waiting for the flowers to bloom

After the Ching Ming Festival, Song Fanfan and Sui Dong's connection gradually increased.

Sui Dong seemed to be very free, and often came to Song Fanfan to exchange feelings, and the frequency was basically maintained at two to three times a week.On the contrary, Song Fanfan has been worrying about his graduation after military training, so he also asked Sui Dong about employment, but Sui Dong didn't give him any advice, he just said that after he graduated, he could help him find his own job. company to work.

Song Fanfan didn't care about these, he just thought he was joking.He hopes to be able to work in the job he likes, even if it is hard, as long as he feels satisfied, he doesn't have any lofty ambitions.

The two seldom go out to play, because Song Fanfan really doesn't have much time, and Song Fanfan will definitely go home every holiday. Every time Sui Dong comes over, he just plays ball with him, and there is no deeper communication.

Song Fanfan is a person who talks very little, very rarely, because the long time alone before university almost derailed him from his peers.

But he is definitely a good listener, often Sui Dong talks a lot, sometimes about his childhood, he will mention Meng Jianxian, Ma Qian... some of his friends; sometimes he will talk about He heard from his grandma long ago, from the various struggles of the 50s to the end of the "wenge", almost nothing was left behind; more often it was about what he experienced in the army.

For Song Fanfan, whose life is plain, Sui Dong is like a storybook, each chapter is a different story, some tragic, some joyful, sometimes he is just a narrator of the story, sometimes he is also the protagonist in the story protagonist.

At that time, Song Fanfan was 19, his freshman year was coming to an end, and it was a period of confusion in life.

He was brought up by Tong Weiguo and his wife, and he has been sensible since he was very young. He has always lived very carefully, trying to do his best, and he doesn't want his parents to worry too much about him.

But after going to university, he came into contact with more things, and his off track gradually kept up with the direction of the times.He often thinks about what to do after four years of college life.

He thought a lot, but he couldn't imagine the life he wanted. He didn't know what he wanted, how to reflect his own value, and he didn't know what the difference in occupation meant to him. , he suddenly felt that he was a fool, he didn't know anything, not even the meaning of his existence.

The violent ideological shock made him gradually decadent. He no longer worked hard for this major he didn't like, and no longer spent a lot of time studying those abstract and obscure data and formulas. This was the first time in his life. With the idea of ​​giving up.

Life is like this, no one keeps reminding you what is right.Song Fanfan may have made the worst decision in his life, but so what, there are billions of people in the world, apart from having three family members, who would care?

But Song Fanfan is not a waste after all, and he doesn't want to become a waste from now on. The only belief that supports him to change everything is not to disappoint his family.

But what to do is to live up to the expectations of his family. He wants to prove how good he has been since he was a child. He wants to prove how well his parents have raised him. He wants those people in the past to know that he is better than them. more successful than imagined.

But in the end, it’s just a wish. He was an excellent student. In high school, he passed the exam for more than a dozen students in the whole grade. In junior high school, he was the favorite student of all the teachers, but so what?

Maybe when I am getting more and more powerless and always feel that getting twice the result with half the effort will realize that I am an ordinary person.In the past, he could use his test scores to prove himself time and time again, but this trick is not a secret, and there are always times when he can't use it, such as the college entrance examination.

At that time, he accepted his fate, and he was also afraid.At that time, people could say that the child must have not performed well in the examination room. If he performed well, he would definitely... But Song Fanfan didn't dare to do it again. Maybe it was the right choice, but he didn't want to, because he had to be a freshman, and if he was excellent, he wouldn't repeat it. And repeating the grade, of course he is also afraid, afraid that there will be no big change if it happens again.

At least one... he thought so.He was reading a book, and Song Fanfan just paralyzed himself.Until he finally glimpsed a corner of the world and was awakened by the slap of reality.

The timing of Sui Dong's appearance is wonderful, just in time for Song Fanfan's thoughts and humanity struggling and fighting in the fire.Such sunshine and beautiful Sui Dong made his heart throb for the first time.It was a very simple throbbing. He had never met such a person who lived so happily, so easily, so confidently, so casually.He is not jealous of Sui Dong at all, he is just too envious, with such a person by his side, life seems to have hope.

It doesn't matter if it's hard, it doesn't matter if it's tired, it's just that he doesn't want to live too hard, too tired... He has never been a smart person, he just works hard to satisfy his parents, and he doesn't feel that he is a burden.

But now, the appearance of Sui Dong made him not want to do this anymore.

How can I live for myself?How can you live free like him?The brain filled with this kind of thought again and again, but can't think of a path that can be realized at all. It feels like the whole person seems to have fallen into chaos. In the mist, only a glimmer of dawn can be seen, but no matter what, it is impossible to reach that bright place.

Sui Dong couldn't understand this kind of torment, and Song Fanfan would not tell anyone that he hadn't been able to trust anyone, even such a friendly Sui Dong.He tried his best to maintain the most indifferent side of himself, pretending that he was also like Sui Dong, living a self-styled and unrestrained life.

Before the semester's holiday, Sui Dong helped Song Fanfan apply for the driving school, and took two subjects before the final exam.Driving has become a necessary skill these days, and there are many people applying for the test. Sui Dong took Song Fanfan to the vehicle management office three times to get the medical examination form.Later, he sent him to the exam, and found him a trainer for the exam, and even taught him in person, which made Song Fanfan very sorry, feeling that he was too much trouble for Sui Dong.

During the vacation, Sui Dong contacted Song Fanfan more frequently.Although Yijiang is not far from Hengan, it still takes more than an hour to drive there.It so happened that Ma Qian had a small villa by the Yijiang Lake.Sui Dong took the key from Ma Qian and moved in openly.

Song Fanfan tried to think about why Sui Dong was so kind to him, but in the end he only came to the conclusion that "he is too kind".

He was somewhat surprised that Sui Dong came to Yijiang, but he couldn't hide his joy, and he invited Sui Dong to his house as a guest with some trepidation.

Tong Wei and Weng Ling were relieved that their son, who had always been silent, had made friends, and they warmly entertained Sui Dong.Sui Dong is generous and decent, and Weng Ling likes him very much. He is such a sunny guy, tall and can talk. If Song Fanfan communicates with him more, it will definitely change.

Song Fanfan didn't know what his parents thought, but the relationship with Sui Dong was indeed getting better and better. Just when he was lucky to have such a good friend when he was at his lowest and struggling, Sui Dong was a little confused .

Through the contact with the other party during this period of time, Sui Dong found that the more he knew him, the more he liked the feeling of being with him. Sometimes he even thought that it would be nice if he could always be a good friend.

Although Song Fanfan was a bit bored, he lived clearly and was a very kind person. He was not a serious person, but he still had a conscience, and he couldn't bear to drag him into the water like this.But sometimes those moments that resembled Zhao Chengfang made him unable to let go, and he was really unwilling to maintain such a relationship.

Sui Dong has always had no idea, the only time he was domineering and called the shots was when he dropped out of school two years ago and went to the army, and then he failed to do anything unexpected.

When encountering troubles or uncertain events, Meng Jianxian, Ma Qian, and Guo Siyi are his "iron triangle" military advisors.

For example, in a bar in Yijiang at this time... his brother Meng and his younger brother Guo were sitting beside him, and Ma Qian had already gone to the company, so he could only silently pray for his brothers from afar.

This is a bar on Wenyan Road, and all three of them drank a lot.

"Brother Meng, what do you think I should do? Do you want to continue?"

"When did you become so entangled? This is not like you..." Guo Siyi couldn't understand Sui Dong's embarrassment.

"Little Guoer, you are too young! I don't understand the pain in my heart!"

Meng Jianxian had listened to Sui Dong's rambling all night, and felt that it would not be a problem if this continued, so he stepped forward and took Sui Dong's wine glass away and put it on the table, and said, "Try it, Xiao Guo and I will leave first, you Just pretend to be drunk. I'll ask the waiter to call Song Fanfan on your cell phone and tell him to come pick you up, and you can explain to him while you're drunk, and see how he reacts and see if there's any possibility of development."

"Can it work? What if he doesn't come?"

"Then people don't bother to come here, what are you thinking about!" Meng Jianxian rolled his eyes at him, "Hey, I asked you again, does he know your sexual orientation?"

"Should not know."

"I think it's better to give him a psychological preparation. Or let's go to the 'Lanba' on Wenyan West Road and wait for him."

When it comes to "Blue Dam", it is well-known, because it is a famous gay chain bar in their coastal area.

Both Meng Jianxian and Guo Siyi looked at Sui Dong, waiting for his decision.

Sui Dong thought about it, and felt that it was very feasible. He was also very worried recently. Song Fanfan's affairs had not been clarified yet, and Sui Guofeng was urging him to go to the company as an intern all day long. .

So, the three of them took to the "Blue Dam".As soon as they entered the gate, they attracted the attention of most people. Even if they were placed among the men, their conditions were not to be chosen.

They asked for a private room, opened a few bottles of wine, and pretended to have drunk it.Sui Dong looked around, he was almost done, and he had drunk quite a lot, although he was not drunk, but it was more than enough to pretend.

Guo Siyi called a foreman waiter and asked him to call Song Fanfan on Sui Dong's mobile phone.

"Hi, hello, is this Song Fanfan, Mr. Song?"

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"I am the waiter of 'Blue Dam'. Mr. Sui is drunk here and does not accept our help. He asked me to call you to come over, so I will call you to see if you have time Pick him up."

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"Yes, it's called Sui Dong."

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"Well, he was alone and drank a lot."

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"We are at No. 29 Wenyan West Road, just near the 'Xingyuan Building'."

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"20 minutes? Okay, no problem."

The waiter hung up the phone and handed it to Sui Dong: "He said he would be there in 20 minutes at the latest."

"Okay, the rest is up to you. We'll cheer you up outside in a while. Remember to pretend to be pitiful. Believe me, every man has a Brokeback Mountain in his heart. Come on." Meng Jianxian encouraged him.