Fantasy Abyss Sticking to Ink Dye

Before today, I didn't even think that Yuan Fan and I had a serious quarrel this time, and the final solution was to throw a plate at someone to wake them up. I almost wondered if the way we got along before was wrong. That's right, for a violent and bloodthirsty guy like Yuan Fan, shouldn't you try to influence him with gentleness, and you should use a kitchen knife every day to compete with anyone who is more arrogant and desperate, and the family violence is still a peaceful way to deal with family conflicts Woolen cloth.

Looking at Yuan Fan's face covered in blood, maybe it was because he smashed it himself, but he didn't have the anger and heartache when he hurt himself before. Of course, there may be reasons for his madness, but it's inexplicable, I looked at On his pale and delicate face, there are bright and harsh bloodstains, until the neat and white teeth are stained red by the blood, and they become sexy with sinful wildness. I watched him grinning The look, my heart began to soften, such a good-looking boy is mine.Then I thought about what he had shown before.In his heart, Mo Youqi has always liked the appearance of Mo Xiaoqi dripping with blood, but now I can somewhat understand this beauty.

Yuan Fan seemed to have untied some knot in his heart, and his whole body became brighter, no longer the empty and beautiful smile before, he now has warmth, as if he finally broke free from somewhere , Those white teeth seemed to disdain to hide them any more, he hugged me brightly and acted like a baby.

In the evening, I made a dinner with distinct flavors, one was full of flavor and color, and the other was clear soup with little water. Yuan Fan tilted his head and poked his own dinner with a spoon, raised his eyebrows and looked at me, "I I don't mind eating a bit bland, but Mo Xiaoqi, is it too much for you to eat delicious food in front of me?"

I sneered and sneered, "Eat yours, we can only share the blessings, it is impossible to share the hardships." As soon as I said this, Wan Yuanfan looked pitiful again, and then said And Qiong Yao's words: "You are stabbing my heart with a knife when you say such things. Why did you stab me? I just didn't think enough. Why did you do this to me?"

I have to admit that my uncle felt that the food in front of me became disgusting, and I have to say that sometimes Qiong Yao's body really gives people goose bumps.Seeing my disheveled face, Yuan Fan grinned happily, his shoulders trembling non-stop, then looked at me with those beautiful eyes bent from smiling, took a sip of egg soup, and licked me lustfully. Lick your lips, "Honey, why don't you eat."

I guess no one can resist this kid's mischievous side, so he can only roll his eyes and finish the meal quickly "wash the dishes for me."

While Yuanfan was washing the dishes, I went back to the bedroom and picked up the letter that I hadn't opened. When I opened it, I was surprised and helpless. I can only say that Yuanfan is really sensitive and frightening. I guessed well in my mind, but at the same time, it also made me realize more deeply that I can only hope that Yuanfan will be happy and willing to do some less shady things, but I can't imagine that he will change completely, because I You can only redeem him, not change him.

He was originally born to fight, to bear malice.After all, there are too few cases where the master personality can be obliterated, and what I thought before was simple.

This letter is like this.

【Look, I'm here to write you a letter. You said you wanted me to write a letter, and in a very sad tone, you said you would give me time to make things up. Well, that's what you meant.But Mo Xiaoqi, you won't believe how hard I will try to detect your emotions with every tentacle, not to offend you, but to avoid your unhappiness.

So I thought about it for a while and guessed the benefit of the letter.You feel wronged and want to vent, you are angry that I will perfunctory you every time you quarrel, and let it pass easily, you are angry with yourself, as long as you listen to my explanation, you will never be angry again.So when I write what I want to say in the letter, you can decide for yourself when to read it.

I guess you lose your temper for a long time before you sneak a peek at it when I'm not looking.Or you have read it a long time ago, but you can vent your depression and decide when to forgive me.

But please, Mo Xiaoqi, don't be too slow, I will always lose control of myself.I'm not trying to make this up, I'll explain it carefully.Maybe writing a letter will keep me from missing something.

You're angry that I don't take myself seriously, that I don't care about my body, that I don't care if you feel bad.However, Mo Xiaoqi.I'm used to it, not getting used to being alone, but getting used to this way of controlling my emotions. You know that I'm actually a brutal person, or in other words, I was born to be a tyrannical person.Everyone will encounter a lot of things that don't go well. You probably know what happened to me when I was a child.

I was extremely angry, but I had no way to retaliate. The tyrannical mood and the suppression of my self made me accumulate heavy emotions day after day. At that time, although I hated the feeling of losing control of my body, I still agreed with one thing in my heart. The thing is, that I am later, I was created, and this body of mine belongs to me.So maybe I was thinking a little bit wrong. At that time, I felt that even if I was the one who was in pain, at least I was ruining other people's bodies.So I started self-mutilation, and then I gradually got used to hurting myself when I was angry, which has become a conditioned reflex.

I fell in love with pain sensations during those ten years, they made me feel calm.I feel that I am alive, I will still be in pain, and there will be salvation.Later, when I was gone, I didn't change this habit, not to mention that there were so many annoying things, I couldn't really become a murderer, I still needed to suppress myself.This cognition often makes me a little confused. Sometimes I think that I was born as a fusion of two personalities. I have all the memories of both of them, but this kind of suppressing behavior scares me and makes me feel that I still exist.So I haven't been able to take a good look at my body.

I have been alone for too long, I am slowly getting used to using others to achieve my own goals, but not relying on it, I know this is where you feel sad, you are a god to me, you understand the nature of gods ,Right?I haven't completely changed my rigid thinking, I always regard you as a warm god, this god will not love me all the time, but I can take the initiative to find him for comfort.Can you see the difference?Mo Xiaoqi.I'm not used to love that I can get without asking, without fighting for it.

I don't get along with others too much, I don't understand a lot of things to be honest, I know how to read people's hearts and make them work for me, but I don't know what to do when they are sad, in fact I don't care if other people are sad want to commit suicide.But Mo Xiaoqi, I also won't make you happy, I really want to do it, I instinctively protect you, but I don't know how to take care of your mood.

I'm used to self-harm, love pain, self-doubt so I don't care about my body and don't see anything wrong in hurting it to get what I want.But I know it's wrong, and I don't want you to be unhappy about it.So, you can teach me, right?

Are you still willing to treat me?doctor. 】