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At this moment, Bai Wuye, who had only ninety-seven cents left in his card, was staring at the casual suit in the glass cabinet with a bitter face, wondering if his credit limit was enough to buy someone a sleeve.

Qin Zhanbai stood behind him, smiling without saying a word.

A sip of fruit juice ruined Qin Zhanbai's hairstyle and clothes. The hairstyle is fine, just scrub it with water.The clothes were not good. Looking at the deep and shallow water stains on the fabric with excellent hand feel, Bai Wuye was shocked. First, she felt guilty, and second, she changed the subject and pulled Qin Zhanbai out of the self-service steak shop to the opposite side. Commercial building to buy clothes.As a result, when he was blown by the cool wind outside, he remembered his pitiful balance in Kari.

Trembling and stubbornly walking into the most low-key clothing store, Bai Wuye saw the casual suit that was very similar to Qin Zhanbai's in the glass cabinet opposite the door at a glance, and finally took a closer look. price down...

Don't mention it, my brain hurts.

Seeing him frowning all by himself, not even noticing his own expression reflected on the glass cabinet, although Qin Zhanbai was shocked by his reaction for a moment, he couldn't bear to continue to embarrass him, and stepped forward to give him a hand.

"Okay, my clothes are not worth much. You can wear them after you take them back to be washed and washed. You don't have to think about compensation." Qin Zhanbai thoughtfully didn't mention what happened just now, and stepped on his conscience by the way, putting the suit on his body. The custom-made clothes sounded like ordinary clothes with a cost of more than ten yuan on the roadside stalls, trying to appease Bai Wuye's tangled heart.

However, he didn't know that in fact, Bai Wuye wasn't entangled in clothes, what he was entangled in was that he only had ninety-seven cents in his card.

Embarrassed but politely forced a little smile, Bai Wuye grabbed the corner of his clothes and apologized: "I'm really sorry. So what...how about I wash it for you?"

He swore that he was really just asking casually without thinking about it, but Qin Zhanbai's eyes lit up and his lips moved, as if he couldn't wait to agree.But when the words came to his lips, he held back and shook his head helplessly.

Qin Zhanbai couldn't bear Bai Wuye to wash his clothes for himself, but he wanted to wash Bai Wuye's clothes, but it was not yet time.

"Don't worry, it really doesn't matter." Qin Zhanbai thought for a while, pulled Bai Wuye out of the store under the silent scrutiny of all the waiters, and let go of the quilt before he reacted and wanted to free himself. He pushed the gift box back on the ground, and said sincerely, "If you still feel sorry, please accept it."

Bai Wuye was startled, opened his mouth slightly, and heard him add before he could speak: "I've been picking for a long time, but actually...it's not a valuable item."

The person who gave the gift said so, and Bai Wuye couldn't bear to embarrass him twice. He hesitated for a moment, but still reached out to take it: "Then...then I accept it. But..."

"I know, this doesn't mean you accept me. I also understand that what I said was too abrupt, which scared you." Qin Zhanbai lowered his head and smiled slightly. Qin Zhanbai pushed his glasses. Emotions, deep and complex, "Do you want to know why I like you and when did I like you?"

Bai Wuye was about to ask this, so he mentioned it himself, nodded vigorously, and rubbed the back of his head embarrassedly: "I'm really curious. You said we've only known each other for a week, and you don't seem like the kind of person who has feelings for each other." Very casual person, so..."

"I'm really not casual." Qin Zhanbai interrupted his unfinished words, and the extremely serious mood in his eyes shocked him even if it was covered by glasses, "I like you for eight years."

Bai Wuye's eyes widened in astonishment, and the box in his hand fell to the ground.

……

When Bai Wuye was in the first year of junior middle school in W city's key middle school, Qin Zhanbai was also an intern teacher in that school.He started school at the age of six, and took ten years to complete the courses from elementary school to junior year, and he was doing internships in senior year and first year of research.However, his parents arranged for him to study abroad before he finished his graduate studies in China. Because of this, he missed the best opportunity to get close to Bai Wuye.

When Qin Zhanbai was kidnapped in his senior year, he suffered from stress-induced split personality. He didn't dare to let his parents know, so he moved to W City, not only to receive treatment, but also to relax.During that gloomy time of being hallucinated and tortured by another personality, it was Bai Wuye who healed him.

This young man has the brightest smile in the world. No matter what situation he is in, when he smiles, he will give people the feeling that the whole world is lit up and the flowers in the whole world are blooming.In those two years, relying on his smile, relying on his occasional short greetings and care, Qin Zhanbai carried it through and healed his wounded body and mind.

Perhaps it is difficult for others to understand why he healed the wound in his heart because of a stranger's smile.But that's only because they are not Qin Zhanbai, and they don't have Bai Wuye by their side.

"Although you don't remember me anymore, I really thought that you were my only salvation in this world."

The night wind blows coolly, rubbing against the branches and leaves of the surrounding plants and rustling.In the pitch-black sky, white snowflakes suddenly floated and fell slowly one by one, lighting up the sky full of stars and the lights of thousands of houses.

Bai Wuye walked beside Qin Zhanbai silently, listening to his rambling narration, her eyes were a little dazed.

In fact, he really doesn't remember much about junior high school. The only thing that impresses him most is the first love that failed so badly, and the hard work of editing in order to calm down the restlessness in his heart. If he doesn't exhaust his energy by editing videos, he will spend the whole night Painful hours of sleepless nights.How can he heal other people's smiles like that?

Turning his eyes, Qin Zhanbai looked at Bai Wuye tenderly and smiled slightly, his long eyelashes blinked, and the deep affection overflowed his eyes.

"I know, you liked the study committee member of your class at that time." He said the horrified words in a very flat tone, like a thunderclap on the ground, which made Bai Wuye's eyes black.

How could he even know this?

Qin Zhanbai's smile was slightly suppressed, and his expression was cold.

Bai Wuye's first love was in the second year of junior high school. He liked the study committee member in his class. He was an extremely outstanding boy. Not only did he have excellent grades, but he was also handsome and good at writing.It was also at that time that Bai Wuye realized that his sexual orientation was different from ordinary people.

He was so scared that he didn't dare to tell anyone, so he could only secretly write it in his diary, trying to hide the secret forever.But his diary fell into the hands of the class for some reason, so he became the laughing stock of the whole class, and became an existence that everyone hated.

Although the head teacher wanted to save his face, he didn't want to cause bad influence, so he asked the students to keep it secret.However, during that time, the contemptuous and indifferent eyes of the teachers and classmates, and the annoying alienation of the study committee members made his heart bleed.He began to suffer from insomnia, depression, and irritability, and had to find other ways to divert his attention, and editing was one of them.

Just one year later, he was divided into classes in the third grade of junior high school. Because his grades dropped too badly, he was assigned to the worst class in the grade. He also performed abnormally in the senior high school entrance examination and went to a second-rate school. capital.

After entering high school, he suppressed his grief, gritted his teeth and started to work hard, and finally got into W University.In fact, based on his scores, domestic universities are almost up to him to choose, but he doesn't want to go to Capital University, and since he can't go to the best one, he might as well stay in the local area, which will have a more competitive advantage in future employment, so he stayed.

Now that time has passed, the events of that year have blurred into a blur in Bai Wuye's memory, and he even forgot the people he loved and hated.I forgot my first and last name, I forgot my appearance, and only a little liking remained in my heart. Every time I inadvertently thought of it, it would hurt my heart, but that was all.

"I'm sorry that I didn't accompany you when you were in the most pain, otherwise we would be a couple now. You healed my pain, but I couldn't be there when you needed help the most." Qin Zhanbai I didn't dare to look at his expression that became blank for a moment, because every time I thought about it, he would be filled with resentment.Even if he was an outsider, let alone Bai Wuye.

"...Actually, I don't remember, I really forgot. Whether it's you, the study committee member, or the cloudy years, I have already swept them into the corner of time." Bai Wuye stopped walking, deeply With his head bowed deeply, his bangs slipped and cast a shadow, enveloping his expression.

"But when you told me about these things today, I still feel sad and feel a little pain in my heart. The wound I thought had healed was still there, but it just turned into a scar, and it hurts when I touch it."

The snow is getting heavier, the cool wind blows, and the ground is full of debris.

"However, it's nice." He raised his head suddenly, his eyes reflected sparkling clear waves, scorching stars, and dripping water, "It turns out that when I was so sad, I could still smile so happily. And the ability to heal other people, I'm happy, really."

Qin Zhanbai's heart suffocated.He held his breath and looked at Bai Wuye and thanked him with a smile. For some reason, he felt a pain in his heart.

why are you thankingI did not do anything.I did nothing when you needed me the most.

"Maybe you didn't know that something happened that year." Bai Wuye smiled as brightly as before, but the water in his eyes was even brighter, "My parents divorced. I have never accepted this. Because of this matter, I lie to myself and others, they are just too busy with work, so they don’t see each other all year round.”

"Sometimes, I even deceived myself, counting the days with my cats in my arms, saying that they will come back to accompany me to eat New Year's Eve dinner and watch the Spring Festival Gala with me after the Spring Festival. We can still clean up together, and Post Spring Festival couplets and take pictures together in new clothes.”

"But counting and counting, I will suddenly remember that they will not come back. They have started a new life in another country. The only one who stays here waiting, looking forward to, is me... that's all."

Bai Wuye blankly looked up at the snow falling all over the sky, raised his hand to catch one piece, and watched it melt into water droplets at his fingertips, "It's this kind of snow. I have seen it with them before and built snowmen together. But now , but I can only see it by myself.”

……

He thought he had the best parents in the world.

The kind father, full of bookishness, said whoever said it when he opened his mouth.I don't like to cook, and I talk about "a gentleman far away from the kitchen" every day, but I cook noodles for him on his birthday, cook porridge for him when he is sick, and tell him stories by hugging him, over and over again. Teach him to write, read, take the trouble.

A strong mother, a strong woman, is busy with work every day, never bows her head to others, often gets angry, but never loses her temper with him and her father.To be strong, she only cried once in her life, and that was when the doctor said that he was suffering from acute pneumonia and it was very likely that he would not be able to recover. She cried heart-piercingly outside the ward.

They have traveled to many places together, took many photos, and have many fond memories.I once sat in the yard watching the moon and chatting and laughing during the Mid-Autumn Festival, and once cleaned together during the Spring Festival, laughing at each other's embarrassed appearance.We used to ride the carousel together, ride the roller coaster together, and try all kinds of new things together.

We once planted a lot of flowers and plants in the yard together. My father was in charge of pruning and my mother was in charge of watering.But mother kept forgetting, so the job fell to him.Every time he saw him helplessly holding the kettle to water, his mother would always laugh, and his father would ask him dotingly if he wanted to help.

Had promised never to separate.

He grew up day by day, and became a handsome and intelligent boy in the eyes of others. He naively thought that such a time would never end, that he would be happy like this forever.

But they eventually dropped him.

In his most painful time.

Now, the flowers in the yard are still there, but he is the only one left in the family.

……

Bai Wuye embraced the pillow, buried her face under the pillow, and fell asleep with her arms and legs curled up.Xuxu held a box in his hand, the lid was open, but the contents inside were not taken out.

Halfway through the game, Qi Ying couldn't help casting a glance at him, hesitated for a while, put down the phone and walked over to cover him with a quilt, then pulled out the box, and just about to put it on his desk, his gaze casually swept across the gap, But I saw an exquisitely crafted jade pendant.

White and delicate, moist and clear.Even if he didn't know jade, he knew it was not an ordinary thing.

Thinking of the person who sent Bai Wuye back not long ago, Qi Ying gripped the box uneasily, forcing himself not to think about it, and after putting the box away, he gently took the pillow out of his arms and gently put it aside .Looking down, he saw the tears on Bai Wuye's face.

Outside the window, the snow stopped.

The next morning, Bai Wuye, who had slept comfortably, woke up according to the biological clock.Lazily hugging the pillow and turning over, he reluctantly opened his eyes and found that he was the only one left in the dormitory.

Sitting up abruptly, he suddenly remembered that today was Friday, and the class was full in the morning, so he hurriedly jumped out of bed, changed clothes and folded the quilt, secretly complaining in his heart that Qi Ying, who didn't show loyalty, didn't wake him up.When he finally put on his shoes and was about to wash up, he saw a note under the gift box on his desk.

As if the slow-motion button had been pressed, Bai Wuye slowly reached out and pulled out the note, which was written in Qi Ying's flamboyant handwriting.

——Yayu and I went to class, and seeing that you seemed unwell, I asked the teacher for leave for you by the way.But in exchange, you have to bring me lunch at noon.

He blinked slowly, and suddenly laughed.

Smiling and laughing, he felt a little sad again and pursed his lips tightly.