waiting for the flowers to bloom

The place where Sui Dong lives is a bit far away. He originally planned to find another residence nearby, preferably the kind where two people meet each other without seeing each other. Song Fanfan can always see what he wants after a long time.

But things didn't develop in the direction he imagined. Whether Song Fanfan hated himself or blamed himself, even if he scolded himself and avoided himself...it was better than now. What disturbed him most was that this kind of strangeness and alienation , as if those painful pasts have become a false dream.When Song Fanfan wakes up from his dream, he is nothing, no matter how much he likes or hates, it doesn't matter.

The night was quiet, Sui Dong sat alone in the courtyard looking at the sky, thinking about Song Fanfan's words.

How could he not understand what Song Fanfan meant, and how could he not know that what Song Fanfan said was correct.

But Sui Dongchang is so old, the first time he lost was Zhao Chengfang, he trapped himself in it for 6 years, and finally was pulled up by Song Fanfan.

This time, he finally got rid of the past, but Song Fanfan didn't want to go on with him anymore.In Sui Dong's 26 years of life, he fell in love with two people, but they both abandoned him.

He anxiously played with a cigarette in his hand, wanting to light it, but held back.He started to quit smoking this year because he remembered that Song Fanfan hated the smell very much.

Giving up is the easiest thing. You can pack your luggage tomorrow, book your ticket and leave. This is Song Fanfan's most desired result, not seeing each other, nor getting tired of each other.

But, can you really just leave like this?What to do after going back, two years failed to completely remove Song Fanfan from his heart.

He is selfish. Few people can do this kind of thing generously.During the two years when Song Fanfan left, he didn't live a bad life, but he knew that such a life was not what he wanted.

The so-called free and easy, the so-called drunkenness, is just looking for an explanation for his own cowardice, dullness, incompetence and timidity.He can silently and coldly express to everyone that he doesn't need anything, because no one can tell the emptiness and loneliness of being alone, except for a special person.

So many nights when he fell asleep thinking of Song Fanfan... Sui Dong strained his hand, and the cigarette in his hand was crushed into crumbs.Whether it is self-blame or regret, is it still useful?

But in fact, Song Fanfan was not as decisive as he showed, but he was too good at disguising, habitually picking himself out of possible troubles.

In front of people like Sui Dong, Song Fanfan was always very passive, which made him a little scared.He was afraid that he would be powerless against Sui Dong, and that he would be disheartened again in the end.

Sui Dong's meekness made him timid. Five years ago, Sui Dong was also so considerate, even more considerate than now. That was the first time Song Fanfan experienced the so-called "I like you".

It turns out that the heart of chocolate contains not only alcohol, but also poison.

Because of a foot injury, Song Fanfan had to go out early these days, but Sui Dong was waiting at the door earlier than him.Song Fanfan hesitated for a moment, then stepped forward, "It's so early? Do you have anything to say?"

"Yes. I thought about it for a long time yesterday. You are right. Breaking up may be the best result we can have so far, but Song Fanfan, I won't just leave like this. It took me so many years to see myself clearly It doesn't matter if you don't believe me or hate me, I still want to stay by your side, and I won't leave."

Song Fanfan stared blankly at Sui Dong after he finished speaking, and said helplessly: "Sui Dong, we can't do it. Although everything is over, to be honest, Zhao Chengfang is a thorn in my heart. If the object is you, I will never be able to get this thorn out."

"It's my fault. I didn't tell you. Actually, I knew a long time ago that the two of you are not alike at all. It was the night we went out after the military training. That's when I knew. I compared a lot before that. Over and over again, I want to find something similar to him from you, maybe that... can give me an excuse for wanting to get close to you. But, I was wrong at the beginning, probably the first time I saw you, I remembered you gone."

Hearing Sui Dong's affectionate confession, Song Fanfan felt extremely bitter.It's too late, Sui Dong, it's really too late.

"I won't interfere with your life, and I won't meddle in any of your affairs...just before your foot is healed, I want to take you to school, you just think it's a taxi."

Song Fanfan opened the car door in silence and got into the car.

Sui Dong sat in the driver's seat nervously, looking at Song Fanfan next to him, is this a compromise?

Just when he was confused, he heard Song Fanfan say softly: "I can't let you go back, I can't make you stop appearing in front of me, and I can't hide from you anymore. From now on, you do your thing, I Do my thing."

"Okay...thank you..."

After sending Song Fanfan to school, Sui Dong didn't go home, but went to find Mrs. Messer.

"Good morning, Sui."

"Hi, Mrs. Maisel, I'm sorry I came uninvited."

"Don't take it to heart, if you can, can you have breakfast with me? It's too boring to be alone, Fan always leaves early."

"It's a shame not to have such a delicious breakfast."

"Thank you, you are such a lovely person."

Mrs. Maisel is a very humorous and lively person. She doesn't mind the chaotic relationship between Sui Dong and Song Fanfan. Maybe the British are like this. Sui Dong has seen it these two days.

……

"My God, so you're here to court him?"

"Correct."

"That's really too romantic. Fan always looks very indifferent, but I know he is a very good boy, but people outside can't see his other side."

"Yeah, he's always been like that."

"By the way, Mrs. Messer," Sui Dong looked a little embarrassed, "I actually want to know if you have any vacant rooms here for rent. My previous house is about to expire, and I haven't found a suitable place yet. .”

"I have here... Let me think about it. There is only one attic for storage, which is too small for you. There is still a bed in Fan's room, but you have to get Fan's approval."

"Can I live in that attic if I can?"

"Of course, but it's really small."

"Then I take it as your consent?"

Mrs. Maisel looked at him, showing a perceptive smile: "Welcome."

"You are so kind! But please don't tell him yet. I hope I can talk to him at a suitable time."

"No problem at all."

In the afternoon, when Song Fanfan saw Sui Dong driving his car parked beside the road again, he finally couldn't help asking him: "Don't you need to go back to work? You've been here for a few days, right?"

"I have resigned from the company and am now a vagrant."

"... Then you can't drive someone else's car all the time, can you? Does your neighbor not use a car?"

"I rented his car. Didn't you hurt your foot? It's not convenient to go back and forth to school, and I happen to be fine."

"I can just take the bus, and the foot injury is an old problem, it's nothing."

"Okay...then let's take you back today, and return the car at night." Sui Dong said as he opened the co-pilot's door, signaling Song Fanfan to go up.

Song Fanfan took a deep breath, as if he had made a major decision, and sat in with his bag in his arms.Seeing Sui Dong close the car door, bypass the front, open the driver's door and sit in, Song Fanfan felt a little uneasy.He didn't know if it was right for him to do so, but facing Sui Dong, he had said everything he could.

They had had the closest contact, and they had fought.Song Fanfan once cut himself open to show him, but at this time, Song Fanfan was really not sure how to position the person next to him.

He can't control Sui Dong's behavior, and he doesn't want to disturb his original peace because of Sui Dong, but he can't get along as if nothing happened.Even though I said that the past is over, I still don't want to see him again in my heart, even if it's just to be friends, I don't want to.

"Fasten your seat belt, I don't have a British driver's license, and I'm really not familiar with driving on the right side." Sui Dong said suddenly.

"Then you have been driving for so long?"

"Isn't this just to send you off? Tomorrow I'm going to take a driver's license test, but I heard that the British driver's license test is very difficult, I have to practice hard. But I think my skills are not too difficult, it shouldn't be too difficult... …By the way, do you have a British driver's license?"

Song Fanfan glanced at him, "No, I don't need it either."

"If you don't need it now, you might need it in the future, or why don't you find time for us to go together?" Sui Dong suggested excitedly.

"Sui Dong, as I said, you do your thing, and I do mine." The summer was already stuffy, and Song Fanfan ended the conversation a little irritated.

He didn't know what Sui Dong meant by mentioning the driver's license at this time, was he reminding himself that he accompanied him to take the driver's license test when he was in college?so annoying...

"I'm sorry... I talk too much, you have a good rest, I won't talk anymore." Sui Dong apologized carefully, as if he had made a big mistake.

The atmosphere in the car seemed to freeze, Song Fanfan ignored him, and he didn't know why Sui Dong acted so cautiously, as if he was a villain, which made people very uncomfortable.He didn't like Sui Dong bringing up the original matter, but he didn't really want to dominate the relationship between the two of them so strongly.

Hotness, irritability, embarrassment, incomprehension, confusion, the combination of various factors made Song Fanfan feel as uncomfortable as a stone in his heart.

Speechless all the way.

When the two arrived at the door, they saw Mrs. Maisel coming out with garbage. Song Fanfan hurriedly got out of the car and walked forward, "Good evening, Mrs. Maisel. Let me take out the garbage?"

"You are so considerate. Good evening, Sui, let's stay and have dinner together. I learned a new dish from my friend today, and you can just try my cooking."

"Thank you so much. Just now I was still thinking about where to go for my dinner!"

Since Mrs. Messer sent the invitation, Song Fanfan naturally couldn't say anything. What surprised him was that Sui Dong's relationship with Mrs. Messer had become so good in such a short period of time.

To be honest, although Mrs. Maisel's desserts are excellent, but Mrs. Maisel's cooking skills are really average, but compared to the food in the restaurant, it is already considered good.However, since Song Fanfan moved in, Mrs. Messer seldom prepares dinners, because she prefers the Chinese dinners made by Song Fanfan, although Song Fanfan thinks that her craftsmanship is also very average.

Sui Dong and Mrs. Messer chatted happily at the dinner table, but Song Fanfan was a little tired and didn't join their conversation.

"Really? I also feel that my taste is already biased towards Chinese style, thanks to Fan. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have thought of trying it."

Hearing Mrs. Messer suddenly mention his name, Song Fanfan smiled at her politely, "Actually, my craftsmanship is mediocre. If you have the opportunity, you must try it in a real Chinese restaurant."

"His craftsmanship is not bad, I have tasted it before. But please allow me to boast about myself, my craftsmanship is not bad, if there is a chance, I really want to ask you to try it." Sui Dong continued, and then continued He added, "I remember that Song Fanfan also tasted it. If you don't believe me, you can ask him."

"Oh, is this true? Can Sui also cook?" Mrs. Messer asked Song Fanfan excitedly.

Song Fanfan glanced at Sui Dong, and smiled reluctantly, "Well, his cooking skills are indeed better than mine, but unfortunately I only tasted it once, and it's been a long time."

"Really? Then I must not miss it. I happen to be at home this weekend. If you are free, Sui, can I invite you to have afternoon tea? I will prepare chocolate chip cookies."

"There's no better place for me to be here, it's an honor and I'm looking forward to Saturday."

……

Fortunately, Sui Dong didn't stay for too long, because Mrs. Maisel let him go back early because he lived far away.Song Fanfan was cleaning the tableware in the kitchen, and Mrs. Messer came in to help him clean up, "Sui is really a very interesting person."

Song Fanfan didn't like to say anything in front of Mrs. Messer, and he was never such a person, so he could only agree with her, "To some extent, it's not bad. So... Mrs. Messer, I think you may go to visit tomorrow Supermarket, last time you ran out of ingredients trying a new dessert."

"Really? God, I forgot all about it. Thanks for reminding me, otherwise I would have to go to those bakeries and buy those cloying cakes. By the way, I need to make a list , Fan, I will leave this to you, thank you my dear."

"I am very honored."

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