Jiu Yan

"Why... Long time no see..."

A very slow and deep voice entered my consciousness directly.

"Are you Shenmu?"

"It's been so long that you can't remember at all..."

"I……"

"Do you want to restore the memory of that period?"

... "Temporarily... no need" I was also taken aback by myself, such a good opportunity to know all this, why do you say no?Still temporarily?Is this myself answering?

"No, I want to know!" Did I have a split personality?

"Haha... who am I listening to?"

"Tell me, I don't know anything now, tell me everything!"

"...When the time comes, I will naturally remember..."

"...Can't you really tell me? Is there another person in my consciousness? Who is that person? Who is the hero who came with me? Why are you so obsessed with my blood? It can save you ?"

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"That's right, the only one who can save me is you..."

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"...How can I save you?"

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"Did you know there's a thing called 'entropy'?

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entropy?I thought about it, if this question is asked to others, few people may know it, but I usually dabble in a wide range of knowledge, and I am very interested in physics, biology and other side knowledge when I read books.Of course I know this.

The concept of entropy, in layman's terms, is a state of disorder, which can also be called chaos. Entropy is always increasing and cannot be reduced. To put it more simply, let's use the simplest example If it is, it is like people will always get old, it is impossible to live younger and younger.This is a magical concept, as big as everything in the universe, as small as it is in my Taobao store.

Although I don't understand it very thoroughly, I can empathize with it.

So, I nodded slightly.

The voice paused for a while, then continued: "That's how I am. After a long time, the entropy is too high. I need the help of my old friend to adjust it..."

"Are you talking about me? Or the other me that I don't even know? How can I help? Is it a life for another life?"

"Ha ha ha ha……"

"Is not it?"

"Yes or no, it depends on the process. The future is always an unknown..."

"Since... since you and the unknown me are old friends, can you do something for me?"

"...What is it?"

"I also have a friend who came with me. I don't want him to encounter any danger in this life, and I don't even want to have any bad things. I will try my best to help you, even if I have to trade my life for you. , I have no complaints, but after this, you have to help me send him out, if you can help me protect him so that he can live this life without any worries, that would be even better."

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"Oh?……"

"There is only one request."

"It's just... the old man doesn't know whether he can survive this calamity..."

"You don't know either? You're lying, right? There are a lot of people out there talking about asking me to save Shenmu."

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That voice stopped for a long time, the surroundings were silent, and the air was blowing like an autumn wind...

I can feel the waves of leaves flying by in the wind...

This feeling... very desolate...

After a long time, the voice continued: "I... will try my best..."

"You mean, you promised? Get my friend out? Can you protect him from harm?"

...it didn't answer...

"Or, just trying to keep yourself alive?"

……"What do you think?"……

"I……"

Faced with this plausible, plausible answer, I don't know what to do.

Is it just a gamble?

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"I'm ready, let's get started!"

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"Okay...the old man has no time..."

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The voice hadn't disappeared from my mind when suddenly there was a strong wind, rain, snow and frost, and the fallen leaves instantly became sharper than a sword. They flew over my face with the strong wind, cutting my skin.

After a few whistling sounds, my already tattered clothes became even more dilapidated, and blood sprang from my body...

The burst of blood condensed into bright spots in the air, illuminating the entire space brightly...

More and more blood poured out...the severe pain of the skin being cut and torn...

Sure enough, is this trying to squeeze me dry?

Gritting my teeth, against the strong wind, I barely opened my eyes...

"...God... what did I see?!!!?..."

Those bright spots formed by my blood, through them, I see countless me...

No, maybe "the" me...

They are all in different places, different seasons, and even different time and space...

There are crying and laughing, warmth, sadness, hard work, surprise and joy...there are too many...the me who is too much...too many...

Is this what Shenmu wants?

Who is that me?

...soon...my eyes began to darken...

Must have lost too much blood...

Did he just die here?If, as Shenmu said, it didn't escape this catastrophe, then my life would be useless, what about the hunchback?

no!We must let Shenmu survive!

The moment I thought this way, I felt as if I overlapped with that me.That familiar memory...

I stood up with support, and walked towards the huge trunk of Shenmu step by step...

It is so huge... After walking in, the shape of the tree is already unrecognizable...

I was covered in bruises and blood on my hands... when I touched him...

A warm feeling came from the palm of my hand...

What a powerful force this is...

Overwhelming...

Is this the power of Shenmu?

wrong!

This is……

It's like seeing a soul in a mirror...

it's me...

Countless memories poured into my brain like a flood, too fast, too many, and my brain couldn't react at all.

Just like a baby yearning for the embrace of its mother, I greedily feel the warmth and slowly approach it, face, neck, shoulders, arms, chest, and even the whole body...

It's not just posting, I found that this feeling is too good...

Gradually, I felt that my eyelids were getting heavier and heavier. Although my consciousness told me that I couldn't fall asleep, my body didn't listen to me at all, just like chocolate melting into milk...

My body is also gradually melting into the Shenmu...

The pain just now gradually disappeared with the fusion of the body and the Shenmu. Isn't this the real euthanasia?

If this really makes me dissolve, the Great God will just leave me alone and let me go?

Wasn't his previous efforts in vain?

Or can he not come in?

No, he can send me in, how can he not come in by himself?

The only possibility is that he doesn't want to come in?

Did he complete his mission by bringing me here?So far, my life has nothing to do with him?

If this is really the case, why, when I tried to end my life, would I show the kind of sadness that even a big man would feel heartbroken...

And now, the truth is, I can't feel his breath at all...

Not a bit, not at all...

How can you feel so disappointed?

Whether I can survive or not seems to be not that important anymore. The person who saved me all the way and reminded me of so many scattered fragments, when my consciousness is about to fade away,

didn't show up...

How did I become so useless?Looking forward to something unknown and uncertain?

Or is this another my feeling?

Looking back, this is the first time I've been on the verge of death...

Suddenly there is a sense of relief, all mysteries will end at the moment of death.

Any feeling will disappear at the moment of death.

All ties to this world will be interrupted at the moment of death.

There is no such sudden miracle in the novel, instead, it is a long process...

Touch, smell, hearing, taste, vision... The five senses are like the traces of waves washing on the beach, evaporating a little bit, and finally being completely dried by the sun...

I can no longer feel the existence of myself...

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