waiting for the flowers to bloom

Although it is said that illness disappears like spinning silk, this sentence does not seem to make sense to Sui Dong.Sui Dong's illness came on suddenly and went away quickly, and his spirit improved a lot the next day.

Seeing that Sui Dong regained his energy, Song Fanfan finally felt relieved, he knew that he could not ignore Sui Dong, probably the foundation in his heart was already unstable.

Let's just compromise like this, such a stalemate is not the answer.

Recently, this kind of thinking has become more and more, Song Fanfan is a little afraid, and a little regretful, that night he overstepped.Can't be like this, can't be like this, give yourself some time, just like when we separated.

Yes, think about the past, haven't you learned enough lessons?Don't forget how he treated himself in the past, do you have to experience those things again?If you can't bear it, you will be the one who regrets it in the end.

Don't listen to Shan Huangqi, he is different from himself, at least he is willing, of course he puts Fan Long first in everything, he still has a long way to go, and he still has to truly obey his parents. I am independent from my side, this time I can't rely on anyone.

Sui Dong intended to ease the relationship with Song Fanfan in the past few days, but Song Fanfan always avoided him after that, and he really didn't have much time to stay here, so he left after a few days.

Only then did Song Fanfan feel relieved and resumed his normal schedule.

The school is free, and next week I will go to another place for an internship with the professor.Before that, there was a lot of free time. Song Fanfan wanted to go to Cliff's farm with Shan Xingqi, but Shan Xingqi didn't know what happened recently, he was always absent-minded, probably because of Fan Long.

Mrs. Maisel went to church and said that she was attending a friend's wedding, and she was still sleeping under the quilt.

"You really don't want to go? The scenery is very good."

"I don't want to go out."

"I asked you to come here to let you relax. What's the use of you staying in the house all day and doing nothing?"

"A little disturbed."

Song Fanfan didn't say anything anymore, he turned and sat on the bed.

"How has your novel changed?"

"The questions they said before have been changed, but I don't know if they can pass it. It was agreed that my article and another person's article will be published every other time. Now I don't know what's wrong. They told me that there was a change in the layout that day. , the publication will be postponed, and it may become serialized every two issues.”

"What do you mean?"

"That is to say, there are three people sharing a page, and there are three issues and one cycle."

"This is all right? Are you confused?"

"I don't know, anyway, I signed the contract, they have to give me an explanation."

"Why don't you find a publishing house in China? It must be very troublesome here, right? After publishing, there will be taxation, copyright and other issues, right?"

"I'm just giving it a try. Of course it's great if it can be published. I don't know what will happen next. Let's take it one step at a time."

"You really have a big heart, and you dare to sign a contract without knowing anything. Hey, why don't you write on the domestic Internet, maybe a publishing house will come to you?"

"Take your time, don't be in a hurry. Are you going to stay in bed all day?"

"You don't have to worry about me, I really don't want to go anywhere today."

Song Fanfan had no choice but to close the door for him and go downstairs.Originally planned to go to the farm, but Shan Xingqi didn't want to go, but he didn't bother to run so far, so he tidied up the downstairs and went back to the bedroom to read a book.

Do you want to try writing online in China?When Shan Xingqi said this, he suddenly had this idea.I didn't have any big aspirations in this area at first, but I have always been more interested in literature. Later, I came to the UK by accident and wrote something in my spare time. I didn't expect to have the idea I have today.

Try it?Regardless of whether it succeeds or not, I still like to write things. If someone reads it, I will read it.

Song Fanfan spent a few days researching about online literature, and finally decided to give it a try, and joined the army of online literature. It happened that the second story had just begun, so he could use this article to test the waters.

It was already the middle of the month when I went out with the professor and some classmates, and Mrs. Messer couldn't stay anymore. Two days after Song Fanfan came back, she packed her luggage and went on a trip with her old friends.I heard that I will go to Spain first, transfer to Italy, and finally go to France, and will stay in France for a while.

"Mrs. Messer is living a really comfortable life. She usually drinks tea and walks the birds. When she is interested, she can take a trip at any time." Shan Xingqi sighed.

They had just sent Mrs. Maisel and her party into the car and were walking back.

"envious?"

"Can you not be envious? It would be great if I can be so chic at this age in the future."

"It's not the same when you retire and have nothing to do."

"It's hard to say, the mentality is different, I guess neither of us can do it."

"One person, one way of life, what do you think about so much now?" Although Song Fanfan said so, he also agreed with Shan Xingqi's words in his heart. He also envied Mrs. Maisel, who was always so happy and at ease.

In fact, I have also thought about it, when I am slowly getting older... what kind of old age life will be like?

"Mrs. Maisel said that she is going to France to watch Sui Dong's game, why don't you go?"

"I'm busy. Too much trouble."

"What are you busy with? You are just looking for things on your own. What can you do if you stop the novel for a few days? If you take a leave from school, you will have time. I think your leave is very easy to take."

"I don't want to go, so what if I go. If I go, what will you do?"

Shan Xingqi took a few steps away with a look of disgust on his face: "Don't use me as an excuse, I can't afford this crime."

Song Fanfan rolled his eyes in his heart, this game must be fake.

Sui Dong's competition... That's right, I heard that it will start on June 6, and there are less than two weeks left. I don't know how Sui Dong is preparing.It shouldn't be a big problem, otherwise I would come to York when time is so tight...

"Go if you want, is it fun to torture yourself like this?" Shan Mingqi leaned over and said.

Song Fanfan lowered his head and kicked the stone on the road, the stone rolled away with a gurgling sound, rolled into the grass on both sides of the road, and disappeared.

Seeing that Song Fanfan didn't answer, Shan Huangqi was also very helpless, why didn't he find Song Fanfan so awkward before.

"I really don't know what you're thinking? Last time he had a fever, you took care of him all night, and then you hid away. Obviously you can't let him go, why don't you just stay with Mrs. Maisel for so long? Haven’t learned how to make decisive decisions? Either stay with him, or let him go in front of his face, or find a new friend so that you two give up on each other. It’s so hard to be the heroine of your own Qiong Yao drama! "

What Shan Xingqi said was really blunt and ugly, but it was the truth.

"You'll just say me, you're not the same." Song Fanfan was offended by Shan Huangqi's words, why should he say that about himself, it's all his fault in the end?

"I like Fan Long, but he doesn't like me. I've been posting upside down for so many years. What's wrong with me? At least I told him clearly that I like him, and I said it clearly when I left. It’s over, I won’t serve him anymore. What do you say you have done?”

Song Fanfan didn't speak, he quickened his steps sullenly, and Shan Xingqi didn't call him, anyway, he had long legs to keep up.

Did you say it yourself?I've said it... I said I have him in my heart, and I said I don't want to see him anymore.But that was almost a year ago, and now... do you want to say it again?How to say.I like you, but should we separate?

"I don't know." Song Fanfan stopped suddenly, turned around and looked at Shan Huangqi. "I can't be as straightforward as you. I have to consider my parents' position, as well as my second uncle, Sui Dong and our family, you know about it. Even if I still care about him, my parents... ...and definitely won't accept it."

"Aren't those things all settled?"

"Resolving this matter does not mean that this matter is over. I think it should be nothing, and I feel that I can let go of the past, but my parents, my second uncle, and the others, can they think so? Tong Puhui is still in it now. I don't Knowing what his family thinks, I have never thought about unrealistic things such as family blessings, but I can't do anything and don't care about being with him. I had a falling out with my parents because of him, and it turned out What? I'm already 25, I'm not a kid anymore, I want to be as straightforward as you, but I can't."

Shan Xingqi was blocked and had nothing to say. He watched Song Fanfan turn around and continue walking, and he had no choice but to follow behind him, but the two of them didn't want to say anything more.

"What's wrong with you recently, why are you so towards Sui Dong?" Song Fanfan finally calmed down, he felt that Shan Xingqi was really strange recently.

"I'm not toward him." Shan Huangqi replied sullenly, "It's just a pity that you can't be together, you don't even know how much I envy you two."

"What are you envious of? Just be yourself. I know you mean well. Mrs. Maisel also said it. She also said that there is always a mountain between us. He can't get through, and I can't get through. "

"She still sees it thoroughly." Shan Huangqi looked at Song Fanfan, and continued: "Then you really don't want to go?"

"What can I do if I go? I can't convince myself to be with him, and I will bother him if I go. It's better to be like this. I will see you less and less, and it will pass."

"You are different from me. He cares about you so much. Tell your family. They can understand, right?"

"I don't dare to say it. I can't say it. It's a trouble if I say it." Song Fanfan shook his head, "I don't want them to worry about me anymore."

"Then can you forget? Let me tell you the truth, I've been here these days, and there's not a day when I don't think about Fan Long. I know I'm pretty cheap, but how can I forget so easily?"

Yes, how could I forget?Song Fanfan felt that he would probably remember this person for the rest of his life.He suddenly broke into his surroundings, and he was fascinated by him, and then suddenly disappeared.He always comes when he wants, and leaves when he wants, and there is nothing he can do.

On the side, Shan Huangqi was still talking: "I went to Fan Long's place before I came here, and they are busy with getting married. I saw their wedding photos hanging on the wall directly opposite the gate. I know how to describe that feeling. I feel distressed, it really hurts, and it hurts so much that I can’t breathe. At that time, tears were suffocating in my eyes, and I almost cried, but I held back.”

"There are a lot of people in the house, and they are all people I have known for many years. I know what they say about me behind my back. Now that Fan Long is getting married, I don't know how many people are waiting to see my jokes. I don't want to be ashamed. I put the couple watches I bought for the two of them in the middle of the table, pretending to be very calm, and said to him with a smile, "Brother Long, congratulations. I bought something interesting, and I will go to England to see a friend in two days." , may not be able to catch up with the wedding, come here early to give you something.'”

Just listening to Shan Xingqi say this, one can imagine how dazzling the scene was, and Song Fanfan looked at him with some unbearable heart.

"You don't know how happy I am when you see their surprised expressions. If you want to see my jokes, there is no way. But only you know what it feels like. I really don't want you to have that day. That feeling is really, experience Once in this life, I will never want a second time."

I understand, Song Fanfan answered him silently in his heart. "Do you want to drink?"

"Drink? Where to drink? Bar?"

"Or buy wine and go back to drink. Anyway, Mrs. Maisel is not here."

This proposal is simply too tempting, "Okay, buy more, I want to get drunk."