Boiling point

Li Yanqi intends to confess to someone tonight, the weather is bad, the two of them are not interested in going for a walk in the snack street, and they just cook a pot of dumplings at home and have a good chat, but when he made the dumplings and knocked on the door of He Xin's room, The other party is not at home.

There was still a stack of unfinished test papers spread out on the table, as well as his messy scratched draft book. It seemed that he was driven crazy by the questions and vented his anger.

Li Yanqi stood in his room in a daze for a while, feeling vaguely uncomfortable, unable to tell what it was like, a little dazed, he pressed his palm to let himself not think too much, went over to tidy up He Xin's desk, Tear off a piece of draft paper, help him calculate the questions and stuff them under the test paper, then help him fold the quilt, clean the room briefly, close the window, open the door and go out.

It was still raining outside, and the continuous stagnant water made the road here difficult to walk. Li Yanqi rolled up his trousers, stepped on the open space on tiptoe, looked up and saw He Xin with a cigarette in his mouth, drooping With his head in his head, he was a little out of shape, and walked quickly despite his sneakers being stained by sewage.

"Where did you go? Why didn't you open an umbrella?" Li Yanqi tugged at his arm.

He Xin froze for a moment, then pressed out the cigarette butt with his fingers, and Li Yanqi realized that his hair was also wet, and he looked a bit embarrassed.

"You..." Li Yanqi suddenly had a premonition of panic, he hoarse, and did not ask further.

There was silence around for a while, He Xin stared at Li Yanqi's worried face, then stretched out his hand to brush his hair, smiled indifferently and said, "I have a headache from writing, go out and wake up."

Li Yanqi pursed his lips, paused for a moment, rubbed his arm and said, "Go and wash, I made dumplings, come over to eat after washing."

"Okay." He Xin had already thrown away the cigarette, raised her head and sneezed, and walked straight into the room.

Li Yanqi turned his head to look at his back, feeling a sudden irritability in his heart, he stayed where he was for a while before returning to the kitchen to reheat the already cold dumplings.

There was nothing unusual about He Xin during the meal, maybe it was just because Li An was by his side, he couldn't show it, he ate each dumpling happily, and occasionally teased the little guy by taking away his vinegar bowl.

Li Yanqi has a delicate mind, he is too good at observing words and expressions, and he also knows him too well. After bumping into him at the door just now, he carefully considered the other person's eyes, and it was clear that something was wrong.

He Xin turned his back to him at the moment, whispering something to Li An, he couldn't see the other person's face, but from his immature cover-up, he found that he was not so comfortable now.

"I'll accompany you to get the medical examination report of Little Milk Bubble later." He Xin turned her head, her neck stretched out a slender curve, Li Yanqi didn't have time to appreciate his beautiful shoulder and neck line at the moment, so she just nodded absent-mindedly, Standing up with the bowls and chopsticks, He Xin squeezed his wrist with a little force. He couldn't see any emotion on his face. It took him a long time to withdraw his hand and said with a sigh, "I won't drive for a while, I'm too full to eat. , just to digest."

He Xin is a relatively lazy type, usually accompany him to the small town vegetable market, and drive his cool motorcycle every few steps, except that he wants to hang out with him on the road and play hooligans to pass the time Well, he usually doesn't choose to go out on foot, and the hospital is a little far away from here. After practicing the Tao at the back door, he has to take a long detour to get there.

Li Yanqi knew in his heart that he must have something to say.

In fact, it's not hard to guess. On the way to the hospital, he already vaguely had the answer in his heart. He Xin must have known about his transfer. Li Yanqi turned his head to look at He Xin who was walking beside him silently. He clenched his fists hard, he didn't know how to bring up this topic first, they rarely faced such silence, this feeling was very strange, it made Li Yanqi feel that there was something stuck in his throat, very stuffy.

The news from Dr. Qiu is quite reassuring. At least his brother’s condition has not deteriorated in the recent stage, but the treatment some time ago caused his platelet index to be low. Resistance, pay attention to rest.

Li Yanqi nodded and said thank you. After Dr. Qiu handed him the physical examination report, he thought for a while and asked, "Are you rich recently?"

Li Yanqi understood what he meant, and he said without hesitation, "It's okay, just prescribe it, I can still afford these medicines."

Dr. Qiu hummed, and looked up at them after a long silence, "To be honest, it is very difficult to completely cure Xiao'an's problems, and he must undergo surgery. His improvement now has something to do with his own mentality, but as he As we get older, the load capacity of the heart does not necessarily get better and better. My suggestion is that you can go to a big city for a period of time and see what the doctors say about when it is appropriate to perform surgery. You can try again. It's not too late."

Li Yanqi had already planned this in his heart, and he was relieved to hear what Dr. Qiu said, at least there was still hope for a cure.

"Dr. Xie from the No. 1 People's Hospital in Antan City is my college student. At that time, he was the first graduate of the whole department. He also went to Germany for a period of time to study. He is a good heart surgeon. Wait a minute, I'll give you a business card." Dr. Qiu took out a crumpled business card from the drawer, handed it to Li Yanqi, and said, "You two are about to be in your third year of high school, and there is no rush at this time, you can call him first , Ask about the cost of the operation and the specific situation, he is nice and easy to talk to."

Li Yanqi looked down, the business card was very plain, and there was no stamping on it - Xie Zongnan, he had seen this name on the admission website of Antan University School of Medicine before, and it was said that he was a very famous senior.

"Thank you." Li Yanqi bowed to Dr. Qiu, "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Dr. Qiu smiled, "I watched Xiao An grow up, and I hope he gets better. I'm also very happy to see that you are getting better and better these days .”

Li Yanqi glanced at He Xin subconsciously. The other party put his hands in his trouser pockets and stared at him solemnly in a daze. When he saw his gaze, he narrowed his eyes suddenly and smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled.

Li Yanqi sighed inwardly, followed He Xin out of the office.

On the way back, the rain stopped falling, but it was completely dark. The two deviated from the track of going home and walked aimlessly. He Xin has been suppressing his emotions since just now, because he didn't want to let Xiao Milk Foam could see that the little guy was extremely sensitive, and when he found out that the two brothers were about to quarrel, he would definitely feel sad again.

So he kept laughing, but the smile was too fake, let alone whether Li Yanqi would find out, he just took out his phone and looked at the screen and felt like vomiting.

He is not the kind of forbearing personality, he can say whatever comes to his mind, and he will explode when he is upset, but he really doesn't know where to start to talk about this matter. He Xin walked behind Li Yanqi, staring at his hair lit by street lights. Spinning, he kicked a stone on the side of the road hard.

Annoyedly pulling out a cigarette, he raised his head and exhaled.

Then he bumped into Li Yanqi's back, the other party stopped and turned to look at him.

He Xin lowered her head and rubbed her wrist, and suddenly heard a very soft "I'm sorry."

It was fine if Li Yanqi didn't say sorry, but once he said sorry, the flames that were suppressed in his heart were picked up.

"Actually, I wanted to tell you a long time ago, but I haven't been able to find a suitable opportunity." Li Yanqi lowered his eyelids and said in a low voice, "I didn't mean to hide it from you, but I wanted you to prepare well for the final exam at the beginning. , life was so comfortable later on, I didn't expect that I would forget it until recently..." Li Yanqi was never good at explaining, this sentence was stumbled, there was no logic of his academic master, saying At the end he sighed and added, "He Xin, I'm sorry, I apologize to you."

He Xin was nailed to the spot without saying a word, and looked up at him after a long time, "Do you think this is a trivial matter?"

Li Yanqi said, "Neither of us."

But He Xin interrupted him with a smile, "No, it's just a small matter, just changing classes, it's not changing schools, it's not leaving here, it's not that we won't see you again, what kind of person do you think I am? , after hearing this news, the bitch will tell you not to turn, tell you to stay, saying that I can't bear to leave you? Shit, this is a small thing in my heart, I just have to run a few more floors to see you A little thing."

Li Yanqi looked at him, confused by his suddenly amplified tone, and it took him a long time to smooth out the words, "I didn't mean that, of course I believe and believe that you will let me turn, I know what you are like Man, how good you are, so I never underestimated you, it's just that this matter is not as easy to say as you think."

He Xin threw away the cigarette, and listening to Li Yanqi's gentle voice, the grievances in her heart suddenly surged up, "Because of your hesitation, you chose to hide it from me, and finally let me find out that my boyfriend is going to change classes." The nature has changed, do you understand? Do you know how I felt when I saw that application form?" He Xin took a deep breath and turned to look at him. I can't fight back no matter how hard I fight, I'm so powerless and aggrieved, it makes me feel like an astonishing idiot, the day after tomorrow this thing is going to be handed in, and I don't know what it feels like until the last moment, you know? You know shit ah."

After a brief silence, Li Yanqi walked over and took his hand, He Xin dodged for a while, her brows furrowed tightly.

"From the very beginning when I decided on this matter, I have been thinking about how I should say it to make you feel better, to make myself more comfortable, and whether I should transfer it. After I transfer it, I will Can I do a good job? Think about how I can lead this class well in the last days, and let Wang Meiren leave without any regrets. I live under these pressures every day. This may be a small matter for you, but for you Not for me, this is a major event that determines my life, and it is a major event that will change the trajectory of my entire life in the future if I am not careful! You can see me if you run to the third floor, but what about recess, lunch break, and self-study classes? In physical education class, we always spend more time apart than together, I think too clearly and thoroughly, so I am timid, and I am afraid that you will feel uncomfortable because of these things, because I am more uncomfortable than you!"

He Xin was stunned for a moment when he heard this, he didn't think about it that much, he thought very simply, for a moment he felt sorry for Li Yanqi who would always think so much for others, and wanted to compromise and give him a hug, but he He stopped just after taking a step, he lowered his head and covered his face, cleared his throat, and there was an inaudible tremor in his voice, "But you would rather carry these things by yourself than share them with me, you What do you think of me? I am your boyfriend, someone you can rely on, you want to take care of my emotions, and I also want to accompany you to face these problems, maybe I am not as smart as you, not as comprehensive as you, But I want to know everything about you right away, am I wrong?"

Li Yanqi lowered his voice and sighed, "I'm sorry, I always want to make you happy, we are in a relationship, why bother to make everyone worry."

He Xin tugged at him, and pulled him to her, "So you'd rather hold back by yourself? Are you holding all your emotions in your heart? Did something happen to Li An one day, you just wanted to let me pass the exam Not to mention, will you retreat into your shell for my happiness and my future? If his illness will drag me down and our lives in the future, will you give up on me? Silently Take it? Is it?"

"I've never thought about it that way." Li Yanqi's eyes widened for a moment, then he turned his head away, not knowing what he was thinking, and did not speak again.

He did think about He Xin's aggressive words before, but that was before. When he took that step and said that he wanted to be with him, he had already vetoed any thought of retreating in his mind.

But at this moment, he was also asking himself, is it so easy to change the character he has developed since he was a child?

Can the root be changed and the book be changed?

He Xin turned around and saw Li Yanqi's panic-stricken face. This was the first time he saw the other party's unsteady look. He gritted his teeth and felt a little pain in his heart. He was more angry at Li Yanqi's forbearance than at Li Yanqi's forbearance. In this embarrassing situation between the two, no one is right or wrong, it's just a difference in thinking caused by different personalities. Accepting his apology is very simple, but He Xin doesn't want to just wrong him like this, or feel wronged that she agrees with the other party. values.

"Brother Ta, you said that you wanted to be my escape route." After a long while, He Xin snuffed out the last cigarette and said in a very firm tone, "But since the moment I fell in love with you, retreat has been a thing for me. It doesn't exist anymore, so I'm not as fragile as you imagine, and I'm not a person who is easy to compromise. The things I have decided will go to the end in a smear, and I will die. I am so stubborn."

Li Yanqi looked at him, and responded softly, "Yes."

"It's not that I want to magnify this matter to such a level, but I think you underestimate me and my self-esteem has been frustrated." He Xin said, "I'm really angry now, very angry, you can coax me no matter what The bad kind."

Li Yanqi took a step forward, wanting to hug him, but he turned sideways and staggered away.

"Let's both be quiet for a while." He Xin tilted his head, "I'm going for a run, I might be late, take the umbrella, don't get caught in the rain."

Li Yanqi didn't follow, but just pulled down the zipper of his coat and took out a cigarette from it.

"you......."

"Occasionally." Li Yanqi shook the cigarette, and He Xin lowered his head to light it for him. He smoked like a good student secretly copying his homework. Because of the silence, it took a long time for the smoke ring to come out, and even Not in circles.

But Li Yanqi's face hidden in the smoke has a kind of morbid beauty. He Xin's firm willpower has been worn down an inch. She stretched her arm in the air to touch his face, but retracted it instantly, turned around, put on a mask and ran gone.

Li Yanqi doesn't choke on cigarettes now, but he is still not very proficient. With a cigarette between his fingers, he found a bench in the community park and sat down. A car horn pierced through the silent street, and soon disappeared. , Li Yanqi carefully dug out the emotions in his heart, and then settled them down little by little.

There will not be exactly the same empathy in the world. Everyone has their own unique ideas and personalities, so if you get too close, you will inevitably have conflicts. Try to understand and accept the precious "difference". It is the first step in their growth.

It is said to be a cold war, but it is actually more like calming each other down.

For the first time, He Xin is not a bad bed, she wakes up 10 minutes earlier than Li Yanqi to go to school every day, even if Li Yanqi sets the alarm clock at [-] o'clock today to block him, he will still slip away before it happens.

Sister Liao didn't hear anything outside the window and buried her head in the book, but she still found out that something was wrong between the two of them.

During physical education class, he dragged Li Yanqi and asked, "Brother Ta, did you quarrel?"

Li Yanqi said, "No."

Sister Liao clicked her tongue, "Don't lie to me, He Xin kicked him a few days ago and was still giggling. I took a sausage from him this morning and turned against me."

Li Yanqi smiled, "He didn't eat breakfast today, and it's already a shame that he didn't beat you up."

Sister Liao took a look at He Xin, then turned around and said, "You haven't come to school together for almost a week, don't think I'm blind."

"You are awesome." Li Yanqi raised his head and drank his saliva, and turned his face away. Sister Liao took the trouble to rush over and asked seriously, "I also had a fight with Xue Wen a few days ago, thanks to me Smart and intelligent, it made her smile, and I can be regarded as an experienced senior, brother Ta, tell me."

Li Yanqi looked at him, the mineral water bottle was quickly crushed in his hands, and he sighed softly after a long time, "Do you remember what I told you before that I was going to transfer?"

Sister Liao's face fell instantly, "Don't mention it, Brother Ta, I can't bear you."

Li Yanqi said, "I didn't tell He Xin before, but now he found out."

"Is he angry because you are too upset about changing classes?" Sister Liao messed up his hair, turned around in a circle, and analyzed to herself, "Oh! He is angry because you hid it from him Bar."

Li Yanqi nodded, "Because he felt that I underestimated him."

Sister Liao could understand the superficial anger, but he couldn't figure out what was going on at a deeper level. After secretly worrying about a physical education class, he came up with a bad idea for Li Yanqi.

"Brother Ta, either do nothing and keep killing him."

Li Yanqi: "..."

"Hey, there are so many things between men and men. You will be submissive once you come to bed, and we will talk about what's going on after you're done."

Li Yanqi rolled his eyes at him, "I really want to persuade Xue Min to break up with you."

Sister Liao smiled and waved at Xue Wen, "You are purely jealous. Let me tell you, it is not good to coax people to be as passive as you are. Whether it is a boy or a girl, the core of coaxing is to lower your posture. You should be soft and soft, and you should be tough." Time is hard, let the other party see your sincerity, don't keep your thoughts in your heart every day, let people have to guess, it's so tiring."

Li Yanqi's Adam's apple twitched, and after a while he smiled and said, "Got it."

"Then why don't you act quickly, He Xin packs her schoolbag and is going to run away with Xu Lan." Sister Liao pushed him, Li Yanqi took a step forward unexpectedly, and had to block the other party's way.

He Xin was stunned for a moment, grabbed the strap of her schoolbag, looked at him calmly and said, "What's wrong?"

"Wipe, it's dirty here." Li Yanqi brought him a tissue and said after a moment of silence, "Are you going home for dinner tonight? I'm going to buy vegetables."

He Xin lowered his head and wiped his sweat, turned sideways and threw the tissue into the trash can, turned his head and saw the concerned eyes of the other party, his heart softened for a moment, he almost thought to let it go, show weakness, why are you still holding your breath, Obviously I have already thought about it during this time, I look at his photo every night and think about him, I don’t have much time to stay in the same class, so why be so stubborn, one more day is just one day.

It's not that self-esteem is at work, the two elders don't care who admits their mistakes first, it's just... this step must be taken by Li Yanqi, because he wants him to understand that he can share any joys, sorrows, and sorrows together boyfriend, not a flirt for a moment of pleasure.

Regarding their future decisions, the boyfriend wants to know immediately.

Thinking of this, He Xin became a little angry again.

The bastard Li Yanqi, you can really hold your breath, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, you still seem to be okay after so many days.

"I made an appointment with Xu Lan to play basketball." He Xin turned around, Xu Lan said "ah", scratched his head and responded repeatedly, "Yes, yes, yes, my brother said that I was too tense for the exam, so I need to relax .”

Li Yanqi took a step back, and felt his throat crack when he spoke again, "Understood, then I won't cook lemon salmon, let's talk about it when you come home someday."

"Yes." He Xin gritted her teeth in answer, and in order not to disturb the morale of the army, she dragged Xu Lan forward.

Seeing everything, Sister Liao smashed the wall twice.

The class transfer notice came down today, and Li Yanqi transferred to Class [-], which happened to be three floors away from Class [-], in the same classroom.

After dinner, Li Yanqi took out his physics book and read it for a long time. He fell behind in the last semester of the second year of high school, and he had to make up for it. difficult.

Normally, Li Yanqi would set a goal for himself, such as which page to read in physics book tonight, which equations in chemistry, and how many test papers in biology, but today he is not in the mood at all, and his mind is full of He Xinhe Xin He Xin He Xin.

Either he couldn't keep his face and apologize to others, or he didn't know what to say and how to make him happy. Although He Xin lived as he wanted, he was still very sensitive in some aspects. He was as insecure as himself.

Li Yanqi threw away the draft paper and went to the bathroom to take a shower. The foam accidentally flowed into his eyes. He rubbed it with the back of his hand. His eyes were sore and painful. He just stood there. He thumped the wall hard, and squatted down with his arms folded.

He said before that He Xin is his light, but the light will always go out one day, there will always be a moment when it disappears, he is a little scared.

It was almost ten o'clock after He Xin and Xu Lan finished playing. The two of them hadn't been crazy together for a long time, and they forgot the time. Finally, Xu Chenyan found them in the arena.

Xu Chenyan has changed a lot. He Xin felt that he had lost weight and was not as energetic as before. Officer Xu smiled and said that he was tortured by his younger brother. The little bastard was tortured.

Xu Lan jumped up and beat someone, but Xu Chenyan hugged her behind her back and kicked her twice mercilessly.

The three of them had supper together, Xu Chenyan looked at He Xin when he was paying, and could see through his mood at the moment.

"What's bothering you lately?"

"He had a quarrel with Li Yanqi, and the quarrel was terrible. Li Yanqi probably stole his money." Xu Lan raised his head to drink the soup, and did not forget to interject.

"Go away, eat your meal."

After He Xin finished speaking, she lay down on the table and did not move. Xu Chenyan looked at him probingly, and finally said as someone who had been there, "Young people should quarrel more, the more they quarrel, the less their relationship will break up. "

"Brother, can you comfort people?" Xu Lan rubbed his arm.

"I'm telling the truth. It's good to have a smooth sailing relationship, but there are always some ups and downs that make life seem precious."

Seeing that there was a smile in his eyes, He Xin didn't know where he could see the "feeling" between him and Li Yanqi. For a while, he felt a little embarrassed and embarrassed to be seen through, so he stood up hastily, and made two steps together Walking is the best policy.

He didn't drive here, and he wasn't familiar enough with the terrain here to find the way with his eyes closed, so he made a detour and somehow came to a tunnel.

The tunnel is very long, and there is a little light at the exit, which is quite familiar.

He Xin walked forward for a while, and suddenly remembered that this was the place he walked from the police station when he first came to Nanxi.

At that time, Li Yanqi still tricked her into the police station for the first time in her life.

He Xin closed her eyes and remembered, then laughed.

The homeless singer 50 meters away from him was still there, with dreadlocked hair, holding a guitar and humming a sad melody that didn't fit his appearance.

When He Xin walked in front of him, the other party looked up and then lowered his head. After playing for a while, the sound of the piano suddenly stopped.

"Why don't you sing?"

The man stood up and said in surprise, "I remember you."

He Xin touched the tip of her nose, "Huh?"

"I will definitely remember the 1000 yuan big money at once." The man had a smoky voice and a hoarse smile. He looked at He Xin with a sincere smile on his tired face, "I didn't expect to meet again, you Seems to be doing pretty well lately."

He Xin looked at him inexplicably, "You know how to read faces?"

The man smiled and shook his head and said, "It's a feeling." He sat down with his guitar in his arms, and thought for a while, "There are countless pedestrians passing by here every day, but I have a special impression of you. Handsome and rich are the same thing. What happened, when I saw you, I felt that you were covered in confusion, you didn't know where the end point was, where you belonged, like a walking dead."

He Xin smiled and said nothing.

"But it's different now. Your contrast is a bit big. I just remembered it after playing half a song." The man sighed, "Have you found your belonging in less than a year?"

He Xin took off the cigarette and held it between her fingertips, squinting her eyes and blowing out the smoke ring.

"Ah, let me ask casually, if you don't want to say it..."

"Why do you like to sing in the tunnel?" He Xin asked.

The man was obviously stunned for a while before he said with a smile, "Tunnels don't need money."

"However... I like this place because it's the closest place to the light." The man pointed to the end, "Every day I finish singing and leave with my guitar on my back, I feel like a person facing the light. hero."

"That's pretty romantic." He Xin said in a low voice.

The man smiled, "It's sad and romantic, but it's worth it." After a pause, he said, "What about you? Look at this... Did you have a problem with your studies? Or did you break up?"

"We didn't break up." He Xin said, "My boyfriend is fine."

"Boyfriend...boyfriend?" The man was obviously startled by this answer, and it took him a long time to restrain his naked eyes and smile at him.

In fact, He Xin didn't think much of what she said just now, and only now did she realize what she said.

But since he fell in love with the other party, he has always been like an underground party. No one in the school except Sister Liao knows that he and Li Yanqi are lovers. It is not his style to be so restrained in a relationship. After I came out, I felt much more comfortable.

"Well, what's wrong with your boyfriend? I just made a boyfriend, and my boyfriend is a school grass."

He Xin's eyes were very straightforward, and he didn't dodge, giving people a sense of magnanimity. The man took advantage of the situation and said, "I wish you all happiness."

After thinking about it, I played a song called "I Fall in the Light".

He Xin stood aside and listened, and suddenly remembered the way Li Yanqi hugged him and said "You are the light" to him.

His eyes were as bright as stars, what was his mood at that time?She was so excited that she seemed to be jumping up, wishing she could put a lamp on her body and keep turning around him.

He Xin suddenly felt a throbbing in his heart, he wanted to go home now, wanted to hold Li Yanqi's hand and run through the tunnel here, and he would not let go at the end.

He wants to tell him that the light will never go out, the light is here, where you can see it as soon as you open your eyes.