Solitary

After the afternoon class, Lin Shu used the courage to prepare for the whole afternoon to call his mother Li Hua.He first asked Li Hua: "Do I have to be a civil servant?"

Li Hua replied, "What nonsense are you asking?"

"If I say I don't want to take the civil service exam, I'm not suitable, and I don't think I can pass the exam—"

"What nonsense are you talking about? What can you do if you don't take the civil service exam? What major do you have? What can you do when you go home? To draw Guan Gong for others? Or to draw signs for others?"

Before he finished speaking, Li Hua interrupted him violently.

"You child, I really don't understand you, and you always think about strange things. At that time, you were told not to go to other places to study, but you went anyway. If you want to study in a local teacher's school, you can still be a teacher when you come out. I See if you don't think about what you have and what you don't have now, hurry up to review and strive to be admitted to the civil service, so your father and I don't have to worry about it so much."

"You are the only child in our family. If you had more brothers and sisters, I wouldn't have to work so hard to keep an eye on you every day. Your dad and I will rely on you in the future. How can your dad and I rely on you like this. Why can't you be more sensible like other children's children?"

The more Li Hua talked, the more angry he became, and then he started to turn over old scores, saying how Lin Shu had made adults worry since he was a child, and how much his parents had worried about raising him, they only called him a white-eyed wolf.

The so-called courage is vulnerable to the strength of his mother Li Hua.Listening to Li Hua's dissatisfied chatter on the phone, Lin Shu's whole body was paralyzed.I can't move my hands or feet, I can't open my mouth, I can't smell anything, I can't hear anything, I can't see anything.It seemed that he had fallen into an endless darkness, and no matter how hard he struggled, he could not escape this trap.

Because Lin Shu didn't say anything, Li Hua hung up the phone angrily.It took Lin Shu a long time to regain consciousness from the paralysis.He struggled to move his hands and feet, found a stone bench by the side of the road and sat down, facing the cold wind until he felt chills all over his body.

Until He Jiqing called him and asked, "Have you had dinner yet?"

When he opened his mouth, his mouth was stiff.

"No." He could only say a few words.

"It's already seven o'clock." He Jiqing said.

"Ah."

"Go and eat quickly."

"it is good."

"Aren't you happy?" He Jiqing found that he was not in the right mood.

"No."

"If you need me, I'll find you right away." He Jiqing said.

His words were like a switch, turning on Lin Shu's heart which had been too stiff to function, and the warm blood began to circulate in the body again.He could finally feel the coldness of the stone bench and the chill of the evening wind, and he could open and close his mouth freely.

He will work harder to create a little warmth for the rest of his life.

"I'll take a taxi to find you, right away."

He Jiqing said, "Okay, I'll wait for you."

After Lin Shu got off the taxi, he ran wildly all the way.Running to the vicinity of the villa, he saw a figure standing on the steps from a distance, the light of the street lamp fell behind him, and the shadow made his face unclear.

He gasped and shouted: "He Jiqing!"

The figure took two steps down, Lin Shu speeded up and ran in front of him.He Jiqing smiled at him, stretched out his hand to touch his face, feeling icy cold from the cold wind.

Lin Shu opened his arms, hugged him tightly, and buried his head in his chest.

He Jiqing also hugged him tightly back, stroking his head to comfort him.

"He Jiqing—" Lin Shu called out his name.

"Yeah." He answered.

"Why are you so nice?" Lin Shu asked him.

He smiled, lowered his head and kissed the top of his head: "Because you are very good."

Lin Shu's tears wanted to flow out again, he desperately held back and hugged him even tighter.

"What happened?" He Jiqing asked him, the boy's emotions were always ups and downs, and he had a lot of things on his mind.

"I had a quarrel with my family." Lin Shu said.

"Why are you arguing?" He Jiqing asked.

Lin Shu lay tightly on his chest, not wanting to answer.

"I almost quarreled with my family today." He Jiqing said.

Lin Shu looked up at him, he was very surprised, he never thought that He Jiqing would have similar troubles.

"They wanted to introduce me to a girlfriend." He Jiqing sighed.

Lin Shu's eyes widened, and He Jiqing scratched the tip of his nose: "I said I have a boyfriend, and his name is Lin Shu."

Lin Shu's eyes welled up, and He Jiqing said, "They want me to ask you if we can have dinner together some other day, and come to my house. My father is a good cook, my brother will follow him, and I will follow my mother."

He Jiqing deliberately said it casually, but Lin Shu's flustered expression still showed that he was frightened. He lowered his head, afraid to look at him, and didn't know how to answer.

He Jiqing rubbed his head: "You don't have to be nervous, you can refuse if you don't want to go."

"I'm sorry." Lin Shu hugged him tightly again, wishing to be embedded in his body.

He used too much force, causing He Jiqing's back to be strangled.He rubbed Lin Shu's head to comfort him.The person in his arms gradually loosened his strength, but he still held him, and soon there was a soft sob, and his shoulders trembled slightly from crying.

"You don't have to take this matter too seriously. If you don't want to see them, then don't. I don't care about that." He Jiqing comforted him distressedly.

Lin Shu in his arms cried even more wantonly. He Jiqing's kindness to him was both a tonic and a poison. He longed for it and was afraid at the same time.He is afraid that the other party will give too little, and he is also afraid that the other party will give too much.He Jiqing made him so happy, but he could give very little in return.He calculates everything, and there is no more despicable person in the world.

In the quiet neighborhood, the cold wind swept the branches, scraped the ground, and stirred the air.There were several dogs barking not far away.White things began to fall from the sky, small pieces, swirling in the wind.

He Jiqing said, "It's snowing, Lin Shu."

Lin Shu wiped away his tears, and then raised his head from his arms. A piece of snow fell on his forehead, and it instantly turned into water. He Jiqing wiped it off for him, and another piece fell off.He saw white foam flying in the dim light. This was the first time he saw real snow when he grew up on Dongshan Island.

"It's snowing!" Lin Shu looked up at the sky, snowflakes kept falling on his face.

He Jiqing took the trouble to wipe off the water from the snow on his face, and said, "Well, it's snowing. It hasn't snowed in Nanjing for many years!"

Lin Shu looks at Xue for a while, and looks at him for a while.He Jiqing stared at him intently, all his eyes were on him.He couldn't help standing on tiptoe and kissing He Jiqing.Warm lips and tongues touched, Lin Shu was green and He Jiqing was gentle, it was a sweet kiss.

After the kiss, Lin Shuhong looked at He Jiqing: "I will always remember today forever."

He added a lot of forever, as if swearing to show his firmness.He Jiqing looked at the boy's reflection in his moist pupils.Although it was almost freezing outside, a warm tide surged in his heart.He rubbed his eyebrows with his fingers, and smiled slowly.

"I'm so happy!" he said.

Lin Shu looked at his open smiling face, and slowly smiled along with him: "I am also very happy."

He Jiqing led Lin Shu up, the snow grew bigger unknowingly, huge snowflakes fell from the sky, Lin Shu caught them with his hands as he walked, watching the snow melt in his palm.

He told He Jiqing: "This is the first time I have seen real snow. I have been in Nanjing for almost four years, and I have never seen snow."

He Jiqing said: "Then I hope that the snow will be bigger, and Nanjing will be beautiful tomorrow. They say that Beijing after the snow is Beiping, and Nanjing after the snow is Jinling."

Lin Shu began to look forward to it.

On this snowy night, both Lin Shu and He Jiqing lived very warmly.

He Jiqing's kiss was very warm, Lin Shu was kissed all over his body.The boy's body was very warm. When He Jiqing entered him, he saw the beautiful scenery that he had seen in Linzhi before. The mountain peach blossoms were in full bloom. The mountain wind blew past, and the peach blossom rain blurred people's vision.Lin Shu was in the peach blossom rain, calling his name: "He Jiqing, He Jiqing, He Jiqing..."

He Jiqing woke up first, Lin Shu curled up in his arms, he stroked the boy's thin back, the boy was awakened by his movement, and asked with his hazy eyes open, "What time is it?"

The originally hoarse voice became hoarse.He Jiqing touched his forehead first, the temperature was normal.He took his glasses and looked at the time on the wall clock.

"10:30."

The boy crashed into his arms, muttering, "It's over."

"Having class in the morning?" He Jiqing continued to stroke the boy's back.

The boy replied "Yeah", without any regrets.

He Jiqing smiled lightly, he pushed the boy away and got off the bed.

The boy was lying on the bed, squinting his eyes as he walked to the floor-to-ceiling windows without clothes, and pulled open the curtains.The sudden light forced the boy to close his eyes, and opened them slowly after he got used to it. The first thing that caught his eyes was the snow-white roofs one after another in the distance, like ice cream spikes.Then came the courtyard downstairs that was already completely white. There were only two big maple trees left, filled with white snow, and only a little bit of red leaves were exposed.

Lin Shu jumped out of the bed, and like He Jiqing, stood naked in front of the window, looking down at the white expanse outside.

"It's so beautiful!" Lin Shu lay on the glass strangely.

The boy's body is very beautiful, fair skin, slender and thin body, slender limbs.He Jiqing was not at all attracted by the rare snow scene outside, all his attention was on the boy.His chest, shoulders, even the back of his hands, and thighs all had marks from last night.

"I want to build a snowman!" Lin Shu turned to look at He Jiqing, but met a pair of fiery eyes.

He Jiqing pulled him, pressed him into his arms and kissed him.Both eyes were open, looking at each other.Lin Shu couldn't match the affection in He Jiqing's eyes, and finally closed his eyes.But the affection between his lips and tongue remained, and he couldn't escape.The heat between the body is still there, and he can't escape it.The picture in the mind is clearer and more real than what the eyes see.As usual, he silently put all this in the most important place in his body.

He Jiqing wanted to continue after kissing, but was pushed away by Lin Shu.

"I want to build a snowman!" After all, it was the first time a southerner saw snow, and his curiosity and longing for snow defeated his desire.

He Jiqing looked at the excited look of the boy, and helplessly patted his head.

The two got dressed and went downstairs. Lin Shu couldn't wait to rush out. Like most southerners who saw snow for the first time, they ran excitedly in the snow, screamed, rolled, and buried their faces in the snow.He Jiqing took out his camera, took pictures and recorded videos of the boy playing in the snow.

Lin Shu lay on his back on the snow, sliding his limbs.He saw that He Jiqing's camera was on him, he made faces at the camera, and threw a snowball on He Jiqing's head.

He Jiqing held up the camera, rubbed a snowball with one hand and threw it over. Lin Shu rolled and dodged it, and threw another snowball to He Jiqing.

The two finally rolled together laughing and laughing.Lin Shu snatched the camera from He Jiqing's hand, and pointed the lens at him.

"Smile!" He directed He Jiqing.

He Jiqing laughed hotly.

"Wink and laugh!"

He Jiqing blinked and smiled.

"Acting cute!"

In the camera, He Jiqing frowned and hesitated, and gave him a V letter.

"How cute is this?!" Lin Shu was dissatisfied and asked him to do it all over again, put down the camera, and demonstrated to him: "If you want to do this, put your hands into fists and put them on your cheeks, 'meow'~"

He Jiqing took the camera, took a picture of this moment, then switched to video mode and said, "Do the action just now again!"

Lin Shu was shy, pouted and bared her teeth at the camera.

He Jiqing was amused and laughed, Lin Shu got excited and said that he would perform a classic Hokkien song.He ran to stand under the maple tree, made a microphone with his hands and began to sing the only Hokkien song he knew, which was taught by his father when he was a child.

"What are you talking about, I personally look like a fairy in Zenith.

What are you talking about, I personally look like the ancient Xi Shi.

What do you say you love me, thousands of years

What are you talking about forever, wipe it to change your mind

It turns out that you are a sweet talker, you deceived me when you were sincere

It turns out that you are empty-mouthed and thin-tongued, and you will do it if you achieve your goal.

ah... i ask you

ah... i ask you

where is your conscience?"

Lin Shu in the camera began to sing very happily, doing some messy dance moves along with the song.But as he sang, his expression changed, his singing became much softer, and he even paused for a few moments with a smile.In the second half, he sang with a smirk.

He sang in Hokkien, but He Jiqing couldn't understand the lyrics, so he waited quietly for him to finish singing, and asked him, "Why are you unhappy while singing?"

"My grandfather taught me this." Lin Shu turned his face and said without looking at the camera: "He is no longer here."

Lying has become a habit.This was a good shield, he saw the distress in He Jiqing's eyes.He Jiqing couldn't understand Hokkien, if he could understand, he would understand that the song was a story about betrayal.He learned to sing this song when he was a child, and he didn't understand the resentment and accusations in the song at all. Now when he sings it, every sentence seems to point to him.He took advantage of this relationship, even if he is sincere, he is destined to betray this relationship, he is a sinner.Even if He Jiqing doesn't hate him, he is still a sinner.

Hearing He Jiqing's sigh, he took the initiative to hug him, took his hand, pointed the camera lens at the two of them, jumped up and kissed his face, and bit his nose.He Jiqing took the initiative to bite his mouth, and the two kissed carefully in front of the camera.

Lin Shu said, "Could you make a copy of what you took?"

He Jiqing smiled: "Of course, I'll give you as many copies as you want."

"We'll take it with us when we go out to play in the future, okay?" Lin Shu took the camera and put it in front of him to record He Jiqing, who was opposite him. He replied to the camera, "Okay, where do you want to go?"

"I haven't made up my mind yet." Lin Shu said, there are many places he wants to go, Yangzhou, Suzhou, Qingdao, Dalian, Beijing, Xi'an... He wants to go to all these places he has never been to before the end of his senior year with He Jiqing.But he knew that this might be an extravagant wish, he wanted to pick a place he wanted to go the most, and create the best memories with He Jiqing.