Boiling point

The window was blown open, and the wind gushed in. In the backyard, there were a few children who stayed up late at night laughing and playing with the snow, but it didn't matter.

He Xin's pressure was so strong that if Li Yanqi hadn't supported the chair with both hands, he would have been thrown on his back with him.

The tips of their noses rubbed lightly, He Xin grabbed Li Yanqi's clothes, and pressed against his lips for a while without moving, feeling each other's scorching breath and the faint creamy fragrance spreading between their lips, her heartbeat seemed to stop suddenly , and a few more quick beats, a certain tendon on the side of the neck vibrated.

Only then did He Xin suddenly realize that he...kissed Li Yanqi!

Are you crazy?There was a voice in my head shouting.

Yes, crazy, crazy, crazy, what to do!Another, louder voice burst in.

Li Yanqi's hand tugged at his clothes, not knowing whether he wanted to push him away or pull him closer.

He Xin's mind was blank at the moment, and he arbitrarily attributed the actions just now to the second explanation. He had never kissed anyone before, and he had never experienced such an impulse. However, at this moment, a certain emotion was suddenly ignited. The picture of her was hazy and distorted, making him want to kiss her uncontrollably.

Li Yanqi snorted, put his hands into his clothes, rubbed his waist hard, and then closed his eyes.Following the wind outside, He Xin's rationality swept past, and then the tip of her tongue reached between the opponent's teeth, and bit his lower lip hard.

At this time, the whole world becomes very quiet, the noise of the wind is gone, and the time is very slow, so slow that you can feel the passing of every second and the frequency of every heartbeat.

All limbs and bones seemed to have been electrified. He Xin didn't have any thoughts in his mind, and he didn't even think about whether Li Yanqi would respond. He just kept rubbing his waist, and all five senses disappeared without a trace. Just rely on instinct to ask for it from his mouth.

Until Li Yanqi suddenly turned his face and glanced at the door, panting to push him away from him.

When He Xin opened his eyes again, his head was spinning, and one of them bumped into the leg of the table without standing still. He hissed and heard the living room door being opened. Uncle Zhao stood at the door and looked at them suspiciously.

"You two are fighting? I just came back from a stroll when I heard a noise in the room." As he spoke, he walked in and helped up the two chairs kicked by He Xin, and glanced at Li, who was covering his mouth with his arms. Yan Qi, the old man's unique intuition sensed the strange atmosphere at the scene, and just about to ask for clarification, they both turned their heads and took a breath at the same time.

"Did you really fight?" Uncle Zhao felt that something was wrong, and it would affect his study so much that it was near the end of the term, so he moved a chair and sat between them, talking earnestly for 10 minutes, and finally raised his hands when Li Yanqi and He Xin After ensuring that nothing happened, I went back to the house without worry.

Uncle Zhao's sudden visit gave them a lot of buffer. Many panic, confusion and crazy feelings were suppressed. He Xin silently smoked half a cigarette before getting up from the ground. The feeling of being electrified in the lower abdomen did not disappear. Because of the intense emotional catharsis just now, his legs were a little weak. He leaned against the chair and closed his eyes. He didn't speak for a long time.

Li Yanqi also kept his arm covering his mouth without moving.

He Xin has never kissed before, so I don't know what other people will say after kissing, praise each other's kissing skills?Or keep it warm and do it again?It seems that neither of these two applies to him and Li Yanqi. Their previous relationship was stuck in an unembarrassing position. Now because of this kiss, will it go further or return to before liberation?

further?where to goDo you enter boyfriend and girlfriend?He turned his head to look at Li Yanqi thinking.

After being silent for about ten minutes, the other party moved his arms under He Xin's gaze, stood up and wiped his mouth with a tissue.

He Xin glanced at it out of the corner of her eye, and felt a little uncomfortable.

Does cleanliness have to be so ritualistic when kissing?No more saliva.

Li Yanqi looked at his frowning, pointed to his mouth and said, "Are you a puppy? Bite?"

It was only then that He Xin realized that the opponent's tissue was slightly stained with blood, and his lip had a big cut, which was obviously bitten by himself just now.

"My teeth are so good?" After He Xin said this, she felt a strange sense of shame. She stared at Li Yanqi's broken lips for a long while, thinking that she hadn't been serious just now. After a sudden kiss, recalling the touch of the other party's lips, my chest was on fire for a while, and I was a little irritable, "You..."

Li Yanqi glanced at him.

He Xin didn't explain why he kissed him, because he couldn't explain whether he was impulsive or moved by his gift, he couldn't tell, maybe there were both, maybe there were more than one.

Regardless of whether Li Yanqi responded or not, he was the one who took the initiative, and he had to say something, otherwise no one would be able to sleep well tonight.

"I kissed you." He Xin stood up from her seat, and suddenly said this.

Li Yanqi was stunned for a moment and then thought it was a little funny. The man's tone was to say another sentence, "I kissed you, let's see what happens!"

Seeing that the other party didn't speak, He Xin took another two steps forward, looked at him straight and said, "Brother Ta, what were you thinking when I kissed you?"

Li Yanqi lowered his head and smiled, "Are you drunk from hot pot soup?"

He Xin's expression was not very good, he paused and said, "I was not drunk that day at the skating rink, and I am not drunk today either."

"I'm sorry." Li Yanqi clasped his hands and raised his head, "I didn't mean to be sarcastic."

He Xin said, "I know, I'm not angry, I just... want to hear your thoughts..."

Li Yanqi smiled and squeezed his fingertips back and forth.

He Xin put his hand on his shoulder, many thoughts flashed through his mind, and finally threw them away, asking the simplest, "Do you like me?"

Li Yanqi seemed to be psychologically prepared, and he was not overwhelmed by the question. He opened his mouth and turned to look at him, giving him the right to answer the question with his eyes.

"I asked you first," He Xin clicked, "Why are we like children? I have to say that I like you. What a coincidence if you say it. I like you too. If I say I don't like you, you will Come on, I don't like you at all."

Li Yanqi smiled and found his metaphor very interesting, but he had to admit that the core of the problem lies here.

"Aren't we children? We're not even adults yet."

He Xin didn't understand the hidden meaning in his words, so Li Yanqi squeezed his hand and sighed softly, "Then let me ask you, why did you kiss me? Are you gay?"

"I don't know." He Xin was stunned for a moment, "I kiss you because I want to kiss you at this moment, it has nothing to do with being gay or not."

Li Yanqi quickly took his words, "But I am."

He Xin looked at him in shock and didn't speak for a long time.

"I was born with it." Li Yanqi lowered his eyes, his voice was a little hoarse, "It's something engraved in my blood, I can't change it, I spent a year convincing myself that I don't have feelings for girls, and it took It took me a year to identify and accept this kind of myself, so I have always kept a distance from people. I hate my living habits being broken by another person. I hate all indeterminate elements. I don’t even dare to think that one day I will like it. Falling in love with someone. But you are different, your life trajectory, your world, your life, there is no such trouble in the first place."

Li Yanqi's voice sank, and he turned his head to look at him, "What did you think of me just now?" After a pause, he let go of his hand and said, "I'm very conflicted, and reason makes me push you away, but I can't help it. It is this kind of emotion to want to hold on to you, when I am by your side, I have always had such contradictory emotions."

He Xin himself never thinks about these things in detail, he only likes to do things with a single effort, but he also understands that in terms of relationships, it is impossible to be so free and easy as he wants.

After kissing him, it's not that he hasn't thought about such a problem, but he is not as thorough as Li Yanqi, he has taken into account the feelings of both of them, he doesn't think too far and deeply, but he just feels that if he admits that he likes him now, it won't matter. What's the big deal, if you like it, you like it, it doesn't matter about being gay, it doesn't matter about any other shit, you just like it.

But Li Yanqi is different. Maybe he has been thinking about this question since the moment he discovered his inner conflict, so he asked, "If you like me, do you want to fall in love with me, or do you just want to have a relationship with me?" Do you have someone to accompany you?"

He Xin looked at Li Yanqi's side face, wanted to say something, then fell silent the next moment, he didn't completely understand Li Yanqi's struggle, but he had no room to think now, because just like what Li Yanqi said From kissing him to now, the question he blurted out was all due to a certain emotion in his heart, most of which came from instinctive impulse. Was the liking he easily admitted was deliberate?

Can he tell Li Yanqi so frankly and so fearlessly, yes, I just like you, the kind of liking I want to have a relationship with you?

It was too casual, at least in Li Yanqi's eyes, he was too casual.

He Xin felt a little sorry for what Li Yanqi said in a hoarse voice just now, his conflicts, his struggles, and the confusion and fear he faced alone after he found out that his sexual orientation was different.

He Xin opened her arms and gently hugged him, resting her chin on his shoulder, "I am a person who will fall asleep after thinking for more than 3 minutes, but I will think carefully about the questions you throw at me."

Li Yanqi was stunned for a moment, feeling a little sour in his heart.

He Xin's mind is still in a mess, but his emotions have calmed down strangely. At least now he wants to understand a little bit. Anyway, Li Yanqi will not run away. Stay within the range he can see. He has enough time to make sure. He and the other party's thoughts.

It's better than parting ways later because of different trajectories.

Either celebrate my birthday for the rest of my life, or never celebrate it once, He Xin thought, that's the answer he wanted.

"Hey, you're pinching my waist." Li Yanqi suddenly blew into his ear.

He Xin moved his hand to his buttocks, and slapped him hard twice, "Let me vent my anger, the school bully who is so sensible no matter what, looks very angry."

Li Yanqi stared at him for a long time, and finally couldn't help smiling.

"You're swinging a pig."

"How come the birthday star." He Xin said, "Today I am the oldest."

"It's already 01:30." Li Yanqi pushed him away, and pointed to the clock, "Clean up and go to sleep, you have to go to school tomorrow."

The two of them arranged the tables and chairs in silence. He Xin walked back to the room with a gift bag and stopped him, saying solemnly and seriously, "I will think about it."

Then he put his hands in his trouser pockets and narrowed his eyes, "You——think about it for me too."

Li Yanqi was stunned for a while, "What do you think?"

"I wonder if you like me because I am gay and I happen to meet the gender requirements, or because this person is me."

Li Yanqi had to admire his clear logic in the middle of the night, but in order to avenge his ass, he tricked He Xin, "When did I say I like you?"

He Xin was so angry that he wanted to put his head in the snowdrift to wake up.

When the other party was about to rush over, Li Yanqi said in time, "I forgot to say, happy birthday, I hope Lemon Essence can be happy forever, smile all the time, be who you want to be, and have pure freedom."

After hearing this, He Xin still threw the snow at him. Li Yanqi was caught off guard, and after wiping off the snow on his face, he heard him shout, "Thank you! I will keep it well!"

"Good night." Li Yanqi smiled and waved to him.

"Good night." He Xin went back to the house with the gift in her arms.

The two of them didn't sleep well that night, and the window paper was punctured when they tried each other without showing their whereabouts. After a night of deep thinking, He Xin felt that after this birthday, he was about three years older, and his ideological and moral awareness had been raised. , I have never thought about so many issues in one breath, my own, Li Yanqi's, about homosexuality, about the future, so much so that the next day I used my brain too much and stubble came out.

For the next week, Li Yanqi wore a mask every day. People in the class were very curious, thinking that he had been infected by He Xin's "not being cool and unable to walk". Looking at the mask, she found a bite on the other party's lip. Anyone who is in a relationship knows what happened. Sister Liao glanced at He Xin to the left and Li Yanqi to the right, feeling that she was worse than the person involved. Excited, he rolled back to his seat with his voice pressed down, and was kicked by his deskmate on the grounds that "this person is crazy", and pulled the [-]th line as a warning.

Of course, Liao Mei didn't ask what happened to Li Yanqi's mouth afterwards. Although he was gossiping, he knew the other person's personality too well. They don't feel like they are together now, and there must be something unresolved.

But it's okay, from Li Yanqi's ferocious point of view, he hopes that He Xin can think about it clearly. Brother Ta hasn't even talked about a relationship yet. It's not easy to find someone he likes. He does things as he pleases, is unrestrained and unrestrained. He is well-known in the school, so he doesn't feel at ease no matter what.

At the end of the year, we were overwhelmed by various test papers, and we all plunged into the hot exam week, and we didn't have time to pay attention to the burgeoning thoughts of teenagers.

But as usual, He Xin introspects himself three times a day. He has been living a savage growth, and never thought that one day he would be able to match such delicateness. However, thinking makes people progress, and practice leads to true knowledge. This is an ancient truth.

He bought a lot of books on homosexuality, and he took a look at them after finishing his homework. After a few days, the book was already crumpled, and there were many notes drawn with a ballpoint pen on it.

The day before New Year's Day, the school closed early, and everyone held more than [-] review papers in their hands, and they walked out of the school gate with heavy steps. Today, He Xin asked for leave early for self-study class, and when Li Yanqi packed his schoolbag, he found that he had already I haven't gone home with him for more than a week. I didn't think so before, but now I walk alone, and I feel that the road from home to school is very long.

He ran into He Xin learning to make wooden furniture at Master Chen's place two days ago, and was very serious about peeling wood. When he asked him, he said cryptically, "I'm trying to find a goal that I can stick to."

Li Yanqi didn't understand at the time what his goal had to do with cutting wood, but He Xin didn't explain it clearly, and he didn't ask.

That night, He Xin came back from cutting wood outside in a hurry. Li Yanqi was watching cartoons with Li An. He caught a glimpse of a bag of fireworks sticks in his hand and asked with a smile, "How many years have you bought them?" Quantity?"

"Three hundred." He Xin raised her eyebrows and said, "You can have fun with the little milk foam."

"Yeah!" Li An jumped up and gave him a high five.

Li Yanqi cleared the table and said, "Where are you going? Music Plaza?"

"It's all right, you can leave it at the door if you want." He Xin put a few lighters in his pocket, and shook the car key at them, "Let's go, I'll be your driver."

Li Yanqi said, "Do you start the car?"

He Xin put on the pair of knitted gloves that the other party gave him, and grabbed a handful of the air, "It's warm."

Li Yanqi pulled back Li An who was running out excitedly, put on his scarf and hat, looked back at He Xin and said, "Then you drive slowly, my brother can't stand you drifting left and right sticking to the ground." spinning."

"My QQ Speed ​​is No.1!" Li An raised his head and interjected angrily.

"It's so powerful." He Xin and Li Yanqi glanced at each other, turned their heads and suppressed a smile, for fear of hurting the child's self-esteem.

But this time they made a mistake. There were too many people going out for New Year's Eve, and every road leading to the Music Square was blocked. It is estimated that walking is faster than driving.

So He Xin drove halfway and decided to abandon the car and go. It was half an hour before New Year's Eve. There were a lot of people in the square, and they all wore cartoon headbands. I bought dog ears for He Xin, and brought cat ears for myself. There is only one fountain square in their place. When it comes to Chinese New Year, almost everyone in the city flocks here, and you can meet classmates wherever you go.

"Leave 200 sticks for us to put away, and let's sell the remaining [-] sticks." Li Yanqi said, "You see, many people over there can't buy fireworks sticks. This is a business opportunity."

He Xin clicked his tongue, "Don't sell it, we can finish it." He turned to look at Li An, the little guy looked at the crowd eagerly and said, "Sell it, I want to make money to buy roasted sweet potatoes!"

Li Yanqi touched his hair with a smile, and He Xin gave them a thumbs up, "I'm convinced, a pair of leopard brothers."

However, the title of Li Yanqi's little prince is not called casually. Such a large bag of fireworks sticks was sold out in less than half an hour. Almost everyone in the square had one. Bright and warm all around.

Li An ran until the tip of his nose turned red, exclaiming excitedly how beautiful he is.

"Take a picture of you baby." Li Yanqi said, "He Xin and you two are at the edge of the fountain, the angle is nice."

"This way?" Li An pulled He Xin and ran away, holding two fireworks sticks in his hand, and waved at Li Yanqi.

"Well, set it up." Li Yanqi squatted down, squinted his eyes to check the angle, and pressed the shutter button.

In the photo, He Xin is holding Li An with one hand, biuing at him with a firework stick in the other hand, tilting his head and smiling, he is dressed very warmly, and his smile is also very warm, in the dark, the light in his eyes is particularly bright .

Li Yanqi used to like to name the photos to satisfy his occasional literary sickness, but this time he stared at the photo but lost his mind.

Because there is no need to use words to describe its beauty, the photo itself is beautiful enough.

In fact, he thought a lot after going back that night. In the final analysis, he was not as brave as He Xin. Even if he found out that he liked her, he would only try to suppress him. He didn't even dare to take a step forward. He was worse than Feng Binrui .

He had thought before that for a day when He Xin was here, he would be with him for a day, until he didn't need him anymore, that would be enough.

But that kiss broke all the balance, he didn't want He Xin to go the same way with him, he didn't want him to experience the struggle and confusion he had experienced, but the moment he kissed him was the happiest moment in his life so far How can you not be greedy when you like someone?I tried desperately to push away, but couldn't help but get closer.

In the vulgar world, he discovered for the first time that people can be so contradictory.

The bell rang three times, and the square was filled with crowds, excitedly saying Happy New Year to each other. Fireworks burst into the sky with a bang, and the top of Li Yanqi's head was illuminated brightly. Amidst the cheers of the crowd, someone took pictures Patting his left shoulder, turning around, He Xin said with dog ears, "Happy New Year Brother Ta."

"Happy New Year, puppy." When Li Yanqi said this, his heart flashed with emotion. He felt that he had to close his eyes and make a wish.

In the new year, I hope he can be braver, be desperate, love someone well, be loved well, and hope that person must be He Xin.