Fantasy Abyss Sticking to Ink Dye

When I walked out of the hospital, I didn’t feel like the sun was shining brightly in the novel, and I felt reborn. I looked up at the gray sky, and there were three or two sparrows standing on two lonely wires. Their bodies were stiff and their eyes were dull. , as if it was about to return to the original, and then fell down.I couldn't help wanting to laugh, what are you talking about, how can I fit in that brilliant color, even though I am obviously free.

But after leaving the hospital, how else can I find Mo Xiaoqi?The fingers suddenly clenched, Mo Xiaoqi, you are really okay, you have been away for two years, and there is no news, why?Why did you abandon me? When I find you, Mo Xiaoqi, I want to imprison you.

Mo Xiaoqi, you always say that I'm happy as long as I'm happy, but I'm also afraid. Are you pampering me like you said, or do you just let me destroy yourself?Mo Xiaoqi, I don't know the sophistication of the world, I don't know the decisiveness and viciousness, all I know is that I want you to look at me.

The first year you were away, I always wanted you to watch me, otherwise I don't know what I would have done.Then I would think, did you arrange someone to watch me?Are you hiding in a corner?I have worked hard for a long time but I can't feel the slightest proof of your existence in the air. I started to feel confused. I thought I might have made a mistake. You are so angry, but I thought of hitting the wall desperately but I didn't think of it.Obviously you won't be angry even if I kill someone, obviously every time you feel unhappy, I will quickly correct it, I live wantonly and carefully.

In the second year after you left, I always hoped that you would come back to visit me secretly, but I couldn't hear the familiar footsteps day and night.Every time the door was opened, I always wondered if you had come back, until I was surprised and suspicious and stood at the door refusing to leave, and you didn't show up.Then, I think, I may be abandoned by you, I may be abandoned by you.

I don't understand, I can't think of a reason for you to abandon me.I don't think you are the kind of person who will wrong yourself, you will not accept my intimacy with you casually, so you must have changed later.It took me a long time to figure it out.Is it because I don't respect him enough that you protect him so much that you can't bear it anymore?right?Of all the things before you left, I can't think of anything closer, including motivation and timing.So, Mo Xiaoqi, this is all I can think of in my poor mind before I leave the hospital.

I stood for a long time before I took out the envelope with the discharge certificate.When I opened the envelope, I felt my fingers become cold, they were almost numb.

There is money in the envelope, I don't know how much it is, there is still ten to twenty thousand, I grinned hard, trying to show the joy of a poor man who is not recognized by the family when he sees a huge sum of money.But I didn't succeed, I felt peace.

do you know?This envelope gave me a very novel experience, that kind of experience is called if I want to prostitute, I have to pay.It feels like, like Mo Xiaoqi, he stayed with me for a year or two when he was bored, and then he got out of the previous hurt, I was worthless, I was not needed, and then I got paid.

How much is it?I held the envelope expressionlessly and stood at the door of the hospital.

The pink inside the envelope seemed to deepen until at last they were a harsh scarlet.

It seems that there is a cold wind blowing through the valves of the heart, which is cold and painful.

I seem to hear a broken sound, I don't know if that is my belief.

I thought that he would not dislike me, so I really wanted to possess him.

I thought that I finally met someone who cared about me, so I really wanted to follow him forever.

I thought that God finally saw me and sent me divine light, but the angel told me that you were just too lacking and had an illusion.

I thought that Mo Xiaoqi liked me at least a little bit.

It's all what I thought, and I can't find a reason to tell me that what I thought was true.

So it's just my opinion.

The time in pain was long and slow, and pathos took hold of my brain.