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"Sister Xu?" Lin Fangyi's name came out of his ears, and his heart trembled.She looked up subconsciously, and saw a familiar figure carefully looking at the dress that Lucy had just recommended to her.

"It's really her.", Lin Fangyi's heart was full of alarm bells, she subconsciously turned her head and pretended not to see Xu Sa, and slowly swayed towards the door of the counter, trying to escape.

"Darling, do you want to try this one?" Another salesperson approached enthusiastically and introduced himself to Lin Fangyi with a smile: "I'm Linda, dear, what style do you like?" , I can recommend it for you."

Xu Sa followed the sound and turned his head to look this way, just in time to see Lin Fangyi also looking this way, the two of them looked at each other for a while, and they were stunned on the spot.

"Xiaolin?" Xu Sa tentatively called out with some uncertainty.Ever since Lin Fangyi resigned and left, whenever she thought of the days when the two of them worked together, she always felt a little bit emotional.

Xu Sa was not completely indifferent to Lin Fangyi's kindness to her back then, and sometimes she was a little confused about what was going on with her feelings for Lin Fangyi.But at her age, there is nothing more attractive than the word stability.A stable job and a stable family are the real basis for her to settle down. At her age, a vigorous relationship is obviously not suitable for her, let alone facing such a shocking idea like Lin Fangyi.

But Lin Fangyi was so kind to her back then, it can even be said that she has never met such a considerate person in her life, especially after many years of married life has made her feel numb, and her other half has long been gone. As obsessed with herself as she was when she was young, apart from being busy with work every day, she is nothing more than daily necessities and educating children. As for the sweet talk between husband and wife, she has not heard it for a long, long time, even the kind of thing between husband and wife It's nothing more than routine.So Lin Fangyi's kindness to her back then was like injecting a clear spring into a dry well, so to a certain extent, Xu Sa's dependence on Lin Fangyi was actually deeper than she thought.

She said that she only really felt this after Lin Fangyi resigned and left.But even so, she didn't have the courage to tell Lin Fangyi the truth.Because she has passed the age of being desperate, not to mention, Xu Sa has always believed that her feelings for Lin Fangyi are just because of loneliness - she doesn't believe that she will fall in love with a woman, the word "homosexual" It was too scary for Xu Sa.

But she still had to admit that after Lin Fangyi left, she would still think of her from time to time, and sometimes even dream about her—there were so many memories between them. Spend more time with family.

She remembered that at that time, the two of them often made an appointment to go for a walk together after dinner. There were no mobile phones at that time, so they used landline telephones to communicate. At first, it was Lin's mother who answered the phone. Later, whenever she called at about the same time, she would call It was Lin Fangyi who came to answer the call.

At that time, Lin Fangyi was like a blank sheet of paper, pure and selfless, and he was really focused on being good to himself.At first, Xu Sa didn't notice any difference in her kindness to him, and even thought it was just a trick for the little girl to try to get along with him. After all, Xu Sa was Lin Fangyi's immediate boss at that time.

But gradually, she discovered that Lin Fangyi's kindness to her was not the kind of flattery and flattery in the workplace.Her kindness to herself was completely from the bottom of her heart.This discovery made Xu Sa a little moved and also a little surprised, because if the kindness between colleagues is really sincere, it is really rare.

Therefore, for Lin Fangyi, Xu Sa also spared no effort to train her, and even brought her to the relevant leaders whenever she had the opportunity to perform, so that she gradually entered the leadership's sight, and gradually became the backbone of the unit's business——for Xu Sa In other words, what I have done for Lin Fangyi has already surpassed the scope of ordinary colleagues - how many superiors can really think of their subordinates, and even silently plan the future development direction for her?She is becoming more and more concerned about Lin Fangyi's every move. Xu Sa knows almost everything about who she is close to and who she has a good relationship with. After such a long time, her desire to possess Lin Fangyi has become stronger and stronger. Lin Fangyi It's like a piece of her work that is constantly being polished, becoming more and more excellent, and because of this, Xu Sa gradually grasps her more and more tightly, for fear that her years of hard work will be used by others.

Sometimes when Lin Fangyi gets closer to other colleagues, Xu Sa always seems a little unhappy, but she is relieved that Lin Fangyi is obviously a sensible person, and if she doesn't like her getting close to others, she will obediently grasp it. Keeping a proper distance from others, sometimes when walking together at night, Xu Sa will also tell her some unknown inside stories in the unit. Some of these words are true, but some are intentional by Xu Sa Guidance——Lin Fangyi was cultivated by her, Xu Sa, so she must use it naturally, so the necessary guidance is inevitable. There are some facts that she doesn't need to know. What Xu Sa wants most is her loyalty.

Of course, sometimes, Xu Sa would suddenly feel a little uneasy, as if it was not kind to treat a young man who treats him sincerely like this.So sometimes she would say to Lin Fangyi half-truthfully: "Do you think what I told you is true? You have to learn to distinguish." Whenever this time, she can see something in Lin Fangyi's eyes. Puzzled, of course she didn't intend to explain anything to her.

Later, the two got closer and closer, and Xu Sa even brought Lin Fangyi into her private circle. In fact, Lin Fangyi was a bit out of tune with her circle, because Xu Sa's friends and classmates were all ten years older than Lin Fangyi, and they were not at all. of an age group.

It's just that at that time, neither of them made it clear that Xu Sa needed Lin Fangyi's company, and Lin Fangyi never refused her invitation.Sometimes Xu Sa would ask her like this: "Do you feel bored if you follow me like this?" Lin Fangyi always smiled and said there was no such thing.

Every time she sits obediently beside Xu Sa, watching her having dinner with her friends and classmates, singing K, sometimes, Xu Sa’s friends and classmates will deliberately let her drink, and she will drink obediently, Xu Sa Sometimes she would protect the calf, and would take the wine in her glass to drink for her. Whenever this time, Lin Fangyi would always smile happily, and Xu Sa would also find it very funny because of her happy appearance.

Occasionally when Xu Sa asked her out, she would meet Lin Fangyi and have her own party. "Today I have to go to dinner with my classmates." Lin Fangyi would tell her so.

"Got it." Xu Sa's tone will become a little cold, and then he will start to ignore her.

Once or twice, every few days after Lin Fangyi rejected Xu Sa's date, Xu Sa would always be very indifferent to her. After a long time, the conversation between the two became like this——

"I have to go to dinner with my classmates today." Lin Fangyi said so.

"Got it." Xu Sa said coldly.

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"I pushed back the dinner over there, so I can go with you." Many times, Lin Fangyi would eventually tell her that.

"I didn't ask you to push, you can go if you want, and I can go by myself." Xu Sa said coldly.

"I've already pushed it." Lin Fangyi laughed along.

"Then I'll call you later." A faint smile appeared on Xu Sa's face, but his tone was still cold.

At this time, Lin Fangyi always breathed a sigh of relief, and the relationship between the two gradually became ambiguous during this kind of getting along, but they didn't say anything after all.

After a long time like this, Xu Sa gradually got used to Lin Fangyi's accommodation and compromise. She never thought that one day Lin Fangyi would disobey her own ideas, or that she also had her own needs.

Lin Fangyi gradually longed for a response, but the response she hoped for was exactly what Xu Sa couldn't avoid.Sometimes Xu Sa is also very confused. She doesn't know what Lin Fangyi is thinking in her mind, just because she is too warm and considerate for her kindness, and the distance between her and herself is getting bigger and bigger after getting along for a long time. The more he went beyond the scope of superiors and subordinates, he even lost his temper at himself at certain times.

For quite a long time, Xu Sa was confused in her heart, even she herself didn't understand what position she and Lin Fangyi were getting along with.She knew that some things would go bad if she didn't control them, but facing the warm and innocent Lin Fangyi, she was afraid that she was thinking too much.

Therefore, out of self-preservation, Xu Sa adopted the cruelest way to treat Lin Fangyi. Whenever two people got close, she would always inexplicably indifferent Lin Fangyi for a few days. What was wrong, she was even anxious for several days, and would have the courage to ask her where she offended her, and as time passed, Lin Fangyi was a little used to her hot and cold, every time when Xu Sa left her in the cold When she was alone, she always endured it silently, at most she complained to Zhao Ruoqi, but she never asked her what happened.

Sometimes Lin Fangyi's heart would be cold, too many times of hot and cold, she would also feel a little exhausted, and would have the idea of ​​giving up, but whenever she had such emotions, Xu Sa, who was always paying attention to her, would feel a little bit exhausted. I will be a little unwilling, and will take the initiative to reconcile with Lin Fangyi every time when Lin Fangyi is about to give up. With a mind gap of more than ten years, and Lin Fangyi himself belongs to Xu Sa, so every reconciliation is for Xu Sa. , It’s all at your fingertips, even as simple as a phone call, or an appointment for a two-hour walk, Lin Fangyi has left behind the distress of being left out.

This kind of life lasted for a long time, Xu Sa was vaguely guilty from the beginning, and gradually felt accustomed to it, and Lin Fangyi knew that such a hot and cold way of getting along was really exhausting, but also because he was afraid that Xu Sa would never talk to him again. She couldn't bear to stay away from her—a young man, just because he was greedy for that little bit of warmth, he was willing to hold his sincere heart in front of a woman who was well-versed in the world, and let her flatten and round her, taking whatever she wanted.

Until one day, Lin Fangyi could no longer bear such treatment.Xu Sa clearly remembered that day, when the young Lin Fangyi had red eyes and asked loudly why he did this to her?She clearly remembered that that day, Lin Fangyi was a little speechless because of excitement, and blurted out the sentence: "Just because I like you, can you treat me like this?".

She clearly remembered Lin Fangyi's pale face that day after she said this sentence, and she also clearly remembered her heartbeat that almost jumped out of her chest when she heard this confession.

"Just because I like you, can you treat me like this?", Lin Fangyi's accusation fell into Xu Sa's ears, and it was undoubtedly a bolt from the blue: "What is she talking about? She said she likes me?", everything follows Xu Sa's guess matched, and her face immediately turned pale.

The words have been exported, and the water is hard to take back.Xu Sa can still clearly recall Lin Fangyi's expression at that time - it was a young man's expression that was obviously going all out: "Yes, I like you. Otherwise, why do you think I am so good with you.", Lin Fangyi It was completely death-defying attitude, she even took a step forward, wanting to hold Xu Sa's hand.

"Don't come here!" Xu Sa sternly shouted.The sudden confession made her confused, and for a moment she didn't consider whether her attitude would hurt Lin Fangyi.That day was really unexpected, she did not expect that Lin Fangyi would suddenly lose control, completely out of her control: "You can go." She looked at Lin Fangyi coldly, as if looking at a stranger: "I can pretend none of this has happened."

Lin Fangyi took a step forward, as if he wanted to say something more, but saw Xu Sa took a step back like avoiding a snake and scorpion: "You go, we can't do this anymore, we will cause trouble if we continue like this, do you know?" Xu Sa's face was pale Like a dead body, Lin Fangyi knew that he was not much better.

Lin Fangyi had already forgotten how she left Xu Sa's office that day. She didn't even want to think about the details of being with Xu Sa, because all the sacrifices were worthless. Since then, Xu Sa has never followed Xu Sa again. She said a word, and never looked at her directly again, until the day when Lin Fangyi submitted his resignation and left, the two of them had no interaction.

"Xiao Lin." Xu Sa didn't know what kind of mood she was standing in front of Lin Fangyi. Her heart was beating violently, but she tried to keep calm on her face: "I haven't seen you for a while, I heard you Went to Beijing?"