yesterday's wine

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Cheng Zhen's black eyes kept falling on Xia Yu's body, and those blue eyes looked at him from time to time, and only at this time, they had the courage to look at each other with such eyes.

One of their voices is soft and the other is clear. The two languages ​​are intertwined in the same melody, but it makes people feel that nothing can be more harmonious than this.

The singing stopped for a long time before the audience reacted, booing desperately:

"Who is the bravest? Who is the cutest?"

Amidst the burst of laughter, Cheng Zhen walked back to his seat calmly with Xia Yu holding his shoulders.His heart had already jumped out of his chest, and if he persisted for another second, he would lose consciousness on the spot.

There was a sharp pain in his shoulder, and Cheng Zhen's bones were almost crushed by Xia Yu. Only then did he realize that that person was also trying to calm down, and he was no better than himself.

That night, everyone kept arguing until midnight, Cheng Zhen couldn't go back to school, so he squeezed into the same bunk with Xia Yu.

In his wildest dreams, he would never have dreamed of sleeping in the same bed as him.Cheng Zhen turned his back on Xia Yu, curled up slightly, and tried his best to conceal his physiological reaction.

"All objects always maintain a state of uniform linear motion or a static state until an external force forces it to change this state... The acceleration a of an object is proportional to the resultant external force F on the object and inversely proportional to the mass m of the object. The direction is the same as the direction of the resultant external force... The action force and reaction force between two objects are always equal in magnitude and opposite in direction, acting on a straight line..."

"What are you reading?"

Xia Yu's voice was hot and itchy on the back of his neck, and Cheng Zhen's hard work suddenly failed, and his head was pressed against the wall, wanting to cry without tears.

Everyone else was sleeping soundly, only these two people couldn't fall asleep for a long time.

I don't know if it's because the heater in the dormitory is too hot, or if the hotter body is right next to him, Cheng Zhen is sweating profusely all over his body, and he is about to steam to the point of dehydration.

Xia Yu leaned against the bed rail, and the cold iron pipe didn't cool him down, and he was also suffering from the heat.

Almost at the same time, the two taboo threads snapped at the same time.They rolled over to face each other, their hot foreheads collided, and gold stars exploded in front of their eyes.

The dizziness receded, and the restlessness in the body also cooled down. Xia Yu rubbed Cheng Zhen's forehead and smiled softly.

Cheng Zhen curled up again, with his head resting on Xia Yu's collarbone, that little bit of courage had long been wiped out.He breathed in the scent of Xia Yu, and soon, sleepiness welled up in his eyelids, and he maintained that position, and fell asleep drowsily.

Xia Yu didn't move at all, he raised his hand to tuck the corner of the quilt for Cheng Zhen, and put his arms around his shoulders by the way, his bare skin was under the quilt, he had to stop here.

In this world, no one has ever treated himself like Cheng Zhen without reservation. He should cherish it instead of possessing it.

He thought of how many years ago, his parents were on guard against each other, how every penny and penny were considered, slept on the same bed, but coveted each other's academics.How many nights, he woke up in their quarrel, and stayed insomnia until dawn...

Cheng Zhen's breathing was calm and long, and he gently tapped on his chest, penetrated into the flesh and bones through the thin vest, and held his lonely heart.

Xia Yu lowered his head, his stubborn short hair poked lightly on his face, he took a deep breath, and placed a precious and heavy kiss on the tip of Cheng Zhen's hair.

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14 distance

Cheng Zhen was deeply impressed by that wet morning.

He still remembers the moment when he opened his eyes, Xia Yu's face filled his eyes, his forehead was pressed against his, his thick, light-colored eyelashes were trembling slightly, and his warm breath was blowing on his face, the distance between them was only a few centimeters ...

Cheng Zhen felt his nasal cavity heat up, and blood flowed out of his mouth.

Xia Yu woke up in his fuss, pinched his nose accurately, and took out the toilet paper from under the pillow with his other hand to wipe his face.

Cheng Zhen supported his body with his elbows, and let him work on his face, his wandering eyes fell on the package of paper in Xia Yu's hand.Thinking that he was putting papers under the pillow just like himself, as if he had discovered some great secret, he secretly smiled ignorantly.

However, before the smile spread, he discovered an embarrassing fact, that damp secret would soon be revealed to Xia Yu.

Blame it on this ambiguous distance, worse than all his dreams.

Xia Yu's roommate was still sleeping soundly. He stopped Cheng Zhen's nosebleed, but he didn't intend to get up, and kept that position, his movements were indescribably stiff.They looked at each other nervously on the bunk, as if they were hiding secrets that were hard to see.A spark flashed in Cheng Zhen's mind, and he suddenly lifted the quilt, and saw Xia Yu turned over and jumped off the upper bunk, ran to the door barefoot, and opened the wardrobe door.

The cabinet door blocked Cheng Zhen's line of sight, and he could guess some things without seeing them clearly.He really lay back on the bed and laughed silently.He stuffed a handful of toilet paper into his underpants, then got dressed and climbed down.

At breakfast that day, they ate in silence, tacitly ignoring the embarrassment just now.

After returning to school, Cheng Zhen could no longer read the cartoons of his classmates. On the night of New Year's Day, it became a new source of material for him to roll in bed, and he would not get tired of it after several weeks.

Compared with the winter vacation cram school with no rest day, Cheng Zhen prefers to start school, at least he can take a short errand on weekends and meet people he misses.

Not just Cheng Zhen, everyone has an outlet to vent their pressure. After all, people who study wholeheartedly are different everywhere.

He gradually discovered that the pastimes of classmates are not all as boring as roommates, and many of them have specialties.Some people read a lot, some know one or two musical instruments, some can draw, some have won the sprint championship in the city's elementary and middle school sports meeting... These are not just adjustments to their studies, but also add a little more glory to their already excellent lives .

In contrast, Cheng Zhen seemed too ordinary. He had never demonstrated the elementary school-level Russian in his class, and after learning it intermittently for several years, he hadn't mastered accurate pronunciation either.

So he was no longer embarrassed to see Xia Yu every week, and he didn't make so many phone calls.

On those troubled nights, he always ran on the playground until he was exhausted, and his physical strength and restlessness died together.

Cheng Zhen lay on the fake lawn in the middle of the playground, stretched out a hand, wanting to touch the distant moon, but knew it was impossible.

Everyone has a clear goal, or a certain university, or a certain life. He finally understood Xia Yu's question back then, "What kind of person do you want to be? Where are you going?" He didn't want to be like Xia Yu, I have been bound in the hospital all my life, living a life that I can see the end at a glance, but I don't know my future, which direction it will lead to...

"What are you doing lying down?" The female deskmate's voice sounded above her head.

She often comes for a run, claiming to lose weight, but her body is very thin, and he can't see what she wants to lose.

Cheng Zhen sat up silently, and his deskmate sat down next to him.

"Look at the stars?"

Cheng Zhen didn't really want to chat, so he just said "hmm", but she pointed to the sky and told the names of several constellations and their legends in succession.He followed her fingers without seeing the reason for a long time, but was triggered by her hobby and felt inferior, so he was silent for a while.

"Hey, where are you?" She poked his arm with her elbow.

What do you do?Cheng Zhen didn't realize it for a moment, a bunch of nouns flashed in his mind, cells, tissues, organs... Or, water, protein, nucleic acid?

"Constellation?" The tablemate's expression was a little surprised, it was hard to understand his ignorance.

He really didn't study it, he shook his head blankly, and his inferiority complex deepened.

"When is your birthday?"

"December 8."

"I can't tell at all! You are actually a Leo!"

"Then what happened?"

She taught him the knowledge of constellations for a long time, and Cheng Zhen was ignorant of what she heard. She just felt that what she said was right, and that she was indeed not that "enthusiastic, cheerful, and good at communication".

A long time ago, maybe there was. At that time, I and Xia Yu went out of school together, but I can barely use these words to describe it.

All his enthusiasm was given to the same person.Xia Yu is his only outlet, and he has been sharing and bearing, but he doesn't even know his birthday.

At the thought of this, Cheng Zhen was bitten by self-blame and was speechless.

Seeing that he didn't speak, the deskmate thought about it for a long time, but he didn't find what he said wrong. He looked up and saw the telephone booth next to the playground, and suddenly realized:

"How's your girlfriend doing? It's been a while since you called."

"I don't even know when his birthday is."

"No wonder..."

"what?"

"If I were her, I would have dumped you long ago."

The deskmate stood up and patted her body, and started her weight loss career again.

The dialogue between the chicken and the duck, every sentence touched the heart, Cheng Zhen lay on the lawn, and when there was no one else on the playground, he got up in frustration and went back to the dormitory.

Xia Yu's second half of the semester is also very busy.

On the day when Cheng Zhen vented on the playground, he was in the dissection room, face to face with the cold general teacher.Formalin made everyone run into tears, and every time after class, Xia Yu's eyes were extraordinarily bright.

His mobile phone is turned on 24 hours a day, and he always carries it close to him, but Cheng Zhen calls less and less.Xia Yu wanted to go to high school to find Cheng Zhen several times, but looking at the embarrassed face in the mirror, he could only sigh and give up.

But he couldn't endure the summer vacation after all.

Xia Yu rode his bike all the way, the evening wind couldn't blow away the heat in his heart, the memory of that night was too deep for him to turn the page.

Cheng Zhen grew up day by day, and he couldn't control himself more and more.

He has long been used to Cheng Zhen sitting next to him, flipping and writing quietly, and that image is burned into him every weekend, until it suddenly disappears, and he feels the irritability of a withdrawal reaction.How many times on the phone, Cheng Zhen asked himself "when can we meet" in a simple voice, and every time he finished a long paragraph, he ended it with a casual "missing you"...

After hanging up the phone, he dared to answer "I miss you too" in his heart.

Xia Yu parked the car near the playground. He knew that Cheng Zhen was probably running at this time.He wanted to stay outside the fence and watch quietly for a while before going back, but he saw Cheng Zhen lying on the lawn, a delicate girl sitting beside him, they were chatting there, like a pair of campus couples who fell in love early.

He stood motionless outside the wall until they finished chatting, the girl ran a few laps and left the playground, and Cheng Zhen slowly returned to the dormitory.

Xia Yu completely cooled down.

It was also completely dark.

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15 chicks

At the end of the semester, Cheng Zhen and his roommate packed up their things and went home.

He pondered for half a semester before he had a vague direction for the future. At the end of the semester, he was divided into arts and sciences, and he filled in the form of arts.

In the medical school at that time, there were basically no liberal arts students in clinical majors, so Chang Qing was very disappointed with his choice. After complaining that he did not discuss with himself, he looked at him expectantly:

"If you want to study literature, the School of Traditional Chinese Medicine is also good! Otherwise, what else can you study, nursing? Although it's a bit hard..."

Cheng Zhen was furious for a moment, and anger rushed to his forehead.He couldn't understand why other people's parents never asked their children to inherit their careers, but she, like Xia Yu's father, didn't know that there were so many choices in this world.

He could understand that the nurse joked with him about the "source of infection", but he didn't understand how his mother backed down when she was scolded again and again, especially when they tried their best and failed to save the patient, but the family members regarded her as a murderer—— Didn't it kill them by toxic chemicals, by their negligence, by lax factory management?

What is wrong with them that makes them so persistent in this profession?

"are you crazy?!"

Cheng Zhen couldn't hold back his anger anymore, slammed the door and left.

As he grew older, he and his mother had more and more conflicts. Living on campus protected them from quarreling, but when the holidays came, all the conflicts broke out.Without her urging, Cheng Zhen went to make up lessons by himself, not seeking to make progress, but seeking to be clean.

He told this experience to Xia Yu, who just smiled wryly.

"You never told me why you study medicine, don't tell me those stereotypes, and don't talk about your feelings."

Xia Yu raised his head and thought for a long time, and only choked out one sentence: "I don't know where to start."

Cheng Zhen was so angry that he wanted to hit someone.

"Do you mind this?" Xia Yu touched his head. Cheng Zhen's hair is not short, but it is very hard, and it feels like a hedgehog. Not willing to start.

Cheng Zhen avoided him irritably, and blurted out: "Of course I mind! You will have endless scolding and extra classes in the future..."

He didn't realize it until halfway through the conversation, but it was too late to shut up.

Xia Yu smiled softly, but he didn't let go of his loopholes: "Whether I work overtime or not, what do you care?"

Grumpy is to cover up a guilty conscience.

This sentence has been verified by Cheng Zhen.He jumped up and grabbed Xia Yu's hand, and pressed him on the bed with his knee.It was a rare day to rest, and he went to Xia Yu's house again. The neighbors were all at work, and there were only the two of them in the house, and no one heard what they were doing.

Xia Yu resisted several times but failed to break free, his whole body was under his pressure, Cheng Zhen was tired, so he kept lying on him in that position.After a while, he felt that this posture was awkward again, so he kicked off his slippers, climbed onto the bed, and lay down next to Xia Yu.

He didn't find it awkward that the two were lying on the bed with their limbs intertwined.

"Cheng Zhen," Xia Yu turned his back to him, his voice a little hoarse, "Do you know what you're doing?"

Cheng Zhen hugged Xia Yu, pressing his forehead against the back of his head. He vaguely knew what this meant, but he didn't dare to speak, so he had to bluff and tighten his arms, trying to cut off his doubts.

Fortunately, Xia Yu didn't ask further.He thought of the scene of Cheng Zhen sitting with a girl on the playground that night, and naturally changed the topic:

"Is there a girl you like?"

"No." Cheng Zhen answered bluntly, which made Xia Yu feel that what he saw that day was a hallucination, "Do you have any?"

"I don't have time for relationships."

"That's right, you have as many classes as seniors in high school... I didn't mean that!" Cheng Zhen didn't want to mention his repetition, and quickly apologized, but he didn't understand what Xia Yu meant by "no time".

His extracurricular time is filled by Cheng Zhen, so how can he have other distractions?

"By the way, when is your birthday?"

"February 11st, what happened?"

"November 11th... what seat is it..." Cheng Zhen tried hard to recall the popular science at the same table, it was too complicated, and he was a little irritable.

"Scorpio."

"Huh? How do you know this?"

Xia Yu was a little surprised: "This is a very common topic, don't you guys talk about it?"

Cheng Zhen doesn't like socializing, and doesn't pay much attention to what other people talk about.

"What about you?"

"They say Leo."

"It's a bit like it." Xia Yu turned around, smiled and nodded his forehead, "Like a big cat, always blowing hair, and loves to stretch its claws."

Cheng Zhen couldn't bear the teasing, his face flushed.

Xia Yu had no choice but to let him go: "What day is it?"

"June...the 8st."

Xia Yu repeated that day and said "I remember".

However, before that day, Xia Yu's family moved away.

The news that the family building will be demolished has been circulating for a long time, but no one plans to move. The new staff dormitory has not been broken for a long time. At that time, there was no policy of buying out the public housing, and everyone was deadlocked.Xia Siwei directly bought a furnished commercial house, which was rare at the time, and was the first to leave Tongzilou under the envious eyes of everyone.

Cheng was really making up lessons on the day of the move, and when he came back, the end of the corridor was already empty.

He uncontrollably pushed open the door of his mother's room: "Why did you move away?!"

Chang Qing was very surprised: "Do I need to say hello to you?"

Cheng Zhen squeezed the doorknob, speechless, and returned to his room like a walking dead.The schoolbag hung on his shoulder until he completely collapsed before falling to the ground.

Xia Yu admits that leaving without saying goodbye has caused him great harm.He has no say in his father's decision, but he can at least tell Cheng Zhen in advance so that he can be mentally prepared.It's just that his mentality was very complicated at that time, and he wanted to take this opportunity to cool down their relationship.

Cheng Zhen insisted on asking him to tell the reason.

Xia Yu was forced to the wall by him, and had no choice but to hold up the cardboard box in his hand:

"Is it too late for your birthday?"

Cheng Zhen gave him a push: "It's over!"

Xia Yu was hit on the chest, and his back hit the wall, but his heart could no longer be hardened. The hurt look in his eyes made him feel distressed, and it also pierced his disguise.

That night, they chose to meet in Xia's old house, which was the only space where they would not be disturbed, and it had witnessed too many secrets of them.The furniture has not been removed, and it still exudes the old atmosphere. Xia Yu slowly wiped the dust in the room with his eyes, and finally fell on Cheng Zhen.

He suddenly felt like a liar.

"Cheng Zhen, I don't want to leave."

As soon as the words fell, Cheng Zhen lost half of his anger.

"Isn't the new house nice, and there's an elevator." He put Xia Yu's cake box on the table, and patted the ashes on his back, "But you shouldn't have told me."

Xia Yu lowered his head, thinking that he had not told him too many things.

"I'm not a kid anymore."

Cheng Zhen said that he was "16 years old", but he started to remove the ribbon on the carton. For too many years, no one celebrated his birthday, and now his self-control has degenerated like a child.

When unpacking the carton, cream got on Cheng Zhen's fingers, and he subconsciously sucked it into his mouth, Xia Yu's heart melted.Soft pain flowed in his chest, and wherever he went, he let go of his persistence, and the false shell collapsed. In the smoke and ruins, he hugged Cheng Zhen into his arms.

"I can't take it anymore."

Cheng Zhen didn't know why, so he patted him on the back: "It's me."

"You do not understand……"

"Then tell me, let me understand."

Xia Yu let go of him, his eye circles were a little red, he looked down at the slightly deformed cake, wiped off the cream stuck on the carton, and put it into his mouth:

"Actually, I really like sweets."

"I really can't see it."

Xia Yu unwrapped the candle, knife and fork: "Would you like to light a candle and make a wish?"

"No," Cheng Zhen frowned, "It's too 'that', cut it directly."

Xia Yu then cut the cake into small pieces and gave him a piece. After watching him swallow the last bite, he asked, "Does it taste different?"

"Hmm. It's different from what I've eaten before."

Xia Yu divided two more dollars, one for him and one for himself.

"I searched many places, and finally found a hotel. Their pastry chef is Russian." Xia Yu took a bite of the cake, and the cream, which was slightly harder than ordinary cakes, melted in his mouth. He closed his eyes reminiscently, "Do it with her The cake tastes the same as…”

"When I was young, she liked to make these for me. She always added so much sugar, and I didn't think it was too sweet. At that time, I was quite fat, can you imagine?" Xia Yu smiled and took another bite.

Cheng Zhen shook his head, and felt that the cake on his plate was more delicious.

"I didn't go to kindergarten. She often took me to school, just like your mother took you to the hospital, and I played in her laboratory."

"What's the fun in that?"

"It's very interesting. There are many small animals, such as rabbits, mice, and frogs. There are also reagents in various colors, which are very beautiful. I always thought they were beverages. Once she drank the contents of the test tube while she was not paying attention. .”

Cheng Zhen let out an "ah", Xia Yu took the opportunity to wipe off the cream on the corner of his lips, and licked his fingers naturally.

"I almost died. She gave me my first life 20 years ago, and that year, she gave me the second. I didn't understand anything at the time, I just thought she was like a magician. You ask me why I learned Doctor, I never considered other options."

"Then—" Cheng Zhen hesitated for a moment, but still asked, "Why did she leave you?"

Xia Yu was still smiling, with a bitter smile: "Magicians are human too, and they always have many problems. Leaving laboratories and hospitals, there are too few things they can solve."

Cheng Zhen thought of his parents, felt the same in his heart, and bowed his head silently.

"Cheng Zhen," Xia Yu held up his chin, "I also have many problems, many, many..."

"what is the problem……"

The face was getting closer and closer, the blue eyes were like whirlpools, Cheng Zhen sank deeper and deeper, unable to move at all.

"Only you can solve it." Xia Yu stopped a few centimeters in front of him, their noses were lightly pressed together, and their breathing was equally rapid, "Will you help me solve it..."

Cheng Zhen nodded without thinking, but Xia Yu backed away.

He was ashamed to face those unreserved black eyes, they were like a mirror, reflecting the private thoughts in his heart with nowhere to hide.

"I am willing."

What problem could there be in this world that needs such an underage boy to solve?

"I am willing."

Xia Yu's fists were clenched white, and he was scorched by the flames of guilt and shame.

"I do, do you hear me?"

Cheng Zhen didn't hear a reply for a long time, so he went to "solve the problem" by himself, cupped his face, took a deep breath and kissed him on the lips.

In fact, it wasn't even a kiss, because Cheng Zhen didn't know the word "kiss" at all, and there were so many things behind it. All he understood was that the lips of two people came together—otherwise what else could it be? ?

"Isn't it just a kiss?" He blushed and was out of breath, "What's the big deal..."

He hugged Xia Yu and kissed him a few more times, muttering while kissing: "I've wanted to do this for a long time, you always treat me as a child...why don't I know?"

"You really don't know anything."

Before Cheng Zhen could react, he felt his world spinning, and his whole body was overturned by a huge force, and he was crushed on the table.

Xia Yu's breath completely swallowed him, and he finally understood what kissing is. It turned out that the size of the tongue can cause such a big storm.Cheng Zhen pushed Xia Yu's shoulders, like a chick thrown into the sea for the first time, flustered and embarrassed, clumsily dealing with the shaking world.

"Alyosha..."

He doesn't know the magic of the nickname, which is the key to a forbidden door that can only unlock more madness.Xia Yu only gave him a second to breathe before dragging him into an even more brutal abyss... Cheng Zhen instinctively closed his eyes and trembled violently in his embrace.

It was just a kiss, but it seemed to deprive him of his innocence, allowing him to taste the bitterness and joy of the adult world in advance.

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16 better people

At four o'clock in the morning, the outside of the window began to turn pale. Cheng Zhen couldn't close his eyes anymore. He got out of bed with a weak body, cleaned up the toilet paper, and opened the window to disperse the smell of hormones in the room before he dared to open the door and go out to wash.

Last night, he was led into a strange world by Xia Yu, and in that storm-like frenzy, he slightly touched the temptation of that world.

A few minutes is enough to make him addicted.

As soon as Cheng Zhen broke free from Xia Yu's embrace, he pressed him against the wall in the same way, and kissed him until he was dizzy.When they regained their breath, they found that each other's shirts had long been missing, and their naked upper bodies were pressed against each other, sweat melting into one place.He buried his face on the side of Xia Yu's neck, his whole body was scalded to death, a certain place shamelessly poked his lower abdomen, and the other party did the same.

He quietly put his hand down, the place had been hard for a long time, and it was swollen and painful. He thought that Xia Yu must also feel very uncomfortable, so he unbuttoned his trousers first.

"Don't move." Xia Yu grabbed his wrist and brought it to a safe place.

Cheng Zhen had no way to relieve himself, he moved his body instinctively, his voice was a little fluttered by the heat, he didn't know how to describe the impulse in his heart, so he could only pray in his ear repeatedly:

"Miss you...I miss you..."

"I know, I miss you too..." Xia Yu sighed, kissing the sweat off his forehead, "Some things don't have to be done all at once, and it shouldn't be now."

"Then when will it be..." Cheng Zhen put his arms around his shoulders, with a bit of grievance in his tone.

Xia Yu laughed until he lost all desire, cupped his face, and gave him a pure Cheng Zhen-style kiss.

"Wait until you grow up a bit and understand what you really want...Maybe at that time, you don't want it anymore."

"Impossible!" Cheng Zhen bit his lips ferociously, and wanted to stir up his enthusiasm with his tongue as before, but he tried hard for a long time, but he couldn't make Xia Yu's breathing messy, and he lay on his shoulder in frustration: "You don't know, I miss you every night."

Xia Yu stroked the back of his head without responding.

So does he.

This is completely different from Cheng Zhen's desire for him. The former is a normal adolescent impulse, while he is a crime.

"Stop talking, okay?"

"Um……"

The two picked up the clothes on the ground, put them on, and kept their eyes away from each other's body tacitly, so as not to spark any further sparks.

Cheng Zhen finished the cake absently, feeling that sweets were not as attractive as when he was a child.He has just tasted the sweetest emotion in the world, and all the good experiences in the past are nothing compared to it.

That night, he tossed and turned insomnia, and used his fingers instead of Xia Yu's lips and tongue, reminiscing about the trembling of his heart a few hours ago. He reviewed the activities in the bed over and over until dawn.

The boy who has tasted the sweetness does not have enough self-control to abstain from sexual intercourse. On the weekends after school starts, Cheng Zhen always gets tired of Xia Yu's side and kisses each other whenever he finds an opportunity.

Xia Yu was often pushed to the edge of losing control by his "progress", leaving red marks on his neck that were not light or heavy, and then he suddenly woke up.Under Cheng Zhen's collar is his restricted area, and nights like New Year's Day must never happen again, and they must never spend the night together.

"I always feel that you treat me like a woman." Cheng Zhen was very dissatisfied, "I don't have that layer of film, what are you worried about?"

Xia Yu glanced at him: "This has nothing to do with men and women. Moreover, the hymen is only a part of the sexual organs and has no other meaning."

"That's not what I meant, just...you understand what I'm going to say, it's not a big deal, right? One person does it, two people..."

"Cheng Zhen." Xia Yu became very serious. He turned Cheng Zhen's shoulders and faced him face to face. "It's not as simple as two people having fun together, at least not for me."

He looked at Cheng Zhen's still ignorant face: "I'm very glad that nothing more happened that night. The more important something is, the less it should be treated hastily..." He stopped and calmed down his intense emotions, but he didn't say anything The rest of the words.

The more important a person is, the less he should be easily possessed.

"You still said that you don't care about that. It's 2002, and feudalism has been overthrown long ago." Cheng Zhen pouted and continued to do history questions.

Xia Yu smiled wryly and shook his head: "You don't understand."

Although puzzled, Cheng Zhen still respected Xia Yu's persistence, and he always tasted the intimacy every time, and gradually learned to control the wild horse-like desire, so as not to let it occupy his consciousness.This is not only a subject for Cheng Zhen, but also a necessary practice for every young man who is about to grow up. Xia Yu has withstood the test. He hopes that Cheng Zhen can also walk to the other side of his ideal clearly in the chaos of this age.

Soon, Cheng Zhen found an outlet for this huge and vigorous power, and he transformed the desire to possess Xia Yu's body into a spiritual thirst for knowledge.He has regained his reading hobby many years ago. While Xia Yu is pursuing depth on a road, he is also expanding the breadth of his cognition.

He was surprised to find that he and his classmates had more and more topics, and he could not only catch the ball thrown by the opponent, but also send it from another angle.

When communication becomes a pleasure, Cheng Zhen also walks out of loneliness.

Although he has made many friends, Xia Yu is still an irreplaceable existence. Whenever he finds an opportunity, he will still pester Xia Yu.

After the kiss was over, Cheng Zhen talked about his recent experience and talked about some interesting topics with people, just like ten years ago.

Bright flames shone in his eyes, immersed in the joy of telling, completely oblivious to Xia Yu's eyes, already as gentle as water, flowing with deeper emotions.

"Cheng Zhen," he hugged that tall and straight body, "you are getting better and better."

"I was fine."

"But some things haven't changed."

Xia Yu searched his face for a long time, but didn't know where to kiss him. Cheng Zhen waited impatiently, bit his lips, and kissed him simply and rudely.

"Of course it won't change, I still want to be with you."

Xia Yu smiled: "Do you know what it means to be together?"

"So?" Cheng Zhen kissed again, "Is it still like this?"

"That doesn't count."

"Then what do you say?"

He pounced on him and pestered Xia Yu in different ways, until they were all blushing, and wanted to break through the taboo, but Xia Yu still didn't say anything.

"You really can't think about it." He knocked on Xia Yu with his forehead.

"I will be yours sooner or later."

"Isn't it now?"

Xia Yu was forced to the wall by him, so he had no choice but to admit: "Yes, yes..."

Cheng Zhen's eyes lit up again, and he lay next to his ear, repeating the wish that had been rejected a hundred times.

"No." Xia Yu pushed him away cruelly.

"Why?" Cheng Zhen was wronged again.

Xia Yu had already explained the reason a hundred times, so at this moment he just watched him quietly until Cheng Zhen was discouraged and ravaged him in retaliation.

Xia Yu kept sending him to the bus station and stuffed some money in his pocket.

"What are you doing?"

"scholarship."

"Hey, have you learned how to hand over your wages?" After Cheng Zhen laughed viciously, he suddenly felt that the words were not in the right taste, and hurriedly made amends, "You wait, I will support my family in the future, and I will definitely be able to support you!"

"The more you say it, the more unreliable it is." Xia Yu pushed his shoulder, "The car is here."

Cheng Zhen looked around, kissed him quickly, and was about to get into the car when Xia Yu suddenly grabbed his hand and said seriously:

"It can be even better."

"Yeah. I know."

"Be careful on the road."

The driver honked the horn, Cheng Zhen hurriedly jumped into the car, Xia Yu followed the passenger car until it disappeared at the end of the road.

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17 Confused Desire

Rebellion in adolescence is not an absolute thing, such as Cheng Zhen.

The teacher and mother asked him to "use more snacks" more than once, but he ignored them all. If he said too much, it would be counterproductive. Xia Yu said "it can be better", but it made him feel that endorsement is a pleasure.Especially on the weekends when he was together, the two of them sat together and read books separately, and they couldn't speak a few words all day long. Occasionally, they would do some sneaky tricks, which could make him happy for a week.

And these small actions have also become a unique support for Cheng Zhen's endorsement:

"Wheat is mainly grown in the Songnen Plain... once a year" - they only kissed once in the whole week, and that kiss was almost discovered by others;

"Enlightenment thinkers were not satisfied with respecting human nature, but demanded the liberation of human beings" - Xia Yu was also very "liberated" that day, pinching his fingers in the library all the time;

"Starting from reality and making the subjective conform to the objective is the fundamental foothold for people to correctly understand and transform the world"——Xia Yu pretended to be like that, saying that he had no idea, and did not proceed from reality at all...

"Cheng Zhen, you are really perverted..."

The roommate stared at Cheng Zhen's small tent with a distorted expression. The picture of Cheng Zhen's physical reaction while doing the questions completely shattered his worldview.

Cheng Zhen slapped the table and laughed.

He seldom laughed like this. Apart from the absurdity of the matter itself, it also had a bit of catharsis. He could chat with them, but he couldn't confide in anyone.

Classes are getting tighter every day, and the impulse of youth is getting stronger every day. The roommates come up with various ways to release them.

Someone brought dumbbells and a tension machine, took off only a pair of underwear, and made indescribable sounds while practicing.Someone upgraded the old method and turned black-and-white comics into color movies. The computer cheated from parents didn't have any learning materials, and two people could play the whole movie when it was full.

Whenever the cinema in the dormitory opened, other activities stopped one after another, and the hot-blooded audience steamed up the room temperature by several degrees, only Cheng Zhen was cold around him.

He was also surprised, at an age when he could get an erection watching pig breeding videos on agricultural shows, but he didn't respond to such exciting things, no matter if it was the heroine or the actor.

He even felt faintly sick.

No one could understand Cheng Zhen's indifference, they didn't give up, and found more curious videos for him to watch, Cheng Zhen's eyes were destroyed round after round, bitter