For the rest of his life

All these things went straight to the present, and there was finally a disturbance. Xu Chenmu was still thinking like this before his eyes went dark. She wondered why she was so emotional, as if something big had happened. Didn't she persist for a long time?There is no reason to speak loudly, isn't he full of chances of winning?Later, because of the grievance in his heart, Tulu uttered so many words. If Tang Yi hadn't been hysterical, if he still smiled as usual, he must have lost.

Her speech was out of order, and her thinking in her mind was also out of order. She walked towards a road sprinkled with gold paint and silver powder. Opposite was a silver-white light belt, like a road with endless traffic. She stared at it in confusion, walking little by little. There are no street lights, and the surroundings are fragile and boundless black. He stretches out his hand, his fingers are pale, as if they are shining.

It feels like death.

She was so slanderous, but she still stumbled forward, only to realize that the light belt was like her whole life, from birth, running around holding her mother's hand, to studying and going to school, to sitting on the river bed and meeting Lu Joan, Lu Qiong's figure is clear and bright, magnified countless times and began to occupy the main position in the memory, she silently recalled everything, they went to see the house together, went out to play together, sat together to read a book, discussed an author, a book, or Sitting together without doing anything, or taking the subway, sleeping with heads huddled together, or lingering on the bed, she clearly remembers the full stop on Lu Qiong's shoulder, or other memory fragments, with the aroma of pumpkin porridge , and the dumplings I made at some time, she and Lu Qiong put on the lights together, she whispered in her ear, or Lu Qiong read poems to her, the voice was gentle like a spring breeze... But these are all in the light , the light is fleeting, gradually disappearing, and even the light spots no longer exist.

She stood silently on the bright road and recalled Lu Qiong, she only had Lu Qiong left, she didn't know why, the pain in the back of her head was so painful, the pain after experiencing all the joys and sorrows of life, there was no record for the rest of her life - like She doesn't have the rest of her life, she doesn't know what will happen to her in the future, but she wants to experience it, everything in the future must be experienced carefully, give each book a warm name, so far, from the past, to the end here, From the past, the title of Lu Qiong's new book was full of metaphors. So far, she has been silent about abstract vocabulary for a long time.

The back of the hand is cold and cold.

She saw that a large area was wet on it.

The back of Xu Chenmu's hands were wet a lot, Lu Qiong didn't admit that she was crying, she went to the hospital again, Xu Chenmu passed out again, from morning to afternoon, he didn't eat the dumplings, The days are getting shorter and shorter. After seven o'clock in the afternoon, the sky has covered the earth with black blindfolds. The dusty darkness is not so pure. Not far from downstairs is a less prosperous street, guarded by sparse lights, and the huge lights The silence is like a choir singing dirges.

She shook her head, refusing to use such a metaphor herself.

Xu Chenmu's hand was pale, this time Xu Chenmu's head did not bleed, the doctor said it was more serious than bleeding, but now it seems that her brain is fine, she should wake up soon.

It's Friday, and she silently counted the dates. On Sunday, Xu Chenmu vowed that she would remember her name. On Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, they went back to the original place and saw each other in the past. On Thursday, see each other. After passing my parents, I have to face the challenges of the future. On Friday, today, things suddenly returned to the original point.

I can't even hold on to tomorrow, it's only seven days——

She followed Xu Chenmu all the time, lost a few times on the way, but still followed, where there were many people, and when she heard that something had happened, she would go there. When she passed, the police found Tang Yi to investigate. The exact results are still unclear. A reporter named Li from the newspaper office wrote a press release and posted it on the evening paper. It came out so quickly, and she held a copy in her hand. It said that Xu accused Tang of his actions emotionally. , The statement is exactly the same as that of Mengmeng (pseudonym)’s parents. Tang Mou snatched the reporter’s camera and injured Xu Mou in agitation... The police have already intervened in the investigation... The famous writer Lu Qiong mentioned by Xu Mou was interviewed and confirmed to have depression Medical history...shown the relevant certificates, and found a large amount of antidepressant drugs at Lu Qiong's home...relevant experts said...as of 5 minutes before the press time, Xu has not woken up.

The newspaper was rolled into a tube and held in her hand. She silently watched Xu Chenmu fall asleep, as she often saw in the past three months, but her mentality was completely different. Passed out—the trust was wrongly paid, and only Xu Chenmu complained about her grievances. She rubbed Xu Chenmu's temples, but realized that her fingertips were trembling.

Xu Chenmu opened his eyes and looked at her.

"You...wake up, what do you want to eat?" She pretended to be casual, concealing the violent ups and downs of her mood, and slightly tucked the corners of the quilt, but found that Xu Chenmu looked at her with strange eyes.

There was a sudden jump in her heart - she gritted her teeth suddenly, and smiled lightly, as if nothing had happened, and asked again, but Xu Chenmu just looked at her straight.

"Xu Chenmu, don't scare me, how are you?" She leaned closer to look at the guy, her hair was wet with sweat from her temples, her eyes were clear, but she was a little confused.

"You answer me..."

Xu Chenmu looked at her, lost his mind slightly, his coat was draped over the back of the chair, and there were a few dark stains on the dark blue pullover. She couldn't tell, as if relieved, she reached out her hand slightly to pick at the stain on her body, only to find that it was not a stain, but a dark spot caused by water droplets on it, her hand stiffened, and she was caught.

"Where is it uncomfortable?"

"I want to drink water." She cracked a smile.She moved her finger, and it was stuffed back into the quilt. A spoon came close to her mouth, and the water glistened and stuck to her lips. She licked it, took a small mouthful of water, and bit the spoon, refusing to let go. .

"What's the matter?" Lu Qiong wiped her sweat, trembling with the hand holding the tissue, and sticking it to her forehead, Xu Chenmu's complexion turned a little rosy, not that pale, she breathed a sigh of relief, wiped Khan, leaning over to take a look again, Xu Chenmu smiled: "I remember you, I remember you. Don't worry, I won't forget you—"

She suddenly had a sore nose, turned her face away, took a deep breath for a few seconds, and then turned her head.

Xu Chenmu had already taken the spoon by himself and put it aside, poured the whole glass of water into it, lifted the quilt, he had a lot of strength, and looked around for his own

She couldn't find the shoes, but a pair of hands reached out to her feet and threw them over. She smiled and put on the shoes, but she was a little scared, for fear that Lu Qiong would overprotect her and put on the shoes for herself. Get up: "I'm leaving."

"Where to go?"

"Going home, I haven't eaten dumplings yet..." Xu Chenmu shook his shoulders energetically, "Nothing happened today, did it?"

"……Yes."

Nothing happened, but everything happened, she faced the people she trusted again, she faced the process of the thing she trusted the most in the past being smashed, and witnessed the process of her past being denied, she was normal , Xu Chenmu is not comforting her, what she said is true, today, Xu Chenmu remembered her own name, Xu Chenmu successfully remembered the three big characters, Xu Chenmu still remembered a lot, All the accumulated things from Sunday to today have been poured out, and the price is that she was smashed again, and her mental activities were swept away, because there is nothing to explain, nothing to explain, starting from the past, she Just let the balance in my heart tilt towards Xu Chenmu little by little, this is a woman who becomes more fascinating the more you understand her, the so-called collapse of everything today is just ahead of schedule——

But the previous misunderstanding of Xu Chenmu and worrying about gains and losses gradually disappeared, like the pleasure of smiling away all grievances, when Xu Chenmu smiled and entangled her body, she knew that Xu Chenmu had turned the page Now, I don’t need to carry this heavy burden of guilt, this is not the original intention of love——

And the only thing worth remembering is the gentle appearance of Xu Chenmu sitting there making dumplings today. When they talked about marriage and life, she promised her to take a wedding photo to see, which seemed to be a comfort. The appearance of her is very useful, although if possible, she also wants that red book... Only this thing is worth remembering, like the first day she kissed Xu Chenmu on the bench under the tree, like the second day In the heavy rain, Xu Chenmu said loudly that I like you, like the third day she brought Xu Chenmu who had run away from home from the street home, like sitting quietly by the empty fish pond on the fourth day At the end of fishing, I went home laughing, like knowing the secret of tenderness in my heart after getting the key chain with my name engraved on the fifth day, and then today, today is the sixth day.Only these are worth remembering——

"Let's take a wedding photo—" Xu Chenmu spread his arms as if looking forward to the future, "Tomorrow, let's decorate the house, it's too deserted, it's always in a cold tone, I've wanted to change it a long time ago..."

"Okay." Before that, go to the doctor and make sure you can leave.

At home, cool tone, Xu Chenmu seemed to have mentioned this matter before, but now that the old matter was brought up again, she agreed with a smile, as if her body was much lighter, as light as if she was about to fly into the sky, the lightness with Xu Chenmu ,

"Let's go back and eat the dumplings." Xu Chenmu suddenly thought of dumplings.

"Okay." Lu Qiong followed behind her, smiling with her lips together, like a newborn, she was still more or less disappointed, but it was already a tail, which had already dispersed, and could only fade away for the rest of her life Yes, she laughed, said nothing, and let Xu Chenmu conceive a beautiful blueprint for the future.

Seeing that she was alive and kicking without a coat in the cold wind, Lu Qiong opened up her coat and hugged that guy into her arms, as if in love, Xu Chenmu curled up in her arms with crooked smiles and eyes as bright as morning stars.

Let's go together for the rest of my life, she thought, wrapping her coat tighter, and her waist was so tight, as if she was afraid that she would be so light that she would take off.

"Lu Qiong."

"Ok?"

"En." Xu Chenmu said so.