The strange classmate next to the bed
Chapter 34
"Ah~~!!" Qin Xian couldn't hold back his exclamation, and took a few steps back. In a panic, he almost forgot the dense grass on the ground, and was almost tripped by the long grass. Fortunately, he reacted quickly , the branch in his hand propped up on the ground, and he took a big step back with his right foot to stabilize his body.
What a risk~!Qin Xian secretly exclaimed in his heart!
He settled down, looked at the long-eyed tree pole through the light, and saw that the tree pole was almost as high as Qin Xian's face, and there was a round and big face embedded in the bark, covered with With yellow and brown hair, a pair of round and big black eyes, staring at Qin Xian without blinking.
Upon closer inspection, there are two rings of light-colored fluff around the eyes. Looking at it from a distance, it looks like wearing a pair of fashionable large-frame tinted glasses. There is a downward curved mouth protruding from the bottom of the face. It looks extremely hard, if you are pecked by it, there will be an extra meat pit!
Qin Xian saw that its mouth was slightly opened and trembling, and that strange, human-like laughter came from here!
Just staring wide-eyed and small-eyed like this, Qin Xian's heart was bristling, and he couldn't help raising his head and asking Qing Tian, could this be the legendary tree demon! ?
Qin Xian was still flustered in the dark wind, the dryad's face suddenly broke free from the bark, and the whole round face protruded from the bark surface, and then, the face was completely detached from the bark and a bulging hairy head protruded.
Immediately, a solid body covered in fur emerged, and then spread its huge wings, and flew up into the tall branches with a swish. The body was about the size of a dog, and quickly disappeared into the dark tree shadows.
Everything happened so fast just now, Qin Xian was dumbfounded, leaving only an empty tree hole in the tree trunk.
Cats... owls? !Damn!No wonder it made him feel that the face looked more and more like that fat cat prickly pear!
fortunately!False alarm~!
The small commotion just now seemed to startle the rare insects and birds hiding in the woods, and suddenly there were waves of strange calls in the woods.
Qin Xian didn't stay any longer, turned on the light of his mobile phone, and continued to walk slowly. He didn't know how long he had walked, but he no longer saw tall and deep trees in front of him, but instead saw a towering bamboo forest, densely packed The green bamboos are scattered and connected into one piece, and the bamboo leaves are rustled by the gusts of cold wind. Under the faint light, there is a bright red in the blue and green, which flashes in Qin Xian's eyes.
Qin Xian was so cold that his teeth were fighting up and down, and he walked towards the depths of the bamboo forest in the direction where the redness disappeared.
He silently recited the three-character scripture in his heart to calm his emotions, and gradually he muttered to himself: "At the beginning of a person, at the beginning of a person, the husband wears the wrong wife's skirt, and the wife wears the wrong husband's trousers. Scary!"
Talking and talking seemed to have no effect, and changed to a modern sentence, muttering: "Prosperity, democracy, civilization, harmony, freedom, equality, justice, rule of law, patriotism, dedication, integrity, and friendliness!"
In a corner of the tree, an owl watching secretly: ...
I don't know how long he walked, he walked through the bamboo forest, and suddenly he saw a large blank space the size of a football field, with only ankle-length short grass, short but densely grown, and it was soft to step on. There is a big ginseng tree growing alone in the middle of it!
It is a real big village, with a height of more than ten floors, and the entire canopy is as dense as a shaped mushroom, just like a more shaped parasol!
Qin Xian didn't know what to think, stepped on the soft grass, and slowly walked towards the huge tree with one deep foot and one shallow foot.
He looked up at the sky, and the endless night sky was in front of him. There was a waning moon hanging in the clear dark blue night sky, and the stars in the sky were clearly visible. Putting aside the things of getting lost, he had a happy mood. In the middle of the day, I listened carefully to the chirping of insects and birds, and took a deep breath of the fresh and rustic flavor of the trees, soil and grass.
This feeling of being the only one left in the world is a bit indescribable, carefree and free~!
Qin Xian walked to the side of the tree, and the faint moonlight shone on him. At this moment, his heart was surprisingly calm, with a kind of supercilious calmness.
He sighed deeply, thinking about finding a clean place to sit down.
His eyes were still trying to identify the situation on the ground, but he didn't have any opinion. From the corner of his eye, he found something floating on the branch diagonally above.Qin Xian looked up and was stunned for a moment. A bright white hospital gown was hanging on it, and a pair of thin white forest feet were hanging down weakly, like a baby on a sunny day, fluttering in the wind.
Qin Xian cried out inwardly, and yelled in a low voice: "Damn! Damn it again! Can't you calm down for a while?"
In the blink of an eye, that white shadow floated gently to Qin Xian's side like a fallen leaf.
After most of the day's mental tension and stimulation, coupled with the long trek in the dense forest just now, Qin Xian, who has not touched a drop of water, is indeed tired, so tired that he is too scared to react.
Consciously, he couldn't react, but the body's instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages made him automatically take a few steps back, mentally crossed, his left foot was inserted into a sunken place, caught off guard, his ankle limped, and there was a burst of pain. In severe pain, Qin Xian lost his center of gravity in an instant and fell to the grass.
"Hiss~!!" Qin Xian couldn't help hissing in pain, he stretched out his hand and touched the sore spot lightly, the pain got worse, and he muttered in his heart that he must have twisted the wood.
He raised his head reluctantly, and stared blankly at the white shadow slowly drifting towards him. At this moment, Qin Xian was deeply shocked!
Under the light moonlight, he could only see the glowing white hospital gown and a pair of white bare feet. The part above the collar was almost as black as if it had disappeared into the night!
"You...you you...are you black? Are you OK?" Qin Xian couldn't help but blurted out.
Bai Yipiao said indifferently: "No."
"Oh! So they speak Chinese!" Qin Xian wiped his eyes, suddenly felt a faint smell of roast meat, and asked in surprise, "Comrade! You... why are you confused?"
Bai Yi fluttered his mouth and said, "You finally see the point~!"
Qin Xian's eyes became more and more used to the darkness, and he slowly saw clearly the figure in the white clothes, with an afro on top of his head, just like the exaggerated and chubby afro in TV comedy movies, with fluffy hair wrapped under a A dark face, lips fried like two sausages, except for the white of the squid eye, and the row of white teeth that are slightly exposed when speaking, there is nothing that is not black!No, it should be said that it is not in focus!
Qin Xian couldn't help becoming curious, and said as if death was at home: "Oh! My friend, tell your story! I know I can't escape!"
Bai Yipiao smiled lightly, Qin Xian could only see a row of teeth hanging in the air if he didn't pay attention!
Bai Yipiao: "Of course! Otherwise, how could this girl have worked so hard to invite you here!"
"Damn it! So it was you who tricked me into this ghostly place!" Qin Xian said deceitfully.
Bai Yipiao: "I don't want to do this either. When the haunted house invited you again and again, you turned around and ran away~"
Qin Xian was puzzled and asked, "Haunted house? I don't think I've seen you before~! You have such a personality, how could you not recognize you?"
The white robe fluttered without saying a word, and pointed to the branch that was hanging on it just now. Qin Xian looked in the direction, and there was a blood-red flowing long dress fluttering in the wind.
Seeing the red dress, Qin Xian suddenly came to his senses.
"The strange woman in red is you?" Qin Xian asked in surprise, "But the painting style is wrong!"
"Demon~! You really don't understand a girl's heart. Of course you have to dress up carefully when you go out!" Bai Yipiao replied shyly while playing with her cotton candy-like afro with her fingers, "I can see that this girl Very sincere~!"
"Are you in disguise?" Qin Xian said angrily, "In a haunted house dressed in red, when I was most mentally vulnerable, it suddenly fell from the sky like a big red ghost lantern, otherwise I would just stand there quietly A certain corner is doing performance art without moving! It’s a credit for not being frightened into a mental breakdown~!”
"Don't praise me! I've always been low-key!" Bai Yipiao smiled with a sausage mouth and white teeth, "I have no background, but a beautiful back~!"
"..." Qin Xian sighed, "Your smile is indeed full of sunshine~!! Your skin is burnt on the outside and tough on the inside, thicker than a brick! Admiration~!"
Bai Yipiao continued to giggle.
Qin Xian shook his head, and asked feebly: "Speak up? What are you doing? Tell me about something you're not happy with to make everyone happy~!"
Bai Yipiao replied relaxedly: "This aunt is the one who 'stupidly' killed herself!"
"What?" Qin Xian exclaimed, "What a girl, why are you so brave?"
Bai Yipiao: "My aunt has been weak and sickly since she was a child, and she has grown from that little girl to a big girl with great difficulty, but her body is still very weak, and she will be hospitalized for a week at the slightest sign of trouble.
Both my parents are small businesses, they can earn some money, and they can barely support my high medical expenses.
But their relationship is very unstable. They often have a small quarrel in two days and a big quarrel in three days. It is because of me that they barely get together to live.
It may be that I have regarded the hospital as my second home since I was a child. I have seen many sufferings in the world, life, separation, death, and farewell. I live a more introverted and lonely life than my peers, and my mind will naturally be more mature than others.
It may also be because I like to think wildly by myself. What I saw and heard in the hospital gave me a lot of ideas about life, the world, and even life that are different from ordinary people.
Slowly, a certain extreme idea formed in my mind, and this idea became stronger and stronger-it is better to die happily than to live in such pain.
If you can choose, death\\death is just a momentary thing, and then it is eternal death\death, and you will no longer feel the pain in the world.
I have seen many joys and sorrows in the hospital. Some people suffer from incurable diseases and force themselves to undergo high-intensity chemotherapy. They slowly change from a good young man full of vitality to a walking corpse. In the end, it's still the painful and ugly si.
Some old people have worked hard for most of their lives and devoted all their efforts to raising their next generation. It was time to enjoy the family relationship, but they returned to before liberation overnight, and degenerated from an old man full of life wisdom to a few years old. The child, the relatives and friends around him all don't remember, and can only live in their own simple world until the end of life.
I sometimes think that the most important thing in human life is the length or the quality.
It is true that a terminally ill person may live longer, but in his last days, he is full of pain, loneliness, and helplessness.
A person with dementia, he can eat, drink and sleep, but he doesn't live like himself, he loses himself, he even forgets that he is himself, for the people around him, the end of his life is just a long bid farewell.
I think people can really be cruel; human nature can really be ugly.
People can catch Sha animals as they like to satisfy their own selfish desires, and even cruelly kill their own kind.
In that hospital, some upper-level people used patients\as guinea pigs to test drugs for living\individual experiments just for their own benefit.
Those who were murdered by him at that time were all hidden by him in the basement parking room. How handsome, how beautiful, how ambitious, how dead is like a lamp going out, and the look that fell from their parents Jewels like precious skins and bones are treated like garbage after Si, piled on the ground layer by layer, and those organs, organs, limbs, which have been chopped into pieces, are thrown into the Si bucket to rot. Smelly.
It has always been that heaven can only be looked up to, and hell is only in the world~!That is the real hell on earth~!
Just like my parents, it is obviously a kind of mental torture for two people to be together, because of their children, they barely support the relationship between husband and wife to survive.
In fact, this is not good for anyone, no one is happy, only three people are suffering.
It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.
Gradually, I felt that everyone must have a si. What is scary is not the si, but the way of si.
There, I was terrified and afraid of how I would leave this world. It is better to turn passive into active and let myself decide when, where, and how to say goodbye to this world.
Maybe many people really think that I have a mental problem. Maybe it is. This kind of pessimism about life has been formed since childhood and is deeply ingrained. Man, brave enough to fight monsters.
My physical condition is not good, and I don’t think living is a happy thing mentally. I’m so lazy that even living is a troublesome thing!
I don't know how to love others, and I don't want to take the trouble to find someone to love. I'm afraid of pain, and I'm afraid of seeing other people's pain.
Natural selection, survival of the fittest.
I admit to being a weakling.
At that time, I often thought, now that I am alive, I am actually dead.
Such a mechanical consumption of life, why not choose a way to speed up the speed, so that the day will come as scheduled.
So, I kept looking for ways to get rid of "stupid".
Human life is both fragile and strong.
Although I am weak and sick, it is quite difficult to go happily.
I thought about jumping and building, so I chose short ones, for fear that if I fell, I would become disabled, useless, and suffer.
So I thought about jumping into the river again, and I was afraid that the water would choke me uncomfortable when I drowned, and the water pollution was so bad that it was quite uncomfortable for me who was a bit of a clean freak to drink a stomach full of sewage.
Thinking about taking An\Mian\ medicine, now you need a doctor's prescription, you can't buy in large quantities, and I checked on the Internet, taking An\Mian\ medicine is not as comfortable as it is said on TV. After taking the medicine as a meal, what will happen? Being in that semi-conscious state, and being discovered in time and being sent to the hospital, gastric lavage is required, which is a very disgusting and uncomfortable job.
Thinking of ge\wrist, or fiercely inserting a few knives, it is a pain to the skin, and my aunt will feel dizzy when she sees blood, and she will be rescued from fainting at that time, with a few more scars on her body, how can the girl who loves beauty bear herself Ugly~
Thinking of being more fashionable and environmentally friendly, the charcoal poisoned me with carbon monoxide, but I didn’t bring chicken wings and only charcoal when I went to the BBQ. will not be happy. "
"..." Qin Xian's face was full of black lines, and he said in a bewildered manner, "You are so inspiring to persevere in the fancy pursuit~!"
Bai Yipiao smiled and said: "Opportunities are reserved for those who are prepared! It is much better and easier to make full preparations in advance than to clean up the mess afterwards!"
What he said was so reasonable that Qin Xian was speechless.
Bai Yipiao raised his exploding head, looked at the waning moon in the sky, and continued: "After thinking about it again and again, I finally decided on a si\ method that I am satisfied with and is foolproof. My aunt checked the almanac and carefully selected the places where the spiritual energy of heaven and earth gathered. Pay attention to the weather forecast, and finally decide on a good and auspicious day, let yourself say goodbye to this world completely.
It was my birthday that day, and there happened to be a strong convective storm that day. That place is here, only a few hundred meters away from the hospital. I can travel in an environmentally friendly manner at any time, and use my own feet to step on this end road.
That morning, I washed and dressed up, put on my favorite red long dress, and had a simple meal with my parents at noon. They didn't know my plan, and I only secretly left a letter in my purse.
In the evening, I took advantage of the night to leave the hospital in a hurry and came here through the grass and forest. The sky was so dark that it seemed to be about to sink down. I felt an indescribable sense of depression, but my heart was clear and peaceful. Keep your head clear and calm.
I took out a special rope, a high-quality three-proof product-fireproof, high-temperature, and anti-corrosion. I used the kung fu I practiced when I was a child stealing mangoes from my grandma's house. I quickly climbed up this tree and used a special method Tie it up, leaving a loop.
Soon, the heavy sky, thunder and lightning, and torrential rain fell. I put the rope around my neck, and put a special hat on my head, with a long lightning rod stuck on it. "
Qin Xian exclaimed, "That's it?"
Bai Yipiao: "Going\hanging + being struck by lightning, double insurance!"
"You don't want to 'show' charcoal, so you just 'show' yourself so fiercely? Do you still want to hang and burn? Qin Xian was shocked, "The female hero, with her head on her head and her feet on the ground, has no hesitation and puts herself in S at all costs. It is to make the younger brother feel inferior, please be worshiped by the younger brother~! "
The white clothes proudly raised the sausage mouth, and said: "Of course~! This aunt can afford it~! Get flat, little fairy~! Anyway, this is how I left this world smoothly!"
Qin Xian: "Then why are you still here, why don't you go to heaven well?"
Bai Yipiao: "I don't know either, maybe I feel that I do something so hard, and no one knows it in the end, and no one can share the joy and sorrow of the success of my hard work. Such a life not perfect."
Qin Xian: "..."
Bai Yipiao smiled softly: "Maybe I'm waiting for you! After all, you are the first person to discover my existence among all the people I have ever met!"
"Maybe that's what I'm doing!" Qin Xian shrugged, pulled up his trouser legs, took off some socks to look at his left foot, which was swollen into a pig's trotter, and said with a wry smile, "I just want to get out of here quickly and go back to the Meet the seniors at the haunted house."
"Don't worry, someone will pick you up soon~! The straight-line distance from here to the haunted house is only two to 300 meters." Bai Yi said leisurely, "Besides, with me here, there will be no other dangers that will hurt you. you!"
"It's because of you that I was hurt. Look at my pig's feet~!" Qin Xian said angrily, "This place is only a few hundred meters away from the haunted house? Why did I feel dizzy and turned when I walked just now, and I almost passed away?" Tired s~!"
Bai Yi fluttered his tongue, and said with a cute face: "That's my aunt playing a little trick to let you go around in circles~!"
Qin Xian looked at her afro head and sausage mouth, this tongue sticking out was really indescribably weird!
He looked up to the sky and screamed, and shouted in a low voice: "So it's you, the two hundred and five~!"
What a risk~!Qin Xian secretly exclaimed in his heart!
He settled down, looked at the long-eyed tree pole through the light, and saw that the tree pole was almost as high as Qin Xian's face, and there was a round and big face embedded in the bark, covered with With yellow and brown hair, a pair of round and big black eyes, staring at Qin Xian without blinking.
Upon closer inspection, there are two rings of light-colored fluff around the eyes. Looking at it from a distance, it looks like wearing a pair of fashionable large-frame tinted glasses. There is a downward curved mouth protruding from the bottom of the face. It looks extremely hard, if you are pecked by it, there will be an extra meat pit!
Qin Xian saw that its mouth was slightly opened and trembling, and that strange, human-like laughter came from here!
Just staring wide-eyed and small-eyed like this, Qin Xian's heart was bristling, and he couldn't help raising his head and asking Qing Tian, could this be the legendary tree demon! ?
Qin Xian was still flustered in the dark wind, the dryad's face suddenly broke free from the bark, and the whole round face protruded from the bark surface, and then, the face was completely detached from the bark and a bulging hairy head protruded.
Immediately, a solid body covered in fur emerged, and then spread its huge wings, and flew up into the tall branches with a swish. The body was about the size of a dog, and quickly disappeared into the dark tree shadows.
Everything happened so fast just now, Qin Xian was dumbfounded, leaving only an empty tree hole in the tree trunk.
Cats... owls? !Damn!No wonder it made him feel that the face looked more and more like that fat cat prickly pear!
fortunately!False alarm~!
The small commotion just now seemed to startle the rare insects and birds hiding in the woods, and suddenly there were waves of strange calls in the woods.
Qin Xian didn't stay any longer, turned on the light of his mobile phone, and continued to walk slowly. He didn't know how long he had walked, but he no longer saw tall and deep trees in front of him, but instead saw a towering bamboo forest, densely packed The green bamboos are scattered and connected into one piece, and the bamboo leaves are rustled by the gusts of cold wind. Under the faint light, there is a bright red in the blue and green, which flashes in Qin Xian's eyes.
Qin Xian was so cold that his teeth were fighting up and down, and he walked towards the depths of the bamboo forest in the direction where the redness disappeared.
He silently recited the three-character scripture in his heart to calm his emotions, and gradually he muttered to himself: "At the beginning of a person, at the beginning of a person, the husband wears the wrong wife's skirt, and the wife wears the wrong husband's trousers. Scary!"
Talking and talking seemed to have no effect, and changed to a modern sentence, muttering: "Prosperity, democracy, civilization, harmony, freedom, equality, justice, rule of law, patriotism, dedication, integrity, and friendliness!"
In a corner of the tree, an owl watching secretly: ...
I don't know how long he walked, he walked through the bamboo forest, and suddenly he saw a large blank space the size of a football field, with only ankle-length short grass, short but densely grown, and it was soft to step on. There is a big ginseng tree growing alone in the middle of it!
It is a real big village, with a height of more than ten floors, and the entire canopy is as dense as a shaped mushroom, just like a more shaped parasol!
Qin Xian didn't know what to think, stepped on the soft grass, and slowly walked towards the huge tree with one deep foot and one shallow foot.
He looked up at the sky, and the endless night sky was in front of him. There was a waning moon hanging in the clear dark blue night sky, and the stars in the sky were clearly visible. Putting aside the things of getting lost, he had a happy mood. In the middle of the day, I listened carefully to the chirping of insects and birds, and took a deep breath of the fresh and rustic flavor of the trees, soil and grass.
This feeling of being the only one left in the world is a bit indescribable, carefree and free~!
Qin Xian walked to the side of the tree, and the faint moonlight shone on him. At this moment, his heart was surprisingly calm, with a kind of supercilious calmness.
He sighed deeply, thinking about finding a clean place to sit down.
His eyes were still trying to identify the situation on the ground, but he didn't have any opinion. From the corner of his eye, he found something floating on the branch diagonally above.Qin Xian looked up and was stunned for a moment. A bright white hospital gown was hanging on it, and a pair of thin white forest feet were hanging down weakly, like a baby on a sunny day, fluttering in the wind.
Qin Xian cried out inwardly, and yelled in a low voice: "Damn! Damn it again! Can't you calm down for a while?"
In the blink of an eye, that white shadow floated gently to Qin Xian's side like a fallen leaf.
After most of the day's mental tension and stimulation, coupled with the long trek in the dense forest just now, Qin Xian, who has not touched a drop of water, is indeed tired, so tired that he is too scared to react.
Consciously, he couldn't react, but the body's instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages made him automatically take a few steps back, mentally crossed, his left foot was inserted into a sunken place, caught off guard, his ankle limped, and there was a burst of pain. In severe pain, Qin Xian lost his center of gravity in an instant and fell to the grass.
"Hiss~!!" Qin Xian couldn't help hissing in pain, he stretched out his hand and touched the sore spot lightly, the pain got worse, and he muttered in his heart that he must have twisted the wood.
He raised his head reluctantly, and stared blankly at the white shadow slowly drifting towards him. At this moment, Qin Xian was deeply shocked!
Under the light moonlight, he could only see the glowing white hospital gown and a pair of white bare feet. The part above the collar was almost as black as if it had disappeared into the night!
"You...you you...are you black? Are you OK?" Qin Xian couldn't help but blurted out.
Bai Yipiao said indifferently: "No."
"Oh! So they speak Chinese!" Qin Xian wiped his eyes, suddenly felt a faint smell of roast meat, and asked in surprise, "Comrade! You... why are you confused?"
Bai Yi fluttered his mouth and said, "You finally see the point~!"
Qin Xian's eyes became more and more used to the darkness, and he slowly saw clearly the figure in the white clothes, with an afro on top of his head, just like the exaggerated and chubby afro in TV comedy movies, with fluffy hair wrapped under a A dark face, lips fried like two sausages, except for the white of the squid eye, and the row of white teeth that are slightly exposed when speaking, there is nothing that is not black!No, it should be said that it is not in focus!
Qin Xian couldn't help becoming curious, and said as if death was at home: "Oh! My friend, tell your story! I know I can't escape!"
Bai Yipiao smiled lightly, Qin Xian could only see a row of teeth hanging in the air if he didn't pay attention!
Bai Yipiao: "Of course! Otherwise, how could this girl have worked so hard to invite you here!"
"Damn it! So it was you who tricked me into this ghostly place!" Qin Xian said deceitfully.
Bai Yipiao: "I don't want to do this either. When the haunted house invited you again and again, you turned around and ran away~"
Qin Xian was puzzled and asked, "Haunted house? I don't think I've seen you before~! You have such a personality, how could you not recognize you?"
The white robe fluttered without saying a word, and pointed to the branch that was hanging on it just now. Qin Xian looked in the direction, and there was a blood-red flowing long dress fluttering in the wind.
Seeing the red dress, Qin Xian suddenly came to his senses.
"The strange woman in red is you?" Qin Xian asked in surprise, "But the painting style is wrong!"
"Demon~! You really don't understand a girl's heart. Of course you have to dress up carefully when you go out!" Bai Yipiao replied shyly while playing with her cotton candy-like afro with her fingers, "I can see that this girl Very sincere~!"
"Are you in disguise?" Qin Xian said angrily, "In a haunted house dressed in red, when I was most mentally vulnerable, it suddenly fell from the sky like a big red ghost lantern, otherwise I would just stand there quietly A certain corner is doing performance art without moving! It’s a credit for not being frightened into a mental breakdown~!”
"Don't praise me! I've always been low-key!" Bai Yipiao smiled with a sausage mouth and white teeth, "I have no background, but a beautiful back~!"
"..." Qin Xian sighed, "Your smile is indeed full of sunshine~!! Your skin is burnt on the outside and tough on the inside, thicker than a brick! Admiration~!"
Bai Yipiao continued to giggle.
Qin Xian shook his head, and asked feebly: "Speak up? What are you doing? Tell me about something you're not happy with to make everyone happy~!"
Bai Yipiao replied relaxedly: "This aunt is the one who 'stupidly' killed herself!"
"What?" Qin Xian exclaimed, "What a girl, why are you so brave?"
Bai Yipiao: "My aunt has been weak and sickly since she was a child, and she has grown from that little girl to a big girl with great difficulty, but her body is still very weak, and she will be hospitalized for a week at the slightest sign of trouble.
Both my parents are small businesses, they can earn some money, and they can barely support my high medical expenses.
But their relationship is very unstable. They often have a small quarrel in two days and a big quarrel in three days. It is because of me that they barely get together to live.
It may be that I have regarded the hospital as my second home since I was a child. I have seen many sufferings in the world, life, separation, death, and farewell. I live a more introverted and lonely life than my peers, and my mind will naturally be more mature than others.
It may also be because I like to think wildly by myself. What I saw and heard in the hospital gave me a lot of ideas about life, the world, and even life that are different from ordinary people.
Slowly, a certain extreme idea formed in my mind, and this idea became stronger and stronger-it is better to die happily than to live in such pain.
If you can choose, death\\death is just a momentary thing, and then it is eternal death\death, and you will no longer feel the pain in the world.
I have seen many joys and sorrows in the hospital. Some people suffer from incurable diseases and force themselves to undergo high-intensity chemotherapy. They slowly change from a good young man full of vitality to a walking corpse. In the end, it's still the painful and ugly si.
Some old people have worked hard for most of their lives and devoted all their efforts to raising their next generation. It was time to enjoy the family relationship, but they returned to before liberation overnight, and degenerated from an old man full of life wisdom to a few years old. The child, the relatives and friends around him all don't remember, and can only live in their own simple world until the end of life.
I sometimes think that the most important thing in human life is the length or the quality.
It is true that a terminally ill person may live longer, but in his last days, he is full of pain, loneliness, and helplessness.
A person with dementia, he can eat, drink and sleep, but he doesn't live like himself, he loses himself, he even forgets that he is himself, for the people around him, the end of his life is just a long bid farewell.
I think people can really be cruel; human nature can really be ugly.
People can catch Sha animals as they like to satisfy their own selfish desires, and even cruelly kill their own kind.
In that hospital, some upper-level people used patients\as guinea pigs to test drugs for living\individual experiments just for their own benefit.
Those who were murdered by him at that time were all hidden by him in the basement parking room. How handsome, how beautiful, how ambitious, how dead is like a lamp going out, and the look that fell from their parents Jewels like precious skins and bones are treated like garbage after Si, piled on the ground layer by layer, and those organs, organs, limbs, which have been chopped into pieces, are thrown into the Si bucket to rot. Smelly.
It has always been that heaven can only be looked up to, and hell is only in the world~!That is the real hell on earth~!
Just like my parents, it is obviously a kind of mental torture for two people to be together, because of their children, they barely support the relationship between husband and wife to survive.
In fact, this is not good for anyone, no one is happy, only three people are suffering.
It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.
Gradually, I felt that everyone must have a si. What is scary is not the si, but the way of si.
There, I was terrified and afraid of how I would leave this world. It is better to turn passive into active and let myself decide when, where, and how to say goodbye to this world.
Maybe many people really think that I have a mental problem. Maybe it is. This kind of pessimism about life has been formed since childhood and is deeply ingrained. Man, brave enough to fight monsters.
My physical condition is not good, and I don’t think living is a happy thing mentally. I’m so lazy that even living is a troublesome thing!
I don't know how to love others, and I don't want to take the trouble to find someone to love. I'm afraid of pain, and I'm afraid of seeing other people's pain.
Natural selection, survival of the fittest.
I admit to being a weakling.
At that time, I often thought, now that I am alive, I am actually dead.
Such a mechanical consumption of life, why not choose a way to speed up the speed, so that the day will come as scheduled.
So, I kept looking for ways to get rid of "stupid".
Human life is both fragile and strong.
Although I am weak and sick, it is quite difficult to go happily.
I thought about jumping and building, so I chose short ones, for fear that if I fell, I would become disabled, useless, and suffer.
So I thought about jumping into the river again, and I was afraid that the water would choke me uncomfortable when I drowned, and the water pollution was so bad that it was quite uncomfortable for me who was a bit of a clean freak to drink a stomach full of sewage.
Thinking about taking An\Mian\ medicine, now you need a doctor's prescription, you can't buy in large quantities, and I checked on the Internet, taking An\Mian\ medicine is not as comfortable as it is said on TV. After taking the medicine as a meal, what will happen? Being in that semi-conscious state, and being discovered in time and being sent to the hospital, gastric lavage is required, which is a very disgusting and uncomfortable job.
Thinking of ge\wrist, or fiercely inserting a few knives, it is a pain to the skin, and my aunt will feel dizzy when she sees blood, and she will be rescued from fainting at that time, with a few more scars on her body, how can the girl who loves beauty bear herself Ugly~
Thinking of being more fashionable and environmentally friendly, the charcoal poisoned me with carbon monoxide, but I didn’t bring chicken wings and only charcoal when I went to the BBQ. will not be happy. "
"..." Qin Xian's face was full of black lines, and he said in a bewildered manner, "You are so inspiring to persevere in the fancy pursuit~!"
Bai Yipiao smiled and said: "Opportunities are reserved for those who are prepared! It is much better and easier to make full preparations in advance than to clean up the mess afterwards!"
What he said was so reasonable that Qin Xian was speechless.
Bai Yipiao raised his exploding head, looked at the waning moon in the sky, and continued: "After thinking about it again and again, I finally decided on a si\ method that I am satisfied with and is foolproof. My aunt checked the almanac and carefully selected the places where the spiritual energy of heaven and earth gathered. Pay attention to the weather forecast, and finally decide on a good and auspicious day, let yourself say goodbye to this world completely.
It was my birthday that day, and there happened to be a strong convective storm that day. That place is here, only a few hundred meters away from the hospital. I can travel in an environmentally friendly manner at any time, and use my own feet to step on this end road.
That morning, I washed and dressed up, put on my favorite red long dress, and had a simple meal with my parents at noon. They didn't know my plan, and I only secretly left a letter in my purse.
In the evening, I took advantage of the night to leave the hospital in a hurry and came here through the grass and forest. The sky was so dark that it seemed to be about to sink down. I felt an indescribable sense of depression, but my heart was clear and peaceful. Keep your head clear and calm.
I took out a special rope, a high-quality three-proof product-fireproof, high-temperature, and anti-corrosion. I used the kung fu I practiced when I was a child stealing mangoes from my grandma's house. I quickly climbed up this tree and used a special method Tie it up, leaving a loop.
Soon, the heavy sky, thunder and lightning, and torrential rain fell. I put the rope around my neck, and put a special hat on my head, with a long lightning rod stuck on it. "
Qin Xian exclaimed, "That's it?"
Bai Yipiao: "Going\hanging + being struck by lightning, double insurance!"
"You don't want to 'show' charcoal, so you just 'show' yourself so fiercely? Do you still want to hang and burn? Qin Xian was shocked, "The female hero, with her head on her head and her feet on the ground, has no hesitation and puts herself in S at all costs. It is to make the younger brother feel inferior, please be worshiped by the younger brother~! "
The white clothes proudly raised the sausage mouth, and said: "Of course~! This aunt can afford it~! Get flat, little fairy~! Anyway, this is how I left this world smoothly!"
Qin Xian: "Then why are you still here, why don't you go to heaven well?"
Bai Yipiao: "I don't know either, maybe I feel that I do something so hard, and no one knows it in the end, and no one can share the joy and sorrow of the success of my hard work. Such a life not perfect."
Qin Xian: "..."
Bai Yipiao smiled softly: "Maybe I'm waiting for you! After all, you are the first person to discover my existence among all the people I have ever met!"
"Maybe that's what I'm doing!" Qin Xian shrugged, pulled up his trouser legs, took off some socks to look at his left foot, which was swollen into a pig's trotter, and said with a wry smile, "I just want to get out of here quickly and go back to the Meet the seniors at the haunted house."
"Don't worry, someone will pick you up soon~! The straight-line distance from here to the haunted house is only two to 300 meters." Bai Yi said leisurely, "Besides, with me here, there will be no other dangers that will hurt you. you!"
"It's because of you that I was hurt. Look at my pig's feet~!" Qin Xian said angrily, "This place is only a few hundred meters away from the haunted house? Why did I feel dizzy and turned when I walked just now, and I almost passed away?" Tired s~!"
Bai Yi fluttered his tongue, and said with a cute face: "That's my aunt playing a little trick to let you go around in circles~!"
Qin Xian looked at her afro head and sausage mouth, this tongue sticking out was really indescribably weird!
He looked up to the sky and screamed, and shouted in a low voice: "So it's you, the two hundred and five~!"
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