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Song Nineteen went back to the house with a normal expression. Li Shiyi was sitting on the bedside folding a few blue-gray jackets without reading a book. She raised her eyelids and glanced at Song Nineteen. Shui smiled and asked her, "Will you wash your face? I'll pour water."

Song Nineteen said "hmm", sat down on the edge of the bed with arms folded, and stared at Li Shiyi's folded clothes in a daze.

She even folded her clothes neatly, the creases were like a frame, and they were square.

She thought about it, and always felt that Li Shishi was not like this in the past. In the past, she was casual and unrestrained, digging out the coffin and fighting in the dark. If she is really afraid of the reincarnation of heaven, how can she live in this profession?

She looked at Li Shishi, who was pouring water from a copper pot, and felt a certain soul looming in her body.

"Look at what?" Li Shishi paid attention to the movements of his hands, and slapped his eyelashes coldly.

"I was thinking," Song Nineteen's heels tapped lightly on the bed, "Lingheng is really awakening."

Li Shixi paused, pinched the handle, turned the copper pot upside down, put it down unhurriedly, and then turned to look at Song Shijiu.

She was so caring and caring that Song Nineteen's unfinished words didn't need any comments.Song Nineteen panicked. She originally thought that what she was afraid of was that the returning Ling Heng would no longer have her in her heart, but she never thought about it, what if she didn't like Ling Heng?

This thought frightened her and made her feel guilty. She only glanced at Li Shiyi briefly, then looked away.

Li Shishi stood in the room, half of the moonlight fell on her face, she was charming like a banished fairy, her left index finger rested on the washbasin stand, and her palm began to sweat.

She squinted at Song Nineteen, and suddenly realized that she had never understood herself.

She thought that her change was because of Ling Heng, because of Lord Taishan, and because of that illusory identity.But only she knows, neither.

When I was alone in the past, the sky covered the ground and the hut, and I came and went naked without any worries, and I was natural and unrestrained.It was the girl named Song Nineteen that made her look so forward and backward, weighed so carefully, and feared the bad ending.

She believes that the same is true for Ling Heng, or in other words, it is the same for everyone in the world who falls in love, and no one is spared.

She stared at Song Nineteen with dry eyes, clear and clear, and she could hardly see the grievance that had arisen in her heart for the first time.

Li Shishi used to face outsiders with a concealed face, but now she faces her lover with a concealed emotion.

She didn't say anything in the end, she just scratched her finger on the wooden frame calmly, wiped away the light sweat stains, and then twisted the veil sideways for her.

The hot water was misty, which relieved some fragile emotions in time, but the winter night is really long, and this winter is also really long.

Song Shijiu took a deep breath, not knowing why he and Li Shishi had a moment of relative silence. The little girl who used to chatter around Li Shixi was like a seedling that had been plucked, caught off guard. The posture grows into an adult.

It seemed that because of Chunping, she became an adult in an instant when she was grasped by a young hand.

Song Nineteen walked over, stood behind Li Shishi, stretched out his hand and gently tugged at her sleeve, and called her in a low voice: "Eleven."

Li Shishi didn't turn his head, the kerchief was in the palm of his hand, waiting for her to speak.

Song Nineteen tried his best to keep his tone light, but there was still a three-pointed begging when he said it: "I told you before, if I did many bad things, you must forgive me."

Her heart was pounding hard, pulling at her originally delicate throat, she could only swallow her saliva again and again to stop the sourness from spreading.

She didn't want to send Chunping back, she wanted to keep her.

Li Shishi straightened his back, turned around, put the twisted handkerchief into Song Shijiu's palm, retracted his jaw, and sighed: "Ah Jiu."

It was the first time she called Ah Jiu, the person in front of her, and she called it tenderly and solemnly.

"I can accept all the mistakes you've made," she said.

Song Nineteen raised his head, the hope in his eyes seemed to be glimmering, flickering.

Li Shixi paused, and then said: "The premise is that you have to correct it."

The light in the pupils went out with a "snap", faster than any gust of wind.

Song Nineteen lowered his eyes: "I can't do it."

Li Shishi had never seen Chunping's scarred feet, and she didn't know what the world would be like ten years later, but she knew.

Whether she has a spiritual connection with Chunping or is naturally sensitive as a beast, she just knows it.

She drooped her shoulders weakly, and said softly: "I just remembered, maybe, I don't have that much ability."

"I don't know how to send her back. What if I send her back by mistake? If I send her to another year, will there be even bigger disturbances?"

She frowned and chattered, stubborn like a little beast with no rules.

She tried very hard to ignite the hope in her heart, moistened her lower lip, and said: "I should keep her, I can not let her go out, and if she goes out, she will wear a mask and not meet anyone. In the coming year, I..."

She talked for a long time, but Li Shiyi remained silent. When Song Nineteen's eyelashes slapped the fluttering young butterfly, he heard a cold voice: "When Qin Liangyu was forced to stay in the world, what did you think?" ?”

Do you also feel self-righteous and can't bear it, thinking that you have done a good thing that everyone is happy with?

The cruel words were like a needle, pricking through Song Nineteen's meticulously woven brocade.

Qin Liangyu?Song Nineteen raised his head abruptly, looking at Li Shishi with a clouded gaze.

"General Qin is a ray of soul when he stays in the world. Although the other souls are incomplete, they can also be included in reincarnation. Therefore, she can stay in your enchantment and coexist with her reincarnated body."

"But Chunping is different."

"She is a living person. In a few years, she will be born. How can there be two Chunpings in the world? And if she can't be born, will the current Chunping still exist?"

"Or, do you want to turn her into a ghost?"

Li Shishi was so gentle even when he was aggressive, his eyes from top to bottom were like spring breeze, comforting the restless girl.

Song Shijiu's face was completely drained of blood, and her delicate lips were also dry and cracked. She was silent for a long time, and she didn't come back to herself until the towel in her hand was completely cold.

She murmured: "It seems that there is nothing wrong with being a ghost."

It's better than her going back to suffer inhuman torture.

Her eyes wobbled up and blinked slowly, as if she was begging for a life-saving approval.

Li Shiyi stared at her quietly, and shook his head after a while.

She was very disappointed.

"You clearly know that if Chunping doesn't go back, maybe the war will be longer and the casualties will be heavier. The torture that can be seen at one end is torture, and the one that can't be seen at the other end is not torture, isn't it?"

"I can't save the person in front of me, so what's the matter with me thousands of miles away?" Song Nineteen bit his lower lip and retorted vigorously.

Li Shishi took a deep breath and pursed his lips, as clear as Chu He Han.

She said: "If what you can see is suffering, but what you can't see is not suffering, should it be called kindness or selfishness?"

Song Nineteen's shoulders trembled, he was stunned by Li Shiyi's words, his eyes narrowed as if they were burned, and he looked at her silently and emptily.

She is selfish, she has always been like this, she was born and grew up in Zhongshan since she was a child, playing with all kinds of beasts and growing up, leaning against one place for warmth in winter, and soaking in water together in summer.In her world, there is no justice, no black and white, no order, only intimacy and non-intimacy.

But Li Shiyi asked her with the mercy of the gods, so that she would send the person she loves to an inhuman place with her own hands.

An uncontrollable sob finally appeared in her voice, and she said, "I am not a god, nor a human being, Lingheng, I am a beast."

Do you understand what a beast is?

It is to rely on breath and instinct to judge likes, it is to rely on the people in front of you as soon as you open your eyes, it is to go forward without fear of life and death, it is to rush to protect the jewel in your heart even if thousands of people die, it is without education, without much knowledge, no Those who understand trade-offs and pros and cons, Beast.

She didn't say anything about it, she just looked sideways at the fireworks on the table, and heard Li Shishi say in a slow voice: "You used to be a beast, but now you are a human being. You are literate and sensible. Xia Ji, Qin Liangyu , you should have remembered the lessons learned from the past.”

She paused, and almost sighed the last sentence: "But you are always like this, with emotions."

As soon as the four words fell, the western clock happened to strike twelve, and the clang of the bell was not noisy, not even as loud as the firecrackers of the playful children downstairs, but to Song Shijiu's ears, it seemed to be some kind of destructive sound. The overwhelming sentence shattered her most precious past.

She instantly understood why the winter night was so long.

Because there was fog in her eyes, frost was formed under her eyelashes, but the rain was warm, making her eye sockets seem too cold.

She looked at Li Shishi through the thick water mist. She held her hand since she was born, and since then she has been the first one in her heart. She learns how to dress and eat from her, and travels everywhere with her. Even when she is angry, she is reluctant to stay overnight, but the sporadic love she gives can stay for a long time.

If she was a human being, then she really deserves to be a first-class silly girl in heaven and earth.

Song Nineteen lowered his head, smiled self-deprecatingly, took a sniff, then raised his head, putting Li Shishi's face into his eyes.

She nodded and admitted, "I'm being emotional."

"I'm so emotional, that's why I chased after you so shamelessly." The little girl bumped into a wall in her indifference again and again, stood up by herself again and again, laughed and pulled her irregular clothes, happily went to lead her hand.

"I was so emotional that I handed myself over to you without any grievances after you undressed others." Even when I was being wasted and my happiness was stolen, I cheered myself up loudly, and didn't want to make her worry too much an hour.

"I was so emotional that I abandoned all the face of Master Ninth after I knew all the reasons behind you." She was determined that she would not leave, so she didn't even chase after her, and she really didn't live up to it. , Lying on the ridge where she could hear her breathing every night, finally mustered up the courage to walk back to the lonely and desolate yard.

Even the teardrops, which she tried her best to restrain, didn't give face, just rolled out in such a disobedient way, making her sobbing that her chest trembled, crying without pomp, spine, and self-esteem that she should have.

She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and said dumbly, "I'm really emotional."

The grievances accumulated for a long time have never disappeared. In the past, she was firmly suppressed in the sweet and greasy love, and also firmly suppressed the long-lost self-esteem.Now they fought back and beat her up, unable to fight back.

She also didn't want her mind to be so small.But women are usually like this. They don't remember the upper limit of feelings, but always remember the lower limit of feelings. For example, she may not repeatedly think of those swords and fires that have lived and died together, but she will definitely remember that she woke up groggy one day, You won't peel an egg for her.

Li Shiyi listened to her cry, with an expression she had never seen before, as if she put her heart that had been gouged out by a knife on her face. She should have stepped forward to hug her, but she couldn't take a step anyway. .

The knuckles of her hand turned white from pinching, and the veins on her frail wrists protruded, but she still stood firm, and stared at Song Nineteen motionlessly with her extremely sore eyes open.

It turned out that Song Nineteen had so much resentment, and it turned out that her love with her was not as healthy as she thought.

Song Nineteen's choked-up questions hit her throbbing heart like a violent storm, and some things that had been buried without trace were drilled out of the gap.

That cold and indifferent person seemed unbelievably heartless.However, hasn't she ever hesitated, feared, and worried about gains and losses?Hasn't she ever been afraid that Song Nineteen's dependence is not love?Hasn't she ever been afraid that she will have a trace of regret after awakening?Just now, when she read Song Nineteen's unfamiliarity with Ling Heng, how did she convince herself to calmly twist a kerchief for her?

Just as she never mentioned that Song Nineteen had once possessed her, was it because she was shy, reserved, or worried that if she found out, she would feel embarrassed or embarrassed when she retrieved her memory?

As for the matter of going up to Jinyun Mountain to find a slut, she has always been decisive and delayed again and again, and why?

She swallowed and swallowed, and her nostrils fluttered slightly, but the words she wanted to explain were not squeezed out of her throat. She raised her head and looked at the empty bedroom.

The towel was thrown on the table mercilessly, limp like a broken skeleton.