Solitary

Lin Shu didn't wake up until noon. He Jiqing was sitting on the carpet beside the bed with a computer on his lap, his hair was tied up on top of his head, and he could see the obvious stubble on his side face.He tapped the keyboard quickly with both hands, then stopped suddenly, and pressed the delete key for a long time with the little finger of his right hand.He picked at the pimples on his face and thought, then hit the keyboard again.

Lin Shu just turned over slightly, and He Jiqing, who was concentrating on typing, turned his head immediately. Lin Shu saw his blue eye circles and the red bloodshot eyes.

"You didn't sleep all night?" Lin Shu opened his mouth and found that his voice was hoarse.

He Jiqing put the computer on the floor, sat on the edge of the bed and touched his forehead, finally the fever subsided.

"Is there anything else that makes you uncomfortable? Tell me!" he said.

Lin Shu grabbed his hand on his forehead and smiled slowly, revealing his small fangs.

"It's uncomfortable there!" He looked into He Jiqing's eyes and said.

He Jiqing was slightly taken aback, then he put his forehead on his forehead and smiled wryly.Last night, he really lost his sense of proportion.The boy's initiative made him crazy, and the boy's tears made him lose all reason.After being suppressed for too long, did he eventually become a pervert? !He apologized solemnly and guiltily: "I'm sorry."

The boy put his hand on his cheek: "Just kidding, why do you take it seriously!"

The boy's face was warm and his eyes were bright.He leaned over and hugged the boy, his heart was as moist as the south in the rainy season, and he squeezed it casually, it was warm juice.

Lin Shu gently stroked the stubble on his face, as well as the scratched pimple.

"Did you freak out last night?" he said.

He Jiqing nodded.

"It is said on the Internet that many people do this for the first time." Lin Shu stroked the stubble on his chin.

"You still watch Baidu." He Jiqing sighed.

Lin Shu rubbed his face against his chin: "I want you to be happy."

"Then are you happy?" He Jiqing rubbed his chin on his cheek.

Lin Shu hugged him tightly, leaned close to his ear and said in a small voice: "Special, special, special happiness!"

The moist breath from the boy's mouth entered his ears, He Jiqing couldn't help kissing him, this time he was very gentle, the boy clung to him tightly and let out a contented moan.

He left voluntarily, but the boy pulled him reluctantly, and the moisture in his eyes showed that he was yearning for him.

"It can't go on any longer!" he said, cupping the boy's face.

"Why?" the boy asked him blushing.

"I'm afraid I can't help it." He touched him with the tip of his nose.

"Then don't bear it." The boy stretched out his wet tongue to lick the tip of his nose.

"You're still sick!" He distanced the two of them.

The boy curled his lips aggrievedly.

"We'll talk about it when you're better!" He pinched his cheek.

Lin Shu leaned into his arms, like a sheep, obediently responded: "Okay~"

He doesn't want any moral constraints or shame!He longed for He Jiqing's body so much, it didn't matter even if it hurt to the point of crying, even if it burned to the point of being confused.When He Jiqing hugged him, he was so devoted and forgetful. He made He Jiqing happy, and He Jiqing made him even happier.This kind of happiness, he wished to repeat it a hundred times or ten thousand times immediately.Only by repeating can he remember deeply.

In the evening, Lin Shu continued to stay overnight.The roommate sent a WeChat message asking him: "Where are you?"

He replied: "A friend's house."

The roommate said, "The counselor just came."

"What's the matter?" he asked.

"I sent some recruiting information from the publishing house." The roommate took a photo of the information and showed him: "The counselor suggested that you can try it, and he said it is quite suitable for you."

Lin Shu has read the information, there are local publishing houses in Nanjing, there are also publishing houses in Guangzhou and Shenzhen, and there is even one in Fuzhou, recruiting graphic, binding and typesetting.Counselors are attentive.

"Well, I'll try it," he replied to his roommate.

The roommate asked him, "Are you with your sister-in-law?"

Lin Shu looked at He Jiqing who was seriously writing a manuscript not far away, and smiled.

"A classmate from high school came to Nanjing to play, let's accompany him." He replied.

The roommate sent a "male classmate or female classmate" emoji.

"Male," he said.

The roommate returned a disappointed expression.

Lin Shu saved the recruitment materials and deleted the conversation with her roommate.He stared at He Jiqing until he occasionally turned his head and met his gaze.

He waved at him, motioning him to keep busy.He Jiqing smiled slightly, and continued to work hard on the manuscript.He gradually found that no matter when he raised his head, he could always meet Lin Shu's eyes, and he was looking at him, always looking at him.But his expression was sad, with pity and sorrow in his eyes.

He finally stopped when he couldn't find a suitable word to describe a certain segment.He asked Lin Shu, "What's wrong with you?"

The boy seemed surprised that he was talking to him, flustered slightly.But soon, he returned to a calm appearance, no more sadness, no pity and sorrow.

"You've been looking at me?" He walked up to Lin Shu and sat down, asking him uncertainly.

"Because you look good!" Lin Shu leaned on him.

He Jiqing stared into his eyes, there was only undisguised love and attachment in them.

"I see you were sad just now? Are you feeling unwell?" He Jiqing asked him.

Lin Shu thought, He Jiqing, who wrote the book, was really sharp, and he saw it all.He couldn't admit it, so he could only shake his head and say, "Everyone said that I looked sad when I was in a daze."

He never knew that his lying skills could be so high, and he could do it at his fingertips.

He Jiqing couldn't find any flaws in his eyes, he believed what he said, he was just in a daze, looking sad in a daze.He flicked the tip of his nose, and Lin Shu bit his hand.The two teased back and forth and kissed again.

Lin Shu stayed at He Jiqing's house for three days, skipped four professional courses, two elective courses, and one employment counseling course, until the counselor called him and asked him to go back to school.

When he received the counselor's call, he was still lying in He Jiqing's arms. The two of them were completely naked, and they had just finished happy things.

"I have to go back to school." Lin Shu buried his face in He Jiqing's chest, listening to his heartbeat, he was reluctant to leave.

"Well, I'll see you off." He Jiqing stroked his hair gently.

"Why don't you keep me?!" Lin Shu bit his chest dissatisfied.

He Jiqing broke his face and kissed him fiercely. He didn't let go until he cried out in pain. He held his face and looked at him.Seeing the possessiveness in his eyes, Lin Shu almost overflowed.

"If possible, I want to make you this big." He Jiqing gestured with his finger to the size of a car key: "In that way, I can take you with me every day."

Lin Shu bit the corner of his mouth almost in a bumpy way.

He Jiqing yelled "Ouch" in a low voice, Lin Shu twirled in his mouth and withdrew reluctantly.

"If possible, I would also like to be this big. You can hang it on your chest or put it in your pocket. It would be nice to make earrings." Lin Shu smiled and touched his earlobe. He really didn't want to leave He Jiqing.

He Jiqing rubbed his head affectionately: "Hey, I'll take you back to school."

Lin Shu's tears flowed out uncontrollably, he felt ashamed, hugged He Jiqing, and the warm liquid fell on his shoulder.

He Jiqing sighed softly, his boy likes to blush, cry, and shed tears, and loves him very much.He didn't know that his reluctance was a gentle knife, cutting his heart bit by bit.

After Lin Shu stopped crying, she obediently took a shower and dressed, ready to go back to school.He Jiqing sent him to the school gate, but he held his hand and stayed in the car.

He Jiqing coaxed him patiently: "Good boy, didn't you say that there are two classes left in the evening? If you go later, you will be late!"

Lin Shu pulled him and kissed him.After the lingering kiss was over, he reluctantly got out of the car with his mouth pursed.He stood on the side of the road, and waved him to go first like last time.

He shook his head, he wanted to see him go first.But Lin Shu was very persistent and insisted on letting him go first.He couldn't hold him back, so he could only turn the car around.The boy in the rearview mirror was getting further and further away, getting smaller and smaller. He saw his movement of raising his hand to wipe his face, and he thought that he was probably crying again.He could hardly resist driving back.

His boy, why does he love to cry so much? He is so thin, but has so many tears.As soon as we parted, he had already begun to recall the boy's appearance in various ways, with rich expressions and various postures, and every detail was there.He even remembered that when he entered him, the wet eyelashes at the corners of the boy's eyes were stuck together and wet.There is also the Hokkien accent that the boy deliberately came out of when he was playing with him and pretending to be angry.The boy would always explain to him earnestly and persistently that it is not a Taiwanese accent, but a sweet potato accent.

He Jiqing looked at the lights on the side of the road and couldn't help but fell into melancholy. He began to miss his boy Lin Shu crazily, and he also believed that Lin Shu was also crazily thinking about him.

Yes, Lin Shu, sitting in the big classroom, was recalling the past few days while listening to the class. He carefully recalled various details for fear of making mistakes.How much he thinks that human eyes can be like a camera, recording everything and playing it back at will in the future.He wrote He Jiqing, He Jiqing, He Jiqing on the paper until his eyes were blurred with tears, and the tears fell on the paper, wetting He Jiqing's name.The girl in the same class next to him saw it and silently handed him a pack of tissues.

After the class ended, Lin Shu returned to the dormitory with her roommates.His roommates found that Lin Shu, who lived outside for a few nights, had changed. He looked very unhappy. He was staring at the computer, staring at the bed, and staring at the air. Everyone couldn't hear him.He goes to bed without taking off his shoes.

The roommates asked him concerned: "Lin Shu, what's the matter with you, did something happen to you? You can tell everyone!"

Lin Shu didn't answer, just shook his head.

The roommates looked at each other and thought, is he broken in love?

In the middle of the night, Lin Shu hid under the blanket and cried silently. He realized how happy he was with He Jiqing and how sad it was when he was separated.

Just when he was crying uncontrollably, He Jiqing sent him a WeChat message, and he said, "I miss you."

He should have been patient, but he couldn't help it.He climbed out of bed with both hands and feet, and even stepped on an empty space when he went down the stairs. The roommate next to the bed was woken up and asked him what was wrong. He went out with his mobile phone and hid at the safe staircase at the end of the corridor. He Jiqing called.

When He Jiqing answered the phone, there was a lot of wind on the phone.The boy said in a crying voice: "I miss you too much, I'm going crazy, He Jiqing, what should I do?!"

He Jiqing couldn't bear it anymore, he asked him: "Where are you?"

Lin Shu looked around, at the dark stairway, outside the corridor was another dormitory building that was dimly illuminated by dim street lights, and rows of straight cedar trees that had fallen leaves.Tree shadows hit the road downstairs, and the cold wind blew through them, shaking them.

"He Jiqing—" the boy called him.

"Where are you, I'll look for you." He Jiqing was already about to change clothes.

"I'm in the corridor of the dormitory, don't come, it's cold outside." Lin Shu said.

He Jiqing squeezed the down jacket tightly in his hand: "Then stop crying."

"En." Lin Shu responded, calling him again: "He Jiqing—"

"Ah."

"You must remember that there was a boy named Lin Shu who used to think about you in the middle of the night and thought he was going crazy." Lin Shu added silently in his heart, no matter what happened in the future, he hoped that He Jiqing would only remember his kindness and how he treated him. Sincere love.

"I will remember it, and I will never forget it for the rest of my life." He Jiqing said.

Lin Shu was satisfied, he said to He Jiqing, "Good night."

He Jiqing said, "Good night."

After Lin Shu hung up the phone, He Jiqing slowly began to think about where the turbulent and undisguised sense of despair in his words came from.