Cannot breathe in

"Senior Mafu, are you ready? The show starts in 10 minutes!" Junior Luz knocked on the door and entered the preparation room, "I'm coming in."

Mafu sat on the sofa, looking at the sheet music on his lap, "Well, there's nothing wrong with it."

"Isn't it a problem for the senior to perform alone?" Luz heard Tianyue said about mafu's communication barrier before, and indeed this senior has never performed alone. "Didn't Soraru-san initiate a chorus invitation, why did you refuse? You were still together at the time Let's rehearse for a while."

Mafu stood up, and the already delicate facial features made people dare not look at him even more after the schoolgirl's attention.He smiled, as gentle as the brown halo reflected by beeswax, soft but beautiful, "Because I want to sing to a person the song I want to sing to him."

A month ago, he knew that the second personality he had always thought of in his body was actually the akatin he had been thinking about day and night.

The moment he knew this, he obviously felt his heart twitch, and he was so excited that he was about to die.

I really want to express my thoughts to Akatin in person, I want to hug and kiss him, I want to talk to him a lot that I never had the chance to say before.

He wrote a long letter, using three full pages of manuscript paper.

He just held the draft paper so tightly, looking forward to the arrival of the powerless feeling that he hated before, looking forward to the arrival of Akatin.

Sitting on the sofa, watching the sky change from bright blue to dark blue to pitch black, from pitch black to titanium white to dazzling morning glow, the postures have also changed countless ways.

But he didn't feel even the slightest bit sleepy.

This is the first day, the second day, the third day... A week has passed, and akatin still hasn't appeared.

I called Ms. Reiko, and the answer was that the medicine may have completely suppressed akatin.

So will he show up again?

Probably not.

After receiving such an answer, Mafu sat quietly on the bed for a long time, then got out of bed decisively, put on his clothes and set off for the hospital.

It's been a long time since I took care of Tin-san.

It would be very lonely to just fall asleep like that.

It's okay, I'll watch over you.

The city in April is full of the breath of life sprouting. Mafu’s itinerary began to be fixed. Every morning, he brought a bouquet of the best kapok from the flower shop and put it in a vase in the ward to make a good morning for akatin. The nurse and Akatin's mother took over shifts to go to school, and went straight to the hospital after school in the afternoon, opened the notebook in the afternoon sunshine of spring, looked at the person on the hospital bed, and wrote down his love for him in his heart.

It seems that a quiet place is really easy for people to burst out their creative desires, and Mafu's new song was born in this wonderful atmosphere.

Subconsciously, he made up this piece of music very gently, as if he wanted to show his heart to that person.

So naturally, the part of the lyrics was completed smoothly. As long as Mafu looks at that person's face, the inspiration will come to the fore continuously, and he can't stop it.

Luz watched Mafu walk out of the preparation room, picked up the music score and looked at it.

Ah, it's really full of love, and you can feel the composer's full of affection when you listen to the melody.

It will definitely be very popular, Mafu-senpai.

The process of making this song was smoother than Mafu himself could have imagined.

The next day after school, Mafu went to the music theory classroom on the second floor and saw Soraru who was playing the piano.

"Soraru-san..." Mafu who was standing at the door whispered.

Soraru stopped playing and turned to look at mafu, "You understand now?"

"What is most important to you?"

"Who is it that you can't let go of?"

"What kind of feelings do you dare not face up to?"

The music theory classroom is still as bright as before. Cherry blossoms blooming in spring come in through the window sills that bloom in a line, driving the soft gauze curtains and the youthful blue hair.

"Yes," Mafu looked at the senior whom he thought he had fallen in love with, and then bowed deeply.

"I'm sorry, Soraru-san, I can't participate in the performance at the end of the month. I'm really ashamed for breaking my promise. I will try my best to make it up to Soraru-san in the future!"

"...What kind of work did you make, can you play it for me first?"

Mafu looked at Soraru who was smiling lightly, and after being stunned, he smiled back, "Okay."

He hadn't played the piano for a long time, and he was a little at a loss when he touched the piano, but he quickly found the feeling, and started to play according to the score in his head.

It should be said that the moment you start playing, you start singing.

"风吹けば梦のまにまに

line kuwan no nai servant wa song

Dream Flower Fire Empty No Other Sideへ

......"

【When the wind blows with the dream

without purpose i sing

The fireworks in the dream are facing the side of the sky]

The prelude started, and the sound of mafu became more ethereal in the dusk sky.

Because the second-year popular king Mafu and the third-year popular male god Soraru were included in this month-end chorus, the venue was almost full, and the boys and girls shouted the names they sang.

The moment mafu appeared on the stage, the venue seemed to be boiling.

It's really strange, I usually feel very nervous when I see so many people and sing in front of so many people.

But today, there is no sense of nervous trembling at all. Instead, the feelings of nostalgia and admiration are even more surging.

"ずっとずっと梦を见ていた

やっとやっと君を见つけた

two people walk

君の写真を抱いて一人きりねむる

......"

【Always have a sweet dream

finally finally found you

Why does the trail where the two walked together feel so wide at this moment

Falling asleep alone with your photo in my arms]

The sound of the piano echoed in the spacious music theory classroom, and the boy's wine-red eyes were full of nostalgia.

The ten fingers danced and staggered on the keys, as if all the thoughts of this age were mixed.

Just think that I am sleeping in a dream, dreaming endlessly alone, and found you with a sunny breath.

Soraru leaned on the left side of the piano, tilted his head as if falling asleep, and let the notes flow into his cochlea.

"风吹けば梦のまにまに

line kuwan no nai servant wa song

jun は this ukiyo no zhong de

laughing tekuremasuka

......"

【When the wind blows with the dream

without purpose i sing

you are in the floating world

Are you still laughing?

...]

The crowd slowly became quiet, listening to the beautiful singing of the white-haired boy on the stage.

Remember your first love?

It's that kind of desperate encounter, the sweet and sour feeling of sticking together.

Mafu thought so.

"ずっとずっと君を捜して

やっとやっと君を见つけた

Summer's night niwa yukata

またねと远す手の远がが无限になる

......"

【Always looking for you

finally finally found you

On a summer night wearing yukatas and having fun together on the way home

Saying goodbye, the distance between the separated hands becomes infinite]

Already in a trance, I don't know where I am.

Is it the warm atmosphere of the music theory classroom shrouded in transparent spring colors, and the senior I have been longing for?

Is it immersed in the rainbow lights at night, under the spotlight with the intoxicating atmosphere, and those boys and girls who yearn for themselves?

neither.

I'm only in your heart, tin.

Tell you my most sincere and original words.

"君が好き君けけが好き

indeed

Dream Flower Fire Empty No Other Sideへ

消えていくのですか

......"

【I like you I only like you

Witness each other these days have been

Like fireworks in a dream towards the end of the sky

Has it disappeared?】

I like you.

I only like you.

The students sitting in the front row had already seen the tears rolling down from the eyes of the seniors on the stage.

But mafu's singing voice has not been affected at all, and now there is nothing to stop him from speaking his mind.

If this voice can pass through time, please convey it for me.

"ねえねえ

ずっと君のこと

......"

[na, na

I have always been to you...]

"君が好き君けけが好き

indeed

dream flower fire servant wo can shite

消えていくのですか

......"

【I like you I only like you

Witness each other these days have been

Fireworks like a dream leave me alone

Has it disappeared?】

It seemed that time really became a vacuum because of the message for him, Soraru's closed eyes overlapped with the bright fluorescent sticks of the boys and girls in the audience.

Tin, can you hear me?

"ねえねえ..."

【Nah, nah...】

I've always felt this way about you.

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The performance was successful, but it wasn't until mafu left that other people noticed that he was already in tears.

Because he deliberately didn't want to show it just now, Mafu is a little out of breath even breathing.

Because the opening song was so shocking that the students were completely immersed in the slightly bleak atmosphere of first love, and even Soraru didn't have the expected warm atmosphere when he came on stage.

Now this song by mafu is really popular in the whole school, no matter it is on the campus BBS or the official website, it has been swiped by 【Mirror See Lost Spirit P's new work】.

I sang cover songs one after another, but none of them worked as well as the one performed by mafu at the end of the month.

But mafu didn't intend to publish this song at all.

"If I wait for that person, I will sing this song with him, but not now." This is mafu's reply.

Whet people's appetites.

And now mafu has completely left these things behind.

"You knew it before?" Mafu looked at the kapoks blooming on the window sill, summer is coming soon.

Koge put the bento bag on the table. "Before you know it anyway."

Mafu turned to look at him.

"I was really angry with you before, Mafumafu-senpai." Koge lowered his head, "You don't even know how sad Tin was at that time. I have known him for so long and I have never seen him so sad."

"Sorry……"

"But then you came to take care of Tin which really surprised me. I thought you deliberately alienated him at that time."

"Koge-san, with all due respect..."

"Later he told me that you confessed your love to him. It was obvious that you already fell in love with you, but in fact, you were already in love with you before." Koge ignored him and continued talking on his own

"Koge-san!" Mafu forcefully interrupted him, "Do you also have longing for tin...?"

For a moment, it seemed to be completely still, only the dust in the sun was dancing.

After a while, Koge smiled.

"Yes."

"I've known tin since middle school in our country. He was like a little sun at that time, he kept moving, laughing and singing. Everyone couldn't help being attracted to him."

"I was thinking, if I can make friends with such a person, I might never be lonely. Later, he took the initiative to talk to me."

"Actually, I've always wanted to tell Senior Mafu, don't let the person who likes you be sad, because this is something that no one else can envy."

"Please cherish it, everything you do is because he likes you."

After Koge finished speaking, he said softly "Excuse me" this way, and then walked out of the ward.

Akatin lay there quietly on the hospital bed, the pacemaker beeping alone.

Mafu turned around, went to sit next to Akatin, and gently stroked his smooth cheek, "Look, you are so popular, I have to be a little bit crisis-conscious."

Flicking the bangs that fell on his cheeks, Mafu rested his head on his body.

"Wake up quickly, don't make me wait too long."

In fact, if you don’t measure it carefully, time passes quickly, just like Tianyue who always yawns in Chinese class, and complains that there is not enough time, and has not yet enjoyed the feeling of youth. High school seems to have passed by in a flash.

Mafu changed the woolen trench coat into a sweater and then a short-sleeved T-shirt, and then changed into a sweater and a woolen trench coat.

He originally thought that Akatin would wake up in spring, spring is a season of vitality, as if all hopes are slowly stacking up like mushrooms under the windowsill.

But akatin didn't.

He originally thought that akatin would wake up in summer, summer is the most suitable season for akatin, it is fiery and flamboyant but not too much.

But akatin didn't.

When autumn came, Mafu was used to looking at the people on the bed in a daze every day in the hospital.

"What should I do, Tin, what gift do you want for your birthday next week?" Mafu asked the sleeping Akatin, knowing that he would not answer, he continued on his own, "How about a super luxurious fishing rod? "

"A cute dog toy?"

"A super long rubber band?"

Amused by the idea that he was getting further and further away, Mafu reached out and rubbed Akatin's bangs, "In short, my gift will not disappoint Tin."

"So Tin, as a gift in return, I want you to wake up and say thank you to me personally."

Mafu worked incredibly efficiently and was fully produced when it first came out in September.

"Listen to me," Tianyue brazenly hugged Mafu's arm when school was over, "Ah, ah, you're really stingy."

After gently rejecting the crying Tianyue, Mafu picked up his backpack and waved to the masked boy, "Then I'll go first, Lyrics-san, please take care of this."

"Understood." The masked boy also waved his hand and said goodbye, and grabbed Tianyue by the way, "Okay, okay, Tianyue, let's eat pudding!"

Mafu knocked lightly on the door when he entered, "I'm coming in."

No one answered.

He walked in with a nonchalant smile, and Mafu started his daily homework, helping Akatin with nursing care to prevent muscle atrophy caused by prolonged inactivity, and then began to review his homework on the side table.

Time passed gradually, and the sky became completely dark when I didn't pay attention, and only a faint light source of cool color could be seen outside the window.

I looked at the time, 23:16.

Mafu turned on the laptop, "Tomorrow is Tin's birthday, I will be the first person to give you a gift."

"Don't worry, I'll give it to you right away when the clock strikes zero." After Mafu set the alarm clock, he turned around and looked at Akatin.

His condition is much better than that of the previous few months, and there is no need for tubes of various sizes to be inserted into his body, because the doctor said that he can breathe on his own.

This means that it will develop in a good direction.

Thinking about my various entanglements in the past few months, and even deliberately alienating and turning a blind eye, now it seems that it is really extravagant.

If only time could be turned back...

If akatin can wake up...

If only I could hug him...

The sound of the alarm clock interrupted his thoughts, 23:56. Mafu began to frantically search for files on the computer and put them in the player.

When all this was done, it was exactly midnight.

"So, Tin, happy birthday."

The song that slowly flowed out of the player was the one he sang during the performance at the end of the month, and he named it—Dream Fireworks.

You are like the fireworks passing by in my long dream.

The first sentence is Mafu's voice, soft and steady, really responding to that slightly beautiful name, it is very heartbreaking.

But as soon as the second sentence comes out, it may surprise people who have heard the live version.

It's a slightly stiff and distorted voice, but it's clearly akatin's voice.

"Not bad? I adopted Tianyue's suggestion, used the method of a virtual singer, and collected tin's voice. Although there are some flaws, it's still great overall, right?"

The chorus that has been promised has never really been realized.

Then come to a chance that belongs to us.

The voices of Mafu and Akatin are still singing love sentences softly.

"风吹けば梦のまにまに

line kuwan no nai servant wa song

jun は this ukiyo no zhong de

laughing tekuremasuka

......"

【When the wind blows with the dream

without purpose i sing

you are in the floating world

Are you still laughing?

...]

"Tin, if I confess my love to you now, can you... open your eyes and look at me...?" Mafu was still smiling, but he clearly felt the soreness of his eyes when he raised his head, and the surrounding of the desk lamp. A circle of blurred light "You don't speak... I'll take it as your acquiescence."

"君が好き君けけが好き

......"

【I like you, I only like you】

"akatin-san, I like you."

Mafu's voice in the music really seems to have melted the 17-year relationship into it, like chocolate with sweet milk balls, as long as you smell it, you will be filled with sweetness.

Mafu, who was sitting by the bed, burst into tears when he said this.

"I...I confessed my confession...tin...it's okay...you have to wake up..." Mafu grabbed Akatin's hand and saw his own tears falling on it, "I...okay Miss you……"

"重かめ合えたあの日はもう

dream flower fire servant wo can shite

消えていくのですか

......"

[Witnessed each other these days have been

Fireworks like a dream leave me alone

Has it disappeared?】

Akatin was still lying on the bed, motionless.

Mafu's tears also gradually stopped falling.

until the end of the song.

"That's right." Mafu still held Akatin's hand, and his palm seemed to be dripping with sweat.With the remaining hand, he wiped away the tears sticking to his lower eyelashes, "It's okay, I'll always wait for you...?!"

Not sure if it was an illusion, but he felt akatin's fingers twitch.

Mafu was completely blank for a moment until Akatin's hand moved again.

what.

Mafu laughed through his tears and quickly rang the emergency bell next to Akatin's bed.

"doctor!"

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