Everest

Geng Aiqing didn't react for a while, and when Shen Biwen crawled to him to inhale oxygen, his brain turned around and asked in surprise, "What did you say? Go back to camp C3?"

Shen Biwen didn't answer him, but put the oxygen mask back on his face, and climbed up another step.

"What the fuck do you mean?" Geng Aiqing grabbed his hand, gritted his teeth and moved closer, "You want to go back?"

Shen Biwen glanced at him quickly, then raised his head to look above them again, and said lightly: "Is that the rope? We're here." Then before Geng Aiqing was about to speak, he moved to the left one step, buckled Stopping at the climbing point that Geng Aiqing chiseled on the cliff when he came over, Geng Aiqing looked at his figure, but he was not at all relaxed about getting out of danger, because of Shen Biwen's words, he felt a little heavy, and in the end he still temporarily He closed his mouth, gritted his teeth and followed.

After returning to the climbing ladder, both of them were sweating profusely, and the feeling of tension had not completely disappeared.

"Carabiner." Shen Biwen called out to Geng Aiqing slightly above him.

Geng Aiqing hurriedly followed Shen Biwen and buckled the carabiner on the road rope, and Shen Biwen also took a spare carabiner to fix himself again.

After everything was ready, Geng Aiqing glanced at the time and found that it had been more than an hour since he fell, and he didn't know if Pei Lei, Lin Sheng and the others were still waiting for them on the second step, if not, they had to rely on themselves Climbing up, time was running out, Geng Aiqing climbed up one side, and stopped a little beside Shen Biwen.

"I'll go down first, and you follow me." Shen Biwen didn't show any expression on his face, and even deliberately avoided Geng Aiqing's target, and ordered lightly, "If you go back the same way, it's about two hours away... Before he finished speaking, Geng Aiqing interrupted him in shock: "Are you serious?"

Shen Biwen was silent for a moment, then nodded.

Geng Aiqing raised his head and looked up. The climbing ladder was about three meters away from climbing. It seemed close in front of him. He couldn't believe it: "What do you mean? Tell me clearly!"

"I give up." Shen Biwen said stiffly.

"What?" Geng Aiqing suddenly felt ridiculous, give up, give up what?

"I gave up climbing to the top." Shen Biwen met his astonished eyes and said seriously, "This is a fucking mistake, I regret it, I give up, I give up on climbing to the top, shall we go back together?"

The air suddenly became quiet, only the wind whistling in my ears.

Geng Aiqing paused for a long time before recovering her voice: "You're not going to the top? You don't want to go to the top? Didn't you say..."

"That's my paranoia." Shen Biwen said dryly, "Don't you also regret it?"

"I fucking regret..."

Geng Aiqing suddenly didn't know what to say. To be precise, he was completely overwhelmed by the pain in Shen Biwen's eyes. He never thought that among them, between the two of them, or among the entire team, the first The one who said to give up would be Shen Biwen. Although he knew that Shen Biwen's ultimate purpose in coming to Mount Everest was to give up and give up his life, he never thought that Shen Biwen would say that he would give up halfway. After all, it was Shen Biwen from the beginning. Wen has been firmly talking about the determination to climb Mount Everest, what bullshit determination?The determination is to give up at this time?Did you just say you gave up when you were less than 200 meters away from the top of the highest mountain in the world?If you really plan to give up, what is the struggle in your eyes for?

Geng Aiqing felt puzzled and angry. He wanted to return what Shen Biwen had told him to him intact, and wanted to ask his father, his mother, and his death choice. But in the end, all he was left with was a deep sense of powerlessness. He felt exhausted all over his body. Everything that happened on Mount Everest made him physically and mentally exhausted.

"Are you sure?" Geng Aiqing looked at him, "You really gave up?"

Shen Biwen nodded.

"Okay." Geng Aiqing said calmly, "Should I be happier? If you give up climbing to the top, does that mean you also give up suicide?"

Shen Biwen didn't speak.

Geng Aiqing laughed: "That's a good thing too."

"Then go down." Geng Aiqing looked at Shen Biwen, "Anyway, I don't have any determination to reach the top, do I?"

Shen Biwen avoided his gaze, and actually started to climb down. Geng Aiqing was furious, and pulled him up, and pressed him hard on the ladder. The strength made the whole ladder tremble. He looked directly into Shen Biwen's eyes, gritted his teeth and said, "Shen Biwen!! Do you really want to go down?!"

"Correct."

Geng Aiqing grabbed his collar vigorously and shouted loudly: "You fucking look in my eyes! What do you mean by fulfilling your father's ideal? What about your ideal? What about your determination! The fucking peak is near! In front of you! Are you fucking going down? Huh?"

His voice was broken in the wind, Geng Aiqing's eyes were red, this was his loudest voice.

Then he saw Shen Biwen's eyes slowly turning red.

"Shen Biwen..." Geng Aiqing was stunned for a moment, thinking that he had stimulated him by mentioning his father, and was a little at a loss.

"Aren't you afraid of death?" Shen Biwen whispered.

"En?" Geng Aiqing didn't hear clearly.

Shen Biwen looked into his eyes, his voice was very soft, with a trace of imperceptible trembling and choking: "Geng Aiqing, aren't you afraid of death?"

"I'm not afraid of death, but I'm afraid of your death."

Geng Aiqing was really stunned.

What is death? Shen Biwen thought about this question a long time ago. After his parents passed away, he spent countless days and nights thinking about what is death. Since climbing Mount Everest, Occasionally he also thought about it, he knew that death was accompanied by the disappearance of life, the death of the body, the long sleep, the decay, and the loneliness of eternal scars, all of which he could bear, in fact, at the moment of falling, he I thought of this question again, maybe death is still accompanied by no bones left, and it is also accompanied by eternal regret and nostalgia.

For me, although death is accompanied by pain, it is nothing.

But when he saw Geng Aiqing appearing in front of his eyes, he felt panic. He didn't want Geng Aiqing to go through the pain with him at all. One of the countless dead souls in the mountains.

"you……"

Shen Biwen interrupted his hesitation: "This is the best choice."

Geng Aiqing looked at Shen Biwen's red eyes, wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, it took him a long time to find his voice: "Are you an idiot..."

"Climbing Mount Everest is your father's last wish." Geng Aiqing whispered, "It's your ideal, and it's also mine."

Shen Biwen looked at him.

Geng Aiqing smiled, and shrank back the tears that were swirling in her eyes: "Damn it, I told you that I wanted to challenge Mount Everest many years ago!"

"Don't say such nonsense that you are afraid of my death and your death." Geng Aiqing said softly, "I will ask you the last question, are you really willing to give up?"

Shen Biwen was silent.

How could you be willing to give up? This is the land closest to the sky in the world and the highest place in the world. This mountain has been formed for millions of years before it has such a huge scale. This is the most sacred mountain in the hearts of all climbers , is the dream of all climbers...

Geng Aiqing laughed in his silence. He lifted the oxygen mask on Shen Biwen's face, and kissed his lips viciously. The chapped lips did not feel good to the touch, but Geng Aiqing still felt a little uncomfortable. Sorry, he took a breath of oxygen and put the oxygen mask back on Shen Biwen's face, saying in a vicious voice, "Hurry up! Keep going!"

After speaking, he grabbed the ladder from the previous section and climbed up.

Shen Biwen raised his head and looked at Geng Aiqing's back. Geng Aiqing's face was not clear in the wind and snow, but even so, Shen Biwen still remembered the red corners of Geng Aiqing's eyes.

None of this seemed so important anymore.

He felt as if he was crying, and the tears quickly froze on his face, and the pain made him feel lucky that he was still alive.