Solitary

The door of the temporarily rented apartment was ajar, Lin Shu stood at the door for a while, and then slowly opened the door to enter.

The living room was in a mess, the landlord's glass tea table was broken, glass shards were everywhere, and only four bare table legs remained.Father Lin Jian was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette, stepping on broken glass.Li Hua sat on the other side, with his hands folded over his chest, staring at the broken glass on the ground with a sullen face.

Lin Shu stood at the door, seeing this scene, wanted to turn around and run away.

Lin Jian saw him first, calmed down and called him, "You're out of class."

Li Hua snorted coldly, expressing dissatisfaction with his gentle attitude.She glared at Lin Shu, wanting him to ignore him.

Lin Shu pretended not to notice, said softly to Lin Jian, put the schoolbag on the shoe rack, closed the door, went into the kitchen, found a broom and dustpan, and went back to the living room to clean up the broken glass.

Li Hua scolded him: "What are you sweeping, what is there to sweep!"

Lin Shu said nothing.

Lin Jian couldn't help but said to Li Hua: "You are like this, there is not a good word out of your mouth!"

"You speak nicely, that's why you're looking for mistress, and that's why you want to divorce me!" Li Hua screamed instantly.

Lin Shu just swept to her feet, the outstretched broom hesitated for half a second, and turned to Lin Jian's side.Lin Jian raised his foot sideways, his father didn't dare to meet his eyes.

Li Hua kicked over the dustpan: "Sweeping, what kind of sweeping, I get angry when I see you being angry like this, just like your father, pretending!"

"What did you scold Lin Shu for, and he did nothing wrong!" Lin Jian helped Lin Shu speak.

"I scold my son, it's none of your business. I don't scold him, do I scold you? You're proud of being a mistress outside, what right do you have to scold me!" Li Hua barked his teeth and claws.

The two of you talked to each other, spitting and spitting, and no one would let the other.Lin Shu knew at a very early age that there was no love in their marriage.When they got together at the beginning, it was just a matchmaker's words, and they were rightly matched.

After Lin Shu swept the broken glass, he poured it into the trash can, fearing that the hands of the sanitation worker would be cut, so he packed it in a cardboard box.

This time, the exchange of fire between the parents ended with the sudden silence of his father, Lin Jian.He has endured half his life.With no opponent, Li Hua also stopped, just staring at his eyes, as if about to spew fire.

Lin Jian took out his cigarette and called Lin Shu, "I'm going to divorce your mother."

This time, he finally couldn't bear it anymore.

Li Hua immediately retorted sharply: "Impossible, you want to divorce me, no way!"

"It's meaningless if we continue like this." Lin Jian smoked heavily.

He is very tired, Lin Shu knows, he has been very tired.He doesn't love his wife, but he endures and suppresses it all year round because of clan values ​​and family responsibilities.He worked very hard, his forehead was full of white hair, he had never been loved well in his life, nor had he loved anyone well.

"Do you really have a woman?" Lin Shu asked him.

Lin Jian lowered his head and clenched his chin.If he didn't answer, it was tantamount to acquiescing.

Li Hua caught the evidence and said with a threatening manner: "Look, admit it, you just have a vixen! I know that you want to divorce me because you want to marry that vixen, and I will never let you go! "

"Does she love you?" Lin Shu continued to ask.

Li Hua screamed: "What are you asking, Lin Shu, which side are you on!?!"

"Does she love you?" Lin Shu insisted on asking Li Hua regardless.

Lin Jian threw away the cigarette butt in his hand, glanced at Li Hua, then turned his head, Lin Shu saw his relaxed jaw.She is better than Li Hua, Lin Shu knows.

"Let me tell you, the surname is Lin, I will never let you go! You want to marry that vixen, there is no way!" Li Hua was hysterical again, and she began to dig up old accounts, starting with how she paid for the Lin family. Speaking of it, she earns money from dawn to dusk, she endures Grandma Lin Shu's white eyes, and the pain of her habitual miscarriage... She feels that he is sorry for her, she is very wronged, she is full of resentment, she complains, curses, argues with each other, and refuses to give up an inch .

Lin Jian didn't make her have a better day, and she wouldn't let him have a better day either.Two people who don't love each other torture each other.

"It's up to you!" Lin Jian didn't want to say any more, he got up to leave.He was grabbed by Li Hua.

"You are not allowed to go!" she ordered him.

Obviously don't love, but don't want to let go.Because she was caressing and panicking, her time, youth, and years were all gone. She lost this man, and no one wanted her anymore.

"Let go!" Lin Jian broke her hand with great strength.The thin she was thrown to the ground!He is ruthless, but he is also a victim.

Li Hua got up from the ground and hugged his thigh, she was crazy, she shouted: "I won't let you go, I won't let you go. Lin Shu, hold your dad quickly, don't let him go to that fox ! If he goes, he won’t come back!”

People can stay, but hearts cannot.Lin Shu didn't move, he didn't want to be an accomplice.

Li Hua was thrown away again by Lin Jian, her head hit the leg of the table, and she fell to the ground.Her head was broken, blood flowed to the ground, and he didn't look back.

Lin Shu went to help Li Hua, but she slapped her across the face.His face flushed, and her tears fell.He checked the back of her broken head, the wound was not serious, and he took a towel to cover her.

"You heartless, I asked you to hold him, why didn't you hold him? What's the use of me raising you! He won't come back after he left! It's all you, all you, you hold him , he won’t leave!”

Her unquenchable anger turned to him.She is good at swearing, all kinds of ugly words, regardless of the target, without thinking, just open her mouth.He had seen her and her mother-in-law scolding each other, fighting for three days and three nights, and the old man lost to her.He was used to it, and his father Lin Jian used to be used to it too.Only, another woman changed him with new habits.So, he couldn't bear it anymore, and he chose to leave.

Lin Shu sat on the sofa, silently listening to those nasty abuse.Once you don't care about it, the abuse will not have the effect of hurting people.Li Hua stopped occasionally, and Lin Shu handed her water, but she knocked her to the ground.He found a rag to dry off.

Li Hua hated him, she hated him for not holding back his father.She stared at him, with tears in her sunken eye sockets, sliding down the corners of her eyes.She scolded him: "You heartless boy!"

He didn't respond, she lost her opponent, all her grievances and emotions hit the wall, and she finally broke down completely, crying on the ground.

Her toughness was finally shattered by her irretrievable marriage, by her husband who abandoned her, by her son who was unwilling to help her.Her anger lost its potency.Can no longer control anyone.She felt that she had been abandoned, she was sad, she was afraid.There was nothing she could do.

Lin Shu called her: "Em—"

"What should I do, he wants to divorce me, what should I do—" She grabbed the ground with her head like the sky was falling.

"Do you love him?" Lin Shu asked her.

She didn't hear it and continued to cry.She can no longer hear other people's voices, no, she has always been unable to hear other people's voices, she is the only one in her world.He and his father are just her slaves.

"Do you love him?" Lin Shu shouted at her.

It was the first time he spoke to her so loudly, she was stunned, stopped crying, and looked at him blankly.

"Do you love him?" Lin Shu looked into her empty eyes.

Her expression was puzzled, she couldn't understand his question.

"I only have you, Lin Shu! I only have you, Lin Shu!" She hugged him suddenly, crying over and over again.She found her life-saving straw, she had to hold him firmly, she couldn't lose him again.

Lin Shu was suffocated by her embrace.

Li Hua made noise until midnight, until he was exhausted.She grabbed him and confirmed over and over again: "I only have you, and I will only have you from now on, Lin Shu. Your father doesn't want me anymore, and I only have you."

He said, "Em, go to sleep!"

She wanted him to admit it himself: "Say it quickly, you will not leave me, you will not leave your mother behind, just say it!"

He repeated blankly: "I won't abandon you, Mom."

She was finally satisfied, but she began to curse the man who abandoned her again. She cursed him that the vixen gave birth to a child without an ass'hole, was ridden by thousands of people and lay down by thousands of people, she cursed him to be hit by a car when he went out, and cursed him to die.

Lin Shu couldn't take it anymore, closed the door and went out.Even in the living room, Li Hua could still hear cursing.He fled to the balcony, and there were two missed calls from He Jiqing in his phone.He called and rang twice, He Jiqing answered.

He didn't speak, He Jiqing asked him: "What's the matter?"

"I miss you," he said.

He Jiqing smiled softly: "I miss you too."

"It would be great if you could be by my side." This was Lin Shu's extravagant wish at the moment, he looked at the sky, and saw a full moon hanging on the top of a tall building in the distance.Black clouds hovered around, and soon they covered the full moon.The sky in Xiamen is the same as that in Shanghai, you can't see the stars.

He asked He Jiqing: "Are there any stars over there?"

He Jiqing asked him back: "Are you unhappy?"

He laughed: "Why do you know everything, it's not fair."

Even across the phone, He Jiqing could hear his emotions.He loves him, so he cares about him.Lin Shu knew it all.

"Did you quarrel with your mother?" He Jiqing asked

"No."

"Your parents quarreled?"

"Ah."

"It's serious!"

"Well, my father is going to divorce my mother."

Lin Shu sighed, and He Jiqing also sighed.

"My mother doesn't want to leave, and my father has someone outside. My parents have a bad relationship, and they often quarrel."

In the past, Lin Shu felt that it was not good to tear open the wound for others to see. He never told people about his parents.But now that he opened it to He Jiqing, he felt a sense of relief.

"And you, what do you think?" He Jiqing only cared about his thoughts.

"I don't know." Li Hua could let go of Lin Jian, but it was impossible for him to let go.Once divorced, she will only hold him tighter.She said, she only had him.He is afraid.

"That's their business, it's normal if you don't know." He Jiqing comforted him: "If you don't know what to do, there's nothing wrong with watching, it's their problem in the first place."

No matter what happened, He Jiqing was always on his side.What he said was right, but it didn't apply to his family.Li Hua will not let him stand by, she needs him to stand firmly by her side and become her last barrier.

Lin Shu looked at the moon on the top of the tall building not far away, it went down, and the black cloud followed it.But always bright.He said, "He Jiqing, I miss you so much."

He Jiqing said, "Me too."

"I'll fly to Xiamen to find you!" He Jiqing had a sudden thought.

Lin Shu smiled happily: "Farewell, they have to say that you are not professional again!"

"Leave them alone." He Jiqing occasionally wanted to be willful.

"Then I refuse to see you." Lin Shu knew that he would do what he said, so he had to stop him.

He Jiqing sighed a long time: "You—"

Lin Shu watched the moon finally get out of the black cloud, and the faint light illuminated half of the sky.He told He Jiqing: "The moon in Xiamen is very round!"

When He Jiqing walked to the balcony, there was also a full moon hanging in the sky, the moonlight was soft and bright.

“The ones in Shanghai are also very round!”

Both looked at the same moon at the same time.Lin Shu's mood gradually eased, it was He Jiqing who helped him drive away the dark clouds in his heart.Even if it's only temporary, he still has to work hard to enjoy the peace of this moment.He cherishes it and remembers it firmly.There are not many opportunities in the future.

He Jiqing looked at Yuanyue and said, "You are in a bad mood, call me anytime. I will turn it on for you 24 hours a day."

Lin Shu looked at Yuanyue and nodded: "Yes, I know."

How he wished that time could stop at this moment.He will be able to have He Jiqing forever.However, the moon is cloudy and sunny, and people have joys and sorrows.People without love, like his parents, will make trouble like this.Those who love each other, I'm afraid the sky will collapse when they separate!He didn't dare to think about it, and he didn't want to think about it.But whether he wants it or not, the future has already been decided.He squatted on the balcony and cried silently to the moon. The cold moonlight fell on the ground silently.