end of love

Li Shuyi also guessed that the two children would be uncomfortable in the short term after being separated, but he never thought it would be so serious.

He really didn't have any experience as a father, he was the only one left in the family, and he had no chance to get along with such a young child before, so he oversimplified things.

When they were in the car, Aunt Xu probably felt so sorry for Li Nian that she didn't care about being afraid of him, so she babbled a lot.

The two children are actually very pitiful.

Born without a mother, she was looked after by her aunt and butler Xu since she was a child.Bai Jing dotes on them very much, but he has to manage such a big company, and Li Shuyi was in the hospital when he was unconscious, so he didn't spend much time with them.As for the aunt, to put it bluntly, she is just a person who is paid to work, and she is not really a child of her own family, so it is not good to get too close.

In the past six months, Li Shuyi has recovered in Longtan City, and Bai Jing has no other concerns in Jinhai, and he doesn't socialize very much. He goes home after work, and the two children really have "parents".

As soon as Li Shuyi came back, he couldn't wait to take him away.They are still so young, and they are not at the age to understand the truth, how can they know the complicated and entangled past events in the adult world.How could they bear to be separated suddenly without preparation.

Aunt Xu has never seen Li Nian cry so sad since she came to Bai's house. The more she talked, the sadder she became, and she wiped her tears with her fingers.

Li Shuyi looked at her, feeling very uncomfortable, and couldn't help laughing at himself that as a father, he didn't have a nanny and auntie who cared about the child.

When he arrived at Bai's house and saw Bai Jing at the door, Li Nian stretched out his hand towards him, so anxious that he stretched out most of his upper body.Once hugged, she turned her face to the side of Bai Jing's neck as before, but the corners of her eyes and mouth were down, with tears in her eyes and sobbing in her nose, as if she had been greatly wronged.

Bai Jing couldn't care less about talking to Li Shuyi for a while, and walked into the living room with Li Nian in his arms.

Bai Yi didn't even eat dinner, and was guarded by his aunt not to let him get off the sofa, so he ran outside immediately to find Li Nian, who would dare to let him go out on such a cold night in December.

He cried until his eyes became red and swollen, and he lost his strength and couldn't make a sound, so he could only hiccup from time to time.Aunt Yang squatted beside her, fed him water, and wiped his face with a hot towel, but he turned away and stared at Bai Jing stubbornly with his head up.

Bai Jing leaned down and put Li Nian next to him, the aunt smiled and said: "Nian Nian is back, look at my brother is back."

As soon as Li Nian saw Bai Yi, he yelled "brother" and "one by one" indistinctly.Although they were young, they seemed to have their own tacit understanding, Bai Yi grabbed his small hand, leaned her face towards him and said, "Dear brother." Li Nian pressed his soft mouth on his cheek.

His voice was so hoarse that he couldn't hear it clearly. Auntie's throat hurt when she heard it. She tried to feed him water, but this time she finally didn't hide.

Butler Xu breathed a sigh of relief, and ordered people to rush to prepare food for Bai Yi.Aunt Xu followed and sat down, guarding them with Aunt Yang, and told each other about the situation of the child after separation, both of them were teary-eyed.

Li Shuyi looked at the pitiful appearance of the two children next to each other, her heart ached, and she walked up to Bai Jing and asked, "Bai Yi cried like this, why didn't you contact me sooner?"

Bai Jing didn't answer, he couldn't suppress the anger in his heart, and said, "You still think I don't feel guilty enough for him?"

"I don't want..." Bai Jing opened his mouth, staring at the child on the sofa, "I don't want you to think that I use the child to blackmail you."

In fact, he said it at the beginning, saying that it can be delayed for a few days, and there is no need to be in such a hurry.But Li Shuyi refused before he finished listening.

Of course, he can continue to find reasons, saying that the child is inseparable, and what should be done for the child, but he doesn't want Li Shuyi to feel that he is using the child as a bargaining chip.And he wanted Li Shuyi to stay because he loved Li Shuyi and wanted to be with Li Shuyi, not because of his children or any other reason.

Li Shuyi fell silent for a while, and said after a long time: "...I never thought about it that way."

When the doctor came, he said that the two children were fine, but they were shocked.They are still too young, so they don't advocate medication, just feed Bai Yi and drink more water, don't let him talk for now, don't mess around anymore, it will be fine in two or three days.

Li Shuyi sent the doctor to the door, and told the story of the night, some didn't know what to do with Li Nian.

The doctor explained to him after listening, saying that all children will unconsciously seek support and a sense of security when they are born.It is mostly mothers who bear this role.And some children, in special cases, may transfer this emotion to other people or even to an object.Bai Yi and Li Nian have lived intimately together since they were young, playing together, opening and closing eyes is each other, it is not surprising that this kind of dependence arises.

"Then they...can't be separated?"

The doctor looked at him suspiciously and asked, "Why do you have to separate them?"

Li Shuyi opened his mouth, not knowing how to explain.

Seeing him in a dilemma, the doctor didn't want to ask more, and said seriously: "I don't recommend separating them forcibly, you can wait until they are older, have independent behavior and thinking ability, and can understand what adults say, and then teach them slowly. Of course, if we have to separate..." The doctor paused, "In the short term, it's just crying for a few days, but in the long run, it's not certain what effect it will have on them." The doctor couldn't help but sighed, "It may seem to you that they are still young and can't remember anything. But in fact, what happened in childhood will leave a mark on everyone's growth."

Li Shuyi was speechless.

Probably no one present could understand this sentence better than him.When Jiang Manqing kicked him away with his high heels, he was no bigger than Bai Yi.

But he remembered, always remembered.

I remember the other party's slender eyebrows drawn by the eyebrow pencil, the moles at the corners of the eyes, and the lips with lipstick... Even the look of disgust on her face is clearly remembered.

After seeing off the doctor, Bai Yi's dinner was ready.But he didn't want to go to the dining table, and he didn't want to be fed. Auntie could only put the bowl on the small round coffee table specially made for him and Li Nian, and let him eat by himself.

Li Nian had the habit of drinking milk before going to bed. He sat on the carpet holding the bottle, sucked a few mouthfuls, then grabbed the coffee table and stood up, moved to Bai Yi's hand, and opened his mouth to feed.

Bai Yi never fed him indiscriminately. She first looked at Aunt Xu, and after hearing that Aunt Xu said that she could give him a bite, she scooped up a little egg custard with a spoon and fed it to him.

Li Nian wasn't actually hungry, he just wanted to play with his brother, got a bite to eat, and diverted his attention.He was a big-hearted kid, and when he returned to his familiar environment, what happened that night seemed to have no effect on him. Seeing Li Shuyi sitting on the sofa, he went to pick up a doll for him to play with.

Bai Yi, on the other hand, took a few mouthfuls of food, then turned to look at Li Nian to make sure he was still there, and then turned his head back.

Li Shuyi looked at them for a while, then lowered his head, his eyes fell on the rabbit doll in his hand, feeling guilty in his heart.

Why did he take Li Nian away?From Li Nian's birth to the present, he was accompanied by Bai Jing, Bai Yi, Auntie, and Housekeeper Xu. This is his "home".He hasn't taken care of Li Nian for a day, why should he ignore it when he doesn't want it, and grab it when he wants it?He is so selfish, how is he different from Jiang Manqing?

"I've put away the bath water, you go take a bath." He was distracted, and he didn't even know when Bai Jing came over.

"I..." Li Shuyi opened his mouth, but Bai Jing interrupted him forcefully, "It's too late, I won't go back today."

Li Shuyi looked at the time, and it was almost eleven o'clock.

After going through such a turbulent night, he was actually quite tired, so he put down the rabbit doll, went over to pat Bai Yi and Li Nian's heads, and went upstairs.

When he arrived at his and Bai Jing's bedroom, he couldn't remember how long he hadn't been in this room.It's just that I didn't have the mood to feel emotional at the moment, and I was relieved when I entered the bathroom and soaked in the bathtub.

Li Shuyi closed her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose, trying to relieve the restlessness in her heart, but when she heard the door opening, she didn't raise her head.

Someone got into the bathtub and sat down beside him.

"Do you have a headache?" Bai Jing asked, his hand had already reached out to massage his temple.

Li Shuyi moved her buttocks, sat between Bai Jing's legs, and leaned back, with her back against his chest and her head on his shoulder, completely relaxed.

His hair was still wet, and it fell to his forehead, which was very uncomfortable.He raised his hand to brush his hair back from his head, and his facial features seemed to see through a layer of atomized light in the infiltration of water vapor.

Li Shuyi opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling, his tone filled with remorse and anger, as well as deep frustration: "Why do I keep screwing things up?"

Bai Jing kept moving his hands, and said in a deep voice, "It's not your fault, I don't blame you."

"Why don't you blame me?" He sneered, "It's not been a day or two for me, I do everything according to my own ideas."

If it was changed to a few years ago, when Li Shuyi was still arrogant and frivolous, it would be absolutely impossible for him to say such a thing.At that time, he was almost defiant, doing whatever he wanted, never caring about right or wrong.But after going through so many things in the past few years, there are still some changes. I have a little more tolerance, and I will stand in the perspective of others and consider other people's difficulties.

It was the first day he saw the two children, and he made them so sad, the more he thought about it, the more unhappy he became, he couldn't help but bumped his elbow back, and said in displeasure, "Aren't you stopping me?"

Bai Jing liked how he treated him so intimately and indulgently. He hugged him from behind, kissed his ears and forehead, and said with a smile, "Yes, it's all my fault, it's my fault."

Li Shuyi was speechless and didn't want to answer his words.He found that after the big quarrel in the nursing home, he and Bai Jing could no longer quarrel.Whatever he said, this person obeyed him, even if it was something provocative and hurtful, this person just kept silent, or he pretended to be pitiful with him, and never fought back as calmly as before.

Li Shuyi found it boring.But he didn't realize it himself, his hidden anxiety and resistance, his plans to leave at the slightest sign of trouble, were gradually calmed down.

"Or if you live here for a while and stay with them for a long time, it will be fine."

"Don't stop."

"Then I'll take them there, and you take us in?"

Li Shuyi was amused to hear it, sat up and wanted to say that I can't take you, a big Buddha, but when he turned his head to see the man who looked more handsome under the light of the bathroom, he was speechless for a moment.

"Huh?" Bai Jing didn't know why he was suddenly stunned, and looked at him suspiciously.

Li Shuyi frowned, leaned over to raise his chin, looked around, and then reached out to touch his eyes, nose, and nose. He spoke in a very unbeatable manner: "You will be 35 next year, why don't you look old?"

He felt that he was not looking for Bai Jing's money, but probably his face, and he was waiting for this person to grow old and ugly quickly, so he changed his mind and went to find a fresh meat.Otherwise, when he is old in the future, looking for him will become "disrespect for the old".

There was a faint smile in Bai Jing's eyes, he held his troubled hand, lowered his eyes and kissed his fingertips, then kissed down along the pulp of his fingers, kissing the long and thin scar on his palm.

Li Shuyi's heart was itchy from being kissed by him, and she was really not in the mood to do it. She didn't want to misfire with him, so she roughly withdrew her hand, turned around and leaned back.

Bai Jing hugged him from behind, looking at the scar on the back of his head that could not be covered by wet hair, he thought that fortunately the wound was well taken care of at that time, the scar was very shallow and not too obvious.

He put his lips up again, and kissed little by little at that position.

Li Shuyi soaked in the warm water and felt sleepy after relaxing.He nudged Bai Jing again with his elbow, and frowned impatiently: "Stop kissing, it's so itchy."

Bai Jingcai stopped his movements, adjusted the water temperature, and let him doze off in his arms.

The two of them would never have been this close before.

In this big bathtub, there are many memories of two people messing around.

But after parting, the heart is cold.Even the residual temperature falling on the surface of the skin can't last for a few seconds.

Bai Jing touched Li Shuyi's hand in the water, covered the back of his hand, put his fingers through his fingers and clasped it tightly.

He looked at the gently swaying water surface, lost his mind unconsciously, wondering if he was crazy before, that's why he was willing not to love the person in his arms, to make him sad, to leave so many scars on his body .

But now, just reading his name makes my heart feel hot.It turns out that a person can really love someone like this, so much that he doesn't know what to do, and even hugging him makes him feel panicked.

The author has something to say:

Jinjiang's review is very strict now, and even a little bit of intimate adjectives are not acceptable.

A few sentences are deleted in each chapter, so "missing arms and legs" is really annoying