For the rest of his life

Regarding Tang Yi, Lu Qiong watched him with complex and subtle emotions.She depends on him, the patient depends on the psychiatrist?Not really, she thinks that Tang Yi is her only companion through the long period of depression in the second year of middle school.Before the countdown to the shoulder tattoo.

She would not understand that when Xu Chenmu cried, he was shrouded in the huge shadow of Tang Yi in his memory, and felt that he was worrying about gains and losses.

It's like I went to do interviews because of Xu Chenmu's joy, and I ran a long distance outside. I was shrouded in the shadow of my career and felt worried about gains and losses. There is a estrangement, and they cannot understand each other, and it is clear that the roots are entangled with each other.

After Xu Chenmu cried, his mood calmed down a little, his arms were wrapped around his body like a baboon, and he couldn't pull them off for a while, so Lu Qiong had no choice but to follow her as if he was coaxing a child, and then let go after hugging her almost , so Xu Chenmu rubbed the corners of his eyes: "I'm so fragile, why cry because of this inexplicable emotion, I'm so worthless, don't dislike me."

No one dislikes you...

"Dislike." Lu Qiong lightly brushed off the non-existent ash on her body, as if it was the pollution brought to her by Xu Chenmu, frowning as if she really disliked it, even hugging her in disgust was like giving alms , the acting skills were exceptionally good, and he never lifted his eyelids, regardless of whether Xu Chenmu's heart trembled as if he had been shocked by an electric shock.

"Hey duplicity." Filled with confidence from nowhere, Xu Chenmu got up, rubbed his clothes, smoothed the hem of his clothes and took out the post-it note, "Hey pen——"

Lu Qiong was about to pass it to her, when she seemed to remember everything, she got up and went into the study to get two pens, the red and black were clearly distinguished, she wrote something, and ran to the door of the refrigerator, snapping After pasting it, I found the bedroom as if I was familiar with the road, and pasted many colorful post-it notes on the bedside.

I didn't look carefully, Lu Qiong was as calm as a mountain without wind and rain, and she was a little short-sighted from a distance, so she couldn't see, so she didn't look at it, and she was not curious, for fear that these words would touch her own thoughts, and would affect her inexplicable tendons. Emotions were mixed, and when Xu Chenmu was busy leaving post-it notes everywhere, she went into the kitchen to cook the rice first, and suddenly lost her mind while washing the rice.

Tomorrow, with this post-it note, will Xu Chenmu remember his name?This is an external factor. Does she have herself in mind?Started to feel uneasy again.

She remembered the moment when Xu Chenmu just lost his memory and was receiving treatment in the hospital. Xu Chenmu couldn't remember anyone, and he refused to remember anything. He looked out the window blankly, feeling palpitatingly strange.

"Your name is Xu Chenmu, you have to remember. You are a reporter, a very good reporter, and you are 27 years old this year." She repeated dryly beside the bed, amazed by her rare perseverance and long-term calm, When he learned that he had to take care of her all the time, what was on his mind was not sadness, but that Xu Chenmu would stay by her side, but Xu Chenmu didn't remember her anymore.

It is to lay the facts indifferently in front of you, without any emotional waves, and feel hopeless until later, but that is another story.

Xu Chenmu was wearing a hospital gown, which was just right at first, but by then she looked very big and empty, and she lost a lot of weight because she hadn't seen the sun for a long time, her skin looked pale, her eyes were big and lifeless, just like the usual Xu Chen Mu is really two people, her soul is gone.

"I'm excellent." Xu Chenmu grinned, his pale lips curved into a pale smile, he lowered his head and spread his hands to look at his palm prints, with a light voice, turned his head to look out the window, and closed his eyes.

"Oh, you're going to wash the rice to pieces!" Xu Chenmu cried out in surprise at the door. She felt sorry for the rushing water, but Lu Qiong lowered her head and looked calm, with her hair pinned behind her ears. God, she couldn't help screaming, Lu Qiong turned her head suddenly, showing the panic of being hit or something.

"Ah... I cook... I do, I know how to cook." All of a sudden, her anger disappeared, she blushed and lowered her head, walked over, opened the refrigerator door, and the first thing that bore the brunt was the one that somehow provoked Xu Chenmu. The fish that finally died was brought out and thrown on the chopping board, Lu Qiong made rustling movements, Xu Chenmu listened attentively, lowered his head and took a knife to open up the fish.

"Pasted it?" After stewing the rice, Lu Qiong looked at the pile of ingredients that Xu Chenmu threw out, and slowly washed and selected the vegetables. Xu Chenmu turned his head in surprise, moved to the side, and left the Get out of the space, lower your head and rub salt and pepper on the fish: "It's a good post, if I can't remember it tomorrow, I will jump out of the window, live a great life and die a glorious death."

"What are they posted?"

"Tie you are a beautiful woman." Xu Chenmu began to talk nonsense, "Remind me that you must keep an eye on you or you will run away." Bending down to look for cooking wine, Lu Qiong lowered her head and handed over the cooking wine, taking advantage of the situation He patted the back of her hand, glared at her, lowered his head to peel the garlic, twisted it vigorously with his hands, pulled out the garlic skin, and threw it in the trash can.

Dice red peppers, shiitake mushrooms, winter bamboo shoots and pork belly. Xu Chenmu thought for a while that he was cooking dry-roasted carp. The fish over there was marinated on the side and looked a bit ghostly. I don’t know why, so let her Having such an association, I think it's a bit funny to think that I have been angry with this fish all day.

There seemed to be some noise coming from outside the kitchen, and everyone fell silent in unison. Lu Qiong remembered that it was her mobile phone ringtone, and the ringtone tone was lowered a lot, but the transmission of the vibration made her feel panicked. She washed her hands and went out, glanced at glanced.

Xu Chenmu lowered his head and quietly cut the ingredients. The shallots, garlic, and ginger were placed in a small bowl. The fish rolled his eyes and looked at him. The pot of rice began to steam slowly. After a while, The aroma filled the whole kitchen, and spread out, the indifferent aroma of rice, she stood in front of the pot and sniffed the aroma silently, Lu Qiong's voice outside was very low, she couldn't hear clearly.

"Hey, your parents will pass by tomorrow, are you ready?" Tang Yi's voice sounded cheerful, "There is a female student here who seems to be suffering from depression and came to me for consultation. Seriously, I think this child's condition is very serious, so I won't talk to you anymore, you have to take care of yourself, you are a patient, don't talk nonsense with Xu Chenmu all day long, she has no limit to her talk, think about me before I told you? My friend is very reliable, I guarantee you, what are you afraid of? Wouldn’t she be nice to you if she remembered earlier?” There was a low sobbing sound from a girl on the other end, as if it was in the Tang Dynasty. It was inconvenient for her to disturb Yi for treatment, but she was a little annoyed why Tang Yi called herself at such a critical moment.

"Take good care of your doctor. Is it depression? Is it serious?"

"Ah, it's very serious. As you know, the psychological quality of children these days is not very good. I prescribed medicine, but the situation is not very good. Her parents gave me a lot of money to treat it, but what do you say about this kind of thing?" It can be cured, and those who say they can recover on the Internet are all nonsense, and they will all have relapses. A group of people pretend to be experts without knowing anything, really—are you okay?"

The sobbing sound was like flipping through papers, and the suppressed crying of the girl seemed to have stopped. Lu Qiong felt a little uneasy in her heart. It was her first instinct as a writer to observe this world of mortals. She felt that something was wrong, but she always I felt that I had to trust the psychiatrist at this time, since I am still a patient, it is not good to judge rashly, so I ignored the uncomfortable feeling that seemed to be vomiting: "It's okay, why don't my parents contact me directly? "

"Cough, don't you think you're stubborn? If I persuade you directly, you will insist on staying with Xu Chenmu for the rest of your life. Who can persuade you? If someone wants to poke her back with a finger, can you poke a weeping willow upside down?" Dead people, they just think that Xu Chenmu can't remember anything and are worried about you, so they should find you a blind date, so you should hand her over to me. Although I have some grievances with her, but the patient , It’s understandable, isn’t the psychiatrist just accepting her without adjustment, don’t worry,” Tang Yi paused, and the voice of “wait a while” came from the other side, “They should go to your new house Over there, I just went there on a business trip. Time is running fast. Don’t fight with them, and think about your own future. If you say, hey, it’s not my crow’s mouth. You have to think about the worst outcome , What if Reporter Xu can’t remember anything for the rest of his life? You raised her? Are you equal?"

As she said that, she sighed: "Let me tell you, Lu Qiong, I have been with you since I was a child, why you were abducted by Xu Chenmu, I still don't understand."

"...she's different." Lu Qiong could only say this, the hand holding the phone was a little cold, the heat gradually lost, and her own body temperature dropped more and more, making her feel desolate, while Xu Chenmu was quietly chopping vegetables on the other end , the sound of the knife touching the chopping board was slow and clear. After a while, she imagined that Xu Chenmu was there looking at the ingredients in his hand with a gentle expression, showing a soft expression that she didn't usually have. She felt that such a life was inseparable. The days when I wake up with another person sleeping next to me.

It's like plucking out a piece of your own roots.

No matter how you explain it, it looks pale. Xu Chenmu doesn't remember himself. The abyss sinks, sinks, sinks, without end.

sizzle-

Xu Chenmo started frying fish, the sound came out, the sound of steaming, Lu Qiong said something to him again, and hung up the phone, this is Tang Yi's second call today, she looked at the phone, thought for a while, Shut down, the screen goes black, and all external contact is cut off——