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Chapter 20: Colors

After Meng Weiqing arrived in the United States, color never went online again.Meng Weiqing left messages on the Internet every day, but color seemed to have evaporated from the world, and did not reply to a single letter.At first, Meng Weiqing frantically left messages every day waiting for a reply. After a few months, she gradually calmed down and turned into a message every day. It was basically a question, whether it was okay or not.About a year later, Meng Weiqing no longer expected to get a reply, but leaving messages became a habit, and he always checked msn before going to bed.Then just when Meng Weiqing thought he would never receive a reply in his life, Color replied.

Meng Weiqing: Today is a whole year since I have been in California. I wonder how you are doing now?

color: hello.

Meng Weiqing: God!Am I dreaming?

color: I am not color. color has died.

Meng Weiqing: This joke is not funny.

color: I am a family member of color. Color suffered terrible injuries as a child, suffered from severe mental illness, and committed suicide many times.But in the year before his death, Color didn't try to do that again.We all thought that Color's condition was getting better until Color passed away.We opened Color's notebook when we were packing up the relics, msn automatically logged in, and you are the only contact person Color keeps.Sorry, I miss Color so much, so after reading all your chat records, I realized that it is because of you that Color has more courage to face this year of life.But... the result is as you know.

color: I originally wanted to leave a message to tell you, but color's life was very unfortunate. At that time, all of us were so sad that we didn't even have the courage to admit and speak out about it.I didn't expect you to leave messages every day.Later, I don’t know why, seeing your message every day, it seems that color is still alive, so I don’t want to tell you the truth.I can't sleep without even seeing your message.I am so sorry.

Color: The reason I’m talking to you today is because today is the anniversary of Color’s one-year death, and I think it’s time for us to let go.I will never charge this laptop again and never turn it on again.Looking at your chat records, I speculate that you are a boy as bright as the sun, but after all, there are always dark corners in the world, and there are always places where the sun cannot shine.People are often attracted to personalities that are completely opposite to themselves, and you and color are probably like this.

Color: Alright, you didn't reply after talking so much.Must be very sad and hate me.I know I can't say sorry enough, but all I can do is tell you this.Sorry again.

"Look, in the end, I don't know whether Color is a man or a woman, or how old he is. It's interesting, isn't it?" laugh.

"Haven't you ever thought that there is no color and family members at all, they are one person, and they just came up with this reason because they were afraid of seeing you?"

"Thought about it. But... I always feel that it is a way of avoiding my responsibility."

"responsibility?"

"The man said that 'color passed away for a whole year', and my roommate just held a party for me on the excuse of my first anniversary in the United States that day, and many classmates got drunk, smoked, smoked, and marijuana in our rented house , Promiscuous sex. So the day Color committed suicide was the first day I arrived in the United States, and it was the day we agreed to meet. If I hadn’t proposed to meet, would we just keep talking? There are some things I dare not think about. "

When Meng Weiqing said these words, his eyes were completely empty, and his thoughts seemed to have drifted back to the day when he saw the reply.Bai Xiaojun looked at him, and suddenly wanted to reach out and touch his head, but the table was too big, and he had to stand up to touch it. Bai Xiaojun had to turn around first. Thinking of the scene that destroyed the atmosphere, Bai Xiaojun gave up this idea.

"Then you didn't ask Color's family for a photo?"

"Having said so much, I carefully didn't even type 'he, she, his, her', obviously I don't want to reveal anything, why should I add that to myself?"

Bai Xiaojun lowered his head and turned the glass in his hand, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have laughed at you just now."

"Oh—what are you talking about. It's all in the past. Turn over and over again. Let's not talk about this. Really, talking about sex and orientation has come here."

"You haven't liked anyone since then?"

"It's just that I don't feel that way. I always feel that it's easier not to have any real feelings between people. After all, life is too fragile. Look at my dad, what's wrong with owning a group company? In the end, it's still..."

Seeing that Meng Weiqing was going off topic again, Bai Xiaojun hurriedly interrupted, "You're hurt a little bit. How about a prescription for healing?"

"what?"

"You should find someone who can see and feel it. I think Wu Feifei is pretty good."

"You didn't drink too much, did you?"

"Isn't it because you're depressed to tease you?"

It was not early, and the two chatted about some irrelevant things. After setting up tomorrow's itinerary, they packed up and went back to their rooms to sleep.

After washing up, he swiped his phone for a while. Bai Xiaojun was about to lie down when he heard a knock on the door.He said to come in, but there was no response outside the door after waiting for a while.He had no choice but to walk to the door on crutches and open it.

Meng Weiqing stood outside the door drunkenly, "Didn't you say that I should try to find someone who can see and touch me? I think what you said makes sense.

"Hmmm - you're up and knocking on the door in the middle of the night just to tell me that?"

"I think you are good. How about we try?"

"Drink too much, you!" Bai Xiaojun slammed the door with a bang.

After listening with his ears sideways for a while, there was the sound of walking away from the door, Bai Xiaojun heaved a sigh of relief and leaned against the door, patted his chest and secretly rejoiced: Thankfully I didn't drink today!

Bai Xiaojun tossed and turned, and fell asleep at dawn.It was almost noon when he woke up, and his feet were much better. He walked out on a single crutch, and found that Meng Weiqing was actually cooking.

Hearing the voice, Meng Weiqing poked his head out from the bar that divided the living room and the kitchen, "Are you up? Breakfast will be ready soon."

Bai Xiaojun rubbed his eyes, "I'm not hallucinating, am I? Can you cook?"

"Cut, can't you check it if you don't know how to cook?" Meng Weiqing returned to the stove with disdain, and pointed at the mobile phone next to him, "There are all kinds of dishes on the Internet, can't you just search for what you want to eat and cook accordingly?"

Bai Xiaojun stretched his neck full of disgust and looked into the pot, "Then what are you doing?"

"Scallion Egg Pancake."

Bai Xiaojun glanced around the operating table, "What's the matter with the cucumber pieces that collapsed all over the ground?"

"Oh, I took a picture of a cucumber just now. I cooked porridge and served it with egg pancakes. How about it? Perfect?" Seeing Bai Xiaojun's wrinkled face, Meng Weiqing glanced back at the ground, "You don't need to clean it up, I called the property just now, and they will find the exclusive cleaning staff of the community to come over in the afternoon."

Looking at Meng Weiqing's busy back, Bai Xiaojun murmured in his heart: Did you forget to knock on my door in the middle of the night and talk nonsense?He drank a lot, but it didn't seem to be broken.Pretend?Then he is an acting school!Was what he said last night serious?