without complaint

I hope, like me, she has blood in her chest and a wound in her heart.Don't want to have a good flower and a full moon, don't want a short flute or a long flute.Be poor, be as poor as tea, with a ray of fragrance in the bitterness; be proud, be as proud as orchid, with autumn frost on your face. ——Shu Ting "I Hope"

On the day of Duan Kun's burial, Lu Li got up early, pushed the wheelchair and cleaned himself up, just like when they were together, the summer days were long, the sun was already warming this side of the earth, Lu Li used a Combing his hair with his hands, trying to hold up his smile, just like the day they met, the boy was young and innocent, and the man was calm and gentle.

Soon Mu En arrived, took a bouquet of gardenias, put them in Lu Li's arms, touched Lu Li's head, and said, "Let's go."

Lu Li nodded, smiled at Mu En, and said, "Thank you," Mu En was about to speak, when Lu Li continued, "Mr. Duan actually likes gardenias the most. He must be very happy when I bring this to him. .” Mu En opened his mouth but still didn’t say anything, and silently pushed Lu Li out.

On the way, Lu Li gently asked Mu En: "Mr. Mu, why did Mr. Duan get into a car accident?" Mu En glanced at him sideways and sighed, "I met a drunk driver driving a large truck on the highway. Too many cars couldn't stop and squeezed Duan Kun's car out, that part of the road was an overpass, the car caught fire not long after it fell, and it didn't have time to be sent to the hospital..." Mu En didn't say any more, and Lu Li didn't open his mouth either. , There was silence in the car again.

After walking for an hour, they arrived at the cemetery. Duan Kun's urn was being lowered. The members of the Duan family surrounded him. Mu En pushed Lu Li and walked over. The man who was somewhat similar to Duan Kun suddenly turned around and walked towards Lu Li, glanced at Mu En, and said indifferently to Lu Li: "You are Lu Li, right. You can go, even if Mu En brings you here, we won't You are asked to worship, whether Duan Kun is here or not, you are not qualified to come to see us, today is the day of Duan Kun's burial, we don't want to do anything, so get out."

"Duan Qian, it's too much." Mu En frowned.

Duan Gan raised his eyebrows and glanced at Mu En, before sneering: "Oh, we all know who he is. When Duan Kun was around, we could treat him as if he didn't exist. Now that Duan Kun is gone, he is nothing."

Lu Li lowered his head, gently put down the flowers, and silently pushed the wheelchair away without saying a word, with tears filling his eyes, thinking: It's okay, just wait a little longer, maybe we'll see you later.

Back at the hospital, Lu Li quietly raised his legs, and waited for Fu Jin's injury to heal a bit before undergoing surgery on his eyes, horns, and membranes.Mu En often came to tell Lu Li about the past, Fuzheng, and Duan Kun. Lu Li liked to hear these things he didn't know. The days passed slowly. One day, Mu En brought a consent form. Come here, here is the consent form for donating the eyes, horns, and membranes. Fu Jin's injuries are almost healed and can be operated on.

Lu Li took the thin piece of paper, looked at it for a while and wrote his name on it.When I handed it to Mu En, I said to him: "Mr. Mu, I want to see Fu Jin." Mu En was also very talkative after getting the consent form, and said, "The operation is scheduled in three days. I will bring him to see you tomorrow."

"Okay." Lu Li nodded, watching Mu En turn and leave.He still has three days to see this world, he never thought this world was beautiful, there are so many dirty places, until he met Mu En and Duan Kun, they all showed him the beautiful side of this world , but in the future, he will never see it again, and no one will accompany him to see this beautiful world, so it doesn't seem so sad not to see it.

In the afternoon of the next day, Mu En pushed Fu Jin in a wheelchair to see Lu Li. Mu En knew that they had something to say, so he patted Fu Jin on the shoulder and left.

The two were silent for a long time, but Fu Jin spoke first: "What did you ask me to do?"

Lu Li raised his hand and waved it in front of Fu Jin's eyes, and found that he really couldn't see it, so he lowered his hand and said slowly, "Mr. Mu told me that when my mother was pregnant with me, she was pregnant because she was a boy in her belly. Pushed your mother down the stairs, causing your mother to give birth prematurely, and the boy she gave birth did not survive, but my mother was safe because of me, and even almost became a family wife, if I hadn't disappeared ..." Lu Li paused, "Who sent me to the orphanage?"

Fu Jin was not as impatient as usual when he heard this long speech from him, and seemed to think for a while before speaking: "It was me, I was going to kill you, but I was too young to dare to do it."

"Your mother's dystocia didn't make it through," Lu Li continued with a smile, "These are two lives, and you don't think it's enough for my mother to pay for one, so I have nothing to say when you come to ask for me. I give you my life, and from now on, there will be no debt to each other." Fu Jin was silent for a long time before saying to him, "Lu Li, do you hate me very much?"

Lu Li turned his head to look at the little bird outside the window, and heaved a long sigh: "Fu Jin, I don't even have the right to hate you." As time passed, Fu Jin whispered to Lu Li, "I'm sorry. Thank you Willing to give me eyes, horns, membranes."

Lu Li turned his head and looked at him in surprise, hesitated to speak, and finally said, "Fu Jin, if you really feel sorry for me, then if one day I'm going to die, just let me go."

Two days later, Mu En watched Fu Jin and Lu Li advance into the operating room. Before the operation, Mu En said to Lu Li, "Lu Li, don't worry, I will find another eye, horn, membrane for you. We still have a long, long time to go." In the future, don't be afraid." Lu Li looked at him, smiled and said nothing.

When Lu Li woke up from anesthesia, there was darkness in front of him. He stretched out his hand to touch his eyes, and what he touched was the gauze. Without the light, it was as if he couldn't feel time. When he couldn't see it, his voice was amplified countless times. Panic spread throughout his body. To rely on imagination, it turns out that life is so difficult after being blind.

Touching every cabinet bit by bit, Lu Li found his bag, which contained the clothes that Lu Li had put in the day before. His leg hadn't healed very well, and the doctor said it was going to heal. It took him a long time Change your clothes.

Putting his bag back on his back, he got out of bed carefully, put on his shoes, walked forward slowly, and touched the window. Lu Li found the door along the wall. He wanted to leave, but he sneaked away while no one was there.

Walking along the wall, his memory has always been very good, and he will not forget what he has seen, let alone the road he walked secretly over and over again. His legs are still lame, but he can walk while holding on to the wall.When he walked to a certain ward, he suddenly heard Fu Jin's name, and Lu Li knew that he was already very close to the elevator.

"...The transplantation of the eyes, horns, and membranes was successful, and you will be able to see when the wound heals..."

Lu Li could no longer hear the words behind him. He walked to the elevator and pressed the button. As long as he leaves here, he will be free. He wants to find the person who loves him, he wants to find Duan Kun. This time, they will be together all the time. Together.

"Ding--"

The elevator opened, Lu Li walked in, fumbled to press the first floor, and kept going down by the feeling of weightlessness. He didn't know how many floors he had reached, so he thought it would be fine to go out and ask, but someone behind him suddenly said: "Master Li, you Where are you going? Shall I go with you?"

It was Mu En's butler, and only Mu En's butler would call him "Master Li". Melt into the crowd without turning back.

Lu Li still stopped someone and asked which floor it was. He was lucky, and he really made it to the first floor. After fumbling around, he finally reached the door, and was suddenly grabbed and pushed him into the wheelchair.

"Sir, your family is looking for you, don't run around if you can't see it, who will be responsible if something goes wrong!"

It's a nurse. Lu Li doesn't know what went wrong. Why would he be pulled back by the nurse even if he wanted to leave? He shouldn't be noticed even though he changed his clothes.

When he returned to the ward, the nurse ignored him and left, but someone came in after a while and patted Lu Li's head. It was Mu En.Mu En knelt down, held Lu Li's hand, and said to him, "Lu Li, I promised Duan Kun that I will take good care of you, trust me."

Lu Li pulled out his hand and asked, "How is Fu Jin?"

"The doctor said you can see it after removing the gauze. Lu Li..." Mu En wanted to say something but Lu Li interrupted: "Mr. Mu, I'm tired, can I take a rest?" Mu En didn't agree with Lu Li like this. There was nothing to say, but I just hugged Lu Li to the bed and said to him, "Lu Li, rest well, I'll come see you tomorrow."

Later, both Lu Li and Fu Jin were discharged from the hospital. Fu Jin never came to see Lu Li again, but he also came to visit on the day Lu Li was discharged from the hospital. He touched Lu Li's head and left without saying a word. Lu Li was brought back by Mu En. I moved to the house on the hillside, the summer was not over at this time, and the mountains were full of colorful colors and full of vitality.

Mu En told Lu Li that the roses in the yard were still blooming, that the little white claw was getting fatter, that the mountains were beautiful, and that there were flying petals everywhere. The world Mu En said was as beautiful as a world in a fairy tale.

Lu Li listened to Mu En all the way, and only said when he was helped by Mu En to enter the door: "Mr. Mu, no matter how beautiful I am, I can't see it anymore." How come, when you find the eyes, horns, membranes, you will be able to see those beautiful flowers, and maybe this year's snow..."

Gradually, Lu Li no longer resisted staying with Mu En and the others, and would go for a walk on the mountain with Mu En. Mu En had always been very kind to him. Lu Li smiled slowly at Mu En, and would make beautiful pastries for him. Later, Mu En handed over to Lu Li the glass jar filled with paper cranes and bamboo sticks found in Duan Kun's small building.Duan Kun's room was far away from the kitchen, but many things were left behind. Mu En felt that Lu Li wanted these two most.

Lu Li properly placed the beautiful glass jar, took a bamboo stick and took a walk on the mountain every day, sometimes with Mu En, sometimes with the butler, walking every day, holding the bamboo stick and knocking on the rocks .

In the blink of an eye, the winter solstice was approaching, and Mu En asked Lu Li, "Lu Li, this year...will you still brew Dongyang wine?" Lu Li paused for a long time, then shook his head, and said, "I can't see the color of red yeast rice, it can't be brewed well, wait until I see it ...I'll brew it for you again..."

"it is good."

On the day of the winter solstice, Mu En was suddenly called away by Fu Jin. Lu Li took out the can of paper cranes in his room, carefully put them in his bag, picked up the bamboo stick, and walked to the door of the house step by step, as if he could see everything. He stopped at the door for a while, and walked up the mountain step by step with a bag on his back and a bamboo stick.

The other side of the mountain is actually a cliff, and there is a small river below. Lu Li can't swim. Lu Li thought, this time, no one will stop him. How good, they will meet soon.The sound of the bamboo sticks is full of joy.

Mr. Duan, if there is an afterlife, I hope we can still be together.

The author has something to say:

Oh my god, the first double update, Chiji, this time I finished a chapter in two hours, it really is better to write about abuse, ah, happy new year everyone, although it is a few days late, okay? (,,??ω?)ノ"(?っω?｀.) Omg, the eyes,, corners,, membranes are sensitive,, feeling,, words again