waiting for the flowers to bloom

After Chen Keyi went out, Song Fanfan crawled off the bed with swollen eyes. He stood in front of the mirror and looked at the disheveled, disheveled, lifeless person in the mirror. How did he become like this?Song Fanfan sneered, isn't it lovelorn?What is there?

After a night of contemplation, Song Fanfan finally made a decision.

Even if there is no Sui Dong in his future life, he still has to go on. For his vague future, he doesn't know what is the right way to go next, but he won't do it for any given opportunity. people give up.

He picked up his phone and played a number.

The phone was quickly picked up.

"Hi. Teacher, I'm Song Fanfan. Last time you mentioned the thing about going abroad, how is it now?"

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"Well, I want to go? Is there still a place?"

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"One left? Where?"

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"UK? Okay, let me fill out the form first. Do you need any other information?"

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"7.5. Then...if the application is successful, when will I go?"

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"I want to go early, will the one in October be in time?"

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"Okay, I'll start preparing now, thank you teacher."

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"See you."

Song Fanfan hung up the phone, sat at the table and glanced at the phone, thought for a few minutes, then got up to pack his things, he wanted to go home.

There are a lot of people on the train, but it's not too crowded, but the seats are full.It was noon at this time, and the sun was just right.The warm light shone on Song Fanfan's face, and the moving train was accompanied by rhythmic sounds. Although it was a bit boring, Song Fanfan felt inexplicably at ease.Because on the way home.

It happened to be noon when we got home, and Song Fanfan came back just after Weng Ling cleared the dining table.

"mom."

Weng Ling felt a little bitter. Song Fanfan left after returning from summer vacation for a week, and it has been half a year since he suddenly came back today.When Song Fanfan walked out of the house that day, he looked so helpless, as if he had thousands of words buried in his heart, but he didn't know how to speak, so he had no choice but to choose to remain silent.At that time, she and Tong Wei were thinking, maybe they were wrong...

"Why did you come back at this time and didn't say anything in advance?"

"School is fine, I want to come back and stay for a few days."

"What's the matter? You have such an ugly face, can't you eat well at school? How did you sleep? Why did you lose weight again? Why are your hands so cold? Do you have a cold? Let me touch your forehead."

"It's fine. I ate well. I slept well. I didn't lose weight or get sick." Song Fanfan felt his nose sore as he spoke.The people he was most sorry for were his parents, but when he was most frustrated and sad, all he could think of was them.

Hearing Weng Ling's caring words, the sourness that had accumulated in his heart for a long time surged up. He had suffered too much pain. Although he had tried his best to act calmly, he was not so useless For those who are afraid, the so-called indifference is just a habitual disguise for many years, how could it be possible that they really don't care?At this moment, he is like a child who has been bullied outside. He tried his best to pretend to be fearless outside, and finally felt wronged when he returned home and heard his family's concern.

"What's the matter? Someone bullied you at school?" Seeing Song Fanfan's red eyes, Weng Ling was a little worried.

"I'm fine, maybe I have a cold. I'm going to sleep for a while." She entered the room without waiting for Weng Ling to say anything.As soon as he entered the room, he felt two lines of warm tears streaming down his cheeks. He didn't want Weng Ling to see such a desolate look.

I thought I had adjusted my mood, but I couldn't help it because of a few words of concern.He lay on the bed, buried his face in the pillow, and waited for himself to calm down.Not long after, Weng Ling opened the door, walked to the bed, and patted Song Fanfan on the back lightly, "Get up and eat first, I'll make dumplings for you. Your dad is also downstairs."

"Yeah." Song Fanfan obediently got up from the bed, went into the bathroom and washed his face. "Where's Haohao? Won't you come back at noon?"

"The exam is coming soon, I am busy reviewing."

As soon as he spoke, Tong Wei came back.

"dad."

"Why are you back at this time? Are you on vacation?"

"No, I have something to discuss with you."

Weng Ling came out of the kitchen with a plate, "Let's talk about it after dinner. The dumplings won't taste good when they get cold."

The three sat at the dining table happily, and no one raised any unpleasant topics. They hadn't eaten like this for a long time.

After dinner, Song Fanfan followed Tong Wei into the study.

"Tell me, what's the matter?"

"Dad, I will graduate in June next year. You know my situation in school. I probably won't find a satisfactory job after graduation."

"Then what do you think?"

"It's almost the original idea... If possible, I want to go abroad."

"Going abroad? Where are you going?"

"U.K."

"Then you are considered a graduate student? Or what?"

"...I heard that you can go directly to graduate students there. Although British graduate students are not worth much, I want to adapt there. If possible, I will see if I can continue my studies there."

"It's too sudden. Who did you listen to? Is it reliable? What about the language?"

"Language is not a big problem. I met a teacher who was in charge of this project when I was in a supplementary English class at school."

Tong Wei didn't say anything, just kept silent as if thinking about something.

"cost……"

"You don't have to worry about the cost." Tong Wei interrupted him, "The key is, are you sure you can go?"

"I don't know, I just have this idea, and the teacher over there is also helping me to contact. He said there shouldn't be any major problems."

Tong Wei fell silent, probably thinking...

"Do you have to go? You have never traveled far alone since you were a child. If you go to the UK, you will have no one to rely on there, and safety is also a problem." Tong Wei paused, "If I had known such a university, I would have put it away. You sent it out, and I still had friends over there at that time."

"I didn't understand anything at that time, and it's okay to go now. I'm almost 22, and it's fine to be alone."

It was silent again, and the atmosphere in the room was a little stuffy for a while.Tong Wei coughed dryly, "Then, who is that, Sui Dong. You two..."

"We've already broken up, Dad, you don't have to worry about it." Song Fanfan said, trying to smile calmly, saying that there is no need to worry about everything, but he didn't succeed, he only grinned, but didn't laugh.

Tong Wei looked at the lackluster son in front of him and pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying. His heart was a little clearer, and the two of them were afraid that they would break up.For a moment, he didn't know whether he should be happy for Song Fanfan and Sui Dong's separation, or feel sad for Song Fanfan's loss.

"Are you guys having a fight, or is it over?" After speaking, Tong Wei felt that something was wrong with his words.

But Song Fanfan didn't care, he shook his head, "It's over."

"Is it because of him that you are going to England too?"

"It's not all... just thinking, change the direction, broaden your horizons, maybe you won't be so confused in the future."

"If you want, I can also arrange you to our company. You can start from the most basic. Didn't you go there for a while when you graduated from high school?"

"Maybe it's good like this, but I'm not reconciled... In fact, I have always had a vague idea in my heart. No matter what the final result is, it's my own choice, and I don't want to regret it."

Tong Wei didn't answer immediately, but looked at the teacup on the table in thought.Accompanied by the sound of the clock "click, click" passing by, Tong Wei let out a sigh of relief, "Alright, you are not young now, you have your own ideas, you just make up your mind."

"Then... what about Haohao? What do you want him to do?"

"Haohao's grades are mediocre. Let's take the college entrance examination first. It's not too late to talk after the exam. By the way, Haohao should come back early tonight. You can talk to him in the evening. He doesn't want to talk to us now if he has something to do. I think he's been under a lot of pressure this year, so please talk to him."

"Well, I see."

In the afternoon, Song Fanfan was left alone at home, a little bored and a little dazed.He put on his mobile phone and went out, idly walking on the street, he didn't want to go anywhere in particular, he just wanted to walk around.

Yijiang City is not small in size, but it is only a small third-tier city. Except for some counties and towns far from the city center, there are currently only four urban areas, three administrative districts, and an economic and industrial zone under development. Song Fanfan and the others live in In the earliest developed administrative center, it will take no more than an hour to drive from the first Jiefang Road in the easternmost old city to the westernmost Yijiang Avenue in traffic jams.

Song Fanfan went out, wandering aimlessly, and didn't remember which street he had passed, or which shop he had passed by. When he came back to his senses, he had already come to Yijiang Lake.

There are two villas standing not far away, the warm sunshine in the afternoon shines on the milky white walls without hesitation, surrounded by a forest that is almost bald, with only countless branches stretching out their teeth and claws to the sky, as if eager With the warmth of the sun.The villa was built not far from the lake, and Song Fanfan could just see the roof reflected in the lake when he stood here.There seemed to be some birds resting on the roof, which could not be seen clearly.This kind of beautiful scenery is always easy to stop people. Song Fanfan’s and there are a few young people with cameras taking pictures beside him. They study the distance, light and shadow, focal length, angle... But all these have nothing to do with Song Fanfan, A gust of wind came out and set off layers of ripples on the lake. The reflection on the lake disappeared. The young people who were shooting were a little annoyed, so they could only set up their cameras and wait for the new reflection to form after the lake calmed down.

Song Fanfan didn't stay by the lake for too long, he left when the breeze blew. Although the scenery was beautiful, on the winter solstice day, the breeze by the lake was still cool, and he was a little cold.

It was still early, and the sun was still just right. Song Fanfan was a person who liked the sun.Sitting on a wooden bench far away by the lake, he felt the warmth of the sun shining on him from outer space through layers of barriers. At this moment, life was so comfortable.In the distance, there are cheerful elderly people gathering together and singing ditty tunes, which he couldn't appreciate before, but now he also finds it quite charming.

Song Fanfan didn't remember how long he sat by the lake. When the sun was about to set and it was getting colder, he got up, stomped his numb feet, turned and went home.