Before AD [Babylonian Favorites]

The rain was between us, covering each other's faces like a thick curtain.Seleucus didn't wear any armor, and only a thin robe was attached to his body, which vaguely revealed graceful muscle lines.

I really wanted to roll my eyes at him, but I held back: "No, I'm going to fetch water."

He nodded, but still stood there: "Alexander, how are you doing recently?"

"Your Majesty is recovering well."

"Yes. What about you?"

I was taken aback: "Me? I'm fine too... I've always been fine."

He said, "That's good."

I was speechless for a moment.The hot and stuffy rain was really uncomfortable, so I smiled at him: "The weather is so bad, what is Lord Seleucus doing outside?"

"Nothing, come out for a walk. It's too hot in the camp."

"The seasons have changed recently, and the plague is spreading. You should be careful when you come out, so as not to catch the flu." I said casually.

Seleucus frowned. "What is flu?"

I accidentally made a slip of the tongue, I waved my hand and said, "It's just a cold."

"Thank you, be careful too." He stretched his brows and smiled at me.After a pause, he continued: "By the way, did Alexander mention the next attack plan recently?"

I remembered the river he pointed out on the map just now, hesitated for a moment, but shook my head: "Military matters, His Majesty seldom mentions to me. Is there anything you want?"

"No, I'll ask him again." Seleucus thought for a while and replied lightly.

Now Seleucus no longer flirts with me as lightly as before, or drags me to escape in a moment of excitement.He looked at me, with alienation and indifference in the knife-like lines on his face, and he felt far away from me even when he smiled.The two of us were polite for a long time like two strangers, but neither of us wanted to leave first.

"How long will this rain last?" He spread out his palms and let the raindrops sprinkle on them, muttering in a low voice.

I couldn't guess what he was thinking, and would rather have the cheek to assume it might have something to do with me.After all, he once told me he liked it persistently.If that were the case, then my motives for delaying my departure would look very poor by comparison.Because I was thinking all over my head, this guy in front of me is obviously not that bad, and even a little bit cute. He was obviously very tired of politics in the past, how could he change suddenly and become one of the eaters of the Alexander Empire Woolen cloth?

He suddenly looked up at me again.Looking at it, the eyes are a little erratic, not like looking at me again, but through me, I don't know where to see the depths of memory.

As for me, sometimes just looking at him like this, I will feel a terrible impulse in my heart, almost prompting me to grab his collar and throw all the doubts in my heart to him, I have to get an answer that satisfies me.

Reason finally let me go.

I called him out of my trance: "Lord Seleucid."

"what?"

"I want to ask you something offensively. Zeus witnessed it in the rain. I hope you can answer me truthfully."

Seleucus stroked his blond hair, closed his eyes and said, "Is it about Alexander?"

"...Sorry." He actually guessed it.

"There's nothing to be sorry about," he said, not as angry as before, his eyelashes wet with raindrops. "You are his attendant, it's normal for you to care about him."

"You once said that you were jealous of him, so, have you ever hated him? Hate to the point of wanting to kill him at all costs..."

Surprisingly, I didn't see any trace of surprise on Seleucus's face.He stood there leaning against a tall rubber tree, his golden bangs stuck to his eyelids, and water droplets kept falling.For some reason, it made me see a sense of despair.

For a moment, I thought I was completely wrong.

Alexander's light is so dazzling that most people around him will be overshadowed.I don't think I've ever looked closely at this young man about Alexander's age. I've always been guessing him in my own imagination, never really thinking about his thoughts at all.

Seleucus suddenly said: "That's right, I envy him, I also hate him, I even hate him, because from childhood to adulthood, he is the only one who is different in everyone's eyes."

He straightened up: "I admit his greatness, but his greatness doesn't mean that I'm a waste."

I didn't understand him for a moment.

He looked at me again, and laughed slowly: "Bagos, why don't you understand. Your Majesty, and I, we are all the same people. This world is not made up of Alexander and 'others. made up of people."

I suddenly realized, opened my mouth, and wanted to say a few words to defend myself or comfort him, but I lost my voice.What came to my mind overwhelmingly was all the many things Seleucus had said to me and done.Only then did I realize that I, like many others, had planted a poisonous seed deep in the hearts of people like Seleucus who lived in the shadows.It will sprout quietly, it will grow, and it will slowly crawl out of a heart with curved tentacles, and finally deliver the venom to others.

But now I am secretly glad that even now, Seleucus is willing to tell me what he thinks in his heart.

"Thank you for telling me this." I said ashamedly, "Master Seleucus... No, Seleucus, I met you again today."

"Don't thank me. These are all voluntary and the result of my own doing. But Bagoss, do you remember what you were doing when I first met you?"

This is the first time that Seleucus talked to me so seriously, without ridicule, without frivolity, talking about the past, just like looking at a feather floating in the air, his tone is full of cherishment and tenderness, but he doesn’t mind its departure. I am getting further and further away.

"I'm..." I thought for a while, and clenched my fists in pain, "I'll ask you to find a medical officer, I want to save Nexi."

"You still threatened me with a fragment of a vase against my neck." Seleucus raised the corners of his mouth and looked at me sideways. The royal blue earrings were like a drop of rain that would never fall.

He walked over slowly, pulled my fist over, and wrapped it with two slender but water-stained hands: "At that time, I thought, if one day, someone is willing to do everything for me Some things are fine. Then for this person, I am willing to learn to do this. Although this kind of thing is unreasonable, it makes people feel very happy."

Seleucus' voice is warm and cool, like a glass of ice water, which is so rare in such a sweltering weather.These slender green eyes were sparkling with water in them.He slowly opened my fingers one by one, and then covered his entire palm.

"Bagoss, I just discovered that when I grow up so old, I can learn things by myself without a teacher. In addition to sex, there is one more thing."

"Really." I slightly raised my head to look at him, and the rain kept falling into my eyes.

He said: "I have been looking forward to the day when I can face you calmly like this, and say everything I want to say without any scruples. Then today is here."

The rain made him barely open his eyes. He held my hand tightly, squeezed it hard, and then let go: "It's really interesting. I have finally learned something that Venus never taught me. But, to leave That's it, Bagoas."

I didn't dare to speak, for fear that my voice would be uncontrollable, and a trace of sobs would leak out.

I want to grab him and take another look at him, so that I can remember him.Like most people, I cruelly thought of him as "the other," but he was never the other, he was just one, a unique, different Seleucus.But I know that it is impossible for me to say anything more to him.I know how he feels, empatheticly.

"I will not have any trouble with Alexander, I will not kill him, and I will not participate in any such thing, I promise you. So, you must live well." Seleucus's voice came through the sound of rain Passed on and off.

"Goodbye, Seleucus," I said loudly.

With his back turned to me, he waved his hand nonchalantly: "Goodbye, Bagoss."