Solitary

He Jiqing obviously felt that Lin Shu's whole body was stiff. He lowered his head and squeezed his hands, but didn't answer.

"Will you wash some more cherries?!" Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, He Xiatian interrupted quickly.

Sun Xiang didn't move, she looked at the silent Lin Shu and said, "Son, I know it's not easy. But if you really want to have a relationship with our Ji Qing, it doesn't make sense to hide it from the family. I know— —”

"What do you know?" He Jiqing interrupted her coldly.

"I know a lot of homosexuals. They talk about love, but they still want to go back and marry girls!" Sun Xiang insisted on finishing the sentence.

Lin Shu, who was in He Jiqing's palm, trembled slightly, and shrank into a ball.He Jiqing put his arms around his shoulders.

"You guys have to live well, you have to pass this test. Don't talk about it for seven or eight years, and finally hit it off. Xiao Lin was pressured by his parents to go home and get married. He is still young, so he can find someone to marry casually. , What about you? What do you do?" Sun Xiang expressed his worries.She had no choice but to accept that He Jiqing liked men.Seeing that Lin Shu was clean and well-behaved, she thought that it was not bad for a decent child.He is a good match with He Jiqing, and he can look decent when taken out, and he can also stop some gossip.However, upon questioning, it was discovered that Lin Shu was the only child and had not confessed his relationship with He Jiqing to his family, so he couldn't help questioning his feelings for He Jiqing.

After all, Lin Shu is only 23 this year, and He Jiqing is 13 years older than him.How can the time of the younger party be as valuable as that of the older party?If it’s time to break up, one can start all over again, and the other, the best time is no longer there, so how much money is left to start a new life.

"I, I, I won't get married, I won't marry a girl." Lin Shu finally said, he can guarantee that he won't get married.This is his last insistence.

"It's really good that you don't get married, but if you don't tell your family clearly, will they agree? Even if they know about your relationship, it's better to agree than to hide it?" Sun Xiang asked forcefully.

Lin Shu lowered his head and picked at his fingers. Sun Xiang was right, but because she was right, he was irrefutable.Her problem is also his problem.

He Jiqing looked at Lin Shu's red eyes and was angry: "This is between us, it has nothing to do with you. You don't have to ask so much."

Sun Xiang was angry that he didn't know what was right and what was wrong: "Am I going to ask this myself? Didn't I ask it for you! You two want to be together well, these are the problems that need to be solved!"

With a sullen face, He Jiqing pulled Lin Shu up and said, "Let's go home."

Sun Xiang was anxious: "You child, why can't you listen to adults? Am I doing this to harm you?" She wanted to pull He Jiqing, but her hand just touched him.He Jiqing tilted his head slightly, and looked over with cold eyes, causing her to withdraw her hand.She wanted to go to La Linshu, and he turned around and glared at her.

Sun Xiang was frightened, took half a step back, and fell down on the sofa.

He Xiatian scolded him: "Don't look at your mother with such eyes, she is not your enemy!"

He Jiqing looked at him condescendingly, with a cold smile on his lips.

He Xiatian wanted to get angry, but he didn't know how to get angry, so he simply turned around and didn't look at him.

Lin Shu didn't expect that everything would change in the blink of an eye.because of him.

He Jiqing dragged him to the entrance.He asked him in a low voice: "Is this okay?"

His worry, guilt, and panic were all too obvious, He Jiqing felt distressed when he saw it, and rubbed his head comfortingly: "Let's go home first."

Lin Shu didn't move, his eyes fluctuated.He felt that it was all his fault, if not for him, He Jiqing would not have quarreled with his family.

He Jiqing had nothing to do with him, pinched his face: "I'll tell you when I get home, what happened today is not your fault."

Lin Shu didn't believe it, he thought he was coaxing him.He Jiqing knelt down to help him put on his shoes.He quickly pushed him away and changed it himself.

Sun Xiang came out after him, stood not far away and looked at them, moving his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.Lin Shu was too guilty to look at her.

He Jiqing pulled him to open the door and left without looking back.

After the two left, Sun Xiang asked He Xiatian wearily: "Old Xia, what do you think I'm trying to do?"

"This child is not close to us, you don't know that." He Xiatian was also helpless.He Jiqing's sideways glance at him just now made him tremble with fear.It's full of disdain.

"I shouldn't have thrown him into the countryside." Sun Xiang regretted that he couldn't take care of his two children because of work, and he left the eldest He Jiqing behind, leaving only He Annian with him all the time.

"It is indeed a problem for the elderly to take care of their children." He Xiatian also thought that there was a gap between He Jiqing and them because of the elderly.

When He Jiqing was seven years old, they took him back to their side.But by then it was too late, he looked like any other kid, quiet, gentle and polite.But with family, there is always a sense of distance.He didn't tell them anything, and he was very alienated from He Annian.

They felt guilty about him and wanted to make it up.However, He Jiqing didn't give them a chance, he didn't need them, from material to emotional.Since junior high school, he has been working part-time during winter and summer vacations, tutoring others, and working as a model... He insists on self-sufficiency and insists on being alone.He has been working hard to keep a distance from them.

He Annian was afraid of He Jiqing, and Sun Xiang and He Xiatian were also afraid of him. They couldn't understand him and were always afraid of making him angry.But in fact, He Jiqing had almost never been angry with them, except today.

"I thought it would be better if he fell in love. Yesterday he took the initiative to give me a hug." Sun Xiang smiled wryly. He Jiqing's hug made her happy all night, and he talked back and forth with He Xiatian many times.She thought that now was a good time to draw their relationship closer, but it seemed to be just her illusion.In his world, there is still no place for them.

"You really asked too many questions this time, you were too hasty!" He Xiatian reflected.

"Where do I ask so much? This is what a mother should ask. It is a matter of his happiness. I am afraid that he will suffer!" Sun Xiang felt that he was right.

He Xiatian sighed: "But since he will choose to bring Xiao Lin back, both of them must be determined to live a good life. Xiao Lin also looks like a good boy. How can we understand the feelings of young people?"

Sun Xiang shook his head: "Xiao Lin looks pretty good, but he didn't say a word about the future, and he kept silent when asked him. Ji Qing only had his eyes on him, and he couldn't say anything about the relationship until the end. Yes. If he's looking for a girl it's all right."

He Xiatian no longer tried to persuade her, after all, she wanted to care about him.But He Jiqing never needed their concern, he was able to bring Lin Shu back only to inform them.Just like when he entered junior high school, entered high school, applied for university, and went abroad to study, he made his own decisions.They don't know until the decision is made.He went abroad to study, and they didn't have time to see him off, he was already on the plane.

He Jiqing didn't need them, He Xiatian acquiesced long ago.

He Jiqing took Lin Shu away.In the elevator, Lin Shu said sorry again.

He Jiqing held his hand tightly, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed.

"Your family is fine, but I'm not." Lin Shu was so ashamed.He Jiqing gave him so much, and even added a layer of "family" to his lover's identity. He loved him frankly, but he could only repay him a little bit.

"I've said it all, it's not your problem." He Jiqing sighed.

The two got into the car, but He Jiqing didn't start the car right away.

"Before I was seven years old, I was at my grandfather's house in the country." He suddenly started talking.

This was the first time he talked about his childhood, Lin Shu sideways looked at him seriously, the white light from the underground garage hit his face through the car window, turning his face gray.

"I remember my mother went to see me once, and I asked her, mother, would you take me home? She said yes, I was happy all night, and finally I can go home, and I can stay with my parents like An Nian But she sneaked away the next morning. My grandma said, your mother doesn't want you anymore."

Lin Shu looked at He Jiqing's beautiful thin lips opening and closing, the words he spit out were without warmth.His eyes were like black holes, looking towards the front of the car.Lin Shu grabbed his hand on the steering wheel, it was cold.

"Do you think my parents are very nice?" He Jiqing grabbed him with his backhand.

Lin Shu nodded silently, they looked much better than his parents.

"Yes, they are really good people, everyone thinks so. My dad loves my mother very much. Since he retired, he cooks. My mother also loves my dad very much. She gave up a lot of things for my dad when she was young. .They have a harmonious relationship, rarely quarrel, work diligently, earn money, and take good care of us. Many people envy my family." He Jiqing smiled softly, but his eyes were hollow and cold, just like his hands.

There was a car coming in from the garage, and the glaring light from the headlights shone straight in from a distance, hitting the faces of the two of them.Lin Shu narrowed his eyes, and found that He Jiqing lowered his eyes, and finally, sadness flowed from nose to mouth.

He called him: "He Jiqing—"

The new incoming car turns and goes elsewhere.The light disappeared, He Jiqing raised his head, the sadness was gone, everything was as usual.

"Today's matter, if you change someone, it will still be like this. Even if it's not like this today, it will be like this one day." He Jiqing rubbed Lin Shu's head: "Don't take it to heart, this is a problem between me and them."

Lin Shu looked into his calm eyes and shook her head slightly, it's not like that, it's not like that.Sun Xiang's question is right, if he wants to be with him well, those are the problems that must be solved, confess to Li Hua and Lin Jian, come out of the closet, and reveal everything.But he dared not, and could not.Li Hua is not Sun Xiang, the ending must be tragic.

He finally threw himself into He Jiqing's arms, blaming himself, ashamed, distressed, and crying silently.

He Jiqing patted him on the back: "You don't have to worry about me, everyone has problems that everyone needs to face, you have yours, I have mine, we are all the same."

Now that he still wants to comfort him like this, Lin Shu cried out.

"He Jiqing—"

"Ah."

"He Jiqing—"

"Um--"

"I really, really, really, really, really, really love you."

Language is actually the most feeble thing in the world. It cannot fully express pain, nor can it fully express love.People choose to believe everything another person says through imagination.

He Jiqing believed that Lin Shu's love for him was so much, even if he added a hundred "really", he couldn't express it.Therefore, he never considered the questions Sun Xiang asked as problems.Sun Xiang made Lin Shu sad, and that was the problem.

"Me too, so don't cry. We have to go home. We will fly to Linzhi tomorrow morning!" He Jiqing pinched Lin Shu's shoulder and reminded him.

Lin Shu got up from his arms, but covered her face.He Jiqing smiled and tapped the back of his hand, pushed him back on the seat, and leaned over to fasten his seat belt.

The car finally pulled out of the garage and headed home.Tomorrow, there is a new journey.