Solitary

After taking the medicine, Lin Shu quickly stopped the diarrhea.But the cold got worse, top-heavy, and it was hard for me to walk a few meters, and I could hardly make a sound when I opened my mouth.He Jiqing changed to a high-end suite to take care of him, serving tea and water, and caring for every detail.Let the waiter deliver three meals a day, all of which are light meals that have been repeatedly ordered.He was with Lin Shu.

Lin Shu lay drowsy on the bed, seeing He Jiqing worried and worried about him, he felt very sad.The beginning of the journey was so unsatisfactory, maybe it was a warning to him, and he wanted to give up.

While taking the medicine, he squeezed his throat with difficulty, and asked He Jiqing tentatively: "If I'm not well all the time, shall we not go to Tibet, shall we go back to Nanjing?"

Not going to Tibet, not going to Yunnan, not going to Guizhou, he doesn't want to go anywhere.Just follow God's arrangement and go back to Nanjing.The less happiness with He Jiqing, the less pain.

He Jiqing paused for a moment while delivering the water.He said, "Well, okay, you get better first."

Lin Shu looked at He Jiqing, obviously he was disappointed, but he didn't say anything.He said to come to Tibet, He Jiqing said no problem.He said he couldn't go and wanted to go back, but He Jiqing agreed.He Jiqing thought of everything for him, but what did he do?

Lin Shu cried again, hot tears flowed down her cheeks and to the corner of her mouth, the taste was more bitter than medicine.

"What, is the medicine bitter?" He Jiqing hurriedly asked him, "Is there still some discomfort?"

Lin Shu shook his head slowly, with a thin voice coming out of his throat: "I hate myself so much!"

This is the truth from the heart.

He Jiqing wiped his tears distressedly: "What stupid things are you talking about?"

"If I'm in better health, then—" Lin Shu couldn't make a sound, he could only look at He Jiqing, and kept crying.

He Jiqing hugged him through the quilt: "It's okay, you can go to Tibet again in the future, there are plenty of opportunities."

Lin Shu grasped his arm tightly: "No, I want to get better soon, let's go this time."

He wanted to fight for his own sake, but also for He Jiqing's.

Once he made up his mind, Lin Shu's willpower began to show extraordinary.That night, he broke out in sweat, and his fever quickly subsided. He got up in the middle of the night and drank a huge bowl of porridge, and fell asleep after drinking.

When he woke up in the morning, except his voice was still hoarse, he was refreshed and sat on the head of the bed with bright eyes, shouting to He Jiqing: "We can go!"

He Jiqing couldn't believe it, touched his forehead, squeezed his arms and legs: "Can you really do it? I think it's better to wait until you are fully recovered before setting off!"

Lin Shu jumped off the bed and hugged He Jiqing: "It's really fine. We've been delayed for three days. If we don't leave, my leave will be exhausted!"

He Jiqing would not be persuaded by his few words, and took him to the hospital for reexamination. The doctor also expressed his amazement at the young man's resilience.

He Jiqing specifically asked the doctor: "Is it okay to enter Tibet like this?"

The doctor expressed surprise that the two were going to Tibet in this season: "It's so cold, he hasn't fully recovered from his illness, so don't go there yet, it's not good to get sick on the plateau."

Lin Shu quickly interjected: "How about going to Linzhi? Linzhi's altitude is only 3100, and everyone says there will be no altitude sickness there!"

The doctor looked at He Jiqing, and He Jiqing sighed: "You must go?!"

"Of course, the strategy has been done." Lin Shu made up his mind.

"Then look at the situation. If you go to Linzhi, it shouldn't be a big problem. Bring more medicine up there. If you can't take it anymore, come down quickly." The doctor finally instructed.

He Jiqing finally followed Lin Shu and embarked on a journey to Tibet according to the original plan.

First stop, Linzhi.

It was just noon when we got off the plane and the sun was shining brightly.Lin Shu was blown by the wind and his head was a little dizzy, so he endured it and said nothing.

In Nyingchi in early March, the top of the mountain is covered with snow, and the mountainside is mixed with multiple colors. The peach branches and flower buds on the roadside have just squeezed out of the branches, and there is still snow under the trees.Everything has begun to recover, and there is a smell of spring in the air.

The two lived in an inn in Bayi Town. There was a big yard. The room was on the second floor. It was not big, but it was clean and bright. From the window, you could see the Niyang River in the distance, the continuous mountains, and the tops of the mountains were covered with snow and white clouds.

Although his body was not very comfortable, Lin Shu was still attracted by the beautiful scenery. He lay on the window, closed his eyes and took a serious breath, feeling the beauty of Lin Zhi from the air.He Jiqing took out his camera to take pictures of him.Lin Shu turned around and said to the camera, "It's so beautiful!"

He Jiqing pressed the shutter button continuously, and Lin Shu made all kinds of little grimaces at the camera.

After shooting, He Jiqing put down the camera and sat on the other side of the window, enjoying the sun with Lin Shu and looking at the snow-capped mountains.Lin Shu turned his head and saw He Jiqing in the sunlight, his heart beat.

"I want to draw you!" he said.

He Jiqing lazily leaned on the window sill: "Okay."

Lin Shu took out a pencil and a drawing book from her bag, sat by the bed and began to draw him.

In the afternoon, the sun was just right, slanting in from the outside, and the light-colored carpet was illuminated lazily.He Jiqing leaned on the window with one hand, his untied hair scattered on the side of his face.

Lin Shu glanced at him, lowered his head to draw a few strokes, and then looked up at him.The eyes of the two collided with each other from time to time, and He Jiqing smiled slightly, his eyes were so gentle that it was ridiculous.

Lin Shu draws very quickly.

He Jiqing took the drawing book and looked at his paintings, he and the mountains in the distance were outlined with a few strokes.Simple lines, a lot of white space, and a clean picture.

"The painting is really emotional!" He took a picture with his mobile phone.

"Draw you!" Lin Shu lay on his back and stretched out a hand to catch the sunlight outside the window.

Following his example, He Jiqing also stretched out a hand, and they held each other in the sunlight.He Jiqing turned his head and kissed Lin Shu's side face.

Lin Shu: "It would be great if only it was like this all the time!"

"Which kind?" He Jiqing kissed his mouth again.

Lin Shu bowed his head and took the initiative to deepen the kiss.It's fine if it stays like this, He Jiqing will always be by his side, the two of them hold hands, kiss, hug, anytime, anywhere.

That night, Lin Shu had a little fever, but he didn't show it.He Jiqing was aware of it, and was deceived by his few words.

He Jiqing said, "We'll go back if you don't feel well."

"No." Lin Shu was very firm: "Take some medicine and you'll be fine!"

Fortunately, his fever subsided in the morning.According to the original plan, the two went to Taohuagou, where the peach blossoms were not in bloom.When he got there, Lin Shu ran like a pony in the woods.

He Jiqing followed behind him, patting him and reminding him: "Don't fall!"

Lin Shu found the biggest peach tree, stood under the tree and looked up.He imagined the scene of peach blossoms in full bloom, closed his eyes and put his hands together in prayer.

With a serious expression on his face, He Jiqing didn't want to disturb him, so he stood far away to take a picture of him.A few minutes later, Lin Shu opened his eyes and looked over from afar.

He Jiqing asked him: "What wish did you make?"

"I can't tell you." Lin Shu said.

He Jiqing stepped forward and hugged him.

"why?"

"It won't work if you say it!"

"Little superstition!"

He Jiqing raised his camera and took a close-up shot of him.

Lin Shu turned his head and ran away, shouting at him: "It's not superstition. I heard people say that the gods in Tibet are the most effective. As long as you are sincere, your wishes can come true."

He Jiqing stood where he was, and changed the camera to shoot him.

"I hope all your wishes come true!"

Lin Shu stood still abruptly and looked back at him.

"What's wrong?" He Jiqing asked while patting.

Lin Shu in the camera has melancholy eyes.

"It's beautiful here, it's even more beautiful if it blooms!" He raised his hands on the spot and turned around.

"Fool!" He Jiqing pressed the shutter button continuously.

Lin Shu ran back to him again and hugged him: "Whether it blooms or not, it is beautiful."

He Jiqing pointed the camera at his steaming face.

"With you, everything is beautiful." Lin Shu lay in his arms, muttering to himself.

"Fool!" He Jiqing scolded.

Lin Shu looked up at him: "Let's take a selfie!"

In front of the biggest peach tree, He Jiqing set up the tripod, set up the time-lapse continuous shooting, and ran under the peach tree to hug Lin Shu, the first photo.

Lin Shu jumped up and kissed his face, the second one.Lin Shu stepped on his feet and kissed him, the third photo.Lin Shu buried her head in his arms, the fourth one.The two hugged tightly under the peach tree, the fifth photo.Lin Shu took the initiative outrageously.

After the photos were taken, He Jiqing went to check them. Some of them were blurred due to too fast movements, and he was not satisfied.Lin Shu said, "Then reshoot!"

The two were under the peach tree again, kissing and hugging, and they didn't stop until they were both satisfied.

He Jiqing was sweating profusely, and Lin Shu also blushed.The two held the camera, admiring each one.

Lin Shu said: "Be sure to give me a copy!"

"I'll give you all the memory cards!" He Jiqing smiled.

After going to Taohuagou, the two went to the Giant Cypress Garden, where the ancient cypresses are towering.One of the oldest trees is 2600 years old. The Tibetans call it "La Xinxiuba", which means the sacred tree.It is said that making a wish is very spiritual, and many people came here without hesitation.Lin Shu found La Xinxiuba, stood under the tree and prayed for a long time.

When he finished praying, He Jiqing teased him: "You have a lot of wishes!"

"Well, a lot." Lin Shu nodded.

"Can you make any wish for me?" He Jiqing asked knowingly.

"Of course. I told Shenshu that I want every book of yours to sell well and make a lot of money." Lin Shu gestured exaggeratedly, unlike him usually.

He Jiqing curled his lips: "Shen Shu must have rolled his eyes and said, he has all these!"

"Hmph, how do you know!" Lin Shu looked up at the sacred tree.

"Sacred tree is not stupid!" He Jiqing knocked him on the head.

"They all said that this tree is very spiritual and is 2600 years old."

"But it's also a tree, it didn't turn into a human and talk to you."

Lin Shu looked at He Jiqing: "Don't say that, it won't work."

His eyes were too serious, and He Jiqing had to raise his hands in surrender: "It's all my nonsense, Lord Shenshu doesn't remember villains, and wants to help my little Linshu realize his every wish."

Lin Shu held his hand tightly.

"Why, it's not enough?" He Jiqing looked at him.

Lin Shu bumped into his arms and whispered, "Enough!"

He Jiqing rubbed his hair with a smile and scolded him: "Fool!"

On the last day in Linzhi, Lin Shu started to have diarrhea, He Jiqing was very worried and wanted to give up going to Lhasa.The altitude in Lhasa is higher, and he was afraid that Lin Shu's body would be even more unbearable.

Lin Shu didn't want to, so he said, "No problem."

He Jiqing had no choice but to cancel the trip to the Yarlung Zangbo River scenic spot that day, and accompany Lin Shu to recuperate in the inn.Fortunately, after taking the medicine and sleeping, Lin Shu felt much better, but she didn't look very good mentally.

The innkeeper reminded He Jiqing that it would be easy for Lin Shu to rebel when he went to Lhasa like this.

Lin Shu listened, and deliberately jumped up and down to prove to He Jiqing that he could do it.

"Can you really do it?" He Jiqing was worried.

Lin Shu nodded firmly: "I can!"

The Potala Palace and Namtso in Lhasa, he heard that making a wish is very effective, so he must go.

The two left Lhasa as scheduled.

On the day they arrived in Lhasa, the two went to the Potala Palace.There are statues of gods and Buddhas everywhere in the Potala Palace, everyone has to worship, Lin Shu is too busy.

He Jiqing silently followed him, watching him keep bowing.When he came to the back, his face turned pale.He Jiqing couldn't see it anymore, so he told him not to ask.Lin Shu endured the discomfort in his body and insisted on finishing the worship.

After turning around from the Potala Palace, it was already evening.Standing under the setting sun, Lin Shu's legs were weak, He Jiqing supported him: "Why are you doing this?"

Lin Shu turned his head to look at the white palace covered with the light of the setting sun, and smiled contentedly.He read it on the Internet and said that the Potala Palace is one of the most sacred places in Tibet. As long as the heart is sincere, all wishes will come true.

He Jiqing followed his line of sight and saw that the Brada Palace was shining with golden light in the setting sun, and it really looked sacred and majestic.

The two stood side by side looking back for a long time, until Lin Shu began to cough softly.He Jiqing held his hand: "Let's go!"

Lin Shu clasped back tightly: "Okay."

Halfway through, Lin Shu suddenly heard a crisp bell ringing from behind. He looked back, and the bell ringing again.One of the colorful prayer flags on the white palace was torn off by the wind and flew away into the sky.

He called He Jiqing: "Look!"

He Jiqing didn't answer him.Lin Shu watched his back melt into the air, turning into colorful bubbles.He stretched out his hand to grab them, breaking them one by one.He even heard the sound of bubbles bursting, like the bells he had just heard.

Only then did He Jiqing turn around: "What are you doing?"

Lin Shu's hand stopped in the void, and he pointed to the sky: "Look!"

He Jiqing looked at the sky, there was nothing.

Lin Shu also saw that the sky was blue and there was nothing.

He asked He Jiqing: "Did you hear anything just now?"

He Jiqing stopped and looked at him suspiciously: "What's wrong with you?"

"No, nothing." He shook his head.

"Why do you suddenly look so pale?" He Jiqing touched his forehead.

Lin Shu looked back at the Potala Palace again. He firmly believed that what happened just now was not an illusion, and God responded to him.

"A little tired," he said.

"Then we won't go anywhere at night, just rest at the inn." He Jiqing made a decision.

"Okay." He approached He Jiqing.

The inn is next to the Jokhang Temple, and the room for two people has a small balcony overlooking the Jokhang Temple.The first floor of the inn is the restaurant, which provides some simple meals.

During the meal, Lin Shu looked much more normal, and even drew a sketch of He Jiqing eating in the restaurant.The two went upstairs after eating, and Lin Shu talked about his plan to go to Namtso the next day.

"The god of Namtso is very spiritual."

He Jiqing couldn't remember how many times Lin Shu said this, he started talking at the dinner table.

"Yeah, it's very good. Let's go tomorrow and let the gods help you realize your wish."

"We must go tomorrow." Lin Shu clenched his fists, his face full of determination.

He Jiqing hugged him and asked, "Tell me, why are you so attached to this matter?"

He was very curious about what kind of wishes Lin Shu had made, but every time he asked, Lin Shu would either keep silent or gossip about him, anyway, he would not let him know.

"It's all about wishing you well!" It was rare for Lin Shu not to evade this time.

"For example—don't talk about making my new book a hit!" He Jiqing stared into his eyes.

"I hope you are happy, happy and healthy." Lin Shu stroked his face.

"What else? You have to kneel for a long time every time, it must be more than that!" He Jiqing rubbed his face against his hand.

Lin Shu stroked his hand and paused for half a second.

"I also hope that your family members are also happy, happy, and healthy. I also hope that you and your family members will live in harmony and never quarrel again."

He Jiqing saw in his eyes that his boy was still guilty of what happened last time.He touched his head: "It's over, Lin Shu, don't worry about my parents."

Lin Shu tilted her head and lay on his shoulder.The two were silent for a while.

"Why are you willing to tell me this today?" He Jiqing sat down with Lin Shu on his lap.

Lin Shu hooked his neck and lowered his head halfway.He Jiqing raised his face, Lin Shu had tears in his eyes.

"Why are you crying?" He Jiqing touched the corner of his eyes.

Lin Shu lay in his arms and didn't speak.He Jiqing stroked his back, but did not continue to ask.

After a long time, Lin Shu said, "I see God."

He Jiqing's hand rested on his shoulder.

"When you come down?"

"Ah."

"Illusion, you've been in there for too long." He rubbed the back of his head.

"It's possible..." Lin Shu knew that He Jiqing would not believe it.

Sleeping until midnight, Lin Shu suddenly developed a fever, vomiting and diarrhea.He Jiqing didn't have any clothes on, so he went to call the innkeeper for help in shorts.

The innkeeper looked at Lin Shu and said, "It's altitude sickness!"

He Jiqing said, "I have to send him to the hospital immediately!"

The innkeeper said no, He Jiqing yelled at him: "How could it be possible, it's so serious!"

The innkeeper knew that he was in a hurry, so he didn't get angry with him. He made two phone calls and called a community doctor who was familiar with him nearby. He gave Lin Shu water, inhaled oxygen, and took medicine until dawn.Only then did Lin Shu reduce his fever and stop vomiting, regained his vitality, and lay sick on the bed, unable to speak.

The innkeeper came up to take a look, and said to He Jiqing, "Look, I said it's all right."

With a gloomy face, He Jiqing sat by the side without saying a word.He was angry with himself. He found out that Lin Shu was unwell early in the morning, but he always took chances.

Lin Shu raised his hand to call him, and He Jiqing hurried over.

"Namtso can't go!" Lin Shu read.

"What time is it, and I still miss Namtso!" He Jiqing scolded him.

"My roommate said that the most effective place to make a wish is the holy lake." Lin Shu looked towards the balcony, and the prayer wheel on the roof of the Jokhang Temple was spinning fast.

"I don't need you to make a wish, I will be happy and live in peace for the rest of my life." He Jiqing was very angry.

Lin Shu looked at him with sadness in his eyes.

He Jiqing covered his eyes: "Namtso, don't even think about going. The boss said this morning. Last night, the weather forecast said that the road to Namtso was blocked by snow. Even if you are fine, you can't go there. .”

"Everything is God's will, right? That's what the gods said yesterday." Lin Shu's eyes rolled on his palm.

"That's all superstition! There's no will from heaven, and there are no gods. It's just an illusion caused by your weakness." He Jiqing became more and more angry as he spoke.

Lin Shu closed his eyes and stopped talking.The gods in Lhasa were indeed wiser than those in other places, and they quickly saw through him, saying that He Jiqing could find true love and live happily ever after, but in the end, he was only seeking peace of mind.His heart had nothing to rely on, and he fell into hell.