Too late to say I love you

After another lifeless dinner, Jing Wan took the two children back to the room to get ready for bed.

"Mom, why is grandpa always so dark? As soon as we called him, he picked up the newspaper and didn't talk to us." Ruirui asked her mother in frustration.

"Yes, we can't coax him. What should we do, mother?" Yue Yue also asked.

"Mom, let's not live here, let's go back to our own home, okay? I miss Niu Niu so much." Rui Rui begged again.

"Yes, yes, shall we go back to our own home? Mom?" Yue Yue also echoed.

Jing Wan was so exhausted during the day that she had no time to deal with the child, so she sat on the bed without saying a word.

"Mom, what if grandpa insists on letting that uncle with glasses be our father? Mom! Mom!" Yue Yue shook Jing Wan desperately.

Only then did Jing Wan come back to her senses.Yes, Dad has always been so stubborn, what if he persists?I made up my mind and firmly disagreed.But if this continues, Dad will definitely never wait to see the two children.What are they going to do?They are still so young, do they have to follow themselves to bear the mistakes of the past?Do you have to watch grandpa's indifference, grandpa and grandma's quarrel and mother's tears every day?She vowed to spend the rest of her life repenting in front of her parents to make up for her mistakes, but children should have a happy living environment, shouldn't they?Thinking of this, tears flowed out again.

"Mom, don't cry, don't cry." Yueyue hurriedly climbed onto her mother's lap and reached out to help her wipe her tears.

Jing Wan hugged her, then stretched out her arms to embrace Rui Rui, hugging them and rocking on the bed.

A thought suddenly popped up in her mind, and she was surprised that she would have such an idea!She closed her eyes tightly, not wanting to let this idea continue to expand, but it became clearer and clearer!She simply closed her eyes completely and rocked the two children rhythmically, while the two children in her arms opened their eyes wide and quietly and seriously enjoyed their all-time favorite program.

The room was quiet, but in the space of thoughts, there were two Yin Jingwans fighting fiercely!One is reminding her to stick to what she has always insisted on; the other is persuading her to give up something that should be given up now.Gradually, the latter seemed to gain the upper hand, and began to have some factual basis to support her theory.Is life inherently impermanent and contradictory?For example, she and Pei Lin, when she ran towards him back then, there was only one reason, love is paramount, and secular marriage was regarded as worthless by her.But when she was about to break up with him, her eyes were full of the words of expediency and no engagement, and she despised all his explanations and rhetoric about loving her!For example, with her child, she once thought it was the biggest mistake and she had to end it, but when they were born, she thought it was the most beautiful thing in the world, and it was the greatest gift from God to her!For example, her home used to be so happy and harmonious. Who would have thought that it would be like this now?For example, she and her father, how much her father doted on her and was proud of her. She was even the nemesis of her father's stubborn character, and she can resolve it by being rude.But now?Her father was so indifferent to her, and she stood in front of her father, and she was only cowardly and justified!Perhaps, from the moment she ran away from marriage, she was destined to never be a spoiled daughter in front of her father again.And maybe, from the moment she decided to go home to ask her parents for forgiveness and become a filial daughter, she was doomed to give up some of what she originally insisted on...

She thought for too long, and kept her eyes closed, so that the children thought she was asleep, and they all stretched out their hands to rub her face: "Mom, mom, are you asleep?"

The children's voices woke her up even more!Some things are given up, maybe they will still be hers in the future; but once some things are given up, she may never get them back!

She slowly opened her eyes, smiled at the two children, and then slowly said: "Ruirui, Yueyue, you like uncles in military uniforms, don't you?"

"Hmm!" The two little guys said in unison.

"Then you want him to be your father?"

"Hmm!" Again in unison.

"Then mom will tell you a secret, okay?"

"it is good!"

"The uncle in military uniform is your real father."

"Really?" "Really?" The two little guys rushed to ask.

"Yes. How could Mom lie to you?"

"Then, why didn't mom tell us when uncle came to our house?" Ruirui asked suspiciously.

"Uncle said, no, it was dad who said that he wanted to give you a surprise, so he didn't let mom tell you. How about mom taking you to see dad tomorrow?"

"Okay, okay! Great! Great! We can go to find Dad tomorrow!" The two little guys broke free from her arms and jumped up on the bed.

"Okay, okay, don't make trouble, tonight, you have a good night's sleep. Mom will take you to find dad tomorrow."

The two children just got the good news that their favorite uncle is their own father, and they were so excited, how could it be so easy to fall asleep?After making a fuss for a long time, she got into bed under the constant urging of Jing Wan.

After Jing Wan saw that the two children were fast asleep, she got up and came to the accounting room, and picked up the phone.

Third Miss arrived at the door of Yin's house in the afternoon of the next day. Before getting out of the car, she saw Jing Wan standing at the door with a little boy and a little girl.The fourth brother was right, Jing Wan was still so beautiful, with a mature and stable beauty added to her strong and independent beauty.

Before the car stopped in time, Miss San ran out of the car and rushed towards Jing Wan.

"Jing Wan, is that really you?"

"Third Sister!" Jing Wan choked up in an instant.

The two hugged for a moment, then separated in a hurry.

The third lady looked at the two children tenderly and lovingly, and stretched out her arms to hug her: "Is it Ruirui and Yueyue? I really miss my aunt."

Jing Wan also gently stroked the heads of the two little guys: "Ruirui, Yueyue, quickly call aunt."

"Hello, Auntie!" "Hello, Auntie!" The little guys shouted one after another.

"Ruirui Yueyue is so good!"

"Mom, is that Dad's car?" Rui Rui raised her head and asked Jing Wan.

"That's right, Dad asked aunt to pick you up." Jing Wan replied sharply, and then said to Miss San, "Sister San, let's talk about it in another place."

"okay."

The two carried one into Miss San's car, went to a teahouse and reserved a private room and sat down.

"Third sister, did you tell Pei Lin?"

"Don't worry, I completely followed your orders and didn't reveal anything to Pei Lin. What do you mean? Let me take the child away? What about you? You won't come with us?"

Jing Wan shook her head: "No, I want to stay here with my parents."

"Jing Wan, Pei Lin will definitely divorce Jinzhi. When that time comes, he will definitely come to apologize to your parents in person and take you mother and son back home. You don't have to worry."

"Third Sister, I am afraid that my relationship with him in this life is over. Cheng Jinzhi is also pregnant, she will definitely not let Pei Lin go, and Pei Lin may not have the heart to leave her behind. Besides, my father will never forgive me in this life." Him. I have no chance with him."

"Then you have the heart not to have children?"

"How can I bear it? But I can't help it. My dad won't forgive me, and I'm worried that he'll be even more angry when he sees them. I don't want them to suffer with me anymore. Their identities are destined to be irreversible, and maybe their parents can't be both. I know that Pei Lin cares about them more than I do, and I think it will be better for them to follow him than to be here." Jing Wan lowered her head and paused, then raised her head and smiled wryly at Miss San, "If, if in the future, Dad completely forgives me I, maybe I can take them back."

"Jing Wan." Miss San looked at her distressedly.

"Third Sister, although Pei Lin likes them very much, he often goes out and cannot look at them every day. I want you to take good care of them for me, and don't let others bully them."

"Jingwan, don't worry, they will be the third sister's children in the future, and I will take care of them every step of the way. But, don't be too sad, I believe that Pei Lin will settle the matter with Jinzhi soon, and come to you .”

Jing Wan didn't answer, just shook her head.After a while, he wiped away his tears and said to the children: "Ruirui, Yueyue, are you going to find Dad with your aunt today?"

The children nodded with half understanding.

But when she was about to get in the car, Yue Yue saw that her mother wouldn't go, and she couldn't get in the car anyway. She cried and yelled and dragged Jing Wan's clothes tightly, and Miss Ren couldn't hug her.

"Yueyue, be obedient, ah! Don't you like that uncle in military uniform to be your father? From now on, Yueyue can live and play with her father."

"No! I want my mother to go too! I want my mother to go!" Yueyue cried hysterically, and she couldn't persuade her.

Later, Ruirui, who had already gotten into the car, ran down and whispered a few whispers in Yueyue's ear. Only then did Yueyue stop crying slowly, nodded at her brother with tears in her eyes, and let her brother sob Pulled into the car.

The moment the car started, the tears that Jing Wan had held back for a long time finally fell down.You once vowed never to leave your child for half a step, but how long has it been?She sent them away with her own hands.There is always too much helplessness in life. As a mother and daughter, in addition to her love for her children, she also has reluctance for her parents and fulfills her responsibilities and obligations to her parents.Think about it, why wasn't Pei Lin like this back then?He is not only Yin Jingwan's husband alone, he also has millions of soldiers who follow him, and he also shoulders the responsibility of ensuring the safety and happiness of thousands of people and families.I promise, I will carry you for the rest of my life, she can't imagine, what kind of mood he said this sentence, is it as painful as she is now?No, his pain should be more piercing than hers!His strong smile and his promises, to her, are the flowers of spring and the moon of autumn; to him, they may be more poisonous than arsenic and more painful than Ling Chi!

Once, she got him, but lost her dear parents; once, she left him, but gained a lovely baby; now, she let go of her babies with her own hands, just to be a filial daughter wholeheartedly .Every choice is so compelling and heart-wrenching!Each of them is her favorite!At this moment, she was relieved.She finally let go of all the past between her and Pei Lin.In this life, she will no longer blame him or hate him, maybe she will stay silently in Wuchi or another place forever, listening to him, looking at him, loving him from afar...

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