end of love

The night after Li Shuyi found out that she was ill, she sat on the balcony all night, the cigarette butts in the ashtray beside her were piled up like a hill.

In fact, he is not a smoker.Only when the pressure is high or the mood is unstable, I will light a cigarette and take a few shallow puffs. Watching the tiny flame on the cigarette butt ignite little by little, my thoughts will gradually calm down.

But this time, it seemed that no matter how many cigarettes I lit, it was useless.

He feels tired.

The so-called ambition, drive, hope and longing for life are like quicksand between fingers, no matter how hard you clenched your hands, you can't keep them.What's more, he doesn't even have the strength to hold hands tightly now.

At dawn, the whole world became alive again.Li Shuyi leaned on the railing and watched the doctors, nurses, and patients coming and going in the garden below.He tried to feel some "life" breath from these people, but after watching for a long time, his heart was still dead.

"Li Shuyi." A deep voice sounded from behind.

Li Shuyi turned around slowly, and saw Wei Ze standing by the door with an ugly expression on his face.The nurse who followed him also looked nervous.

Li Shuyi reacted for a moment before smiling: "What? You think I'm going to jump off?"

Wei Ze walked up to him, saw his person clearly and asked, "How long have you been here?"

Li Shuyi said: "Not long."

Wei Ze glanced at the cigarette butts on the table, suppressed his anger, and said as calmly as possible: "Go back to bed."

Li Shuyi knew that Wei Ze was on the verge of breaking out, so she didn't dare to provoke him anymore, so she turned and went into the ward.

Wei Ze followed behind him and said to the nurse, "Take his temperature."

The nurse nodded and walked to Li Shuyi's side. Li Shuyi cooperated with her. After the results came out, the nurse handed the thermometer to Wei Ze.

39 degrees.

Wei Ze looked at the thermometer and didn't make a sound for a long time.

The atmosphere in the room was terribly cold. Li Shuyi sensed something was wrong and asked, "Fever again?"

Wei Ze ignored him, and the nurse nodded cautiously at him.

"It's just a minor illness, just take some medicine."

The nurse didn't dare to answer, Wei Ze raised his head and gave him a cold look, then asked the nurse to prepare the medicine, and after they left, he walked up to Li Shuyi's bed and asked coldly, "You don't want your life anymore!" right?"

Li Shuyi smiled. I don't know if it was because of the high fever or because he didn't sleep all night. He smiled weakly: "No, I don't want to part with your hospital."

Li Shuyi could pretend to be relaxed and joked with him, but Wei Ze couldn't laugh.Perhaps to Li Shuyi, it doesn't matter if he lives in a hospital, a hotel, or somewhere else, it doesn't make any difference.But he couldn't watch Li Shuyi take himself so lightly.

Wei Ze sat down beside Li Shuyi's bed, and said solemnly, "Listen carefully. The tumor in your brain is still in its early stages, and there is a great hope of being cured, but a craniotomy is necessary. If it keeps dragging on, the brain tumor tissue will Once cancer develops, then..."

Just about anything, Wei Ze paused for a moment, opened and closed his mouth but didn't say the rest.

"Okay." Li Shuyi still smiled, "I'll think about it."

Wei Ze didn't lose his temper or lose his temper this time. He looked at Li Shuyi and said, "Li Shuyi, maybe Fu Ying and I are nothing in your eyes. But we really regard you as friends and really hope you are well. "

The smile on the corner of Li Shuyi's mouth faded little by little, he turned his head and closed his eyes, and it took him a long time to say in a hoarse voice, "I know."

Wei Ze waited for a while, but still didn't wait for the turning point after the sentence "I know".But that's all there is to say about their relationship.Li Shuyi, even ghosts and gods can't stop him from doing what he wants to do. If he doesn't want to, no matter how much you beg and persuade him, he won't take it to heart.

Wei Ze sighed lightly and got up to leave, but before he could step out, Li Shuyi stopped him.

"Weize."

When Wei Ze turned his head, Li Shuyi opened his eyes, with a serious expression he had never seen before: "My illness, absolutely." He paused for a moment before emphasizing: "You must never tell Bai Jing."

Wei Ze frowned: "Are you still afraid that he will worry about you?"

"Worried?" Li Shuyi seemed to have heard something funny, shook his head and smiled helplessly, "He won't worry about me."

Li Shuyi slowly closed his eyes, his sickly face was full of coldness: "He will take pity on me."

And the last thing he needs is Bai Jing's pity.

He has already "kidnapped" Bai Jing once.Three years ago, he blocked the gun for Bai Jing, and Bai Jing was with him. Although they didn't say anything, they all understood that this was just a compromise and compensation for him.In fact, Li Shuyi can refuse, he can tell Bai Jing, I don't need you to feel guilty and grateful, I don't need you to use yourself to make up for me, I don't need you to give alms to me.Maybe Bai Jing has been waiting for these words.But in the end he didn't say anything, he was silent, accepted Bai Jing's care, kept silent, and spent three years with Bai Jing.

Only now does Li Shuyi dare to admit that his self-esteem and pride did not come from Bai Jing hearing those begging words in the rain, but from the time he acquiesced to the relationship he "kidnapped" three years ago, those things have long been there is none left.

So even if he is about to die of illness, even if he has only one breath left, he will never use these so-called "sacrifices and pain" to hold Bai Jing hostage again.

Enough is enough.

Li Shuyi had a fever for the second time. Because of the tumor in his brain, the treatment became more cautious.His body is getting worse and worse in this continuous toss, coupled with the side effects of new drugs, causing him to be drowsy most of the time.

Bai Jing came twice, and Li Shuyi was asleep.He wondered why Li Shuyi hadn't gotten better after so long, and asked Wei Ze, but Wei Ze always dismissed him with few words.

Originally, Bai Jing had planned to arrange for Li Shuyi to be transferred, but suddenly something happened to the Song family, which involved a lot of problems, and he himself became more and more busy, so the matter of transferring was put on hold for the time being.

Four days passed before Li Shuyi's repeated high fever finally stabilized.

After he woke up that day, he felt much more conscious, and he was no longer so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyes after eating.

Li Shuyi took the phone and looked at it. There was no special news. He was about to put the phone back when he suddenly realized that except for the last text message, Jin Yan hadn't heard anything for four days.

In the past, if he encountered any special circumstances at work, he would disappear for four or five days, but he would definitely send a message or call Li Shuyi.On the one hand, he told Li Shuyi that he was safe, and on the other hand, he also asked Li Shuyi if he was okay.He will definitely not disappear inexplicably to make people worry, he is not such an ignorant person.

But this time, knowing that Li Shuyi was hospitalized, he had no news at all.

Li Shuyi frowned and called Jin Yan, but couldn't get through even after several calls. When he asked the people in the hospital, they also said that Jin Yan had never been here.Instead, he called Jin Yan's team leader, Old Xu, and asked where Jin Yan had gone. Old Xu said that Jin Yan was fine and just went out of town. Maybe the phone ran out of battery or dropped it, so don't worry.

Li Shuyi didn't believe a word.Even if Jin Yan's cell phone is really lost now, he will not be without a message or a call for so many days.

The more Li Shuyi thought about it, the more wrong he became. Just as he was about to call Zuo Mingyuan to inquire about the situation, there was a knock on the door of the ward.

Li Shuyi didn't ask who it was, and responded directly. After seeing the people who came in, he was a little surprised that it was Qiao Yu and Dao Scar.

Qiao Yu has always been lazy and carefree, and this is the first time Li Shuyi has seen such an anxious expression on his pretty face.

When he saw Li Shuyi, he didn't even bother to say hello, and said anxiously, "Mr. Li, I take the liberty to bother you."

Li Shuyi looked at him and said nothing, Qiao Yu said: "I really have no choice... Please, save Jin Yan."

Li Shuyi was stunned, and the phone dropped from his hand.