yufei's appearance, he wanted to hug him, and he did the same.

But Xie Yufei quickly pushed him away, he was very hard, Ye Zhaoran was not ready, and was pushed staggered.

Ye Zhaoran had never been treated like this by Xie Yufei, he was a little surprised.The guilt and distress in his heart were instantly replaced by anger, he looked up at Xie Yufei, his eyes turned cold: "Okay, Xie Yufei."

Xie Yufei gritted his teeth, and looked back with stubborn eyes: "We broke up."

Ye Zhaoran seemed annoyed by his attitude, on the one hand he felt sorry for Xie Yufei, on the other hand he ran away when he heard this. "Who the hell told you we broke up?"

Xie Yufei raised his head and looked at him, with pain in his eyes, he didn't want to bow his head, but this person always came to force him, Xie Yufei's voice had the meaning of admitting defeat: "Please, don't come to me again, okay?"

Ye Zhaoran's clenched fist suddenly loosened, and he smiled mockingly, not knowing whether he was laughing at Jie Yufei or himself, turned around and left.

Xie Yufei walked out of the classroom with his back straight, pulled a smile into Cheng Jie's worried eyes, and waved his hands, "I'm fine."

For half a month, Ye Zhaoran didn't contact him again.

Xie Yufei's days went back to the past, part-time job, study.He seldom goes out to play, and only when Cheng Jie and Xu Bo pull him out for dinner will he go for a walk.

He looked much better already, unaffected.

But Cheng Jie was always worried that he would be bored, and Xie Yufei's character kept everything in his heart, making himself uncomfortable.

But Xie Yufei saw him again when the winter vacation was approaching.When changing shifts in the coffee shop, Xie Yufei wiped the table, looked out the window, and watched Ye Zhaoran talking and laughing with others.Xie Yufei didn't make a sound, just looked at him quietly, he guessed that he was passing by, or he forgot that Xie Yufei was working here, so he came to provoke him so much.

Maybe that person is Lu Zhian, he deliberately brought it over to show him, but Ye Zhaoran didn't look at him, didn't even glance at him, Xie Yufei felt a little funny.

Until the two men walked away and were out of sight.Xie Yufei just finished his shift and went to the small supermarket on the corner to buy a pack of cigarettes.

This is the first time he bought cigarettes, and he bought the same taste as that person.

It's cold at night in winter, and it snows occasionally these days.

Under the dark yellow street lamp, Xie Yufei stood by the electric pole and lit his first cigarette.

He had a sudden whim, and he was also a little bit unable to bear the pain of longing.

He needs something different to stimulate himself and remind himself.

Boys like to smoke, mostly in middle school.

He previously thought it was a mature act to prove himself, and it didn't make sense.

But now, after smoking his first cigarette, he realizes that cigarettes can also replace many things.

He inhaled all those thoughts, complaints, and endless grievances into his lungs, and then exhaled a puff of smoke, you see, it's no big deal, it will all dissipate.

Just like the movie curtain call to exit, don't be reluctant.