difficult love

The night light slightly illuminated Tan Yixing's cheeks. Xie Mingjiang set his eyes on his face in this not-so-complete darkness. For the first time, he looked at it carefully with a hint of probing. Those words that Tan Yixing said flashed.He seldom speculates about other people's intentions from the emotional aspect, but he himself cannot deny that, although the overture is soft, it is still a kind of force, and he cannot remain indifferent when he is influenced.

Xie Mingjiang finally fixed his eyes on Tan Yixing's eye sockets, looked at them for a while, and found that his eyelids were twitching in pain, his eyelashes were shaking, and he slowly shrunk into a ball, intending to bend into a big shrimp, so he stretched out his hand to block it, Straightening his shoulders, he gently put his outstretched arm back under the quilt.

The 17-year-old Tan Yixing feels immature. Xie Mingjiang remembered that he had fully grown into an adult who could take care of himself at that time. He lost his mother that year and was involved in the battle between Mo Jinghang and Jingu Temple In the process, he injured Mo Jingxiao's leg, and somehow saved Tan Yixing's life.

In the end, Tan Yixing is also an unlucky child. He has no father or mother just like himself, but he seems to have never taken responsibility.

Xie Mingjiang looked at him harshly, but there was a faint softening in his eyes. He knew in his heart that although he was naughty and noisy, he was definitely not annoying. I didn't know that he had such a defenseless, carefree, and muddle-headed character. How will I live in the future.

Fortunately, such thoughts did not stay in Xie Mingjiang's mind for a long time. He turned from cranky to drowsy, and planned to take out the porridge. Tan Yixing woke up and stopped Xie Mingjiang when he just walked to the door. ——

"Xie Mingjiang."

Xie Mingjiang turned his head and saw that he had already sat up with support: "Xie Mingjiang, what time is it?"

Xie Mingjiang looked down at his watch: "It's past nine o'clock. Are you hungry? Get some hot porridge for you."

It only took a few minutes for the porridge to heat up, Xie Mingjiang Duan came in and found it was too hot, Tan Yixing couldn't hold it at all: "Why don't you get up and drink?"

Tan Yixing didn't want to move very much, so he said lazily: "I'm a one-eyed man now, and one eye has trouble seeing, will I drink it up my nose?"

Nonsense, what a one-eyed dragon.Xie Mingjiang really convinced him, and said angrily: "I think it doesn't affect your operation when you play with your mobile phone."

But while talking, he sat down on the edge of the bed again: "Sit down, I'll feed you."

Tan Yixing turned up immediately, Xie Mingjiang turned on the desk lamp, put on insulated gloves, watched him blowing and drinking in small sips, and felt that he was extraordinarily like an old woman, Tan Yixing was drinking and drinking, blindfolded by the fog, and pushed Xie Mingjiang away hand: "Don't drink."

Xie Mingjiang heard his voice hoarse: "Why, is it hot?" He took a spoon and sipped his mouth: "It's okay, it's not hot. Your stomach is not small, why are you like a little bird now, just eat this little no."

Tan Yixing's eyes were tearful again, and he said in a rough voice, "I want to take Fenbid, my eyes hurt."

In fact, not only did his eyes hurt, but he was also sad in his heart. Xie Mingjiang would be glaring as usual, mocking himself with words. Now that he is so gentle, isn't it feeding candied stones, which is unbearable.

Xie Mingjiang put down the bowl and frowned slightly: "You are also a young man, why are you so delicate."

"Don't you know that people are very hypocritical at night? I don't care if it hurts. Take it quickly. I want to take Fenbid."

Xie Mingjiang stared at him speechlessly, his eyes were covered with gauze, his hair was messed up, his eyelashes were sticky with tears, this kid was used to being handsome, he didn't look in the mirror, he didn't know how ugly he was now, and Here I feel very soft and beautiful, pretending to be a suit and holding my heart.

He stood up, put down the porridge, and immediately brought in Fenbid according to the instructions. Tan Yixing did not get better after taking it. The pain in his eyes completely shifted to his heart. When can I find my mother, help me find it quickly, I want to live with my mother."

Xie Mingjiang lowered his head to pack the medicine box, listening to his request from the left to the right, he was suppressing his anger, when he heard this, he paused his hands, and said unnaturally: "I'm looking for it, it takes time to find someone."

Tan Yixing was so busy complaining about himself that he didn't have time to notice Xie Mingjiang's expression: "If it takes time, it will be several months."

"Satou, Yamashita and the others have great powers. They have been searching for so many years, but they haven't found it yet? Even if I have a clue, I have to follow the clues."

"Did you not look for it seriously?" Tan Yixing asked suspiciously, but before Xie Mingjiang got really nervous, he immediately overturned his conclusion, "Oh, no, you will not look for it seriously, you wish I could hurry up Reunited with my mother."

The more he talked, the more depressed he looked, and he said dejectedly: "After all, you just 'don't hate' me."

Teenagers are full of emotions, and they can howl for little things. Although there are some fluctuations in his heart, Xie Mingjiang maintains a deadpan expression. Watching Tan Yixing, he feels that he can sing a play by himself.But the instigator of this "tragedy" was himself, Xie Mingjiang couldn't say anything nice, even if it was a lie, he couldn't say some sweet words to appease others, put down the medicine box, and patted Tan Yixing's head.

Tan Yixing wanted to get rid of him, and wanted to maintain the status quo, so he asked the doubt in his heart: "That Zhou Zhuo, what do you like about him?"

Xie Mingjiang took his hand down, and although he didn't speak, his face darkened at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Tan Yixing: "Because he's handsome? Because he's young? It's not because he doesn't look at you right, then you have to—"

He was bluffing, and suddenly shut up, as if he was also embarrassed.

In the past, Xie Mingjiang might not have had a deep talk with him, so he got up and made excuses to leave, but at this time, Xie Mingjiang felt that he couldn't find such a suitable time to leave, so he said, "Not at all."

"why?"

Yeah, why is that?Xie Mingjiang also asked himself this question.

In fact, I didn't want to love him, but when I came back to my senses, I was already deeply involved.

Xie Mingjiang was depressed for a while, and said: "When I saw him the first time, I felt it very much. He made me very protective."

"Then did you protect him?"

Xie Mingjiang lowered his eyes, the brilliance in his eyes completely disappeared: "No, I hurt him."

On the day I met Zhou Zhuo at the bar, Zhou Zhuo was actually not alone, but with an old friend of Xie Mingjiang. The business in the city is getting bigger and bigger, and the circle of acquaintances is getting bigger and bigger. It is not surprising to meet acquaintances.

But Xie Mingjiang was still a little surprised, because it was Lu Shan who was with Zhou Zhuo. He knew that Lu Zhenglian's son was handsome and well-known, and he had a good reputation outside. Xie Mingjiang didn't know that he would go to bars and nightclubs. place to play.

Their behavior was ambiguous, obviously in a state of reluctance to talk, Xie Mingjiang felt that Lu Shan had a good eye.

Because he also likes Zhou Zhuo, the young man is very charming, which makes him feel calm and impetuous at the same time.

Xie Mingjiang was not in such a ready-to-move state. He immediately decided that this person would have to play anyway, and it shouldn't be difficult. After all, he also sold it, and he bought it himself. Why didn't he just sell it to Lu Shan?

So Xie Mingjiang took Zhou Zhuo's opportunity to repay him and took him home, but Zhou Zhuo resisted very much. Xie Mingjiang didn't understand the essential difference between Lu Shan and himself. Shan Qiang, Lu Shan still needs money from Lu Zhenglian, how much can he give Zhou Zhuo, and how long can he give Zhou Zhuo?I have everything.

Those who come out to sell are still picking their noses and eyes on the buyers?He can't be ignorant of flattery.

So Xie Mingjiang ignored his resistance and watched him drink the wine he had prepared. He felt that although all this was forced, it was not unexpected. From the carpet to the bed, Zhou Zhuo was very fierce and vowed to die. He was irritable at first, then devoted, and then regretted.

It turned out that this was Zhou Zhuo's first time, he was not a seller, but an ordinary bartender, Xie Mingjiang felt guilty, but his body and mind were separated, and the inner annoyance did not cause any real hindrance to his lower body.Zhou Zhuo begged, hit, and kicked him again, but in the end he didn't give any response, just lay there softly, very quietly,

Xie Mingjiang fell into a great panic and fear, and did not fall asleep that night.Early the next morning, he asked Baihui to bring the medicine. Xie Mingjiang wanted to hire a doctor for him, but he couldn't think of anyone he knew who was particularly suitable. Look at the psychological Li Zhaocheng.

He made a mistake and wanted to make up for it. Zhou Zhuo was very poor. He was so poor that he had been imprisoned because of his bravery. He didn't go to college and couldn't find a decent job.Xie Mingjiang decided to raise him, at least for a short period of time, at least let him recover before leaving.

But Zhou Zhuo obviously didn't give him this chance to make amends, he always wanted to run away, behind Xie Mingjiang's back, and fell in love with Lu Shan.

What can Lu Shan give him?Lu Shan may be a good partner for a brief relationship, but he is immature and has a family burden. Why is Zhou Zhuo so stubborn? Why is he the only one?

Xie Mingjiang thought he was stupid, maybe people who fall in love are so stupid, but he didn't get this epiphany from Zhou Zhuo, but after Zhou Zhuo left, he realized it himself.

In fact, the scenery in the villa in the middle of the mountain is very good, Xie Mingjiang likes to live there, even if it takes more time to get to the company, but one day after Zhou Zhuo left, Xie Mingjiang found that he could never go back.Because the room is full of traces of his life, everything he has done for him, and the self who waited there foolishly, knowing that he would not come back, but Zhou Zhuo didn't need it anymore, and discarded it as garbage.

Xie Mingjiang withdrew from Tan Yixing's timely silence and walked outside the room, feeling that such complicated things flashed through his mind in a flash, and they could be presented in fragments or coherent ways at any time, perhaps because they had never been seen before. Xie Mingjiang really forgot about it, and arrived as scheduled when he was numb and gave up.

Xie Mingjiang didn't just hate Tan Yixing, but he felt that he was unworthy, incapable, and lacked the energy to love another person.

Love has the same heaviness as sweetness. It is not holding hands on campus and kissing before returning home from school.Tan Yixing wants to like, he is not stingy and refuses to give, even in this short half a year, how can he make such a man who is about to grow up and yearn for love happy?Xie Mingjiang didn't know how to give it.